70 – Shame
Shael eats my dessert.
She was intoxicated watching such a scene, and before long, the plates containing the desserts were visible on the floor.
Shael looked at me. It means simple. Means I want more dessert.
It’s not bad for your health anyway, so you can do as much as you like.
But I want to try something new.
There was a food that just came to mind.
The mint chocolate flavored cupcakes were made in that way. Imagining Shael’s reaction, I handed over the cupcakes.
Wouldn’t they spit it out before I could swallow it or glared at me for not liking it?
Maybe he’ll act to feed me cupcakes too.
Anyway, Sael’s reaction will be cute. It will be fun at the same time.
She asked Shael, expecting a response.
“How are you?”
Shael took a bite of a cupcake. Her mouth opened as she carefully savored the cupcake.
It wasn’t for talking. Shael was eating cupcakes again. She doesn’t even answer me.
The cupcakes were gone before I knew it.
“More, please.”
“⋯.”
Is that delicious?
First of all, I know that Sael likes my dessert.
However, the current situation is not easily understandable.
“⋯⋯Is that delicious?”
“⋯?”
Shael nodded her head as if asking for something obvious.
“⋯.”
Obviously, even the best chefs in the Azbel family struggled with Shael’s taste…
Maybe Sael’s taste is unique.
I spent time ignoring Sael’s request to make more mint chocolate cupcakes.
* * *
After that, Shael’s room.
Me and Shael sat face to face as we used to.
Awkward atmosphere. It was the first time they checked their hearts and met each other again in Shael’s room.
Shael opened her mouth. A somewhat unnatural expression. I can’t even make eye contact with mine.
“⋯⋯The weather is nice.”
Has Shael ever talked to me about the weather?
No. It may not be a strange thing now that I have checked my heart, but….
Is the weather nice?
It was raining so I used an umbrella. The scenery outside the window was still full of dark clouds.
“Did you say the weather was nice?”
“⋯What kind of food do you like?”
Answers from Dongmunseo. First of all, I answered Shael’s question.
“I like cheesecake.”
“What is your favorite hobby?”
“I like fishing.”
This time, Shael looks at me and asks me. I felt strange.
Leaving aside the questions Sael would never ask, Sael was looking at her as if he were reading something from her.
It was clear that there was something behind me, with Shael’s eyes constantly on me.
So I said.
“Come to think of it, it seems that Duke Jespen called.”
“⋯?”
Actually, I didn’t call. I didn’t want to lie like this, but…
Anyway, Duke Jespen would like it. After Shael, her unfilial daughter, came to Azbel from the Baslet family, she did not even properly communicate with the Duke of Jespen.
The Duke of Jespen would be aware of my intentions to speak with her daughter.
Shael stood up from her seat. Even as she wakes up, she looks at something intently.
Then, he puts me in his eyes and makes a face as if he is breaking out in a cold sweat. Then sit back in the chair.
It means there is something I shouldn’t find out about. So I need to check that something more.
“Aren’t you going?”
“⋯⋯ Go with me.”
I think of a way to send Sael alone.
“I am tired, so I will get some sleep. I think the Duke said he was talking about my engagement with you…”
As soon as I woke up, Sael and I had many things happen, but I passed out for 15 days.
Of course, if you say you’re tired, you’ll be worried. I also said that Duke Jespen would tell me about my engagement…
If it’s Sael, I’ll be curious and can’t stand it. She got up from her seat immediately after Shael opened the door and left.
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A quick-witted Duke Jespen would understand my situation. If it were my Duke of Spen, he would also enjoy talking to his daughter.
Anyway, I moved her body to where Shael’s gaze had just been.
A piece of paper is lying there. A piece of paper with the small handwriting of Sael clearly written on it.
ㅡWhat kind of food do you like?
ㅡ What is your favorite hobby?
Questions Sael asked me. Normally, she asked questions that would have been difficult for Shael to say.
The Sael I know has never been interested in her boyfriend.
So even now when you open up to me, it must have been very difficult for you to express that.
This paper was a kind of script. Shael’s script for asking me everyday questions.
Reading what is originally written is a way to be less nervous.
Since you learned magic, you should have been able to see the writing on the paper from afar.
I read the questions Shael hadn’t asked yet.
ㅡ How much do you exercise?
ㅡ What is your favorite thing?
Everyday questions. I hadn’t thought of anything up to this point.
That’s right, because these were the kind of questions that ordinary people would exchange.
But not from the next question.
—-What was your relationship with a commoner named Clie?
ㅡ Is there anything you want from me?
I swept her face. It was because the handwriting, which had been written neatly, was irregularly jagged before I knew it.
You can guess how Shael was feeling when she wrote these questions. She must have been bad.
ㅡWhat do you like about me?
There are even questions that make her question her own attractiveness.
Shael was anxious.
How I was with another woman in the past, and whether I want something from her in Sael.
If you look at those questions, it is a fact that you can understand.
She even doubted her own attractiveness.
She seemed to have a perfect and happy time with Shael just a moment ago ⋯⋯.
It was my misunderstanding of not noticing Shael’s anxiety.
Perhaps it is natural. Shael is bad at human relationships. No matter how happy she was with me, she wouldn’t have been able to avoid the anxiety that was constantly engulfing her.
Maybe Sael knows that I contacted Clie.
Even before I confessed to Sael, she suspected that I was in love with another woman.
My absence for 15 days must have hurt Shael’s emotions.
Everything was my fault. Even if it wasn’t intentional.
So I have to make it right. I thought while holding a pen in Shael’s room.
‘I’m not good at using cheesy words.’
But if Sael is at stake, the story is different. For Sael’s sake, he could become a greasy man.
Square
My answers to Sael’s numerous questions began to be engraved.
After putting the filled paper back in its original place. Shael finally returned after talking with Duke Jespen.
Now it was time to appreciate Shael’s blushing face.
* * *
Shael looked at Eran. Now that she has finished her conversation with the Duke of Jespen, she should be able to continue her barrage of questions towards Ran.
She turned her head to her barely-opening mouth. It was towards the script.
If it was just watching and reading, it would have prevented me from being embarrassed even a little bit.
“How much do you exercise?”
Shael’s mouth was closed. The handwriting, not Shael’s, is written right below it.
ㅡFor someone, I spend most of my day exercising.
Shael lowered her gaze. Sael’s other question also had someone’s answer written on it.
—-What was your relationship with a commoner named Clie?
ㅡWe are in an enemy relationship, so you don’t have to worry.
That was not the end.
ㅡ Is there anything you want from me?
ㅡ It would be nice if we could spend even a little bit of time together without exception.
Shael sighed.
ㅡWhat do you like about me?
ㅡFrom start to finish, it’s cute.
Leaving aside one unread question, she turned her head away.
I felt like her face would burst with shame if I read the script any more.
“⋯.”
Obviously, I wrote the script because of the questions that are not easily articulated to Eran.
I don’t want to feel ashamed in the slightest.
It was a simple principle.
If you just read the script without thinking as much as possible, you won’t feel ashamed.
But it wasn’t. Rather, when Shael saw her script, she only made her face red with shame.
No, maybe Shael felt ashamed more than ever.
“Her face was red. Are you okay?”
Eran speaks with a shameless smile. Shael said with a grunt.
“⋯⋯Who is it?”
I will not be defeated.
Even if Eran feels ashamed of himself…
She wouldn’t blush for thinking about Eran as much as herself.
So, she said Eran should have a bigger heart for her to like herself.
Shael, who was chewing on her past thoughts, managed to turn her head away. To see answers she hasn’t seen yet.
You can see the text.
Shael’s handwriting hesitantly wrote because of her bad mood. Beneath it, Eran’s handwriting was clearly written, as if to indicate her firm will.
ㅡ What is your favorite thing?
ㅡShael Azbel.
This time, too, it was Shael’s complete defeat. Shael’s flushed face conveyed the news of her victory to Eran.