“I am your daughter too.”
Jin Ye-seul quietly opened her mouth.
She opened the door and glanced at Jin Ye-jun, who came in, and then added.
“He was also my sister’s younger brother.”
So, I think you are qualified to attend the funeral.
Jin Ye-seul answered that in a very calm voice.
“To the very end… !”
Her mother, Park Hee-sun, did not get up from her seat, but collapsed again.
Jin’s death was such a shock that she could not even move properly.
“how… Why is that kid… .”
She bowed her head to see if she didn’t have the strength to be angry with Jin Ye-seul and muttered that.
“… Because my sister was always on fire with a sense of useless sense of justice and duty. I knew that one day, four months would come.”
At those words, Park Hee-sun’s eyes flashed low.
Her eyes staring at Jin Ye-seul could not be said to be the eyes of parents looking at their children.
“You… ! Now say that… !”
“If I really didn’t want to see my sister die that much, I should have stopped it sooner.”
Jin Ye-seul looked at her mother with cold eyes.
Jin Ye-seul did not stop looking at her astonished and surprised.
“He was proud of being a member of the Ten River and the death penalty, he was proud when he took the top spot in Urea, and he was proud that he became the youngest professor. He was also proud when he volunteered to roam around in danger areas.”
Tired, Jin Ye-seul burst out laughing.
At the end of her gaze, there was a wall of the reception room.
Several medals were hung there, framed.
In the past, these were medals awarded to commemorate the achievements of Jin Jeong-eun who volunteered for dangerous missions.
In Jin Ye-seul’s eyes, they were nothing more than gilded iron nuggets.
Maybe it’s too light for a person’s life.
“What did you want your sister to achieve next? new decade? Or the hostess of the world tree clan? but… Mother, I can only imagine how happy you must have been to see your sister do things you couldn’t have done before.”
“… Then you.”
A voice asked quietly.
Jin Ye-seul turned her head and looked at her mother.
It was the mother’s cold face that I had never seen before.
“What did you do so well that you talk like that… ?”
Park Hee-sun, the mother of Jeong-jeong Jin and Ye-seul Jin, spoke quietly.
“Have you ever thought about why I was so obsessed with you, or why I was like that?”
“… … .”
“Yeah, it can’t be. Can you do that?”
She snorted and turned her head.
Jin Ye-seul’s eyes fell coldly at the attitude that she didn’t want to even see Jin Ye-seul’s face.
“I was afraid of you.”
she muttered quietly.
“Do you know how much I thought about whether you were really my child, or whether it was really the child I had been holding for ten months? Perhaps the child has changed after giving birth. I used to think that way.”
“… … .”
“Looking back now, that was a really stupid idea.”
Jin Ye-seul just listened to her words.
Jin Ye-jun, who came in to dry the two of them, was also unable to move hastily in a different atmosphere than usual.
Normally I wouldn’t do this.
Normally, her mother would scream, and Jin Ye-seul would have just avoided her seat as if she was annoyed.
This kind of atmosphere was something that Jin Ye-jun had never experienced before.
My mother, who was always nervous, looked exhausted, and my sister just quietly listened to her story.
It was the first sight I had ever seen.
“… I was married to a family of venerable wizards at a young age.”
she muttered quietly.
“And I gave birth to a child who couldn’t handle even a simple magic trick, and when he was 10 years old, he smashed a man’s head to death, and he was smiling like he didn’t know anything. You may not remember, but do you know that you grabbed my wrist and crushed it when you couldn’t even walk?”
There was no answer to her question.
It wasn’t the question she was expecting an answer to.
“Still, I tried. I tried to love you, I tried not to discriminate, I tried to raise you properly.”
But the human heart is not really what we want it to be.
she muttered quietly.
“How could I not do it if I didn’t want to compare? If you were a secret person to me that you wanted to hide, you were the kind of child you wanted to show off to the world.”
After saying that, she covered her face with both hands.
Neither Jin Ye-seul nor Jin Ye-joon moved at the sight of her sobbing and shaking her body quietly.
“Scheduled… My daughter, my child… How did my daughter… .”
A mother who had lost a child began to sob.
“If I had died, if I could die instead of you, I would have done it all the time… .”
rather, rather.
“rather… .”
She quietly raised her head.
In tears, she looked at her other daughter and whispered quietly.
“Didn’t you die instead… ?”
“… … .”
“mother!”
Jin Ye-jun yelled out at the words that he couldn’t just ignore.
Even he could never have imagined that he would say something like that.
“yes… ? Or go to your friend, the boy in the world tree, and ask him. Go get on your knees and beg huh? That clan is a clan with a lot of secrets. Maybe he knows a way to save her.”
Jin Ye-seul quietly closed her eyes as she watched her as if obsessed with something, desperate and even maniacal.
“… … .”
And then, he looked at her with an indecipherable gaze.
It was the expression on her mother’s face, the first time she had seen her, looking intently at her.
Jin Ye-seul looked at her like that for a while and then opened her mouth.
“Did you want me to die and your sister to live?”
“okay.”
She nodded.
“You wish I wasn’t born in the first place?”
“okay.”
“The one who gave birth to me… .”
Do you regret it?
At Jin Ye-seul’s question, she nodded her head.
“… okay.”
At that, Jin Ye-seul smiled a little.
With such a gentle smile, for a moment, Jin Ye-jun wondered if he had seen it wrong.
“My mother lost her older sister, so it would be right for me, who was her younger sister, to take care of it.”
Jin Ye-seul said so and quietly walked to the door where Jin Ye-jun had entered.
Before putting her hand on the doorknob, Jin Ye-seul turned and bowed her head deeply toward Park Hee-sun.
“Thank you for nurturing me.”
Jin Ye-seul opened the door without hearing an answer.
And when he noticed that Yoo Ji-hyuk was on the other side of the door, he opened his eyes wide and started to escape from there as if he was running away.
– Follow me.
Before Jin Ye-jeong could even whisper, Yoo Ji-hyuk was running after her.
* * *
It was raining.
After running after her for a long time, I found Jin Ye-seul idly drenched in the rain in a corner of the garden.
As I approached her carefully, Jin Ye-seul, who was showing her back to me, suddenly opened her mouth.
“… Since when have you been listening?”
After thinking for a while, he answered.
“From the beginning.”
“I see.”
Jin Ye-seul let out a small laugh.
Then he turned and looked at me.
Her face and eyes drenched in the rain were staring at me.
“Am I really that weird?”
“… … .”
“I didn’t want to be born like this.”
I could see the water droplets of emotion piled up in her mind to form a puddle.
Rain water was constantly running down her face.
“Everyone else is just like me. I can’t be alone in this world. Everyone, everyone, there’s nothing different from me… just… … You’re pretending not to be.”
I couldn’t say anything.
Jin Ye-seul looked up blankly at the sky and muttered.
“What is it that I can’t hear, but other people hear?”
I haven’t heard of that sound, so I’ve been rejected by everyone until now.
She said so and turned her head to look at me.
“My sister told me this. There are some sounds that can only be heard if you cover your ears. So you’re not weird at all.”
She grew tall and burst into laughter.
Then he sighed quietly.
“Still, he was someone who tried to understand me. There were only two such people in this world.”
“… … .”
And that I was one of those two people, and that I had betrayed her expectations before Jin-Jeong, even if she didn’t have to tell me, I could tell.
Jin Ye-seul was still muttering in a quiet voice.
“Maybe I was in love with my sister.”
maybe even the mother.
Maybe, maybe even the father.
“I’ve heard before that a strong heart for someone is love. Then this feeling for my sister, hatred for my father, maybe it’s all love.”
Jin Ye-seul said so and looked at me.
Now she was only looking at me.
“That’s why, maybe, I think Jihyuk was madly in love with you too.”
So muttering, she took a step towards me.
“You were so envious.”
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One step.
Another step.
“You were so dazzling, I couldn’t stand it because you were so envious and dazzling that you had things I didn’t have. I feel like I’m going to go blind.”
I didn’t step back.
It was because I knew instinctively that the distance between her and me would never be narrowed if I backed away from here.
“Just a handful.”
She was standing right in front of me.
I could barely feel the breath she exhaled.
“Just a handful, can you give me what you have… ?”
She asked me, looking up at me as if pleading with her eyes full of anxiety.
Her hand, carefully holding my collar, seemed to say an awkward prayer.
“… … .”
I unbuttoned some of the buttons on my clothes without a word.
Then, without hiding it, the neck and shoulder parts were exposed and held out to her.
“ah… .”
Jin Ye-seul let out a small breath and looked at me as if possessed by something.
Gulping and swallowing a small breath, she gently kissed the nape of my neck.
Even as the raindrops fell on her head, she felt her body temperature vividly.
Immediately after revealing this, she started muttering around my neck.
“You can… ?”
she asked me carefully.
I nodded and answered.
“As much as you want.”
Her mouth opened wide as if cheering for those words.
The pain spread like a fire with a crackling sound.
crackle.
In her arms, the bracelet she received from Jin-jeong was making a sound.
* * *
Jin Ye-seul trembled for a moment as his hand wrapped around her head.
She grabbed her hair for a moment and worried that he might throw her away, but when she realized he was just stroking her hair, she continued what she had stopped doing.
Fearing that he might escape from him, he held onto his body tightly with both hands, as if hugging him.
He gave up his neck without saying a word and was stroking his head.
I felt my eyes get wet.
It’s because of the rain.
With that in mind, Jin Ye-seul rubbed her chin, which was already wet with blood, on his flesh, and brought it to another place.
That was then.
snap.
It sounded like an old piece of iron being ripped apart.
She flinched and trembled at the sound that was clearly audible even through the loud sound of rain.
something is coming
She could feel it.
And before she could show any reaction, it was right in front of her in an instant.
It was so fast that I couldn’t do anything.
Her two eyes widened.
“… ah.”
The door opened.
feeling for the first time.
Jin Ye-seul, it was a feeling that could not be expressed in any words that she knew.
To put it bluntly, it felt as if the stick that had been piercing through the middle of the head was pulled out.
It was soon the pedestal of the embankment.
And the dam where the pedestal had collapsed was bound to collapse.
Something.
Something comes crashing down like a tidal wave.
She didn’t know what it was.
For the first time, she felt fear, not disgust or hostility, of the unknown.
“Ah, uh… ah… !”
It was raining.
In the rain that fell hard, only she felt that she could not flow over the world.
As always, he was alone.
It was so frightening that I couldn’t stand it.
“ah… ?”
… I wasn’t alone.
I feel someone’s body temperature.
His mouth was filled with a musty and fishy smell, and there was someone warming his wet body from the rain.
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Oh
Right next to… he… .
Her mind soon grew mingling like a fungus between trees and humus.
Her screams rose like dust, and there was no sound at all.
She could sense something mingling and shaking within her.
Something is grabbing her and pulling her down from below.
I don’t know, but now I’m not afraid.
“together.”
Jin Ye-seul raised her hand without realizing it.
He gently pushed him away and touched his face with both hands.
Looking at his pale, tired face by sharing her colors, for the first time in her life, Jin Ye-seul spit out all the sincerity and earnestly.
“together… .”
Come with me, let’s fall
After uttering those words, Jin Ye-seul could feel that her heart, which had always been empty, was filling up.
she was happy