Because this is my first life-4
“There are a lot of people. Yes?”
“Isn’t it the weekend?”
Coincidentally, today was Sunday, the end of the week.
As that was the reason why I could afford to meet Miragen, the reason there were so many people was simple.
Sometimes it’s not bad to come out like this.
It’s not impossible to recognize us, so we can’t go around openly, but there were so many people that we didn’t have to completely hide our faces.
And well, even if we were together here, it would end up being a bit of a gossip.
This isn’t the first time I’ve been traveling with Miragen. Mirazen didn’t seem to be awkward in this situation either.
I thought it would be better to reveal my true identity.
I’m sorry for Mirazen, but since I became a duke, I’ve been quite concerned about this and that.
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Just wandering around like this is not sure what direction it will return to me,
The only thing that is certain is that my selfishness is mixed in meeting Miragen.
Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about this and that, so I wanted to empty my mind a little bit.
Meeting Adrian was also helpful, but I remembered that Mirazen had asked me to come to the imperial palace.
“Isn’t this the first time this has happened? In my memory, however.”
“you’re right. Because we didn’t have much to do together.”
“Then why did you come out? Isn’t there anything to see together?”
It wasn’t wrong.
There really isn’t much to do for the two of us to come out and see something.
It could be said that it was a decision that was only meaningful in leaving the imperial palace.
Knowing that, I came out, so I just smiled and hurried my steps.
There’s really nothing to do, there’s a lot to see. It would be better if you get out of here and head to my estate.
I guess that’s going to be hard.
“Do you have any recommendations? I haven’t been around the capital a few times.”
Actually, I know very well, but I deliberately asked Mirazen.
There wasn’t a special place around here, so I thought I’d go there if Mirazen chose it.
Mirazen stared at me like that, then shrugged and rolled her eyes.
“I do not know. We won’t be seeing each other at this hour.”
“Then it would be all right to go to Adrian.”
“no. Adrian is probably busy.”
I smile at the firm answer. How could Mirazen know that Adrian was busy?
Right now, he came to see me saying he was free today.
If possible, he seemed to want to be with them, so he nodded and listened to Mirazen’s words.
“Yes. You must be busy.”
“Adrian is a saint. You can’t even imagine how busy it can be when we don’t know.”
“I guess so.”
Mirazen stared at me for a moment as I answered deftly, then sighed deeply and shook her head.
There seemed to be nowhere else to go.
There was nothing the two of them could do in the capital.
To be precise, it’s a place where we won’t have any problems if our identities are found out.
It’s mostly for lovers, so it’s true that that bothers me.
Then it was my turn to lead Miragen.
“If so, please follow me. I know where to spend my time in moderation.”
“…We’re not here to pass the time.”
“Don’t worry too much. I didn’t come out with that in mind either.”
“like. Let’s look forward to it. Should I call you Duke Robert now?”
I thought about that name for a while.
In fact, it doesn’t make sense to call each other by name in this status, but haven’t I already called them by their first names?
I wonder if I need to do that again. I just shook my head and replied that it was not necessary.
“Then, let me also call you Highness Miragen.”
Mirajen laughed bitterly at the euphemism. He didn’t seem to like being called Highness very much.
Maybe it’s because I’m always dissatisfied with my precarious position.
This time, the reason seemed to be that I didn’t call him by his full name.
It’s not a child, it’s a grown up person like that.
Come to think of it, Mirazen was also older than me.
Like Adrian, it was like a year difference. Adrian and Mirajen were the same age.
It was a little funny that there was no one younger than me around.
Heck, if you’re younger than me, that would be a crime.
It was true that they all looked like children to me. I think it’s because I’ve lived so many times.
If I replace all of my life with my age, wouldn’t it be about 300 years old?
As I walked with that thought in mind, Mirazen, who was staring at me like that, opened her mouth.
“What were you thinking, laughing at me like that?”
“I do not know. Are you wondering why?”
“Because I won’t forgive you if you laugh at me. It’s like the one that suddenly came today. Are you here to make fun of me?”
I just wanted to see you surprised.
After pondering the reason, it seemed that he had no intention of making fun of Miragen.
Still, I can’t say that, so I thought about it for a while and added it quietly.
“I was watching because it was cute.”
“…who? I?”
“yes. Because you always act like a child.”
I don’t know how to interpret that, but Miragen responded as I expected.
The redness began to spread over the tightly closed mouth without any reaction.
He let out a breath as if he was dumbfounded, and then stared at me as he brushed his hair carelessly.
It looked like he was asking if what he just said was true. It was true in its own way.
Half of wanting to make fun of her, half of what I was thinking in my heart.
Although I mostly wanted to say that I was more like a child than cute.
Because it wasn’t a lie.
“Don’t say that to anyone. Because I was really surprised. You’re here to tease me, right? Is that so?”
“It depends on how you interpret it. What you just said was sincere. I guess you didn’t like it.”
“…Regardless of whether you like it or not, if you suddenly hear something like that, you can’t help but be surprised…”
The tips of Mirazen’s ears became red again.
I can’t stop because of this reaction. as before, but
The only person I can tease comfortably is probably Miragen.
Although his status should be the highest compared to Adele or Adrian.
Walking with Mirazen was an area on the outskirts of the ecliptic.
A place where green spaces are deliberately created for the purpose of creation,
When I walk among the flowers that have just come to spring and are in full bloom, I used to feel at ease just by walking this way.
It was the same with Miragen, so the blush on her cheeks was gradually fading as she walked forward.
“Not bad. I thought it would be boring to the core if I just walked.”
“It’s because you have someone to walk with. It’s boring if you come alone.”
“Have you ever been here alone?”
“…Well, that’s right.”
when was it After thinking about it for a while, I remembered that it was the time Mirazen died.
Isn’t this the 35th life when Mirazen died, the road she walked aimlessly after Mirazen died?
I don’t know what I was thinking at the time.
Did I walk to find my own place to die?
Then he died and returned, but it was true that the memory of that time still remained strong.
In a way, it was natural. Didn’t a woman who had never died die so vainly?
The reason why I couldn’t approach Mirazen easily was because of that.
I’m afraid I’ll die again if I get close. If I come closer, I fear that it will happen again.
“Wait a minute.”
After leaving Mirazen who was puzzled by her words, she approached a street vendor in the middle of the street.
The reason I came here again was simple.
It was also because I wanted to make sure that something like this would not happen again.
Among the things sold by street vendors, what caught my eye was a small hairpin.
It’s not that expensive, but Miragen saw this and said it was pretty in the past.
So I tried to find this, but in the end I couldn’t buy it and I had to watch it die.
So I tried to completely forget about it in my head for a while.
Isn’t it some coincidence that these street vendors are selling the same thing?
Buying this meant a lot to me.
I looked at the pin, the same object as the 35th, for a moment, then approached Mirazen.
“What is that? He suddenly asked me where he was going, why did he buy that-”
Took.
My hands were faster than listening to Mirazen speak.
Even if it wasn’t, her hair was long and untidy, but once the pins went in, it was neatly organized.
Couldn’t plug it in before. However, this time I plugged it in.
Whatever ending this might bring, I was ready to accept it.
“…Did you buy it for me?”
Looking back at Mirazen, he smiled a little.
It was too small to be a gift, but the meaning I had for myself was too great.
Anyway, I could say it was my first gift to her.
The thirty-fifth was no more.
Aren’t the bad things that I am overcoming myself in this life that have been repeated in the past?
She saved Mirazen from nearly dying and warned Adele about the crown prince.
It was a past life in which he could not meet the saintess, but in this life, they became close friends.
So, the future in which you die also had to be gone.
“It is a gift. There are many things I am grateful for.”
“Last time I was only angry… Well, anyway, thank you. Fit well?”
Mirazen, who was fiddling with the pin, seemed quite pleased.
You said you were pretty in your last life, so you’ll probably like it. I bought it because I thought it would.
When I said yes, Mirajen laughed to herself and grabbed my hand as if she had made up her mind.
“like. I can’t just be receiving it like this.”
“Are you going to the imperial palace now?”
“You can look forward to it. Didn’t you have something prepared to give to Robert last time? I have to show you this time.”
Having said that, Mirazen started to stride forward, holding my hand as if she wasn’t ashamed.
The eyes of the people around us turned to us. However, none of us were shy.
I don’t know what she might be thinking, but I somehow got a smile out of her gaze.
I’ve gotten a lot of attention like this in the past.
She doesn’t know, but when we were lovers.