＜Episode 33＞ Help 1
Immediately we returned home.
I was going to go back anyway, so I didn’t feel like I was just having a drink. Above all, it was impossible to hold Si-eun in such an urgent situation.
When I entered the house, I stood there, unable to do this or that.
If your mother is sick, shouldn’t you go to the hospital as soon as possible? Even so, Si-eun just stood blankly with her hands on the table in the kitchen.
Fortunately, his face was as calm as usual. He seemed to have calmed down in the taxi on the way back.
After waiting without a word, Si-eun immediately opened her mouth with a perplexed expression.
“Hey, I’m sorry.”
“Are you going to go home?”
When asked in a quick tone, Si-eun nodded her head slightly.
“Are you going now?”
“no. Early in the morning like last time. I heard that the meeting time is over today.”
After silently listening to the answer, I shut my mouth.
I think back to Si-eun before.
Tears of eyes and trembling lips. I’ve never seen him so weak. Si-eun, who pretended to be strong even when she was sick. It must have been very confusing.
It didn’t seem like an odd situation. Is there any way I can help?
“Um, over there.”
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My voice broke the silence that filled the house.Si-eun, who had dropped her gaze on the table, raised her head and met their eyes.
“Oh sorry. I’ll prepare dinner. First of all, change your clothes.”
“No, no. It’s not like that.”
He hastily stopped Si-eun from going back to her room.
Even in such a state, you are trying to carry out your mission. That straight shave is definitely one of the reasons I like Si-eun. Now there was something much more important than that.
“Can you tell me in detail what happened?”
As she moved the words inside her mouth, Si-eun grabbed the brooch on her chest with one hand.
Then he spit out a few words.
“Curious… … did you?”
“Um, rather than curious.”
It’s not without curiosity, but there was a more accurate expression than that.
“I’m worried.”
Si-eun’s eyes widened for a moment at my words.
It was a very startling look. It’s a company that worries about others too. Besides, that person was Si-eun, so I couldn’t help it without worrying about it.
As it was, Si-eun and I stared at each other quietly. After some time passed as if they were having a silent conversation, Si-eun turned her head.
“Okay.”
Then he adds in a small voice.
“I’ll talk to you on the balcony.”
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We could talk on the spot, but Si-eun insisted that we go out to the balcony.
Well, it might not be good for such important conversations to come and go in everyday life.
Come to think of it, I haven’t been to the balcony since I moved.
Separated garbage is sorted by type. In one corner, flowers were growing from where they had been picked up.
Even though it’s my house, it’s the first time I’ve seen it.
If it hadn’t been for Si-eun, it would have gotten dirty quickly. Thanks to Si-eun’s touch, it was quite neat. Just by looking at it, it seemed to be delicate.
Outside, a moon was shining in the black night sky. You can see some people walking down the street, but compared to in front of the station, it is just quiet.
Si-eun, who followed, stood next to me, and looked outward in the same way as me.
“Then we will talk.”
“yes.”
Si-eun took a deep breath and started talking. His gaze was still outside.
“The last time I went home, I saw my mother. As I said back then, I had heard that the shame had gotten worse, so I went.”
“Yes.”
“I went and looked and looked healthy. The test results returned to normal within a short period of time, the doctor said.”
Si-eun, who had spoken up to that point, added a word in a low voice.
“But I guess it wasn’t.”
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My mother’s condition seems to have gotten worse, Jeon Si-eun said earlier. Perhaps you heard the news over the phone.As if reading my thoughts, Si-eun continued to explain.
“I got a call from my uncle.”
“uncle?”
“yes. She lives near her mother’s hospital and takes care of her. I’m sorry that I haven’t been able to pay the hospital bills you gave me yet… … .”
Si-eun blurs the end of her words.
Do you have any relatives who help Si-eun? Fortunately it was. Now that my father passed away and my mother was ill, it would be too much for me to handle everything on my own.
“I don’t talk often. Because there is not much interaction. They usually only call me when something happens.”
Call only when something happens. That meant that the moment you got the call, you could guess what had happened.
Is this the reason why I put on an ominous expression as soon as I saw the screen?
As I was thinking like that, I saw Si-eun looking up at the sky with her side eyes.
“I think you need surgery.”
“Operation?”
“okay. There is also a chance of failure. Besides, if you fail… … He said it could be wrong.”
“Well.”
From what I heard, it was definitely a desperate situation. Rather, Si-eun, who had stopped reacting to the previous reaction, was amazing.
But Si-eun remained silent. Without a forced smile or a sad expression on her face. Even his face and his tone of voice made him feel as if he was just reading a book.
“by the way.”
Si-eun said in a voice mixed with breath.
“Do you know what was the first thing that came to mind when you heard that?”
I couldn’t answer the sudden question. Si-eun let out a short sigh as he waited for the explanation to continue without a word.
“What about the cost of surgery, I was thinking.”
He gave the answer in a self-assertive tone.
“Isn’t it funny? My mother is sick, and I don’t know what will happen. Are you worried about money?”
“… … .”
not funny at all Rather, it was a very sad story.
Si-eun is already enduring a weight that is difficult to bear. As a college student, as a member of society, and as a daughter, she is walking with a burden.
In the midst of this, anyone who goes through something like this tends to think like Si-eun.
heart for mother. financial burden. Even the feeling of guilt towards himself that reminds him of it.
All of this is now tormenting Si-eun.
“At that moment, I was surprised. I thought I was a really bad daughter.”
“no.”
I said softly, becoming unbearable for seeing myself beating myself down.
But to no avail, Si-eun lowered her head.
“I’ve been working hard… … . Nothing is getting better.”
Si-eun’s voice was not the same as usual. Now it was at a level where I could even feel the desperation.
“I studied hard. I also made a lot of friends. I even made money while working part-time. Why is the world so harsh on me… … Am I behaving badly?”
The voice that was heard without emotion came to me rather warmly.
“What should I do now… … .”
In a tone that I don’t know if he’s talking to himself or if he’s asking me a question. Si-eun muttered.
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My heart ached, so I bowed my head.The person I like is grieving right in front of me.
It was only now that I realized that it was such a painful thing.
I’ve never had a crush on anyone. I had never even cherished anyone before. So I didn’t know.
It was painful for Lee Idaji to see the person he had in his heart in agony.
What should I do now?
Looking up at the night sky, I reflect on Si-eun’s words.
The weight of Si-eun’s burden is hard to even imagine. Of course, I couldn’t take the role. I don’t even have the courage to give advice.
So, now, what should I do?
Even after thinking about it, there was only one answer.
I can’t cook, clean, or do laundry, I’m not talkative, and I’m not friendly. There was only one thing I could do for Si-eun, who was not good at anything like this.
As I recalled it, I immediately moved my mouth.
“I will help you.”
“What… … ?”
Looking to the side, Si-eun was tilting her head with a slightly suspicious face.
I felt like I should be more specific.
“Your mother’s hospital bills and surgery costs, I’m going to pay all of them.”