＜Episode 90＞ Take care of yourself
Either way, you have to propose.
Even if it doesn’t seem like a surprise because I slipped from the first step. No, that’s why I had to do it even more. So as not to betray the inflated expectations.
That’s why I went out alone and made a reservation for the ring. After leaving a message that he would come and get some air.
Si-eun still looked suspicious. It may be natural It’s rare for me to go out without Si-eun.
Even if it seemed like it was already over, it wouldn’t be good to give off a more dubious feeling. I had no choice but to go as quickly as possible.
Of course, the ring design was carefully selected. It is pretty enough to satisfy Si-eun without any discomfort even when wearing it on a regular basis.
So when I got home, I sat down in my chair.
After leaving the room, Si-eun put a glass down on the desk after a while.
“ruler.”
“what?”
Si-eun responded with a wink. It sounds like you have to check it yourself.
let’s look at it Steam was rising over the glass. When I put my face to check, there was a liquid with a yellowish tint inside. The aroma of the brewed tea leaves is very good.
“Is it green tea?”
“yes.”
Si-eun answered while sitting on the edge of the bed.
“Baby, you don’t drink coffee these days. So, I prepared it with green tea.”
“Well.”
I never asked to bring a car. Well, it may have looked like I was having a hard time going out in a hurry.
“It’s like a British maid.”
“How about a British maid?”
“I don’t know. Aren’t you going to prepare a lot of tea?”
“but. England drinks a lot of tea.”
It’s a meaningless conversation. Instead of continuing the story, he brought the glass to his mouth.
The warm green tea moistens the stuffy mouth. It felt as if my body had cooled down.
The wind outside in November was quite cold. The attire of the people walking on the street also became heavier.
The house is warm thanks to the heating, but Si-eun is wearing a thin cardigan. There was not much left until the wedding photo shoot or the wedding, so it seemed like he was trying to take care of himself.
Scared to put down the glass, Si-eun asked a question.
“therefore? Where did you go in such a hurry?”
“You said I guess I just came here to get some wind.”
“Does it make sense that he comes with air?”
“There is nothing that makes no sense… … .”
There was no strength in the voice of protest. I know. Even thinking about it myself, I don’t think it makes sense.
But I can’t come up with any other excuses now. To be honest, it’s even worse.
Si-eun snorted as she took her eyes off her cheeks and made eye contact.
“Well, anyway, walking is good for the body. Well done. our darling.”
It was a very looking down two. I feel more like a mother than a girlfriend or wife. Hey, I cook rice, do laundry, and do all the cleaning. It’s almost like a mother.
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MamaCome to think of it, I haven’t heard of Si-eun’s mother. Take another sip of green tea and ask.
“How is your mother these days?”
“Oh right.”
Si-eun’s face was wide open at my question.
“My mother, she said she was fine. I’m not ready to be discharged yet… … He said that he might be able to sit outside for a while on the wedding day.”
“Uh, really?”
“yes! It’s not confirmed yet. If the doctor allows it, I’ll let you know.”
Si-eun said with a sly smile. He was so happy that the corners of his lips were soaring.
It deserves it. The reason why the wedding was held near Si-eun’s house was because she was afraid that her mother would attend. I’m so happy too, but Si-eun must be miserable.
I hope this wedding will be remembered as the best moment in Si-eun’s life. I hope that I don’t have any regrets.
It felt like the wind was going smoothly, so I was very happy.
Si-eun, who had only been smiling for a while, looked at me quietly.
“Take care of your health. … … If you want to live happily ever after with me.”
The comments were so cute. I smile and answer.
“Of course. I’ll take good care of you. You don’t even have a picky eater these days.”
“I don’t even exercise, though.”
“that… … What… … I have to.”
No excuses. Embarrassed, he scratched the back of the head. Then something caught my eye.
He raises a cup of green tea and says:
“But you stopped drinking coffee. As promised.”
“yes. That was good.”
Si-eun responded with a bright voice.
Handing out my first proposal, I declared that I wouldn’t drink coffee.
Since then, I have been gradually cutting back on coffee. In the beginning, I was tired and had severe headaches because of the sudden reduction in caffeine. I’m very much used to it now.
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My body has changed a lot from when I lived with canned coffee in my mouth. I feel like my brain has been cleared. I don’t know what it was like in reality, but inside me, I felt a sense of health.As Si-eun said, it was a good thing.
“Anyway, I’ll be careful now. It’s okay if you prepare the meal yourself. I also need to exercise slowly. I will look straight ahead so that I do not get hurt while walking.”
“What kind of elementary school student are you?”
Si-eun responded with a smile. I think you listened to my serious promise with fun. Well, good is good. I smiled too.
Then Si-eun said with a gaze staring at a distant place.
“However. It’s good to say that you want to take care of yourself. we’re getting married now If he’s sick… … it seems sad If we have children, it will be difficult for our children.”
“… … yes. yes.”
It was an unheard of thing.
Si-eun’s father passed away early. My mother has been sick for several years. Si-eun had to support such a family by herself. He has grown so well without being crooked that he is even proud of him.
All of this is probably thanks to Si-eun’s upright heart.
I felt like my throat was clogged. I drank the green tea that Si-eun gave me. The last remaining sip was bitter.
“Still.”
As soon as she put the glass down, Si-eun broke her luck like this.
“It really shouldn’t happen, but if the day comes when he will be hospitalized… … . You don’t have to worry.”
“Aren’t you going to worry?”
As she tilts her head not knowing what to say, Si-eun looks straight at me.
“Because I’ll be by your side and take good care of you.”
He continued to speak with a painful smile on his face.
“I’ll be the person to talk to next to you, and I’ll sleep with you when you sleep. When it’s hard to cry… … I feel like crying too, but I’ll hold back. On the day we go home together, I will be by your side and hold your hand.”
It must have been a very serious and difficult story, but Si-eun was smiling.
It was really grateful and lovely, but at the same time, it was also sad.
Si-eun has been taking care of her sick mother. There must have been times when he suffered from a situation that only kept getting worse.
It’s not that I’m not, but didn’t he even tell me about the day I confessed to Si-eun?
There was no lack of this influence on the circumstances in which the marriage was hastily.
I didn’t want to see Si-eun sad anymore. Si-eun’s situation won’t get any better if they make up a family with me. At least it’s possible to share the hard times.
“yes. thank you.”
“So that means you have to work hard.”
Si-eun shivered playfully. okay. The answer I was hoping for would be this.
But let’s think about it.
After we got married, I became Si-eun’s most precious person.
If there comes a time when, for whatever reason, I fall down and have to be hospitalized all the time.
Because Si-eun is so kind, and because she really loves me. I’m sure he’ll take care of me without giving a single hate.
I am so selfish that I will not be able to resist such compassion.
And Si-eun will be exhausted. But at least he will hide his heart from me.
No matter how ignorant I am, I can’t help but notice it. I’d rather die from the guilt, but there’s nothing I can do about it because it’s hurting Si-eun again.
Finally, I and Si-eun are engulfed in endless sorrow… … .
Just imagining it made my heart ache.
That pain of heart turned into action. Suddenly, I sat next to Si-eun and hugged Si-eun tightly.
“Why, why?”
Si-eun’s voice seemed to be startled in her arms.
It was too sudden to do. But it was difficult to talk about. I imagined a pessimistic future by myself and even embraced it out of the blue. It’s nice to see Si-eun making fun of you the moment you speak.
So instead of explaining, I stroked Si-eun’s back hair.
Si-eun shook her head as if tickled, then wrapped her arms behind my back.
open your mouth
“Sorry.”
These were the words I wanted to convey to my imaginary future Si-eun. I am sorry to have caused you such suffering. Of course, Si-eun would have laughed and told him not to say that.
“What are you sorry for?”
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Meanwhile, the real Si-eun didn’t seem to know what I was talking about. yes it is Wouldn’t it be more surprising to know?The answer to this question is “Nothing.” and frowned slightly.
Si-eun’s voice echoed in my ear as I was about to continue to caress her like that.
“babe.”
“yes.”
“Did you have an affair?”
“uh?”
“It’s the same with leaving me behind. It’s like suddenly saying you’re sorry. Isn’t that a reasonable doubt?”
“What?”
Surprised by those words, he grabbed Si-eun’s shoulder and hurriedly faced her face.
Si-eun’s expression was full of laughter. It didn’t sound serious. Looking back, the words were also playful. It seems that he copied and used the same pranks that I used to play.
I didn’t want to stop this laugh.
Let’s stop pessimistic thoughts. We need to work hard from now on to prevent that from happening.
That first step is first.
“Would you like to go for a walk together?”
Si-eun tilted her head.
“suddenly?”
“I thought I should do some exercise.”
“What?”
It was a matter of what wind blew. You’ve just talked about taking care of your health, so it wouldn’t be an awkward flow. Is it so surprising that I said I would exercise?
Still, the answer was simple.
“okay.”
Si-eun continued speaking with her eyes full of vitality.
“A walk is always welcome. If you walk a little, you will know, but if you look around, you will not notice the passage of time.”
“Then we should go for a walk together more often.”
“It would be better if you did.”
Si-eun looked very satisfied. It felt like waving an invisible tail. I like it so much. We will have to walk together in the future.
I got up from the bed after removing myself from Si-eun. Then I stood in front of Si-eun with my coat hanging on a hanger.
Si-eun hesitated for a moment as if she did not understand what was going on, then smiled and put her hand into her coat.
And we.
They left the house holding each other’s hands.