＜Episode 80＞ Meal 2
“I’m full.”
Sohye said, pounding her small belly.
“Even though he is so small, he eats well.”
“There is a separate dining boat.”
“According to the law of conservation of mass, it cannot be.”
“senior… … .”
“It’s a joke.”
When I told him jokingly, Sohye smiled a little.
Steak followed by salad, cheese, and dessert. A taxi to the school after finishing all the course dishes. Me in the front and Si-eun and So-hye in the back were sitting side by side.
So-hye, who was the main character of today’s promise, looked quite satisfied. It was a pretty good evening for me. Choosing this restaurant was a success.
I want to think so. For some reason, Si-eun’s expression looked shaky. It may be in other people’s eyes, but at least it was in my eyes.
Ask with concern
“Is your meal okay?”
“yes. it was tasty.”
It was an immediate answer.
It wouldn’t be an empty word. Si-eun’s taste is not that different from mine. When I left the steak, as always, I had a happy smile.
So, why do you have this face? I was feeling very gloomy. The aftertaste was not clean and the heart was not relieved. I wanted to see Si-eun having fun.
Towards me with a burning stomach, Sohye asked a question.
“By the way, next week is the Chuseok holiday. Are you two going home separately?”
“uh? Is it Chuseok next week?”
“Did you not know?”
“yes.”
I didn’t know at all. Since it is a holiday during the holidays, the professor may have told you during the lecture. I couldn’t even remember hearing the lectures because I always spilled them out of one ear.
Si-eun, on the other hand, raised her eyebrows and asked.
“I did not know?”
“uh. I didn’t know.”
“It’s because I’m just holding on to the computer every day.”
“I know.”
That was 100% correct. I would have known if I had read the news on the internet at least. You need to pay attention to what’s going on in the world.
Si-eun tilted her head.
“therefore? What are you going to do on Chuseok?”
“Well. Shall we go home together? I think I’ll just have to go one day at a time.”
“No, it’s okay. Let’s go separately this Chuseok. After we get married, we will have to go together anyway.”
“Well.”
After all, for the next few decades, we would go together every holiday. This may be the last chance they have to go to their respective homes alone.
Above all, Si-eun wants to see her mother in the hospital for a long time.
“okay.”
As she nodded and answered, Sohye next to her smiled.
“Hwimin and Sieun are really like a couple.”
“After a few months, they really are a couple.”
It’s been quite some time since we lived together while dating. A wedding is, after all, just a ritual. In fact, it would not be wrong to say that they are already married.
At my words, Sohye smiled ahaha.
“I also have a great eye. You’re a college student, but you’re already married and become a couple. They are a really, really good couple.”
and whispered.
It was with a smile that seemed to set the child he had raised independent.
And it was a tone with a slight, vague feeling.
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“Then see you next time! Have a good night!”
Sohye waved one arm and waved goodbye. We each responded by showing our palms.
After that, we started walking home together.
If there were only the two of us left, I expected that they would talk to me, but Si-eun’s mouth remained firmly closed. No words could be heard, only the occasional crowing of insects filling the gap.
I feel like I can’t breathe in the heavy silence. In the end, I had no choice but to open my mouth.
“there.”
“why?”
“Did something bad happen today?”
“no.”
“really?”
“yes.”
Si-eun looked ahead and answered.
If so, why is the reaction like this? I wanted to ask again, but my lips wouldn’t break. Sinners are silent. I decided to keep my mouth shut.
So you’re just moving your feet again?
Si-eun’s voice overlapped over the stuttering of footsteps.
“You mean it.”
“yes.”
“Do you like girls with small breasts?”
“Well… … . uh?”
Asking something that doesn’t make sense
Was it a serious question? I tried to confirm by looking at his face, but Si-eun still didn’t make eye contact. It was pathetic to see him moving his feet while casting his gaze to the other side of me.
“Why all of a sudden?”
“just.”
“just?”
“okay. just.”
Si-eun responded as if tossing it.
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Maybe you’re just curious about my taste for breast size? After hearing my taste in the first place, what do you mean?Also, it was weird the whole meal time. Today’s Si-eun felt very different from usual. Why are you doing this? I never felt it.
no. Wait a minute.
There’s only one possibility, right?
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Maybe Si-eun was jealous of So-hye?Whatever the circumstances, it was as if I had a friendly conversation with So-hye while I was with Si-eun.
There are only two women around me, Si-eun and So-hye. There was nothing going on with So-hye, but if I had to ask, she was the only rival. You may have felt some kind of jealousy.
What I’m curious about is why it led to the size of the chest, well, the biggest difference between the two.
I pat my chin and try to answer.
“size… … doesn’t really care small or large.”
“okay?”
Si-eun shoots her eyes for a while and then.
“Then how tall are you?”
and hit an extra hit.
This was also a place that was noticeably different from Sohye. I guess it was right to be jealous.
Si-eun tilted her head toward me, who was hesitating, and asked again.
“What do you think? Do you like the small ones or the big ones?”
“Same. I’m not very interested. Small or big, it doesn’t matter.”
“okay? So how long is your hair?”
“… … .”
In this case, it seems that all my tastes are being dug up.
It’s not a big deal that Si-eun’s tastes are all exposed, but now it’s in the middle of the road. It was not a very good thing to talk about heartbreaking topics on the road in full swing.
I ponder for a moment.
If it’s my fault that I envy Si-eun, I’m the one who should pay the price.
Even if you can’t talk about your heart in the middle of the road, it’s easy if it’s just a little squeaky sound. If it’s to relieve Si-eun’s heart, she can tolerate such shame.
I put my feet down. The ground and shoes collide, and a chin and squeak is heard.
I stopped in place like that and stared at Si-eun’s back.
Noticing that he wasn’t following, Si-eun stopped a few steps ahead. After a while, Si-eun turned her back slightly and looked up at me.
“What are you doing there?”
Eyes that look a little sad. Mouth protruding a little. The look of pout was evident.
It’s been a long time since we’ve seen each other so dishonest when we’re alone. Somehow, I felt nostalgic. Raising the corners of my mouth at that thought, I took a step closer to Si-eun.
Then he spoke quietly.
“I like everything about him.”
“What?”
She smiles at Si-eun, who is tilting her head, and then continues.
“Because I love you, I like everything I have. height and hair length. The scent that you smell when you come back from a shower. The happy smile you show when you eat… … . I like it just the way it is.”
On the way to the meeting place today, Si-eun told me that I had a lot.
It was the same with Si-eun. Si-eun has lived a life worthy of imitation much more than mine. He took care of himself and grew up to be envied by others. It was natural to have so many things that I couldn’t count.
All of that was so lovely to me.
In order to convey these feelings, I tightened my throat and uttered the last words.
“My taste is… … babe.”
After the conversation, I think he spoke unfamiliar words very well.
But, well, it wasn’t like that for the parties involved. Love is, by nature, a cringe. It’s my honest heart, isn’t it weird that I can’t speak anymore?
“huh.”
But, unexpectedly, Si-eun’s reaction was not cool.
Si-eun, who turned her back quickly, walked away without saying a word to me.
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Maybe this answer wasn’t enough.These doubts quickly dissipated.
It was because Si-eun’s feet, who began to walk first, were resounding with a light rhythm.
Seeing that, I burst out laughing.
He’s really easy to pout and forgives really easily. This moment was even fortunate. He sighed in relief and quietly followed Si-eun’s side.
When I glanced at him, there was still a smile on Si-eun’s lips.
The lips slowly opened.
“I mean.”
“yes.”
“It’s been a complex ever since.”
“what?”
“… … chest.”
“ah.”
Confused, “Uh-huh.” When she heard the sound, Si-eun smiled and continued.
“When I was in school, the kids looked at me. To be honest, I didn’t feel good. So that’s it. From that time on, I tried to hide it by wearing large clothes as much as possible.”
“Well.”
Why do you like to wear clothes that have a big chest? I didn’t know there was a reason for this.
As he nodded in agreement, Si-eun said with a smile.
“still.”
Si-eun leaned back and stretched out her upper body.
“Because he said he liked it. I won’t hide it from now on.”
He said this in a playful tone. A bitter laugh broke out at the cute word.
But well.
“You don’t seem to be hiding it even now, do you?”
Even now, in her clothes and her posture, her breasts that are large enough stand out. It was at a level that I wondered if it was right to hide it.
When he said this with a chin, Si-eun blinked her eyes, then crossed her arms and covered her chest.
“This… … It’s special today for some reason.”
“okay?”
“okay.”
Is there any reason to wear clothes like this only today? Did you forget to do the laundry and only have these clothes left?
well done I don’t know what’s going on, but I decided to pretend I understood. Unless you tell me anyway, there’s no way I can find out. Don’t think too deeply.
However, even leaving this part aside, there was a point where it took a little bit.
“But I wish I didn’t show it in front of others.”
“why?”
“Why?”
There’s no need to tell me what you’re thinking. Obviously it would be. Si-eun said with a strange expression.
“I told you to do whatever you want when you go to the sea. because it doesn’t belong to you. What has changed since then?”
“Uh, what. Well, things that are not mine are still the same.”
After coughing, I answered.
“Show your body to other people, so they can see your body. I don’t want that to happen.”
“okay?”
“Of course.”
“why?”
Again I ask why. Do you really want to hear my inner thoughts? Yeah, I got it. All you have to do is tell me you want to hear it. I scratched the back of my neck and continued.
“Because I only want to see you.”
A desire that only I know, only I see, and only I want to feel. I want to keep it hidden from others. I want to protect you from everything in the world.
I just realized The fact that this is the ‘lust for monopoly’ that Si-eun spoke of.
“I just want to see you… … .”
Si-eun, who mumbled as if to recall, laughed at what was so funny.
Then Si-eun slowly came to my side.
“why?”
When we made eye contact, Si-eun’s mouth opened.
“okay. … … Because I am a possessive body. I will only show it in front of you.”
refreshing voice. It was as if a stone had been removed from the chest. And a happy-looking smile.
It seemed that the small jealousy surrounding Si-eun had been resolved.
I thought I might ask now. Speak in the most eloquent tone possible.
“Are you jealous of Sohye today?”
“okay. Idiot.”
Si-eun inflated her cheeks and answered.
“Isn’t it funny? So-hye is a person we are very grateful for, and she is a really kind and naive child. As usual, you shouldn’t be doing anything like jealousy. It would have to be.”
“by the way?”
“… … I don’t think a woman’s heart is like that.”
“Foot.”
“Do not laugh.”
What do you mean by funny? But I don’t want to see Si-eun pout again. He pressed his lips together and closed them tightly.
Si-eun said forcefully to me.
“But keep that in mind in the future.”
“What?”
When I asked, Si-eun took a step closer and hugged my arm tightly.
“In front of me… … No, even where I can’t see it. You can’t talk friendly with other girls.”
‘ he said sternly.
A warm, tickling sensation wrapped around your arm. The body temperature that travels towards the place it touches. The scent of Si-eun tickles the nose. Everything was really lovely.
Feeling them fully, I opened my mouth.
“there.”
“why?”
“… … I guess I like big breasts.”
“What?”
Si-eun laughed at my words as if it was ridiculous.