#One
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Sunny weekend morning.
Mew’s day started with waking up in a bad mood that would not be refreshing at all.
“… … ”
You can see the ceiling that you are already getting used to. Normally I would have woken up by closing and opening my eyes a couple of times, but now it’s a little different.
Even though the sunlight seeps in from outside the well-lit window, I don’t even think about getting up. I just wanted to sleep a little more like this. An unacceptable indolence took over a corner of Mew’s heart for a moment.
What was even more surprising was that Mu himself did not want to lift a hand even though he was aware of that fact.
Mew rolled her sleepy eyes and turned her head slightly to the side. It is very bright outside. It was not a bluish morning. I put my arms on my forehead and let out a small sigh. Unbelievable-. The rhythm of life is broken.
‘… … I expected it.’
The fine forehead narrowed to the middle. Her elegant black hair, which was waving, was stretched out rather loosely.
The disheveled appearance of Mew, who was usually in perfect shape, was an extremely rare scene that can only be seen when he wakes up.
Could it be because I overworked my body yesterday to overdo it? Not like that. Obviously, the aftereffects remain like traces all over the body, but I have experienced countless times of hard training that goes beyond the limit.
If you take a good break and get enough rest, your body will quickly return to its original state.
Then there was one reason.
Originally, I should have gone to sleep right after training.
Yesterday was not like that.
He couldn’t sleep, and even when he tried to bring his consciousness down, he suddenly appeared like a ghost. His shoulders, arms, thighs, and screams were screaming, but his eyes were just twinkling. In the dimly lit room, with the blanket covered to the top of her head, she could not sleep, even if she tried to breathe.
‘Today is… Shall we rest?’
It wasn’t until 4 a.m. that I finally closed my eyes, and I thought it was the end, but I was tortured even in my dreams.
The situation was miserable. Isn’t this a bit too much? How important is quality rest?
He muttered inwardly as if lamenting, and tossed aside his body wrapped in a soft blanket. I’m not going to be able to get enough sleep, so I stopped moving with the thought of keeping my eyes closed until lunch.
‘Oh really… … ‘
Also, I couldn’t sleep.
There are times. My body is extremely tired, but even when I close my eyes, I can’t sleep at all. It felt like I was going down to the depths of the water, and it was like I was looking at the liver as if it was not going down.
Okay, let’s see who wins. If you’re really tired, you’ll fall asleep. Because the body is honest. I had my eyes closed for about thirty minutes after that, with my forehead wrinkled.
“Aaah!”
The early morning screams echoed, and Mew jumped out of bed nervously.
#2
“… … Whoops.”
cold water is poured
First, to get rid of this dirty feeling, I first washed my face.
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Drops of water dripped from the tip of the jawline. Since I didn’t use a separate hair band, water dripped from the sides of my hair or the ends of my bangs. I look up in front of the lighted bathroom sink.
It was slightly uncomfortable to plant. I was annoyed. Still, the self in the mirror was still. I look in the mirror with my mouth shut.
I wanted to bruise for a moment, but negative thoughts flooded my mind all the time. I get angry and smile bitterly. Only the corners of his mouth were twisted.
He looked like he was cold and cold, so he turned his head away from the mirror as if tired of it and patted his face with a towel.
—I’m sorry, Mew.
“… … ”
Your vision is engulfed in darkness for an instant.
Mew tightly gripped the towel in her hand.
Thanks to the cold water, I calmed down to some extent. So I guess that was more of a problem.
I don’t know what to do yesterday, because I feel like I’ll be eaten up by bad thoughts if I keep going. I just swung my sword.
from early morning to late night. Except for the time he ate to replenish his calories, Mew always had a sword in his hand.
As a result, Mew’s hands were left with considerable calluses. It was originally worn out, but this time it has become stronger. It was also slightly red. Surprisingly, there were no blisters. To be precise, it does happen, but it explodes on the spot. He even quickly self-repairs. In the same vein, Mu can do intense training longer than others.
‘Today, too… … ‘
Mew took a deep breath and pulled the towel back from her face.
Hanging it on a hook, it’s slippery. I took off my pajamas one layer at a time. I was just thinking of washing my face for a while. It would be better to just take a shower.
A pure white naked body with no flesh was revealed. I left my clothes outside and turned on the shower in the shower booth in the spacious bathroom. Shoot ah-. A strong stream of water gushes out.
Water pooled between the collarbones. overflowing and falling down It hits you with cold, cold water.
With the shower turned on, Mew lowered her head. Wet hair covered Mew’s expression on his face.
I don’t close my eyes, but the surroundings are quite quiet. Since this is Mu’s personal space, no one except Mu exists.
But the voice is clearly audible. Mu finally closed his eyes in fear.
‘… … How far do I have to be in pain?’
Unfortunately, it makes me think like that.
If it hurts this much, can’t it stop hurting? Isn’t it time to stop now? You know it’s not going to happen anyway. Then, maybe you should just give up on everything and live your life. What the hell are you afraid of doing this? pathetic.
You’ve been doing well. Don’t worry about the next day and run away with your eyes closed.
This attitude is not like you at all… …
After all, you just want a future in which Ezio doesn’t hate you. You are the only one who suffers from dragging yourself in this state.
No, Ezio must be the same.
If it was Ezio now, it would have been difficult to tolerate the situation in which he was twisted like this.
He wiped his wet face with his hands.
I had already finished organizing my thoughts a long time ago. Maybe he was thinking that way from the moment he received the letter.
I can’t do without Ezio.
There have been great things in the past, but Mew was still Mew. If there is something I want, I want it at any cost. The only exception to this was Ezio.
Because, because it failed.
If there’s anything you want, I’ve always brought it. Because it never failed.
But Mu failed the first time. I didn’t have all of Ezio, and I ended up missing out on it. I could have i threw it all away I didn’t even know that was what I wanted so much. I had an ending I never wanted. Really, it was the worst.
‘… … What should I do now?’
A more definitive conclusion had to be drawn. Put your hand on your chest and think of Ezio. still It was Ezio who made this heart beat again.
So, even though the relationship has already ended, he can’t let go of him. Is it because of the past? Maybe it was because there were so many memories with him that were full of satisfaction every day. can’t know anything
One thing was certain, that he was still in love with Ezio.
Ezio wasn’t.
“… … ”
He had already made up his mind. There is nothing more ugliness than kneeling down and holding on to someone whose heart has left you. there won’t be
Although many lovers in the world repeat breaking and sticking endlessly, for Mew, who is experiencing a broken heart for the first time, other examples were of no help at all. Because it was just him and me. Even if someone gives you some advice, you are essentially the one who has to deal with it.
It is said that time heals the pain of a broken heart.
Could it be that my ex-boyfriend is in the same class?
It’s never going to happen.
There were still too many regrets for that.
What had barely been hidden was brought up by Ezio, who reunited within a few months after he had decided to dedicate his life to the sword. If I never had to see your face again. If that was the case, I wouldn’t have known that I would have been able to forget Ezio and focus only on the sword.
Before the memories fade like an oil painting, at a time when I am most concerned. I met Ezio too soon. It was one of the reasons why Mu’s mind was more complicated. Before time could fix it, he had reunited with his ex-boyfriend. I could only see it as someone’s joke and a joke of fate… …
Is that all? Ezio even recently lost his memory. They had forgotten all those words that would have been decisive for the breakup of their relationship. What should I do in this case? Should I try to do well again, hiding my guilt as if nothing happened?
No, Mew couldn’t do that by nature. Because I was a selfish person. I could only live by being honest with myself first and foremost.
In other words, telling lies and deceiving Ezio one day, from the inside out, was absolutely unacceptable.
So, what should Mu do here?
The answer was fixed.
I still like Ezio. without him
Ezio, on the other hand, has given up on Mew. It may not be now.
Whatever it was, Mew had a choice.
I’ll try and get his heart back. Or will I leave Ezio in my heart like this? He decides what is right and what is wrong, sleeps, and puts everything aside. First of all, the option itself was given.
before making all those choices.
Mew had to speak to Ezio up front.
The door didn’t even open, but you can’t see the scenery behind it. You can imagine, but that’s all. Mew had to open the door.
To lead the relationship into the future you want, to get rid of the trauma that corrodes you every night—it would be better to ask for forgiveness from him.
What should I do to ask for forgiveness?
That’s right, of course it’s fixed.
If it’s something you have to do anyway.
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Don’t worry, just throw it away.
That’s the way you’ve been living
“… … ”
The water flow gradually subsided. dripping, dripping. Mew, who turned off the shower, opened her closed eyes and raised her head.
‘… … you can do it. music.’
He seemed to have cleared his mind a little.
#3
There was a very slight change in Mew’s attitude.
He wasn’t completely determined yet, but from now on, he wasn’t going to avoid Ezio blindly.
Standing in front of him alone, even though his breathing was unstable due to the trauma, he had to fight it rather than avoid it out of fear.
Wear plain clothes, not uniforms. He wore a wide white box tee over his training pants. I also lifted my head comfortably. Regardless of how other people saw him, he did what he was comfortable with.
While I was walking in the afternoon, many seniors talked to me, but as always, they gave me short and moderate answers and went on my way. There seemed to be no intention of changing this.
—Weeing… …
past lunch time. Mu visited the library after a long time. As I thought in the morning, I was going to take a rest today. It was one of those small changes.
Of course, speaking of rest, he would have to grab the sword again in the evening. In order not to lose the sense of slack, you should always keep the blade upright.
As I entered the library, I was greeted with a faint smile at the familiar smells. no tea Mew, who was walking on the first floor of the quiet library, climbed up the stairs to the second floor.
slurp. I walked through the covers of the books with my hands. Then I turned around the corner and found the writing “Modern Literature 01”, and naturally moved to that direction.
“… … ?”
tuk, tuk.
Something stabbed Mew in the back. Apparently, he had touched a rather sensitive part, so he quickly turned around. I look down.
“No, I’m not ignoring you… … ?”
There was Sasha who mumbled that with a surprised look.
“Oh, hello… ? What did you come to the library for? ?”
“… … ”
what. Was it this guy again? If you had come to the library rather than that, what would you have come to do? Of course, you must have come to read the book.
After a series of thoughts, Mew did not bring it out of his mouth and, as always, turned his head away from the annoying bastard.
I was trying to read a book quietly. If you have a nagging guy around you, it becomes a little difficult. I wish I didn’t disturb you.
Leaving Sasha there, Mew chose a book to read. This is a new book coming in. It seems that the author of a book that I enjoyed reading has published a new book. Like its predecessor, it was a mystery novel.
Mew pulled out a book and looked at the tables located nearby for a moment, then realized that there was a private reading room and wanted to go down. Otherwise, he’ll definitely be bothering you.
I thought and turned around.
‘… … ?’
Sasha just stood still in the spot where she had met Mew earlier. The azure twintail is droopy as always, and he’s still small enough to doubt that he’s a year older than him. Where did the vitality that was always running next to Mew go? He hesitated and held only the edge of the frilled skirt.
Then, when his eyes met Mew, he hurriedly turned his head.
what are you doing I was going to ignore it anyway, but I thought it would follow. As usual, there was no loud noise. Is it because it’s a library? It was nice to know that Jeong-sook was.
‘If you don’t bother… I’m fine.’
chin-. Mew, who glanced at Sasha for a moment, sat down at the table chair with a book. After opening the cover, I look around for a moment.
Sasha was still there.
When their eyes met again, they were startled, and this time, they hid themselves on the bookshelf next to them. Anyway, one ponytail of the twintails was sticking out.
After a while, Mew turned his gaze to the book, but for some reason one side of his face stinged.
… … At first, I wondered if he was interfering with words, but now he is doing so in a novel way. It makes it hard to get enough rest.
I closed the book with very little irritation. It seemed like I needed to hold on tight.
Mew strides towards Sasha. I wondered if I could hear his breath behind the bookshelf, and then his water-colored hair disappeared from Mew’s view.
“… … ”
“… … ”
However, whether he had run away at all, he soon found Sasha frozen behind the bookshelf.
“I, there… that is… … Sasha is… … ”
Sasha rolled her eyes and brought her hand to her chest. Mew looked down at Sasha without a word, with cold eyes. I don’t want to be friends with you at all, so please don’t bother. I was just thinking of drawing a line. Mew swallowed the words that filled his throat, unable to spit them out.
“… Last time, that. I want to apologize… … ”
“… … ”
The other day?
Mew raised an eyebrow. I don’t know what I want to apologize for, but Mew listened to Sasha quietly.
“Sasha is so… Just did it bother you? Chi, I just wanted to get to know you… Sasha wants to play with you… … Also, I don’t know how to make friends my age… … ”
“… … ”
“No, I’m sorry if I annoyed you so much… … I won’t do that next time… … ”
Sasha is finally woo… As I shook my head,
‘… Hmm.’
A strangely strange attitude from a few days ago. Was it? Mew thought for a moment.
I don’t like noisy people like sparrows.
When it comes to figuring out the topic, the story is a little different.
“Don’t do it if you want to know. I’m here to read a book today, so don’t disturb me as usual. okay?”
“… … !”
He said that while keeping the original words in mind.
Sasha rolled her eyes. As soon as I got the answer, I was trembling slightly, but it was much softer than I expected, although it was definitely a cold speculation. Sasha was purely happy that something had responded to her words anyway. I nod my head quickly.
“Yes! I won’t disturb you! Well then, Sasha… … Forgive me?”
“I don’t know what to forgive.”
It wasn’t exactly wrong. Because I was just treating Sasha as air normally. Then this time… … Ah, Mew opened her mouth slightly.
At that time, Sasha grabbed her arm and spoke coldly with an angry heart. Are you going to apologize for that? I wasn’t paying much attention to it. Mew’s attitude towards Sasha would have been the same even if Sasha had not mentioned it.
Sasha’s eyes lit up and asked Mew.
“Oh, you mean you forgive me?”
“Think of it. … … And, if you don’t bother me, you won’t feel sorry for me.”
“Yes! I won’t! Sasha, I’ll try my best to get to know you normally… … !”
“… … I have no intention of making friends. Know that.”
I wondered if Sasha would be shocked for an instant by Mew’s cold words.
He screams and speaks loudly.
“Well, then Sasha will try harder! So that Sasha can help you as a friend… … ”
“Because it’s okay. please lower your voice This is the library. Don’t you know that every single one of these annoys me?”
“Heh-. I’ll remember this from now on… … ”
“I really… … ”
done. done. Mew sighed as if it was annoying.
That was then.
“What did you do wrong? Looks like it’s been fixed.”
“… … uh?”
nearby place. From the stairs going up to the second floor of the library, Ezio appeared. Mew, who turned around, was startled and held the book in her chest.