Yuria Taylor-4
When I woke up in the morning, I always woke up with a wet body.
It was no different this time.
A cold sweat wet his forehead, and he frowned at the wet sensation.
It was because of a nightmare. Memories of when I died. Isn’t it a feeling that you can’t really adapt to whenever you see it?
If you get used to dying, it’ll be a little bit better, but it was a feeling that didn’t change no matter how hard I tried.
If you’re not afraid of that, then you’re really not human.
After opening and closing my hands a few times, I let out a small sigh and got up from the bed.
What always appears in my nightmares are the faces of the people who killed me.
There were times when I chose to die myself, but it didn’t feel like a nightmare to me.
Because it was really hard back then.
It was just a time when I desperately wanted to end this regression even if it was forced.
…People who want to turn back time are everywhere.
So does the person who says that if you turn back time to the moment you regretted, if you go back to the moment when the person you loved died, you could do anything.
Although I chose to return because I am not very different from those people,
That doesn’t mean I’m positive about this regression.
this is a curse
It is a life like execution, where a person is tied to the guillotine of time, and a blade is stabbed endlessly down the neck that cannot be cut.
It’s only once or twice to build a relationship with a person.
What would happen if we only accumulated repeated experiences in the same event with the same person?
The woman who said she loved me in the previous episode considers me a mortal enemy in the next episode.
The assassin who tried to kill me becomes my lifesaver,
Even if that twisted relationship changes like it was the first time I knew it.
It couldn’t be said to be the same person as me.
Going crazy is the natural order of things.
There was a time when I died and prayed every time time returned.
Please remember me, I went straight after time went back and asked if I knew me, but I was treated like a lunatic.
The only person who knows the return of time is me,
Am I the only one who knows that time has gone back and forth in this world?
Since I went crazy like that for a while… I think that was probably the period when I died the most.
Sometimes they die themselves, or they go crazy and beat people to death, then get caught and get the death penalty.
Was that the first time you saw Yuria dead?
I think about it, but I’m pretty sure that half of my deaths happened during that time.
Then I came to my senses and spent several episodes again, and now I came back.
Now that I’ve given up on a lot of things, my honest feeling is that I want to finish everything in this episode.
I won’t be able to rest like that. I wondered what Yuria would say today.
As the Full Moon Festival was still in progress, my father was still not here.
Perhaps the only ones left in this ducal residence are YuRia and me.
We’ll run into each other at dinner, but we’ll have to see what he’s going to say to me.
After a while, Leonard knocked on the door.
When I went out to say that it was time to eat, I realized that the duke’s house was strangely quiet.
It was originally quiet, but it was so quiet that it was even chilly.
He glanced over at Leonard and opened his mouth.
“Is something going on? The atmosphere is a bit strange.”
“Ah…that’s because Lord Soga is ill.”
“body?”
“He showed up pale in the morning, and told me not to eat anything today.”
Is that why everyone is nervous?
When a person who is not like that acts on such a whim, the subordinates are bound to tremble in fear.
I don’t know anything else, but Yuria, who faithfully guarded her life, did that, so it must be that each of them thought they had done something wrong.
…It seemed that there was no reaction at all.
At the same time, it was also funny.
With just this amount of words to the point of being shaken, with what kind of spirit will you endure what will happen in the future?
He smiles so small that no one notices, then moves on with a casual expression.
“Tell everyone there is no need to be nervous. It’s just that I’m really unwell.”
“Is that so?”
“Okay, I’ve checked, so there’s probably nothing else to say.”
If it’s really in response to my words, maybe it’ll be quiet for a while.
It’s fortunate. Since I had a lot of work to do separately for the time being, it was better not to be in her way.
So maybe there is only one thing to do today.
I thought I should see Arwen one more time.
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“…the door is closed as well.”
Arwen’s house, which he went to immediately after eating, was completely blocked.
There was a door, but the problem was that she was locked in a barrier she had created and could not see any reaction.
He said he needed time to think for a while, so maybe it was only natural.
If there’s a problem, it’s that this barrier doesn’t show any signs of loosening.
I should be able to solve it myself, but it seemed like it would take a good month even if I touched it with great care.
If I had known this situation would come, I would have sold on magic.
Unfortunately, I had only touched the type of weapon, so I didn’t know much about magic.
If so, there is nothing to do today.
This next schedule came right after the Full Moon Festival ended, so in the meantime, I had some time to spare.
Theresia hasn’t moved yet, and Yuria is confined to her room.
When I thought about that, I realized that this life is quite free.
If it was originally the same, he would have followed YuRia around the full moon festival and inspected things.
Wandering around like this… It was something I couldn’t even imagine in the past.
The festival was still in full swing, so the streets were full of people.
I went back to the alley to avoid mingling with such people, but it was still difficult to move because there were still many people.
What would it be like if Adele was there at this time?
Perhaps he drew a knife and swung it.
Or would he have walked hard while pouting his lips?
After thinking about it for a while, I realized that my impression of Adele was pretty good.
It’s a strange thing. It’s not like we’ve met once or twice, but it’s not that we didn’t have the slightest bad impression.
What I experienced while returning was the many hearts that one person had.
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Just like watching a person who thought he was kind was actually a liar, and a person he thought was kind was killing a child.
Because the side of the person experienced in different situations was bound to change over and over again.
But Adele Ygritte. In any case, it wasn’t much different.
I always lived as I wanted to, and always moved as the wind blew.
Although free-spirited, it has never harmed anyone.
There were times when I was swayed by it.
And I remember that life… maybe it was the most comfortable time I lived.
At that time, I’d rather start anew in the North – it was possible because I had the same mind, but at least I didn’t want to live this life that way.
Shouldn’t it be finished?
There was no reason to run away to the north unless the prince was choked with his own hands.
As I walked like that, I was already near the outskirts of the city.
A place far away from Simbu where the Full Moon Festival is held, unlike other places, you can see many trees and flowers.
I knew there was a place like this, but when I got there, the impression was pretty good.
Instead of a paved road or a building, I look beyond from a place with grass and trees, in the middle of the open greenery with nothing blocking my view.
Petals fluttered in the wind and small animals were moving among the rustling grass.
Was it a green area created according to the planned administrative district?
There weren’t many things to come to before, but when I think about it, I thought it was the first time I came to this place at this time.
Wouldn’t this leisurely greenery be better than a crowded city with no space to set foot in?
As I walked along the road, I came across stone steps.
Climbing up along it, and going up the steep stairs for a while, there was a large tree visible.
A willow tree that had left its body in the wind with its long branches lowered alone, took a breath and moved its body to settle down under it.
As the rustling leaves tickled my hair, my eyes were drawn to the foreground beneath the willows.
It was because the ground was high, and if you climbed up here, you could see everything below.
Under the sky that was turning red before I knew it, the scenery of the city where I lived came into view at a glance.
…I lost my mind for a while.
As if mocking my expectations of what I thought would be normal, the city during the Full Moon Festival looked like a painting.
light flows
It wasn’t just sentimental, but the lights connected to people’s hands filled the streets like flowing water.
Colorful lanterns that sometimes emit red light and sometimes blue light run through your hands.
The true beginning of the full moon festival could only be seen at night, but the daytime full moon festival was different.
Blessing the rising of the moon and symbolizing this sunset.
The streets were slowly turning red.
Preparing for the later time when night comes, the color of the lanterns gradually changes as the sun goes down.
By the time I was staring at it blankly, the sky also began to fall into darkness.
Only then did the name City of Light reveal its true colors, and soon the starlight lost its light in the city’s brilliant flashes of light.
Only a pale white light similar to moonlight remained in the city, painting this night sky instead of stars in the sky…
And only after the baptism of light disappeared, did my spirit come back and touch reality.
A slightly chilly wind brushed my cheeks.
It was now summer’s end.
The sky was rising, and the closest moon reached the sky higher than anyone else, and it was the time when it was farther away from the empire.
it’s autumn
My reason in contact with reality was a bit dazed.
It was hard to realize that time passed and autumn was coming.
There were always a lot of things happening around this time, so I didn’t even have a little bit of time, so this was the first time I calmly thought about the future.
A lot has changed.
Theresia was no longer my betrothed, and in addition to reuniting with Adele, she formed a relationship of her own with St. Adrian.
Didn’t he openly say no to YuRia?
In the previous episode, I was now doing things myself that I couldn’t even think of.
“Is it the 101st?”
Since he died 100 times, he must be living his 101st life this time.
Repeating the stupid thing 100 times was enough.
So this time I decided to live differently.
There was no need to hesitate or worry about anything.
Because this time, if you really die, it’s over.
Surely eternal death will come to me.
I glanced down for a moment, then slowly raised my head and closed my eyes.
Willow leaves flutter in the wind and get caught between your fingers.
Even though it seemed like it would blow away in the wind, a smile leaked out for no reason at the appearance of it sticking between the noses and not falling off.
It felt like watching what I had done in the past.
If you just spread your fingers slightly, you would be blown away by the wind and disappear, but you must see him trying to hold on somehow.
seemed to see me However, I had to let go.
It would be natural to be blown away by the wind. I had to throw away the lingering feelings of these leaves.
Huung-
Another wind blew the leaves into the air.
Riding on the wind, it floated in the air like that for a while, then disappeared towards an invisible place.
Where will those leaves go? That’s something no one knows.
It is certain that it is a completely different world unlike the tree branch that I have always been holding on to.
Am I no different? Now was the time to let go of regrets and move on.
Throwing away the kite of the past that I cherished, my future was now unknown even to me.
It will be filled only with new things I don’t know,
No one knows whether the end will be a tragedy or a comedy.
However, the funny thing was that it was relieved nonetheless.
Once more, he holds the caught leaf in his hand and blows it back towards the sky with the wind.
Like that, my lingering feelings are also blown away.
The wind blew again and brushed my forehead coolly.
Summer was over, and the day when the moon was thinning again was approaching.
The season, which can be said to be the biggest variable in my life, reminded me of it, and a faint smile was drawn on my lips.
Autumn is coming.
No one knows, not even me.
The 101st fall was coming.