＜Episode 131＞ What I Can Do
Faced with a monster in the middle of the house.
From the moment we met, I couldn’t even move. It was because of the lack of strength in his body because he felt a strong sense of intimidation just by his appearance.
In the end, he even sat down in his place.
But it couldn’t be broken like this.
On the bed next to me, Hana is taking a nap. Si-eun is washing dishes in the kitchen behind her back.
In this situation, I was the only one who would protect my family.
The ability to fight without running away even when you are afraid and want to avoid your eyes. We call it courage.
What I needed at this moment was that courage.
Humans are said to be creatures of infinite courage. Among them, the father must be the most courageous. You have family to protect, so you should always stand up boldly.
While having a snowball fight with a cockroach that suddenly appeared on the living room floor… … I had this thought.
“what are you doing?”
“Huh?”
I turned my head to the voice I heard from behind. Si-eun stood there after washing the dishes. He looks down at me as he wipes the water from his hands on his apron.
“no. just.”
Si-eun wasn’t the one to quietly pass over the idiot. Si-eun’s eyes turned to where my eyes were originally pointing.
When I turned around, the cockroach that had won the snowball fight with me was crawling around with equal momentum.
“uh? Cockroaches?”
Unlike me, who trembled wildly, Si-eun muttered that it was nothing.
“Uh, uhm.”
just uttered a sound. Perhaps my reaction was funny, Si-eun snorted and went back to the kitchen.
Si-eun, who ripped out a few pieces of tissue paper, passed me and walked forward.
Sensing a late sense of crisis, the insect began to run away in a hurry. Looking in the direction, he seemed to be hiding under the sofa.
At this, Si-eun quickly made fun of her arm. Then, with a thud, he slammed his hand on the floor.
After some time has passed since then.
Si-eun, holding a tissue in her fist, looked at me with joy.
“Fufufu. caught.”
“… … .”
What “Honey, I got it.” same tone It was an innocent smile for a warrior who defeated a monster. Beyond innocence, there was a sense of joy.
Either way, it was terrifying to me. Si-eun tilted her head towards me, who was speechless.
“why?”
“no. I thought you were good at catching insects.”
“Of course, because I live in the countryside. I got used to it in the old days. There have been times when an insect fell from above while washing my hair.”
I don’t even want to imagine. Shaking her face, saying “Uh-huh”, Si-eun grunted and headed to the bathroom.
Then I heard the sound of flushing the toilet. The sound of running water in the washbasin continued for a long time as I was washing my hands.
After a while, the noise disappeared and Si-eun returned to the living room. Si-eun sat next to me, cross-legged. It was a posture that raised both legs and hugged them.
“honey.”
“why?”
“Are you afraid of insects?”
okay. Thought I’d ask
“Rather than scary.”
“dirty?”
“okay.”
nodded loudly. … … It’s true that I’m afraid, but I couldn’t be honest with my face.
Si-eun giggled as if trying to ridicule him. Insects are neither scary nor dirty. To say that I’ve gotten used to it with my own mouth, I don’t think it’s at any level.
Si-eun tapped my shoulder.
“Because I’m okay with bugs. If you see a bug in the future, call me. I’ll catch them all.”
Straighten your chest and say His dignified appearance clearly showed a great deal of confidence.
But how could that be?
“no.”
As soon as he refused, Si-eun raised her eyebrows as if she did not understand the English language.
“Why not?”
“I am the father. I am a husband of one person and a father of one child. What if I can’t catch a single bug?”
“You can’t just catch bugs.”
“I can’t do anything else.”
“What can’t you do?”
“No, what… … .”
If you ask me like that, it doesn’t come to mind right away. To be honest, I can’t even give one breast milk. If you put it in your mouth, you’ll be dismissed immediately by saying that you don’t talk nonsense.
Si-eun, who was looking at me silently, snorted. Si-eun’s mouth opened, probably because it meant time out.
“it’s okay. There must be something Daddy can’t do.”
“still.”
“Because it’s okay.”
Towards me who was about to add something, Si-eun smiled brightly.
“I am also one man’s wife and one child’s mother.”
“… … yes.”
I had no choice but to agree to this.
That was right.
Si-eun is the only person who will make up for my shortcomings for the rest of my life. On the other hand, if there is a part that Si-eun lacks, it is enough if I fill that spot.
Of course, the gaps don’t fit snugly, so sometimes there will be difficulties that both of us can’t handle. Then, hold your hand and put your head together.
We are a couple.
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My chest gets warm I could feel the heat rushing up near my heart.When I looked sideways, Si-eun was also smiling with her chin on her lap. You must be of the same mind as me.
After an unexpected month of separation, a little bit of freshness like the old days was revived between us.
On the day they returned home, they fell asleep hugging each other.
It’s been a few days since I got home, but it’s still there.
When it’s just the two of us, it feels like we’re sitting together in the clouds above the sky.
Each time, it seemed that we were the only ones in this wide world.
It still was. Si-eun was reflected in my eyes, and only I was reflected in Si-eun’s eyes.
Because at some point, we turned our heads towards each other.
The look in each other’s eyes gradually grows bigger. The face was getting closer. In line with that, our lips gradually narrowed the distance. The scent of Si-eun was transmitted through the air.
And finally, when our lips are about to touch.
One started to cry.
“… … uhm.”
“… … Shall we do it later?”
“That would be better.”
The deepened mood was broken in an instant.
The skinship is the atmosphere. I didn’t want to kiss with a single loud cry as the background. Above all, I had to take care of Hana, who burst into tears.
Si-eun and I both got up from our seats and approached Hana.
Hana woke up from her sleeping position and was crying violently. As if asking for something from us.
There’s no way the baby can tell you where it’s uncomfortable. In this case, you have to trust your parents.
“I’m hungry, but?”
Si-eun shook her head as she threw out an implied guess.
“no. It doesn’t look like it’s uncomfortable. I guess I just fell asleep and woke up crying.”
“okay?”
“yes. Even if you look at the time. You’re probably right. If I take a nap these days, I wake up a little early. About an hour or two?”
Si-eun, who explained with a relaxed face, eventually headed to the nursery. When he returned, he was holding a rattling toy.
He puts it in a single field of view and starts to shake it.
It didn’t even take very long. Hana, who had been crying enough to hurt her ears, quickly smiled broadly.
Si-eun’s prediction seemed to have come true.
Hana smiling softly and Si-eun waving a jingle toy. Taking turns, it seemed like a very good mother-daughter relationship.
The beautiful sight put a smile on my face for a moment, but somehow there seemed to be no room for my father. The smile turned into a bitter laugh.
“How did you know it was okay to shake a toy?”
“You should know. I took care of you for over a hundred days. I learned a lot through hard work.”
“Well, indeed.”
Si-eun has a month more experience as a parent than me. Even if that period is excluded, in the first place, I spend a lot of time in the company. Si-eun is inevitably superior to her child-rearing experience.
As I was watching with admiration, Si-eun let out a playful sound, hee-hee.
“Around 100 days or so, I started to fall asleep, but these days I’ve fallen asleep again. During the day, even if he falls asleep, it is shallow, so he wakes up quickly and cries. So you know.”
“ah.”
got enlightenment. The resilience came out of nowhere. At me like that, Si-eun glanced sideways at me.
“What came to mind?”
“Oh, no.”
It’s not even that great. He responded by waving his hand.
“Have you ever studied parenting while you were holding a honey? i saw it then After 100 days, naps will be shorter and nights will be longer.”
“Um, there’s only one right now. that’s interesting.”
Si-eun smiled as if it was fun.
No matter how the same human being, they were born to different parents and show similar growth patterns. If you look closely, it’s a mystery.
Although I studied this fact, I couldn’t use it properly. Again, it seems that experience is more important than knowledge in learning something. Today, I learned a lesson from Si-eun.
Not long after that state. One eye began to close slightly. Even Yongke seemed to be falling asleep amid the rattling noise.
In accordance with the degree to which one eye closes, the frequency of Si-eun’s hand movements has also decreased.
Finally, when all eyes were closed, Si-eun’s movements also stopped.
Si-eun sighed softly and said, “Huh.”
“Good work.”
Si-eun smiled back when she quietly said something in her ear.
Then he bent down and put his hand on my shoulder, and whispered in a whisper.
“What is hard work? It’s nothing.”
It’s nothing. shiver with humility
Then Si-eun got up from her seat. The footsteps were heading towards the nursery. Are you trying to put the rattle toy back in its original place?
He turned his gaze again and looked at the sleeping face.
One left for a walk in dreamland with her eyes closed.
She was wearing a bodysuit she bought at a department store. Whether the clerk’s recommendation and Si-eun’s choice were correct, he fell asleep without any sign of discomfort.
The clear facial features seemed to show off her beauty already.
Her round eyes looked like her mother. Her tall nose and tiny mouth seemed to resemble her mother. Her white and soft skin looked just like her mother. … … The part that resembles me might be about the size of the eyebrows.
Anyway, that’s a good thing. Because it’s several times better to look like Si-eun, who has an outstanding appearance. Furthermore, I wanted her personality to follow Si-eun. If you resemble me, you will only become a famous assa in the future.
Si-eun approached me as I was staring at Hana. This time, kneel down.
“Did you see one?”
“yes. When I saw one, I was thinking that she looked just like Honey.”
“Um, well? You must have looked a lot alike?”
“Where do you look like?”
I’m genuinely curious. When I asked without taking my eyes off Hana, Si-eun answered immediately without showing any trouble.
“A lot of sleep and a lot of appetite?”
“… … .”
I would like to ask you to point out. For now, I decided to ignore it.
“What else?”
“Uhm, the handsome looks are similar.”
There is no sound of catching a floating cloud. I didn’t ignore it here, I looked it up.
“Specifically?”
“Uh, the dark part of the eyebrows?”
“… … okay.”
It seems that the only similarity is the eyebrows. I was overcome with a bitter feeling, and Si-eun clicked her tongue.
“what’s the matter. They all looked the same when they were babies. You still don’t know who you look like, don’t you?”
“It is.”
“Or, well, look like your dad, and pretend you don’t have a mole near your mouth.”
well The point is usually not hereditary… … . I’d like to know how detailed you are. It will not be too late to talk about whether I resemble my mother or my father later. I just decided to give up.
When I turned my eyes, Si-eun was also looking down at Hana. The eyes full of benevolence were full of love.
Indeed, it was the gaze of a mother looking at her daughter.
“The real sweetheart has become a mother.”
“What?”
Si-eun tilted her head as if it was a sudden sound. He answered with eye contact.
“It’s like taking good care of one. Even one look in your eyes is full of love.”
“It’s the same when you see one honey.”
“is it?”
I have no way of knowing how I feel when I look at one. I should have put a mirror, but then I wouldn’t be able to see one. I decided to accept Si-eun’s words without any doubt.
“You still can’t take good care of me. You have to be a good father.”
“You told me before. It doesn’t mean that there shouldn’t be anything you can’t do as a father.”
“It did.”
While nodding silently, he added a word.
“But I don’t know what to do. I can’t even catch insects.”
“It is again. Stop it now.”
It was a light scolding fight. Did you bring out the pain too much? As the grass died, I kept my mouth shut.
Toward me like that, Si-eun gently leaned on her body.
“And I mean. There’s at least one thing. What a honey can do.”
It’s a nonsensical story. I waited for him to say something, but Si-eun turned to me again.
Then he brought his mouth to my ear, and whispered softly.
“It’s about doing something you couldn’t do before.”
“What haven’t you done before?”
what did you do before No, I didn’t do anything.
I looked back at my memories. It didn’t take long to come up with an answer.
Come to think of it, there was something that was interrupted just before.
“Now that none of them have fallen asleep again.”
A belated hint followed. As I already knew, it was useless information. He smiled and licked his lips.
“If that’s the case, you can do it over and over again.”
“okay. So, honey can do at least one thing.”
Si-eun laughed and talked like a playful child.
Anyway, she was a cute wife.
He put his head close. In line with my movements, Si-eun’s face also approached me.
Soon we closed our lips.
There was a feeling of an electric current flowing in the place where they touched. We can’t see each other because our eyes are closed, but with scent, touch, and body temperature… … The presence of each other was clearly communicated.
They slowly parted their lips and looked at each other again. Si-eun, who had dyed her ears red, was biting her lips. Was the soft feeling tickled?
It was a fresh reaction reminiscent of the early days of our relationship.
It may take a little more to get used to as much as the original.
“honey.”
“Why?”
“Do more?”
“… … .”
Upon hearing my suggestion, Si-eun opened her eyes.
Are you absurd, are you worried, or are you trying to refuse? I had no ingenuity to find out.
As we waited quietly, Si-eun’s mouth moved slowly.
“In the couple’s room.”
“In the couple’s room?”
“yes.”
After a short reply, Si-eun quickly looked away from me.
“… … For one, it takes about an hour or two to sleep.”
Hesitantly, he added:
Did you mean that… … . I barely swallowed the laughter that was about to come out. I guess I’ll have to get used to this again soon.
“okay. Shall we go?”
As she whispered in her ear, Si-eun nodded with a more red face.
There seemed to be at least a few more things I could do.