Time to advance-5
I wiped my sweaty body with a towel.
As if he had drained all the blood, sweat, and moisture from his body, he looked at the puddle of sweat on the floor and smiled bitterly.
Today is the day to head north.
That’s probably the reason why it’s not hard even if you sweat like this.
My nerves were so focused on the date of today that I forgot even the fatigue accumulated in my body right away.
Even that disappeared while washing, but the body imbued with divine power easily brushed off the fatigue.
Okay. It was said to be in the best condition to prepare for today’s fight.
There will be no problem. It seemed like it would be okay even if I just raised my sword and fought the demons.
When I wiped off the water and came out of the bathroom, Adrian was standing there holding my clothes.
“…were you waiting?”
“Not long ago. I’ve cleared all my schedules today, so I think I can stay with you until I go. After all, if I’m in the north, the plan will get messed up…”
I won’t be able to see you here for a while. When Adrian said that and smiled lightly, he felt somewhat guilty.
Even though it’s obvious, why does it bother me so much?
It’s not the last time I see you today, but I couldn’t shake the feeling that I wouldn’t be able to see you for a long time.
Maybe even if all the plans succeed and they get to the capital right away, they won’t see Adrian.
Since he had to push through the imperial palace and occupy it, he accepted the clothes and awkwardly scratched his cheek.
Even after putting on all his clothes, he still stared at Adrian. I don’t know what to say. So. Isn’t it time to say goodbye?
“Do you have anything to say?”
“How did you know..?”
“It’s a feeling. The feeling that Robert might be staring at me.”
Even the blind cannot ignore the senses.
I knew Adrian’s senses were sensitive, but when he said he felt my gaze, he quietly smiled and tapped his shoulder.
It was awkward. Thank you and I’m sorry, but I didn’t know what to say as I left for the North.
Should I say I’m going? When everything is over, should I say let’s face each other then?
He had already said to Mirazen that he would come back the day before… but Adrian found it difficult to say such a thing willingly.
“Get ready and finish quickly. Time is running out.”
“I see.”
In the midst of the awkward atmosphere, I somehow moved my feet and walked.
I was confused whether my feet were moving me or whether walking was my will.
Even while thinking about what Adrian’s expression would be next to him, the awkwardness increases when he suddenly meets his gaze and sees a grinning face.
Adrian entered my room, not knowing how far he was going to follow me, closed the door and looked around.
Seeing the divine power flowing from under his feet, he seemed to be examining his surroundings.
Even while I was packing my things, my mind was behind me.
It was that soft voice that awakened the mind that was engulfed in thoughts of what Adrian might say.
“Robert.”
I was barely able to hold back the surprise. I put my trembling hand on my chest, took a deep breath and looked behind me.
Adrian’s expression was normal. The face I saw every day, the expression I used to talk to every day.
That made me even more nervous. For the Adrian I know, there’s no way he’d be normal at a time like this.
“Why are you so surprised?”
“…It was because I had a lot of thoughts at the moment.”
“Looks like it. It’s been like that since yesterday, right?”
Maybe it’s because the atmosphere is unusual.
Maybe it’s because the wind is cold today. Maybe because I woke up a little earlier than usual?
Adrian’s voice clearly penetrated my thoughts even as my thoughts overlapped.
“Are you afraid?”
Well, I’m not afraid. However, that doesn’t mean it isn’t scary.
I don’t know how to express these contradictory feelings. It wasn’t that I was afraid of getting hurt and dying.
I’m just afraid that everything will go wrong. If nothing fits what I think, nothing is as scary as that.
of course. I didn’t want to tell Adrian these feelings. I was afraid that she would worry about being left alone.
“Not really.”
“…I’m scared. I tried to be by your side casually, but it must be difficult.”
The emotions hidden behind the faint smile were complex.
Cracks appeared in his expression, which had seemed calm until just now, and small ripples began to ripple.
It wasn’t like it was from the beginning, it’s just that I didn’t notice.
Unknowingly, my outstretched hand stopped in the air. It was because Adrian, who had approached at some point in front of him, was holding him in his arms.
Recognizing the body temperature superimposed on the body was a matter of an instant.
Before he could say anything, he was hugged, and without saying a word, Adrian’s lips moved as he leaned his forehead on his chest.
“Can I complain a little?”
As if he already knew that he was doing it, he laughed at his smiling face.
Complaining, it was something Adrian didn’t usually say.
Being held silently like this, staring up at me while being held like this.
I felt an indescribable feeling of being held by a cat.
The airflow was different. It was not the Adrian I knew, but it seemed like another woman who had always been hidden inside had come out.
I couldn’t read all of her emotions.
However, what this atmosphere means, what can be clearly felt even in this silence.
I thought Adrian’s suppressed emotions were about to burst out.
“I know. That Robert must go to save the Archduke. If I tell them not to go here, they will hate it, and they will think I am selfish for saying that.”
“……”
“I have never been jealous. When I felt that Miragen seemed to like Robert, I thought about giving in. Because Mirazen was the first person who became my friend. I liked it because it actually fits well. But, I might not like it.”
Power entered the hand that gripped the chest. Cook until your hands turn white.
By the time the strength in his trembling hands was relieved, Adrian’s hand, which had been slightly apart, reached my cheek.
The touch on my cheek was gentle, but it didn’t look like it was trying to free me.
“If I go today, I probably won’t see you for a long time. Yes?”
“…maybe.”
“Then, during my absence, Robert will be with the Archduke. I don’t know what’s going to happen, but maybe I’ll spend all that time fighting. I am a selfish person, Robert.”
Adrian smiled dejectedly and ran his hand over every corner of my face.
As if to judge my appearance, he slowly stroked the face leaning against the wall. Then, looking at the hand that was lowered to the cheek, he smiled.
“I certainly know what it is going for, but I know better than everyone else. Why does this kind of heart bloom? I hope you don’t go. I think so even though I know it shouldn’t. Isn’t it funny that I do this even though I’m a saint?”
Various emotions are mixed in a bright smile.
Hatred of oneself, but still a lingering feeling that cannot be let go. I knew at once that I knew what feelings he had for me.
Adrian has feelings for me. Emotions that had been blurry before were now completely clear, and I laughed involuntarily at the heart facing them head-on.
Should I say it’s not funny?
I knew how she was saying this, but I was in a position to leave her and go to Adele.
My mind was complicated. I don’t know how to respond to this situation, but before I can think of that, Adrian’s hand tugs at my waist.
“I know I’m not the first. Because I saw the days when Miragen and I became lovers. I know you had the same heart as the Grand Duke.”
The force I felt from the pulling hand made me dragged without a bird to hold on to.
It wasn’t because I lacked strength. It was just this atmosphere, the voice that I heard and plugged in, making me lose my strength.
If we move even a little further, the distance between our lips will touch each other.
The breath touched and scattered, and there was heat rising at the tip of the ear at the strange sound of breathing.
They did not reach each other’s eyes.
The eyes I send disappear when they touch the transparent mirror, but I smile slightly at the various emotions sent by the transparent eyes.
“…Still, I want to be the first. A saintess can’t love someone, but Adrian is allowed to love. It’s greed. I know, even if I say this, it won’t change that I’m not here in the life you’ve passed…I know.”
“Adrian.”
Her hair tie, which had always been tied, came undone, and her distinctive platinum blonde hair fell downward.
A white wave covers the shoulders, and the wind that suddenly blows carries a sweet scent.
I looked at Adrian quietly. To be precise, the lips that seemed to touch at any moment stood out.
This is the first time in my 101st life that I have had a relationship with Adrian.
That’s why I don’t have as many memories as others, and I don’t have as many memories as others.
All she saw was just memories from the past, perhaps quite unpleasant.
Is that why you’re so angry? No matter what answer I gave here, if it was a rejection, I had an intuition that we would never see each other again.
…And, I didn’t even have the heart to refuse.
It was my first time in this life. Everything, meeting someone and laughing again.
Even killing someone and crying. Resolving Eun-won, whom I thought would never be erased again, and reconnecting with the relationships I had met.
Maybe it was for this moment. I could see the tears running down my cheeks, and I slowly wiped them away with my fingers.
and said no more. Closed lips, mixed tongues. Each other’s eyes are entangled, and at the same time, the breaths that touch each other are mixed.
I should say that it was sweet, but I had a strange feeling because it was different from when I was with Mirajen.
it’s the first time
Yep, this was the first time.
The relationship that started with not one but several women who loved me was moving towards a strange end.
One morning on the 101st, our lips met for the first time. Seeing Adrian’s face flushed red, I smiled a little.
Perhaps the reason why all the fears were scattered was because of that just now.