Episode 149 Secrets are bound to be revealed someday.
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In the room Kazunari had prepared, Aina, who had been sitting in my bedroom, was sitting.
Not in the usual formal attire, but in a loose-fitting look.
I couldn’t help but be a bit surprised by that.
It’s been a long time since we’ve been together, and I wonder if I’m surprised by this all over again, but I have a reason for not doing so.
Because Aina has rarely worn clothes that reveal a lot of skin like this.
Even the moment you sleep.
At least once last year I wore a swimsuit.
Even if it was done of his own will, it was as if he did it as a reward for me.
It was only natural that a sudden wind could not understand why he was acting like this.
“what are you doing?”
“You were waiting.”
Aina approached with a languid step, gently hugged me and dragged me to the bed.
Because the behavior was so natural, even I was naturally swept away by the atmosphere, but unfortunately I couldn’t.
Because Aina’s face, lying face to face, wasn’t very natural.
His face was stained with a bright red blush.
It was evident that she was very nervous, not like her.
Not anyone else, Aina, who is famous for always making a cold face.
What was even more surprising was that she was still staring at me without turning her head.
She hates showing her shy side more than anyone else.
“What, what are you staring at me like that?”
“just. Because it’s pretty.”
Just before the scene where Aina’s face was about to heat up even more red came into my eyes.
Perhaps she didn’t want to show any more shame than this, she rushed towards my lips before even seeing it in her eyes, and that sudden attack marked the beginning of a kiss that was more intense than ever.
Sometimes, even at the moment when their mouths fell to breathe in, when their eyes met, they wanted each other right away.
After countless thin solid lines continued and broken, we were able to find a lover who had become messy and messy at some point.
Even such a disheveled Aina was still pretty to me, and she was someone I didn’t want to let go.
“Sung Jin-ah.”
“yes?”
“You know the real reason I no longer get into your heart, do you?”
‘It gets into the heart.’
He’s probably talking about his third ability, mind control.
The reason why I don’t use it is, of course, I don’t know.
But, it was also something I didn’t need to know.
because I trust her
“I don’t know. I don’t know, it’s okay.”
“I want to know you more.”
Two slender hands grabbed my hand.
“I want to get to know you, the one you like, the one you hate, and the one you don’t understand.”
“So I prefer you, who has a weird, incomprehensible, and stupid side. Even though I thought I knew too much about you, you always showed me a new side. And, it seems that there is not much time left to get to know you.”
You don’t have much time left to get to know me.
I suddenly stopped talking and tried to intervene, but Aina continued speaking as if she would not give me any chance to do so.
“It is of course important to know in advance. But more valuable and important than that is the experience you get in the process of getting to know each other. The experience of knowing someone else. You were the first to awaken that.”
“Maybe I’m so dull I haven’t noticed it yet. Still, I know now. Because the heart is connected. As long as the hearts are connected, even a dull person like me will be able to get to know the other person very slowly.”
“However, in my experience with other people, I couldn’t feel this heartbreaking tickle, the tender heart, the warm, warm warmth. It was something I could only find in you. So”
The clasping hands trembled softly.
Like you’ll miss it soon.
So, I clasped my hands even tighter.
so as not to escape from within me.
“You only need to know one thing. Before you leave me, maybe I can leave you with something sure to remember.”
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My heart was pounding.Because I almost let go of my hand unintentionally.
Aina was giving her hands a lot of strength, as if she knew I would react like that.
Just like I did a while ago.
“Look at this. Did you ever try to carefully let go? Oh, you hold me so tenderly. You thought I wouldn’t know?”
Aina was still smiling.
However, he looked very sad, so weak that he would burst into tears if he said anything.
“Don’t ask me how I knew. How long have I been with you, there’s no way I can’t not even notice it? You mean, at important moments, you’re always looking somewhere invisible. A faraway place that not only me, but no one can see. A place so far away that I can’t even fathom the direction. A place we can’t even look at together.”
“So, I need proof. Proof that you were by my side. It’s not because you think you’ll change your mind someday, it’s a proof that you will be remembered even if there is an unavoidable circumstance that forces you to leave me without leaving anything behind.”
“That’s what made me bold. Since his father’s permission was also denied, there is no reason to hesitate, right? Leave this body, heart, proof that you were there. Actually, there may be better evidence than that, but it’s still a bit early, isn’t it? Let’s start rehearsing from now on.”
Aina carefully loosened her front door and tried to break through.
Of course I stopped.
“why… ? Why are you trying to stop?”
Aina suddenly raises her head and looks at me as if she’s doing something.
However, there was no sign of resistance or poison in her eyes.
All that was contained was tears.
“I was waiting for this moment, not this moment.”
“I, no, you don’t have much time left. That doesn’t matter now.”
“I won’t leave. Even if I leave, I will definitely come back.”
“It’s a lie, it’s a lie! After lovingly exhorting you like this, you’re going to leave someday. to a place of no return. So, don’t stop me please.”
No, no.
I was never kind.
The kind thing was that she was sobbing in a low voice that our story might flow into other people’s ears, even though it was not enough to vomit out her anger.
not me
That’s why I had to borrow power from the ‘usual Aina’.
If it wasn’t the gentle Aina who is here right now, but Aina who is cool and thorough in everything, I can give you a clear answer.
“Calm down, Aina. Calm down and look at me slowly. It’s not that I don’t think it can’t be done, it’s that I think I can make it happen at any cost. That was the ‘original Aina Mitsuru’. Do you know what I mean?”
Aina shook her head as if she did not understand.
“Now, think again. Is there a story you always tell me whenever you’re angry? That’s it. You already know how to keep me from leaving. And, you can do that.”
With those words, the gun began to return to Aina’s eyes in an instant.
it was remembered
If it were the original Ainara, how would you have overcome this situation?
“Okay, now you understand?”
As she nodded, the sadness slowly escaped from her face.
The void started to be filled with other things.
For example, joy.
“… As I say all the time, sometimes you seem like a crazy person. I don’t know if I should say it’s extraordinary, or if I should say that it tasted good. The idea of coming up with such a method is itself.”
“That’s my way. As I’ve always seen you from my side, what?”
“I don’t want to hurt the one I love. It’s a method I don’t want to use either.”
“It’s stupid. I will do anything to get what I want. Wasn’t that just Aina’s way? If you think about it that way, this is the way to truly achieve ‘Aina’.”
She showed her chest to Aina as a sign of her intention to do whatever she wanted.
However, Aina was looking at her with concern, as if she could really handle it.
“Are you really okay? Do whatever I want.”
“However much.”
“Yeah, if you really want to. Even if I have to spend the rest of my life in darkness later, I have nothing else to say.”
Yes, of course, Aina who is kind and warm is good, but I’m more used to Aina who utters such eerie words casually.
Words are scarier than anyone else’s, but the way he clings to me and doesn’t fall off makes me feel more lovable.
“it’s okay. Still, you’ll be by my side.”
“Yeah, forever.”
She held me in my arms and smiled.
As I spit out the most terrifying words I’ve ever said,
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