237 – Hilde’s Melancholy (2)
Hilde and I have seen everything we can and should not see.
However, when we are sharing separate rooms, we never open the door and enter without permission.
Why? It’s not good to suddenly enter someone else’s room, but Hilde will also be hurt if she shows something she doesn’t want to see.
I went to her room and knocked on her door.
“Hilde, can I come in?”
Hilde’s surprised voice was heard from inside the room.
“Lord, lord? Please wait a moment!”
According to Karin, Hilde has heard that she always swings her spear from dawn these days.
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I deliberately came to see her before the sun had risen yet…
Seeing that there was no sign of sleepiness in his voice, does that mean he was already up to go to training?
At this level, it’s not training, it’s almost self-denial training, so it’s strange that Karin isn’t worried.
“The problem is that loyalty and love are too sincere to the point of foolishness.”
As soon as I muttered that, I heard a pounding sound coming from inside the room.
‘I have to pretend not to hear.’
After waiting for a few minutes, the door opened.
“Please come in, my lord.”
I didn’t wear any makeup, but in that short period of time, I looked so clean that not a single stray hair was visible.
The clothing is not too thin or revealing, which I like, but it is a white dress that is barely noticeable.
There is barely a trace of the days when knights did not dress up and only wore dull clothes like men wore in the past.
“Yes.”
“Please sit here, my lord.”
After I sat down where Hilde suggested, she immediately poured me some of her cold water.
“I came out early in the morning because I had something I wanted to talk about, but I didn’t even expect him to wake up already. “What on earth did you do to get up so early?”
“I don’t have anything special to do right now, so I tried to focus on training from morning to night.”
It is highly desirable to practice from the very early hours of the morning, when the sun is just about to rise.
However, if coolant is not added to the machine, and sometimes it cools down when overheated, or stops working, and is not maintained, it gets damaged.
No matter how strong Hilde’s mental strength is, if she continues to undergo difficult training soon after returning from the war, her mind and body will soon become exhausted.
As a result, my expression naturally became a little crumpled.
No matter how desirable your attitude is, if you don’t take care of your body and mind, like an office worker who dies from overwork…
Even if she is healed, something bad may happen to her.
“It’s nice to see you working hard on training…”
A sigh came out of her mouth.
“Why on earth are you working so hard? And then her body breaks down.”
Hilde answered hesitantly while chewing her lips.
“It’s because I’m nervous that I won’t be able to help my lord.”
“Hilde, you are always helpful to me. “She is both a knight and a woman.”
On the battlefield, he is performing very well as an assault leader who stirs up enemy lines according to my orders.
In addition, he is someone who comforts me emotionally when I am having a hard time.
But Hilde bit her lip tightly and shook her head.
“Although my lord said so. “I am no longer of much help to my lord.”
I thought about rebutting that statement, but then I stopped speaking.
In order to stop Hilde from being excessively obsessed with her training, we must first hear why she is doing it.
“When fighting at Villa Hora Castle, the master’s level was an expert swordsman equal to mine. So at that time, it was able to fulfill its role as the master’s sword. “My lord, you are strong, but I was able to save you from many dangers.”
There are countless times when I saved Hilde’s life, but on the other hand, there were many times when she survived because Hilde intervened at the right time in a crisis where I almost died.
So, if one of us had not been there, we might not have been in this world anymore.
“So I was very happy. I can be of help to my lord. I will be able to do all my work as my lord’s sword in the future. “That’s what I thought.”
If Karin and Lucia want to help me because they love me, Hilde’s love can be said to be almost unconditional.
Her loyalty was the same.
“So, I was happy when my lord received more influence and recognition from the nobles as the leader of the mercenary corps. Just as you promised me in the past, I kept you in my heart every time you challenged the impossible and made the impossible possible. “It was my pride to live like this.”
Hilde’s pride is obvious even without words.
“Like a person reaching for a star shining high in the sky, he is challenging the impossible and achieving fame. Even though my lord was a mercenary leader, the path he took was one I could not help but admire. “I was so proud just to be able to walk next to him.”
Her eyes were overflowing with emotion, and before she knew it, tears were welling up in her eyes.
“I bragged to my father in heaven every day. “Every day, I say, ‘There is someone who recognizes me this much.'”
Then Hilde shed her tears.
“But at the same time, my heart ached. “My lord, you have already reached the advanced level of expert, intermediate, and advanced swordsmanship.”
Most knights die without ever reaching the level of expert.
The rate of those who cannot overcome the level of expert to intermediate is also very high.
Especially at the Expert level, it is so rare that you can immediately receive the title of Baron Danseung even if your status is a slave.
They say that if there are a thousand engineers, one of them will be promoted to expert level or not.
Therefore, from the expert level onwards, the modifier ‘advanced level’ is usually added.
“In addition, didn’t you receive the title of baron and achieve a great victory without anyone’s help? But I have been standing still ever since I met my lord at Villa Hora Castle.”
Hilde buried her face in her chest and began to cry.
“My lord always stays by my side, but it feels like he’s already gone too far away. Now, if I were to cross swords with my lord, I would be no match for him. I hate it so, so much and it’s scary. “It feels like I have become unnecessary to my lord…”
As soon as I heard those words, I patted Hilde’s head.
“I know you want to help me, but from the Expert Intermediate level onwards, it is an area of enlightenment, not training or actual combat. So, you can’t go beyond that level by practicing too hard.”
It is said that you can reach the level of Expert Beginner if you work hard, but after that, everyone says the same thing.
A moment of realization, rather than effort, is the final key to overcoming the wall.
“Hilde, the weapon you use is a spear, so you have an advantage against knights who use swords, but you were able to survive against a guy who has reached expert level with his spear skills. “If we look at technology alone, we can already go beyond the limits.”
If Hilde’s basic capabilities had not been sufficient, she would have died before she could survive even a few battles when she clashed weapons with an expert swordsman.
It’s scary to think about, but when you look at it objectively, it’s true.
“So, don’t focus too much on training. “If your body breaks down, you may never be able to hold a sword again, let alone pass the state.”
Hilde opened her mouth to refute what I said, but no rebuttal came out of her mouth.
This is because it is an unfortunate accident that often occurs among swordsman swordsmen.
In our mercenary corps, there were more than one or two people who were discharged after training too hard.
Then I hugged Hilde and patted her back.
As gently as possible, like a mother comforting her young child.
“And I have always seen Hilde working hard. How dare Karin come directly to me and say this? ‘Please let me rest.’ Like this.”
Hilde kept saying something, but she was so crying that it was impossible to hear what she was saying.
Still, she could tell what she wanted to say.
“Don’t worry, she’s always doing well. “If I push myself too hard, I, Lucia, and Karin will be worried.”
“Yes, my lord…”
“So, don’t do anything today or for the next three days and just rest. “Anyway, there’s nothing to do while I’m here other than going to the banquet.”
All the soldiers are on vacation and enjoying their vacation…
There is no problem in turning all the tasks given to Hilde back to me.
“And is there anything you would like to receive? “Tell me anything apart from the rewards given by our barony.”
Even if you ask me to buy a spear made of pure mithril, I will buy it for you.
The price may be close to 2,000 gold coins, but Hilde’s potential value is not that much.
Hilde grabbed my collar and whispered in her ear.
“If it is okay with you, my lord, please give me one day. “I feel most at ease when I am with my lord.”