＜ Episode 284 >
The devil tempted the Savior by showing him all nations and nations.
And said. All this power and glory will be given to you if you bow down to me.
The Messiah resolutely resisted the temptation.
If so, can anyone who is not the Savior also endure the temptations of the wilderness?
don’t know that
So let’s ask another question.
there is no temptation Even if you do not bow down to the devil, you are born with a fate that is condemned as soon as you are born, all of which will naturally become yours over time.
As I lived such a life, I saw how the greatest father more than anyone else could freely use the legacy that would be mine.
A child who lived by seeing such a figure. What will you really feel?
What do you think?
shoulders are heavy
A father’s legacy is not a seat that can be occupied simply by sitting.
to occupy and retain power.
What if the situation of him and his younger brother or older brothers were different?
I would have married a decent girl with ease. Anyone, whatever you like.
‘If only I had been born five minutes late.’
If it had been, the younger brother who died because of the fun of newlyweds would have been here.
I don’t care if it’s a ghost or anything. I would have just married a woman I liked and lived freely like my brother.
However, the clothes given to him belonged to the Crown Prince, and he was to inherit that crown in the future.
‘I’d rather live as a prince for the rest of my life.’
If you don’t have to inherit your mother’s coffin.
The people want another father. I see my father in me, who even has a similar face.
A great war, a victory, a conquered enemy, another war, a victory.
The Russian Empire lost less than a million casualties in the Second Great War.
All were ornaments that adorned my father’s myth.
‘I’d rather have officially married my little mother.’
Nikolai might have been in my place.
Can you grab them and lead them?
The brothers have already spoken. to hand over power to Congress.
Already formally – practically everything was up to the father’s will – the tsar’s power had largely passed to the Duma. In fact, it’s largely because my father couldn’t afford to take care of all of that, so he passed on everything except the essentials.
Furthermore, the imperial family is turned into an ornament and is forced to retreat.
The reason is simple.
‘I am not a father.’
i followed my father Sometimes I worked all night, and I adapted my lifestyle to it. It was the easiest part to imitate among his father’s characteristics.
To relieve the stress, he constantly dragged new women into the bed. conceived her own child.
But the next day after getting five or six girls in the same bed at the same time, I felt one thing.
Also, I can’t be a father.
I am not a father.
What my father can do, I am not capable of doing.
The more I respect my father and the more I love my mother. He only felt the realization that he could not do what his father could do and what his mother could do, as he inherited the blood of the two people.
I am very similar to my father.
I, who had slept in my mother’s womb for ten months.
I can’t help but look up at the two of you.
Even after my body matured, I was an eternal child.
That’s why I whine even though I know it’s meaningless. Attracts more women to bed. Actress, singer, model, celebrity. Beauty. Koreans, foreigners, and nobles. royalty.
They cheer me on. Thousands of soldiers and citizens cheer me, waving flags, and flower petals being scattered.
But the expectations in their eyes are the bullets pouring out for me, the flames that burn my body, and the pile of dirt on my body.
They don’t want ‘me’. I want another ‘father’.
Should I live up to their expectations? But I am not a father.
I don’t want to disappoint them. But I can’t help but disappoint with my abilities.
So I avoided it. If you avoid it, if you don’t take the test in the first place, your transcript won’t come out.
The constitutional monarchy might be praised by some as bravery, but for me it was just a means of escape.
However, I realize once again that human memory is not easily erased.
If the cabinet is dissatisfied with the citizens and with the army, they will again call for tyranny.
He will come to him, who will have to live for many years after his parents are gone, and ask him to put on his sword and hold the baton again.
Is there any reason for the people to forget the thrilling success of the enactment?
Is there any way to forget
When I was young, the wall that protected me with a solid shield was a hard fence that made him unable to stand with it.
If you were a member of the royal family, you could have pursued your own happiness for the rest of your life. But he was a prince. That is why one day we must surpass our father, we must break down the stronghold of father and put forward his existence.
But I don’t have the ability to do that. I don’t think I have the strength to break the wall and move forward, and I’m afraid of how hard and painful it will be to break the wall.
They don’t even have the proper tools to break the walls. Even if there are, there are only very dangerous methods.
So he ran away. Instead of breaking down my father’s wall and erecting a statue of me, I make it so that no one can erect a statue of me in the future.
The scent of lilacs and lilies lingers on the tip of the nose of the young man who broke the wall and passed it on to others.
“Grandma.”
Protecting the former Empress, the Crown Prince spoke quietly.
“I think the only person who would listen to these complaints is Grandma, to the Lev who had been in the same room for ten months, to Nikolai, to that damn bastard Nikita…. It’s a story that can’t be said, let alone the women I’ve touched. . My parents are even worse, and so are my little mothers…”
Victor said feeling exhausted.
“I think I will have a lot of complaints and complaints like this to tell my grandmother in the future.”
No answer came back.
“Whether it’s Grandpa or Grandma… they’ll listen to me.”
The dead do not say anything to the complaints of the living and listen to them generously.
“I heard your grandfather complaining that he handed over a lot to his father from an early age. Did your grandfather feel the same way?”
There is no answer. Even the emperor cannot hear the answers of the dead.
At first he didn’t expect it either.
“I’m sorry, I only showed a weak side. But I… wouldn’t be able to wield that kind of power, it’s too much for me.”
The young man, who had tasted frustration too early, closed his eyes.
“I cannot fully devote my whole life to the country. I am… just me.”
He cannot be his father.
I can’t be his mother either.
“I wouldn’t say it’s selfish. It just doesn’t fit the place…”
Of course, he knew. That his other brothers and sisters would also stubbornly reject the throne.
So he could not fall into complete self-hatred. Rather than that he lacks the ability of others, everyone, including himself, is not fit for it, but simply because his father is so great that no one can bear the burden alone.
The father is so great, he is not ugly. As I looked around, I realized it again.
“So, I…”
Then, the door swung open.
“Do you see all the chaos?”
“…… Little mother.”
“Well, there was a faint heart attack, but your father’s heartbreaking relationship with your woman, after all, was the cause.”
“……Why are you here?”
“To protect the Crown Prince because the Crown Prince keeps the crown of the Empress Dowager Mama alone all night long?”
“The bodyguards have Spetsnaz.”
“I am in charge.”
“Then just go watch. I don’t need comfort or anything like that.”
“Oh, did you think I came to comfort you?”
“Can I ask you a favor?”
“What? Let’s hear it.”
“Can you not use that tone of voice? If you listen to what you say, you look like my older sister, think about your age…”
In an instant, Victor saw something crumble in Irina’s hand.
“I think I heard something wrong, would you mind repeating it?”
“……”
To be honest, even if Irina was a real older sister, she had a face that I would believe.
‘How old are you really? Even my father didn’t seem to know exactly.’
“You were thinking that kind of thing right now.”
“no.”
“My age doesn’t matter, I don’t care if I’m 230-year-old Baba Yagarden or 20-year-old Vasilisa, a flowery 20-year-old girl (both characters from traditional Russian folklore, roughly the same story as Cinderella or Bean Sprout)?”
Viktor tried to protest that he wasn’t even 20, but he shut his mouth because he thought he was going to get hit.
“The story is a bit different, but like I said before, I didn’t come here to comfort you. I came here to say something.”
“……”
“Didn’t you see once or twice that I had a son who strayed from a very handsome father? Besides, you’ve realized everything I can say by yourself, so even if you want to comfort me, I don’t have anything to say. Someone I saw as a kid couldn’t do it.”
“…who are you?”
“Yes, there was a father and a son who shared the same name with your brother and your maternal uncle. The son hated his father because he was too oppressed by his father, and the father wanted his son to be like him, and in the end, the father-son relationship that started to fall apart in one way or another fell apart.”
After that, she shook her head as if she didn’t want to talk.
“Well, that’s not a good story. You did a good job as the eldest son of a great father just because you didn’t get to that point, just because you didn’t try to deny your father. So far, this is just my pure sentiment… Just do what you want, since your father doesn’t believe you will do as much as he does, what do you think your father is doing now?”
“……”
“In order to make sure that his son, who is inferior to him, ascends to the throne, he is working so that even one person can do it even if he rises. Thanks to you, I keep working overtime.”
Irina put her hand on Victor’s shoulder.
‘What kind of power…’
Victor is strong and tall just like his father. However, the weight on Irina’s slender arms was too heavy for Victor to bear.
“I didn’t tell your father, because if you let them know that you are going through late puberty, someone who is already struggling might lose their hair. But remember, it is also arrogant to try to do things on your own that are beyond your ability.”