“Is that an infant?”
“Yes, it is. Bad memories, painful memories, and people who erase these things from their heads. There are also kinds of allusions that casually cover up the memory of that time, like an infant sheep.”
I looked down at the flower rain with a bitter expression.
A past that cannot be separated only by the returnee.
Their past always catches them, harasses them and strangles them.
All returnees have a mental illness.
And even from the earth they came over to relieve the disease of the mind, they rot the disease of the mind again.
The constant vicious cycle has always plagued them.
My gaze turned out the window.
The tower, which swayed over the mountain like a mirage, seemed to ridicule such returnees.
“Have you seen the activity log of the infant sheep?”
“… … no.”
When I lowered my head, Seolhyang Baek handed me a piece of paper.
On it, the hunter-related activities that Black Star YooA had been doing were written in full.
It was a ridiculous amount, close to twenty pages instead of one or two.
“Yoo Ah-yang is one of the most proactive in preventing the portal incident among the returnees.”
“It’s not just this.”
“Yes, it is. They even work as idols and are moving around the world. In fact, it’s not the first time I’ve been to a foreign country and blocked the portal as an idol.”
I gripped the paper tightly.
The flower rain in the game was always bright.
If the raid we all went through failed, the first thing we did was encourage and evoke the atmosphere.
When they got a good item, they were happy together, and they liked it as if it were their own.
As one of the youngest members of our guild, she was a child who always showed positive energy to everyone.
In fact, there were many times when I received a lot of help from such a flower rain.
Because there were times when I was comforted by her when the world was so f*cking messed up.
‘Who is comforting whom?’
Returnees cannot be comforted by anyone.
When I remembered the flower rain that was comforting me, I felt ashamed of myself and my teeth trembled.
“Perhaps the hard work part was the reaction of self-suggestion. They forced themselves to forget the past, taking comfort in their work. Because when a person is tired, there is no strength left to remember.”
It was said that he had forgotten the terrible past he had been through while working.
Workaholic is okay too.
“… … When infants wake up, will they try to make their own suggestion again?”
“I don’t know. But you know that hasty consolation doesn’t help either.”
Self-suggestion is dangerous.
A situation in which you have no choice but to bet on yourself even though you know it.
Knowing that, I sighed deeply.
“Isn’t it still worth a try?”
The moment I bit my gloomy lips, Seol-hyang Baek suddenly spoke to me.
Worth a try, isn’t it?
The moment I looked at her suspiciously, Seol-hyang Baek tapped her forehead.
“After all, the infant sheep has to make her own suggestion, right? If that’s the case, it’s not that big of a problem to try to comfort you in the process.”
“ah.”
I opened my eyes wide.
“But if the infant will suffer in the process.”
“Even if you make a suggestion of yourself, it is equally painful. And even if it doesn’t work out, it’s not necessarily difficult to stay sane if you borrow the power of a person with mental abilities.”
Ms. Baek Seol-hyang, who told me to leave that part to myself, showed a strong smile.
“And these days, there are ways to keep you safe from the furthest away from reality.”
“… … VR games.”
“That’s right.”
Games are the best way to forget reality.
Especially when it comes to VR that feels like reality.
“I have a VR game machine, so I’ll bring it. It’s mental stability, I can proceed.”
“Please.”
“What. It’s for the same returnee.”
Seeing Seol-hyang Baek who said that, I immediately thought of it.
“By the way, does Seolhyang Baek also play VR games?”
“Oh, do you think you won’t?”
“I was a little surprised.”
It was because she was a woman who suited her luxurious image very well.
Hearing my words, Seolhyang Baek covered her mouth and smiled a little, and said with a slightly pleasant expression.
“I also play a lot. I also enjoy Lord of Academy.”
As soon as I heard the word Lord of Academy, I opened my eyes.
It was a natural reaction because it was a game name that could be said to have devoted all of my 20s.
Above all, she has the financial power to start a company without hesitation and has a high position in the World Returnees Association, so she runs the Road of Academy.
Of course, it must be interesting.
However, it is also funny to be excited about the story of the game in this kind of situation.
‘First of all, the flower rain comes first.’
You can ask these questions later.
It’s a bit ridiculous to even talk about games with the president of our company in the first place.
Less squeaky!
“hey! You damn iron-blooded empress, you really want to kill me!”
At that moment, Ayu came in with a loudly open door.
“Chunma, you just came.”
She stared at Baek Seol-hyang as if to kill him, then stood up like a cat and wary of her welcome.
“what. What are you thinking?”
Seeing her like that, Seol-hyang Baek only smiled kindly.
“I need to play a game.”
“What kind of bullshit is that?”
“right. Oh, let’s play a game.”
“No, even Domi-oppa, what are you talking about?”
Only the sound that Ayu did not understand the English reverberated throughout the room.
8
thump thump.
A girl sitting on a wooden chair in front of a burning bonfire stared blankly at the bonfire.
With black hair and bright yellow eyes, she was wearing a robe that could only be seen in a fantasy.
Only the wand in her hand tells her that she is a magician.
The girl’s expression was so dazed that she couldn’t tell what the situation was.
‘Why am I doing this?’
Her name is Han Yu-ah.
He is active as an idol Black Star YooA, and his nickname in the game was Flower Rain.
She was now in the character Kkotbi, a character in the game.
For some reason, the memory of getting into the game was hazy.
Her head tilted slightly.
what i was just doing
Yes, I was definitely meeting people I knew.
And there was a job for the hunter, so I went out in a hurry.
I went out.
Kkotbi squeezed her snowballs with her hands in a sudden rush of fatigue.
The throbbing headache clearly showed her tiredness.
‘Am I tired?’
She has been running hard all this time.
After getting caught up in a dimensional shift, she nearly lost her life several times in the turmoil of war, and as a woman, it was too much of a humiliation to survive in such a war.
However, she was able to live in that world gradually through a relationship.
The hero Leon and her girlfriend Ernin Bianca.
「I am Ernin Bianca, you nefarious demons, you all died today! Of course, our hero will do it for you.”
“Bianca, why are you eating like that?”
The first meeting was an opportunity to accidentally save himself while being chased by demons.
Bianca is strong and glamorous, but her dignified appearance was very cool.
The hero Leon was kind and kind, but in front of Bianca, he was a mischievous person.
“Young, the song is so good. Is this a song from another world? I want to go too.”
“If you go, take me with you.”
“What, where are you talking to girls!”
It reminded me of two people who always quarrel with each other.
“Haha, that’s right. You look a little tired. Keep it a secret from Bianca.”
And I remembered Leon, who sometimes smiled bitterly with a tired look.
“Idiot. he’s When you’re having a hard time, you can tell me it’s hard. Just pretend to be cool in front of me.”
I remembered that Bianca, who had pierced through Leon like that, grumbled even though she was worried.
Those two were good kids.
Although they were often angry at them arguing that they were lovers, the two genuinely considered themselves to be friends as strangers.
The two gradually became friends and started going together.
Meanwhile, the war with the demons became more and more fierce, and in the end, this ideal was too dangerous, so Leon decided to head to the battlefield alone.
“Bianca, let’s get married when I come back.”
And on the last night before he left, what he said as he handed him the ring brought Bianca to tears.
“…Yeah, I was supposed to sing a congratulatory song back then.”
In the end, I couldn’t
And I’ve been burying this memory all along.
What if I hadn’t met the two of them back then?
If so, wouldn’t the two of them have a happy family by now?
Showing themselves the child, smiling and stroking their child’s head.
Such a life… … .
“ha ha ha.”
Once again, the pit of memory grabbed him and pulled him in.
The nightmare of that day came to mind again.
Bianca comes to rescue her from being kidnapped by an assassin hired by a noble because of her song.
“Baby! run away! Leon, Leon will come!”
The voice of Bianca, who had been screaming to make her, who was dying of excessive bleeding and torn her vocal cords with scissors, somehow escaped, echoed in her ears again.
“stop.”
She covered her ears.
Contradictory feelings that she didn’t want to turn away from, but wanted to turn away from, tormented her.
And again the terrifying sound resounded.
Bianca’s eyes and brain were pierced by a blind arrow and she collapsed.
And the ring that shone brightly on her ring finger.
The memory, which had somehow been suppressed by self-suggestion, tormented her again.
‘I should have died then.’
But she survived.
Although he lost his voice, he survived.
Along with the death of a dear friend, the painful cry of the warrior Leon, who returned from war, was so painful.
However, Leon did not take revenge.
Because he was a warrior, and he was born to protect mankind.
Because he was only heading towards demons, not his black people.
So the child asked.
So, who is going to get Bianca’s revenge?
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No answer came back.Because he couldn’t speak anymore.
That day she broke down.
I lost my most precious friend because of myself.
Even the dream I had dreamed of my whole life disappeared with the voice.
Leon couldn’t even talk to her anymore.
Seeing yourself would have reminded you of Bianca’s death.
she went crazy
But there was no one in this world who would give her like that.
In the meantime, Yoo Ah got a Giyeon.
A veteran who felt sorry for him taught him how to use his mana to make a voice.
Awakening to a Spirit Magician.
Even on the day she woke up, she was still broken, and she still remembered it clearly.
A terrible face made of the scissors that cut off his own neck and human greed.
And the gruesome death of Bianca, who died instantly after being pierced in the head in front of that greed.
A promise I couldn’t make to her.
“If you can’t, I will.”
Talking to Leon, who had left to kill the Demon King, her steps turned in the opposite direction to the hero.
The day the hero killed the demon king.
She burned the king of men and the kingdom of men.
And then Leon came to her.
The sword of the hero, the protector of mankind, was no longer directed at the demon king, but at himself.
“Let’s stop. Baby, you have to stop.”
Leon’s eyes looking at him looked so sad.
But she couldn’t stop.
Maddened, she long forgot how to stop herself.
So the hero and she had no choice but to fight.
After a week of fierce battles, her voice finally reached Leon.
And Leon’s voice also reached her.
At that time, many people had already been erased from the world.
I was sad.
were you upset?
Seeing her sitting blankly, for some reason, Leon wrapped her hands around her cheeks as if sadly.
‘Can I wake you up?’
After finishing the war with the demon king, Leon led his dying body with a curse after his death and came into the ruined castle, thinking about it.
I couldn’t get Bianca’s revenge.
You have avenged Bianca.
That’s what Leon thought when he saw her sitting alone on the throne.
I wanted to save the world.
You and Bianca couldn’t be saved.
That’s what Leon thought when he saw her face, which had been ruined to the point where he couldn’t even read his emotions.
If I was going to forget Bianca.
You tried to remember Bianca for the rest of your life.
That’s what Leon thought when he saw the ring on her neck in the form of a necklace.
Because he was a warrior.
Even if the world saved it, my people couldn’t save it.
that was one
The infant tried to keep it until the end.
“child… … . Please protect both you and Bianca, I’m sorry.”
Leon let out a voice that seemed to be cut off and smiled.
Oh God.
Please don’t let her live with guilt for us.
As you chose me to be a hero.
Please protect her, who is so delicate.
If that happens, I won’t blame you.
“… … Now go back.”
To a world where she doesn’t have to suffer.
To a world where we can forget us and live.
Leon took the infant’s necklace in his hand and, with the last force, removed the ring from his hand and the ring from the necklace.
clink-
The moment he saw it, he felt like something in his head was being shattered.
The broken heart finally found its shape.
The emotions that had not been poured out any longer flowed out of her like an explosion.
“no. no. no! no!”
She hurled words at Leon.
Break your throat to revive He cried out, but he did not survive.
Tears became tears of blood.
While holding Leon’s body, she quietly sang the congratulatory song the two of them had asked for in the ruined place.
And after several months.
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Numerous surviving nations came to the fallen kingdom, calling her the nation’s enemy, the Great Witch.Their eyes were contorted with anger towards the enemies of mankind.
Who made you like this
Why do you guys make eyes like that?
But she didn’t say those words.
Because they know very well that the moment they speak, they will disappear from this world.
She smiled like it was broken.
Tears of blood that had fallen wet the floor and flowed down the cheeks of the warrior who had become a corpse.
“Han Yu-ah, let’s go back.”
So she said to herself.
The one word she uttered with all the power of the magician was enough to bring her back to Earth.
And he made a suggestion to himself so that he would not remember the day.
Because I couldn’t live without it.
“I like it the most when children sing. I always want to hear from your side.”
“Why are you doing this to make your boyfriend jealous? I should practice singing or something.”
just good memories.
Recalling the words Bianca and Leon said.
she sang
And just as a warrior raised his sword to protect mankind.
She fought the dimensional species to protect people with her own voice.
It was obsession and obsession.
‘Everything I did was just a fabrication.’
he says he’s fine
So that Bianca and Leon, who have died because of them, can be less concerned about themselves.
She has been running from that day to this day.
But escaping also comes with a limit.
like today.
‘Is this a game?’
The infant stared blankly at his flower rain.
The appearance in the game, which is different from reality, helped me to forget the memories of that time.
Lord of Academy was close to a fantasy world, but it was markedly different from the Elesis he lived in.
It was not intentional, but it may be that he wanted to show that he was living a normal life without any problems in a fantasy world similar to Elesis but very different.
So, even though I was getting tired of working as an idol and a hunter, I stuck to the game.
i’m fine now
I can live in a world like this.
It seems like he wanted to show the two of them.
Maybe that’s why, after his suggestion was released, he seemed to have chosen the game as his last escape.
The dazed mind was still not in its proper place.
Because of the effect of the self-suggestion being released, my mind was still hazy as if drunk on drugs.
trudge-
At that moment, she heard footsteps.
When the toddler took his eyes off the bonfire and looked up, someone was walking through the dark night road.
There were two familiar faces.