＜Episode 48＞ The second first dish
next day.
Yesterday something unexpected happened. Because I took Si-eun for nothing, I ended up hurting her.
However, in the end, it became an opportunity to reconfirm each other’s feelings. Thanks to this, my relationship with Si-eun felt rather close.
I’m sure it should be like that.
For some reason, today’s Si-eun was somehow strange.
“… … .”
As usual, I headed to the table that Si-eun had prepared, but Si-eun bowed her head and moved only the rice to her mouth.
It’s Si-eun who always puts on an ecstatic expression saying that the food is delicious. There was only silence throughout the meal today.
I wanted to come here because it didn’t taste good, but, as always, the food was delicious.
It wasn’t just that. They didn’t talk to each other while eating, and above all, didn’t even make eye contact.
Only the sound of bowls and spoons hitting each other resonates.
It was almost suffocating in the atmosphere that had hardened. It’s not that it’s not, it even felt like rice was being put on it.
I couldn’t stand it until the end and opened my mouth.
“what’s the matter?”
Si-eun’s body twitched when asked.
“… … what?”
“No, I was wondering if something bad happened.”
“no. it’s okay.”
Seeing the way he responds like he’s cut off, he doesn’t look good at all.
“Are you sick?”
“no.”
“then?”
“Because it’s nothing.”
If nothing, why are you doing this?
Not sure if she had the heart to answer such a question, Si-eun got up with her rice bowl.
“I will be in the room.”
“Oh yeah. … … huh? Why don’t you come to my room today?”
“yes.”
After a short answer, Si-eun put the rice bowl on the sink and headed to her room.
uhm.
Something seems odd, but I have no idea why.
Last night, all we had to do was buy a small cake, share it, and chat. Up until then, Si-eun was close to me and talked happily.
Why are you doing this?
Are you angry because you went through a hard time because of me yesterday? can it be Not only is he not someone who would think like that, and even if he did, it would have already been sealed.
If so, did that cause you to lose your energy? Because Si-eun, who doesn’t show it easily even when it’s hard, even cried yesterday. He must have been physically and mentally exhausted.
I do not know.
Is it that a woman’s heart is so difficult?
After eating, I returned to my room.
It seems that he was true when he said he would not come to the room. Si-eun, who almost lived in my room after the vacation started, did not come.
Starting tomorrow, each of us is going to go home. In this state of affairs, I cannot go comfortably. On the contrary, you will only be breathing deeply the whole time you go home.
What should I do?
Before dating Si-eun, I had never been in a relationship. I’ve never liked anyone, and I’ve never had a few conversations with a woman in the first place. There was no way I could understand women’s feelings.
I’m so worried
Suddenly, a single word flashed through my mind.
‘Anyway, there will be times when you will be troubled too. In that case, call I will help you as much as I know.’
Contact us if you need help with your relationship. A friend said so.
I didn’t know the time would come this early. However, it would be useless to wrap my hair alone like this. Since this is the case, I have no choice but to seek help from a dating senior.
I pick up the phone lying on the desk and try to make a call.
After a few beeps, I soon heard a voice over the phone.
[hello?]
[Help me.]
[What?]
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My friend asked me with a bewildered tone as if I couldn’t understand.However, he chuckled as if he understood the situation immediately.
[Ah, what happened to Yoo Shi-eun?]
[how did you know?]
[As long as you make a phone call, nothing else.]
Well, it is.
[therefore? What happened?]
[Well, I don’t know what actually happened or what didn’t happen.]
[Did you just call me to riddle with me?]
[sorry. It’s a mystery to me too, so I can’t help it.]
okay. It really is an enigma.
In this way, I was able to tell my friend about the basics.
I went to a party with Si-eun. There, I heard abusive comments from drunkards. So even the fact that I came out with Si-eun.
I decided to hide the details because it is not the story I want to tell from Si-eun’s point of view.
When I finished explaining, my friend let out a sob for a moment.
He seemed to be struggling with what to answer. Swallowing his saliva, he waited for the next word.
Suddenly, a friend’s voice was heard from the other side of the phone.
[Well.]
[…] … yes?]
What came back was an easy answer.
[Is that the answer?]
[Yeah, what. I don’t think he was angry or upset, but I don’t know the details.]
[I will say that too.]
[How do I know everything? It’s your girlfriend’s business, so you should know better.]
That’s right. I feel ashamed of myself.
But now this is the only place to hang. I couldn’t even hang up the phone like this.
He sighed and spoke up.
[Well then. When the two of you had a fight or a distance, how did you solve it?]
[we? Have you never fought?]
He smirks and says so.
You’re talking about something senior, but it doesn’t help at all. He lowered his head while holding the phone, and soon after, the friend stopped laughing and talked.
[How did you do it?]
[What?]
[No, that’s it. Weren’t we supposed to flirt with each other before we started dating? Have you two ever become a bit awkward?]
[ah.]
It’s been awkward if ever.
For example, when I realized that I had a crush on Si-eun and kept my distance. At that time, I remember that we hardly ever talked.
Whether he accepted the absence of an answer as a positive, the friend continued to throw a word.
[Think about how you solved it then.]
[How did you solve it?]
I’m immersed in thought
At that time, I received the chocolate that Si-eun made as a birthday present and acknowledged my heart.
Hmmm, homemade chocolate.
The friend let out a small laugh.
[Don’t think too hard about it. Because it’s a bit childish to be dating people in the first place. It’s a way to get pissed off over nothing, and get loose because of nothing.]
[okay?]
[okay.]
Being pouted and loosened up because of nothing. As a beginner in dating, it was still a mysterious story.
[I don’t know, but I’ll think about it for once.]
[Okay. Call me again if you have any problems. I’ll give you one drink. I got the car my father used. Now I can drive.]
[Talking about drinking and driving at the same time.]
[Well, how are you? You can have a drink and go to sleep for the night. I can do that for a friend.]
[Well.]
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My hands and feet shrank, but my heart was very grateful. I guess he wasn’t just talking to me, who was an arrogant among sassies.[See you next time.]
[okay.]
Anyway, at the end of this conversation, we greeted each other and hung up the phone.
I put down my phone and fell asleep.
I didn’t get an answer, but I felt like I got a hint.
Even nothing can free your mind. You don’t need anything grandiose.
Just as I received homemade chocolate from Si-eun, is there anything I can do for Si-eun?
After thinking for a while, I came up with an idea.
Not sure if that will be a solution. But there is no other idea. The only way to do this is to try it out.
I picked up the coat hanging from the hanger, packed my cell phone and wallet, and opened the door to the room.
But for some reason, Si-eun was standing in front of her room.
When our eyes met, Si-eun shook her head as if surprised, then immediately turned her head.
Every gesture is so awkward. Again, something must be strange.
“Where?”
Si-eun said with her eyes averted.
“Well, let’s get some air.”
“You say you’re going to get some air… … ?”
“Oh no, that’s it. I’m not feeling well, so I’m going to go for a walk.”
“okay? are you okay? Shall I go out and buy an extinguishing agent?”
They still didn’t make eye contact, but it sounded like they were worried.
He smiles lightly and puts his coat over his body.
“no. it’s okay.”
“Yes.”
Fortunately, Si-eun did not ask further questions.
Since we met by chance, let’s check one more thing.
“When are you going tomorrow?”
Si-eun tilted her head at my question.
“I’ll probably go after lunch. why?”
“no. nothing.”
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I woke up to the sound of my phone beeping.
Dark room with curtains. The door was closed and there was no sound from outside.
dawn the next day. I woke up to the sound of the alarm after a long time.
Today is the day Si-eun and I go to their respective houses. In other words, it was the last chance to resolve the awkward relationship with Si-eun before they broke up for a while.
I carefully opened the door to the room and headed out.
Si-eun, who wakes up early, is still asleep. The lights in the living room and kitchen were turned off.
Si-eun’s plan to wake up before she woke up, first of all, turned into a success.
Turn on the kitchen light, open the refrigerator… … I took out the ingredients I bought yesterday.
What I wanted to do was simple. Because Si-eun gave her handmade chocolate as a gift, the awkward relationship was restored. I was also thinking of serving Si-eun for breakfast.
The only food I know how to cook is ramen, at most, curry. I would be upset if I served this kind of food, so I decided to make a relatively difficult food by referring to YouTube.
The menu that was decided through this process was Jeyuk-bokkeum.
This is the food that Si-eun and I made the day we first met.
Of course, there was no 1% confidence in making it as delicious as sour.
However, these days, the Internet is overflowing with knowledge. The essence of cooking is to follow an algorithm. If you follow it, you will not fail.
With such determination, I started cooking while playing YouTube videos on my phone.
As the food was almost finished, the sound of the door opening was heard.
When I turned around, Si-eun in pajamas was looking at me with her big eyes blinking.
I rubbed my eyes to see if it was a hallucination, closed and opened them tightly, and shook my head to and fro.
Then he slowly approaches and tilts his head.
“What… … are you doing?”
“Cooking.”
Si-eun smirked when she answered confidently.
“I know that. You’re asking why I’m cooking.”
The questioning face, as if he did not understand the English language, was full of wonder.
There was no shame in speaking in front of myself. He turned his head again and answered as he finished cooking.
“Yesterday, you seem to be a little awkward with me. In a similar situation last time, you made chocolate. So, I also wondered if it would be okay if I cooked something… … .”
Even if we did not meet face to face, the shame was still there. I ended up blurring the tail of my horse.
In a moody mood, he searched only for innocent meat.
Si-eun didn’t answer.
Even if I looked closely, I couldn’t see what Si-eun’s expression was. Are you saying that you are doing something stupid? Maybe it’s because they don’t like my cooking skills.
I’m so worried.
I felt something touching my back.
“uh?”
I was startled and made a rude noise, when I heard a low laughter from behind.
Judging from the feel and sound… … What touched my back seemed to be Si-eun’s back.
“Why, why?”
“… … in fact.”
“yes.”
“I fell in love with you again, and we didn’t even see each other.”
“… … What?”
When asked what he meant, Si-eun smirked.
“I slept yesterday and woke up. The image of you getting angry for me keeps playing back in my head.”
After soaking Si-eun for a while there.
“My face is strangely hot and my heart is itchy. Just looking at your face makes my heart flutter… … .”
Hearingly, the words continue.
“So, you were acting awkwardly.”
“I see… … .”
Was it like that?
I felt like an idiot for thinking about it all day yesterday, and I burst out laughing out loud.
Your friend was right. It is said that loving someone is so childish that it makes you worry about nothing. In the end, it seems that I and Si-eun were the same.
“Sorry. I didn’t tell you to be honest.”
Si-eun said in a voice that crawled in shame.
I replied with a smile.
“it’s okay.”
“really?”
“yes. I can’t imagine what you’re saying honestly.”
“What does that mean?”
“sorry.”
It broke the mood at once. I was very pathetic too.
But Si-eun laughed at my mistake, saying, “Ahaha.”
Afterwards, Si-eun pulled herself off my back.
“I can try your dishes today.”
“Don’t wait, wait.”
“yes. Then I will wait without waiting.”
After leaving these words, Si-eun walked to the shower room.
And after a while.
Si-eun, who put the stir-fried pork belly that I had made, smiled softly without saying a word.
“What do you think?”
When asked half-worried and half-worried, Si-eun kept her smile.
“… … Next time, let’s make it together with me.”
“… … Yep.”
In this way, I learned the lesson that you should not trust information on the Internet 100%.