When the violets wither-3
As always, I would sometimes get very depressed.
I think being with Adrian was such a time for me.
I shouldn’t have said it, but I must say that I got into the mood.
There were times when I wanted to tell someone all about my return, but I wondered if those times overlapped… and my heart was weakened.
After a night’s sleep, all of that melancholy feeling was gone.
I know very well that it’s not good to get caught up in these feelings, and if I think about it a little more…
It was also thanks to Adrian.
Mirajenna, Adele, and Adrian. All the women I met again in this life gave me a sense of security.
The problem is that all three of them are women.
If someone sees it, they might misunderstand the relationship between me and the girls.
…Well, if you say you really don’t have any feelings, that’s probably not the case.
He pats his cheek once and gets up from the bed.
Seeing these trivial thoughts come to my mind, I felt that my physical condition had improved considerably.
I felt like I was going to die several times until yesterday, and I wouldn’t have been able to hold on if Adrian hadn’t hugged me.
If I were to choose the best choice in my life this time, it would be meeting Adrian.
That’s what brought me to the South. It wouldn’t have been so easy without Adrian.
When I thought about it, it seemed strangely inclined toward her,
Anyway, that means she’s no longer normal to me.
thump.
While smiling lightly at the sound of footsteps over there, I’m probably making tea for the soon-to-be guest.
I felt pretty refreshed today. It was always like this when I got out of a bout of depression.
It was good to enjoy this feeling now.
Maybe after this rising sun goes down, you’ll face not-so-good sights.
“Robert, are you there?”
smart =
I grasped the doorknob at the sound of an urgent knock on the door.
Adrian’s body came forward with a loud thud.
It was clear what he had come for, so he held up a teacup and looked at Adrian in silence.
What should I say? After thinking about it for a while, I opened my mouth.
“good morning?”
“…You look so shameless even saying that yesterday. Do you know how worried I was? Don’t hate me even if you disappear. Don’t even joke about it.”
“All right. You seem pretty upset anyway.”
“I am not angry. just. I was just… a little worried.”
It was quite different from how I felt when I saw Adele.
If you say something like this is cute, that would be the right expression.
I unconsciously stroked my head, but stopped abruptly and held a teacup in my hand.
Having received the teacup from me, Adrian sighed deeply.
It seemed like he had been thinking a lot last night.
Even though I was sorry that it was because of me, it was because I said it without thinking.
“How are you feeling today?”
“Nothing bad. I confessed all my bad feelings, thanks to Adrian.”
“Then I’m glad.”
The melancholy that I sometimes harbor did not come after I told him when it would come.
It just comes without warning and gets stained with thoughts.
After shaking off even that once, wouldn’t it be okay for a while?
Perhaps the hardship this time was because of seeing Theresia.
It might be a bit more difficult after killing Theresia, but that’s for later.
I just wanted to enjoy the moment.
Now, facing each other with a table in between, was the happiest time for me.
#
“I feel a little free today.”
Gagagak-
Berod, who lightly deflected my sword, said. I agree with the statement that there is room for it.
In fact, it was not easy for me to show my skills as I had been mentally struggling for the past few days.
Now, that psychological weight has disappeared, and perhaps I am in a suitable state to pull out the best I can.
It is not that difficult to get back to the level once trodden.
Since it was a path I had already taken, it was not for nothing that I set the two-year deadline for me to fully recover.
At this rate, it will soon become usable.
Of course, a usable level meant a level that could withstand Berod.
“It’s not like you can win just because you can afford it.”
“I am too greedy. Do you know that no paladin can stand against me?”
“I know. However, my goal is a bit higher.
.”
“It sounds like you’re trying to become a swordsman.”
Being a swordsman, it wasn’t a very interesting name. Why is there interest in what has already been reached?
Above that, he was aiming for a level higher than the one called the Sword Saint.
What should I call it by?
Maybe it’s not limited to swords. After all, isn’t the spear wielded now?
Berod clicked his tongue briefly at the sight of me throwing away the sword and holding the spear.
Needless to say, spears are always tricky weapons in close combat.
A weapon that is much longer and can cut and stab like a sword.
Some paladins gave me tired eyes at my ability to handle a spear as well as my sword proficiency.
“Is it talent?”
“It’s an effort.”
“Geniuses say that.”
I wonder what your answer would be if you knew you had wasted 100 years to reach this point.
After all, in their eyes, he’d be a young boy who didn’t have a single callus on his hands.
It would just look like he could do anything well with his talent. This look wasn’t bad.
In the future, no matter what I do, I might hear something like ‘If it’s Robert, it’s possible’.
However, in the end, as time goes by, it is me who gets tired,
Barely avoiding the heavy hammer, he raised his hand and stood up.
A head-to-head fight with Berod was still impossible.
However, raising the condition to this level was a good achievement.
Maybe if one or three Temuchin came last time, I could kill them without difficulty.
This was quite an encouraging achievement, so I stroked the newly acquired sword and slowly calmed down my breathing.
As much as I had to move right away this morning, there was no need to overdo it in this state.
After sitting down and resting for a while, I heard Berod’s voice in my ears.
“Is the saintess alone?”
“You will be with the priests. He always did that when I was with Paladins.”
“…You usually stick together well, but at times like this, you pretend not to care.”
did you care about that? When he laughed once, Berod’s forehead wrinkled.
He already knew very well that he cared about Adrian.
That’s a little too much, maybe even though I really thought of her as my own daughter.
Perhaps what he’s worried about is that Adrian and I are getting very close.
“You don’t have to worry too much. Aren’t they just friends?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about, but the saintess isn’t that low-key.”
“You seem to think very badly of me.”
To be honest, if you look at it objectively, there would be few people like me.
Even though it is the result of repeating numerous regressions, in the eyes of others, isn’t he a person who has achieved quite a lot at a young age?
With the support of the grand duke, and with the support of the princess. He is even a close friend of the saintess and the opponent of Paladin Berod.
Still twenty-one years old
If I was from an aristocratic family, everyone would have lit up their eyes and talked about marriage, but the problem was that I was Taylor.
Since he was a young boy who got a bad reputation from Taylor,
Even if rumors get better later on, things won’t change much.
“I don’t think it’s bad, but you’ll have to be careful.”
“In what way?”
“Because the saintess is not someone who accepts all of your emotions.”
He nodded at those words. I knew too.
To the extent that it is not good to relieve one’s own feelings to someone. It was a well known fact.
I don’t know how he guessed it, but I think you can tell just by looking at Adrian’s expression.
I said something useless, and Adrian took it wholeheartedly.
So was it like usual? Because he, who had seen her by her side for the longest time, naturally said it.
He nodded quietly and opened his mouth.
“I am reflecting on that.”
“I don’t like talking nonsense either. You must know how worried the saintess was.”
“Because you came to see me right away this morning. I think it comforted me well.”
“…In the morning?”
As if hearing it for the first time, I smiled at the sight of him opening his eyes.
I wonder if I didn’t know that, or maybe I just said this for no reason.
At least the name Adrian was a name that was equivalent to a rebellion to Berod.
As I cautiously rose from my seat, there was a hand holding my shoulder violently.
As if telling him to stop, Verod’s eyes narrowed as he smiled bitterly at the hand that gave him all the strength.
“What do you think I would be thinking about getting too close?”
“Perhaps you will object. Quite violently.”
“I wonder what you think. Do you really think you can stay as close friends with the saintess without any feelings?”
I thought it was a legitimate concern.
In the meantime, there have been quite a few men who have approached the saintess, and as Gross had eliminated all of them in advance, surely he would have this kind of concern.
However, I did not live without thinking about this relationship.
I was also worried about my relationship with Adrian moving beyond friendship.
Then, with a small smile, I added.
“You don’t have to worry about that.”
If I see the possibility of such a relationship, I’d rather avoid it from my side.
After staring at me for a while, Berod swallowed his saliva and removed his hand.
I shook my aching shoulders and walked again.
One step, one step. Berod didn’t catch me anymore.
He just stared at me as I walked away, and without a word, he also disappeared.
The moon hangs over the darkening sky.
A bluish shadow enveloped the surroundings, and my breathing also gradually found stability in the calmness that gradually came.
A sword was in my hand, and darkness was what I was looking at.
The ticking of an invisible clock slowly filled my ears.
So my steps did not stop, and I moved forward as it was.
#
“Are you sure you want to go?”
“I would have said. I’m going south.”
At Adele’s words, Lotos frowned.
I understand that there is nothing to do. And since Robert was in the South, I could understand why he was anxious to go.
But what if it suddenly starts like this?
I had to schedule it already, but if the grand duke left overnight, there would be chaos.
It didn’t change anything even though I sent my own earnest gaze.
From the moment she read the letter from Robert, Adele decided that going south was a definite matter.
Adele, who roughly grabbed the wolf’s reins, glanced at the letter sticking out of her arms.
It was a letter from Robert. As much as this makes my head too complicated,
I was thinking of complaining directly to him. What were you thinking when you wrote this?
Thanks to that, there were so many things that came to my mind, and my already dizzy mind became more complicated.
“Can’t you stay here just to see my face?”
“They say there’s something on your face. I have no inspiration whatsoever.”
“When you see Prince Taylor, your heart must be pounding. Yes, I know.”
However, the sarcasm didn’t last long.
Lotos, who swallowed his breath again at the cold stare at him, stared straight ahead with a stiff posture unlike before.
Looking at her with that expression must mean that she has already made up her mind.
It’s over. You have to roll yourself, and you have to stay up all night.
Looking at the sighing Lotos, Adele turned her back and opened her mouth.
“Then I will go soon. It will take three days to reach the South.”
“If possible, I want you to go where there are no people. People in the center are afraid of wolves.”
“Do I look stupid? I know better than you.”
The blowing north wind chills your cheeks. The emotion I felt from that wind was a bit of excitement.
Memories awakened from the letter he read. If this is true…
I had too many questions to ask of Robert. I think maybe not all.
What he recalled was only one memory at most.
Kwang-! With the wolf howling wildly, Adele started running forward.
To the south, to be exact, to the place where Robert would be.
At the corners of Adele’s lips as she ran, such a faint smile bloomed.