12. How can you know that much?
In no time, the atmosphere at the actors table has matured, and conversations on various topics, such as concerns about acting and stress, have become the main focus.
Actor Jo Min-cheol also recently confessed the stress caused by his acting.
“At some point, after the public started to have expectations for my acting, the pressure was too great. Of course, it’s something I’m grateful for, but by my standards, I always thought that my acting was lacking, so I couldn’t feel satisfied.”
“Yes. I agree. No matter how many times I received the script and read it, when I acted without understanding the character properly, I felt a lot of stress thinking ‘I’m acting falsely’.”
“I lost more than 20 kg in order to play an Lou Gehrig patient in ‘Forever in Your Arms’ this time, but in the end, I always feel like I am not a real Lou Gehrig patient, so I always feel inadequate.”
Gyu-ha recalled the experience of living a terminally ill life and dying while silently listening to what his seniors were saying.
And he talked in great detail about the process of emotional change he felt at that time and the thoughts he had while facing the moment of death.
“No, how can you know that much?”
Gyu-ha said that he knew him well because he had an acquaintance who had an incurable disease, and Jo Min-cheol thanked him with a more refreshing expression.
“Thank you! That was a big help.”
As time passed, most of the actors went back with their managers, and team leader Han Jeong-hee, who looked slightly drunk, came to Kyu-ha with a glass.
“Finally, I can talk to Kyuha-san. I thought I would spend it talking casually, but what two hours were you held?”
“hahahahaha… it happened like that after talking about this and that.”
Team leader Han Jeong-hee, who was staring at Gyu-ha, filled her glass with soju and poured it into her mouth.
“Eh… I guess I still lack a lot as a team leader.”
“I have a different opinion. The former team leader is so competent that I am often surprised.”
“No no… After watching Kyu-ha’s broadcast this time, I was disappointed and angry with myself… The entertainment team leader didn’t know anything about the actors he belonged to.”
“The thing I couldn’t tell you was a sin—”
“Nope! This is entirely my fault. I ask questions first and try to get to know them, and we get to know each other while having drinks like this! At least my actor should have done that. It was like a habit of saying that a team leader isn’t just asking for work and taking good care of him, and I was doing that.”
Then, although it was half-closed, he held out the glass to Kyu-ha with burning eyes.
“On the wall! Have a drink with me alone! Got it!? Let’s get closer! Cheers!”
“Ah yes… Cheers.”
Gyu-ha, who unknowingly gave a sharp answer to the force of chief Han Jeong-hee, drank the last remaining soju.
And soon after, Han Jung-hee fell asleep on the table.
I can feel the sincerity of Han Jeong-hee, who considers Kyu-ha like a family member in the fence, not just a business partner, so there are people like this even today… I felt a surprise.
And on the corners of Kyuha’s lips, a faint smile hung that he didn’t even recognize.
The Stella Entertainment dinner ended when a female employee assisted team leader Han Jeong-hee and took him home.
***
Usually, actors often experience various aftereffects after their work is over. It was a common phenomenon for actors to the extent that there was even a psychiatric paper related to it.
Symptoms can vary depending on what kind of role they have been given, but in a nutshell, it is most common to have genuine feelings for their partner actors, and actors who play depressive roles feel empty or very sensitive because they are buried in the depression given by their role. There are severe cases of losing or becoming aggressive.
Therefore, actors used to take a break for as little as two months to as long as several years after their work was finished, and shake off the remnants of their emotions.
Stella Entertainment also has a lot of acting actors, so consideration and management for that part were thoroughly followed. Basically, they were allowed to take a break of about two months, and after that, they asked the actors for their intentions and discussed the direction of their next work.
This is also the reason why actors have a perception that Stellar Entertainment is a good agency.
Of course, Kyuha was also given a break. Of course, there was no remnant of emotion for Kyuha in the first place, so there was no need to take a break, but there was no way to explain it, so I decided to take a break for about two months.
Gyu-ha personally had a busy day. First of all, I moved my house to a bigger and closer place to the company. Since there wasn’t much luggage, Isa and Bong-gu, the manager, quickly finished it.
Then, I went to my old company and bought a large dinner for CEO Seol Woo-don and the staff, and I went to the pilot temple to say hello to the monks, and donated the necessary items for the monks and the temple with the amount I received this time.
Gyu-ha did not bring all of these with him out of any longing or nostalgia.
Gyu-ha also knew that it was the right time to visit at this time because he was only at home for a break, and he had talked about it on the broadcast.
Anyway, the former employees and the pilot monks were very happy to see Gyu-ha and congratulated him on his success.
And finally, he went to the ‘Blue Bird Nursery School’ where he had been briefly involved.
Perhaps it was a long time since he left this place, but the head of the nursery school had changed.
Currently, an elderly nun, who was in charge of the orphanage, identified herself as Sister Anna Kang.
When she revealed that Kyu-ha was from this place, she was very surprised and thanked him for finding him.
Kyu-ha announced her intention to donate to director Anna Kang, and distributed toys, sports equipment, and snacks that she had prepared in advance to the children.
“Wow~ This is the doll I wanted~!”
“wow! This soccer ball is so different!!”
The children really liked the gift of Kyu-ha, who sniped their taste, and the director Kang Anna watched the scene with satisfaction.
“The kids really like it. Thank you, Mr. Kyuha.”
“What. The kids like it, so I’m happy too.”
Afterwards, Kyu-ha spent a month with the children at the orphanage under the name of volunteer work, helping with cleaning and washing dishes.
Gyuha’s continued stay here was not because of sympathy or pity for the children.
It was because there was nothing to do during the break, and spending time with the children was quite good.
Anyway, since we were together almost every day for over a month, most of the children had no resistance to Kyu-ha, and on the contrary, the children approached him first and showed interest in Kyu-ha.
“brother! Please take a look at this. I can’t solve this.”
“brother. I drew this, is this the right way to draw it?”
“Kyuha hyung! please fix this It’s completely broken.”
While Kyuha was living in the orphanage, she was in charge of all the minor chores that occurred inside, but since the children are between the ages of 4 and 17, the needs of each age group were slightly different.
Infants and young children were interested in things like painting and music, and children over middle school felt a lack of education necessary for entrance examinations.
Gyu-ha filled the children’s deficiencies in an easy-to-understand manner regardless of any field, and as time passed, most of the children started looking for Gyu-ha when they had questions or problems.
“Kyu-ha hyung… Actually, a few days ago, a woman asked me, ‘Don’t you want to see mom?’, and she said, ‘This is more fun’? But it’s a lie, I really miss my mom even now… But I was afraid that she would abandon me and never come to see me, so I told her that I didn’t want to see her, but I feel so sorry for her… heh heh”
Kyu-gyu, who has been in the nursery for almost a year, confessed his wounds in front of Kyu-ha and cried.
Gyu-ha stroked Jeong-gyu’s hair and said in a calm but soft voice.
“Mom never abandoned you. Otherwise, you wouldn’t call like that every time. Mom is preparing to live with you on a regular basis. If we wait a little longer, she will come to pick up Jeong-gyu, so we just have to believe in her and support her.”
Since then, it is unclear whether rumors have spread among the children, and there are many cases where children with ferocious personalities sneak up on Kyuha and talk to her or consult with her about their concerns.
In fact, the existence of guiding children was a novelty itself. First of all, they did not look at them with sympathy or compassion. Children’s sensitivity is more sensitive than adults think, and they catch adults’ emotions like instinct.
Most of the adults who visited the nursery school had a lot of good people, but they felt that they were looking at them with sympathy and compassion.
On the contrary, Kyuha’s eyes were plain. The children knew that sympathy and sympathy were not found, and that they were simply seen as beings themselves.
In addition, there was nothing he didn’t know or couldn’t do, so he was no different from Superman who disciplined the children.
A peaceful nursery school weekend like no other.
Today, the bluebird nursery is quite noisy.
It was because the regular volunteer team visited after almost two months.
The volunteer group ‘Woollim’ was actually a volunteer team that had a very close relationship with director Anna Kang, the director of Blue Bird Orphanage.
It was a place where I came to know because I often ran into it when Director Kang Anna did volunteer work in various shelters from nursing homes to various places around the country when she was a normal nun.
Kang Anna, director of the volunteer group Woollim, had no choice but to become friendly, and upon hearing the news that Kang Anna had become the director of the bluebird nursery, she promised regular support and volunteer support.
Even as Director Kang Anna, there was a reason to trust the organization called ‘Woollim’ compared to other places.
It was that the team members were treated very strictly.
Due to the strict membership system, there was a regular monthly membership fee, which is rare in volunteer organizations, and only new members who were verified through a recommendation system were accepted.
In fact, organizations such as daycare centers do not accept any volunteer groups.
This is because there could be a lack of familiarity with the words and actions that should not be done at the nursery school, and there were many cases where they did not come out once or twice.
If that happened, it could be a big scar for the children in the nursery school, so it was important to be able to come out steadily.
In that regard, ‘Woollim’ was a place that had never disappointed Director Anna Kang, so she welcomed them with a willing heart.
“You worked hard to come. Nice to meet you. Chief Choi.”
“Oh, Director Kang! It’s been a while! I think your face has gotten better.”
Kang Anna, the director, and Choi Seon-hye, the Woollim team leader, greeted each other warmly.
“Today I bought some thick clothes for the kids to wear. It will be winter soon.”
“Thank you as always, Manager Choi. The kids will love it.”
“If only kids like it, we can’t be happier~”
After a brief greeting, Choi Seon-hye introduced a woman standing behind her to Director Kang Anna.
“This is my daughter Midwyeol. I sang a song saying that I would volunteer for a long time, so I brought it. Even though she is my daughter, if she said she would do it once, she will do it until the end, so you don’t have to worry too much. Director”
Mid-gyeol took off the mask he was wearing and greeted Anna Kang.
“hello. Director. They say it’s midwinter…!”
In the eyes of Director Kang Anna, Mid-Gyeo-Ri seemed to have just escaped girly looks, with a youthful face and skinny physique, and her half-moon-shaped round eyes gave off a good impression. And it was a very pretty lady whose eyes looking at her were clear and bright.