Can you hug me…?-2
I can’t remember all 100 lives in detail.
I can’t remember everything I’ve been through for nearly 300 years,
What I live with in my heart are only fragmentary memories.
Memories that are so intense, or so brilliant that I will never forget them again.
In the meantime, there are faces of people who come to mind clearly, and there are people who cannot even remember.
However, he knew for sure that it had never happened in his entire life.
Someone recalling memories of my previous episodes. These 100 lives were limited to me, so when I died, those memories would remain entirely with me.
Are other people really unaffected by this regression?
I thought about it several times, but I thought that only I could not belong to the time going back.
When the person who said he loved me until yesterday returns, they become friends for the first time, and the person who has been like an enemy whispers to me again that he loves me.
The question of whether I was the only one who felt such a gap was a constant concern from the beginning of the regression.
I had investigated the moon stone, but I couldn’t even find a record of the moon stone after the first episode.
The moon stone I used didn’t seem to exist, as if it had completely disappeared.
No wonder. The moon stone disappeared because I used it, so wouldn’t it be natural that it didn’t exist in later rounds?
So I had completely given up on him.
If it hadn’t been for what Adele had told me, I probably wouldn’t have the slightest doubt about it now.
– A long time ago, I thought I wanted to show you this.
“…what did you mean?”
I couldn’t tell.
This is the first time she’s ever said that to me, and the more I think about it, the more my thoughts get bogged down.
Adrian’s attitude was also unusual.
It’s also because he reacts particularly sensitively to the name of Mirajen, who is just a close friend, and he used to make an uncomfortable expression when he saw me.
Perhaps only Adrian himself knew the reason.
It’s not just a matter of my inner self.
I had a rather subtle feeling that there must be something besides what she had told me.
The room where Mirazen often stayed, and now I am staying, was unexpectedly sunny.
I stared at the new light coming through the window, then I wiped my dirty eyes and slowly got up from the bed.
I used to wake up around dawn, but today it was a bit late.
Even so, I think it will be a long time until noon.
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Just as I was washing my hair and drying my hair, I heard someone knocking loudly from beyond the door.
“Robert, is this Adrian?”
I was a bit surprised that Adrian had come at this time, but I opened the door after wiping off the water.
I woke up pretty early, so I looked like I had already finished my makeup.
When I slightly opened the door, Adrian, with an attendant next to me, grabbed my arm and slowly entered.
Adrian, who was carefully touching my arm in a gown, tilted his head and looked at me.
“Isn’t that what you always wear?”
“It’s a shower gown. I just washed up and came out.”
“…ah. Aren’t I rude?”
“it’s okay. After all, I just need to wash everything and change clothes.”
Seeing Adrian startled by the fact that he was going to change, he gave a small smile.
Would you mind leaving her and changing clothes? No matter how blind you are, just like Berod said, men and women are different.
He patted Adrian’s nose, who was blushing as if he were imagining something, and then playfully opened his mouth.
“I don’t know what you’re expecting, but I’ll change my clothes later.”
“Oh, I can’t even see it anyway. I’m looking forward to it.”
“By the way, what have you come for? I know nothing special happened today.”
Departure for the South was a few days later.
I have to get a report from Arwen about what I’ve been investigating, and this time I’m thinking of ordering Renald to prepare about two swords.
Today was pretty laid-back.
Didn’t Adrian ever ask to see you today?
When I asked, wondering, Adrian, who was a bit hesitant, soon moved his lips cautiously.
“Isn’t Robert not familiar with the cathedral under the wall tower?”
“I don’t know if it’s a cathedral.”
I hadn’t been there in this episode, so it would be awkward to know the details at this point.
When I answered with that thought, she smiled brightly for a while and continued talking.
“Then I will guide you. I have a lot of free time today.”
“Is that so? It’s comfortable for me, but I’m not sure if I’m making you uncomfortable on my day off.”
“I like anything that gets me out of the Wall Tower. I can’t help it if I don’t want to go with you… but isn’t that the case?”
“Why would you hate it?”
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Just going around with Adrian was a benefit to me.
He said that the saintess was the person he cared about, but what would the people of the church think?
I wasn’t using Adrian.
Since she said let’s be together with her own words, it means that even the Paladins can be proud no matter what they say.
I didn’t have any plans to move today, but if Adrian was with me, I’d make the time to move.
When I gave my permission, Adrian smiled happily.
There was only one thing that confused me.
Are you happy to be with me, or is it good to go out?
Her unreasonable favors are misleading, so there are times when you need to be careful.
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Adrian had two ways to walk.
Wherever he was perfectly familiar with the terrain, for example, in his own room, he could move alone without anyone’s help.
However, if you are not familiar with it or if the terrain is too wide, you need help from an attendant.
Although walking clinging to your arm might seem a little ridiculous, Adrian needed that kind of help to get around.
Adrian’s body, clinging to my arm, gently touched my side, as if he was worried about falling.
The first time I walked, I was just supportive, but after I almost fell earlier, I was completely holding on to my arm.
No matter how often you hear it, the location of things cannot be the same every time.
In particular, since it is a church where many people come and go, it means that you have to rely on me a lot to walk.
Adrian seemed to know that he was too attached to me, so he slightly blushed and lowered his head.
“I’m sorry. Originally, it would be fine if I just touched you.”
“You don’t have to worry about it. Others…maybe they understand.”
That’s what I said, but in fact, I couldn’t help but care.
I laughed at the strange touch of my arm, and laughed bitterly at the eyes of the priests who glanced at me for a while.
The fact that I was staying at the Wall Tower should have already spread widely.
Since it’s a rumor circulating in a very narrow place, they’ll look at me with wonder because I’ve earned the qualification as a friend of the saintess.
I was a little more favorable than Paladin, but there were people who sometimes expressed hostility towards me.
I ignored those eyes and walked away.
I am the only one having a hard time interpreting the malicious gaze one by one. Excluding these things, if you just pay attention to what you have to do today, that will be enough.
As I was walking with Adrian for a long time, passing by somewhere, Adrian stopped in his seat.
“This is where I lived when I was young. Before the Wall Tower was completely built, Lord Berod let me sleep here.”
In the direction Adrian was looking at, weak divine power was flowing.
Fortunately, the door was not locked, so when I went inside, Adrian glanced around with a soft smile.
“I don’t know if the layout I remembered will remain. Originally, there was a drawer just to the right of here.”
“It doesn’t seem to have changed much. Wouldn’t it have been preserved as it was when Adrian lived?”
“Is there a bed in the left corner? That is the bed I slept on.”
True to her word, there was indeed a bed, so we walked together and sat Adrian carefully on the bed.
Adrian, who knocked on the bed with a bang, laughed mischievously.
Recalling memories from when he was young, his face as he talked about his memories with Berod one by one only looked very happy.
“I once jumped on the bed and fell straight down. That’s why I was scolded by Lord Berod. Maybe after that they put something under this. I tend to fall often.”
“So the carpet was a little thick. I thought it was awkward.”
The bottom is so soft that you can dent it when you press it with your finger.
I couldn’t help but agree with the words that Adrian tends to fall easily.
A few times I saw it right away, because I caught the fall again today.
But that’s not Adrian’s fault. Wasn’t it very uncomfortable to walk even though you couldn’t see?
Adrian, who had been sitting on the bed for a while, stared at me and then stood up.
“Would you like to sit down? You haven’t spoken since before.”
“…ah.”
The reason I was looking at Adrian was because I thought about her frequent falls,
I guess he thought I was interested in bed.
However, there was nothing to say about it, so I carefully settled down in the seat where Adrian was sitting.
Of course, there was no particular difference.
It creaks a little because of its age, but other than that, it’s no different from a normal bed.
The divine power that spread around here was probably left to spread for preservation.
The room the saintess used when she was young. Even if it wasn’t for sightseeing, it would have a symbolic meaning to the church members.
“When I was sleeping, Sir Berod used to read me a story. I could sleep very comfortably if I slept like that, but I’ve already grown up like this.”
“Time always goes by fast. You’d be better off not paying too much attention.”
For example, if I accurately counted the time I have passed, wouldn’t my head hurt?
That’s why I tended to calculate by rounds rather than hours.
Mentally, it was better to think of even that only when necessary, and to live in a way where possible, not minding it.
Time seems to be passing too quickly, and I laughed out of nowhere at the sight of him complaining.
Maybe it’s because I’ve lived too much, but she’s only 21 years old, so time flies.
Maybe it’s something I can’t help but laugh at.
However, she must have mistaken my laughter for a mockery, so she opened her mouth in a slightly curt voice.
“Robert is younger than me, so I don’t know why he is smiling so much. Did you have a coming-of-age ceremony?”
“Looking back, I am twenty-one years old. Wouldn’t it be better to do it already?”
“That…that’s right. I guess.”
I have the intention of calling it a 300-year-old monster.
It was meant to be a joke anyway, so I didn’t bother to say it.
That’s how we spend time chatting.
Adrian went through the rooms in her own way, tracing her memory, and I watched as I sat on the bed.
It’s nice to be able to reminisce. And if you can laugh in that flashback, even more so.
With that in mind, he looked at her happily for a while, then hurriedly stretched out his arms when he saw her staggering body.
“ah?”
Perhaps there was an object that he couldn’t remember, and he grabbed hold of the staggering body as it was.
However, my body was already sitting on the bed, and I, who eventually caught her in an anxious position, had no choice but to fall while hugging her.
Move your body so you don’t touch the furniture or the bed, and thump as it is.
For a moment, I felt a sharp pain in my shoulder that fell to the floor, and then the flowing hair touched the tip of my nose.
“Aren’t you hurt?”
“Yeah, it’s okay. I think there was something I didn’t think of.”
Being completely nested, Adrian slowly lifted his head from my chest. The flowing white hair tickled the bridge of her nose.
It took me a split second to realize that she was over me.
A light blush bloomed on her pale cheeks, and by the time her groping hand touched my cheek.
Adrian licked his lips in a crawling voice.
“…what.”
So, the blush started to turn redder.
Like a flower that is just now blooming, so red.