138 – Episode 138 Still, it’s a prom, but I’ll have to dance at least!
The first thing I woke up to was dizziness, followed by an indescribable feeling of discomfort.
My memory came back, but I wasn’t happy at all.
Should I say now that I understand why the Authority so desperately stopped me from seeing the memories beyond the noise?
Are you really crazy?
You’re not a kid, you’re complaining, then destroying the world, and feeling guilty about it, so you’re going back.
I wondered if this was what a normal human bastard would do.
…No, of course it wasn’t normal.
I was psychologically concentrated, and he chose the insane method of brainwashing to ease my burden, so I might be able to claim my mental and physical weakness.
But what I did was too fucking right to use that as an excuse.
Regression.
Since you’ve even returned to possession, it’s almost a triple crown if you’ve been reincarnated.
My memory came back, but I still couldn’t feel it.
But I was convinced. It was kind of weird when you think about it.
I thought I was possessed in a novel with my memory fuzzy, but somehow, at that moment, the feeling of wanting to help Lilac came to my mind.
The hair turned pure white whenever someone thought they were going to die.
Even wanting to kill the villains and make the kids live a more enjoyable life was all like the remnants of emotions left after returning.
My taste is bitter.
I felt like everything I had done up until now was denied.
“…Are you okay?”
-What’s going on? Did you come to see the memories? Didn’t you see
…I don’t know what to say.
The wrongs I’ve done so far are so great that I can’t think of how to repay them.
“…I think it’s okay to get donuts.”
I don’t have memories, but I still have feelings.
It wasn’t that emotions that weren’t present after looking at the memories were created, but that the emotions that remained were amplified.
What I harbor for them is a feeling of guilt stronger than affection.
I mistook guilt for good intentions and pretended to be proud until now, so I think I’ll go beyond shame and fall into self-loathing.
“…Hey, are you all right? If I’m wrong, I’ll have no face with the Demon King.”
“…It’s okay.”
Surprisingly, this wasn’t a lie.
Even though I got back almost all of my memories, my emotions quickly subsided, just like I had looked into some of them before.
What should I say?
Should I say that the emotions that I was sympathetic to after watching a really well-made sad movie or play gradually cool down after the play?
I’m not sure if this is also due to the influence of authority, or if it’s because of something that caught me in the last scene in my memory, or if it’s just that I’m just a fucking asshole.
But what is certain is that my work will not change.
I will prepare to stop this world from being destroyed, and I will allow the children to enjoy their youth.
And let’s stop everything and apologize when they’re happy enough.
I will not collapse buried in guilt. If that was the case, I wouldn’t have come back.
“I’m really fine.”
Who are you talking to? Whether it’s Son Goku, the Succubus Queen, or I’m talking to myself.
The palace trembled enough.
It was time to put an end to the world of dreams and return to reality.
The only thing I’m worried about is whether I’ll be able to see their faces and treat them like before.
That was the only thing I was afraid of.
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My body wasn’t as heavy as I thought.
To say the least, the time he was actually asleep was surprisingly only about 30 minutes, so it’s strange that his body is heavy.
As I slowly opened my eyes and got up, the surroundings were quieter than I thought.
“Sohyeon!”
Just until I opened my eyes.
In an instant, I was surrounded by people.
It’s scary.
When I looked at you, I was so afraid to raise my head that I wouldn’t be able to see you the way I used to.
I’m afraid that the sunken feelings will stir up again.
I’m afraid I won’t be able to see you guys as friends anymore…
The shadow grew thicker.
It sounds like you’ve come closer to me… But wait, you’re too close?
As soon as I felt that question, a soft mass of flesh covered my face.
“Aww…!”
…First of all, it is quite soft to the touch and has a strange elasticity, but in terms of smell, it smells like sweet female flesh.
Professor, your body wash uses coconut oil scent. First time i knew
It didn’t take long to realize what it really was.
Yes, this was Professor Cathy’s chest.
“What are you doing!?”
Fuck, I was so surprised that the atmosphere and everything flew away. Surprisingly, asking a depressed person, ‘Do you want to touch my chest?’ Might be a way that really works.
But when I looked up, not only Professor Cathy, but everyone around me were looking at me with worried eyes.
“Sohyeon-ah, are you okay?”
“No, I’m fine. What about the professor?”
“Yeah, my sister is fine too. Sohyeon.”
…I don’t think you’re feeling well.
“You woke up last. We all worried a lot.”
“Do you know how worried I was because you didn’t get up while everyone else was up?”
Lilac and honey came to me in order.
I couldn’t stand it because I was so sorry that I saw my face more than I thought, and it wasn’t like that.
Should I just say that it’s a level where you can feel the determination to do better in the future?
Geul, who had been looking at me dubiously from a distance, ran towards me the moment our eyes met.
“You’re not really sick, are you?”
At that time, I let him die, but this time he was able to save his life.
I was a child that was proof that I did not lead a wrong life after I returned.
“Thank God.”
“…What?”
I stood up, leaving Gaeul tilting her head as if she didn’t understand what I was saying.
I don’t understand. I still don’t know my heart well.
When I turned my head, I met eyes with Lee Yu-na, who had followed the lilacs to my side.
“First of all, the other kids are busy worrying about you, so I’ll tell you instead. The situation is over while you are down.”
No matter how many times I checked, there was no disgust in his eyes.
“Really? What were you going to do?”
“The villain who caused the terror was also caught, and the Chunhwa Group decided to pay damage compensation for this case.”
“At Chunhua Group? Because it was an accident at a party hosted by them?”
No, you caught a villain instead?
“Yeah, actually, I woke up after a few minutes of sleep, so there was not much backlash. It doesn’t seem like everyone had a nightmare.”
“What do you mean you caught the villain?”
“The succubus queen disappeared in the world of dreams, and there was a force that supported the succubus, but it was said that the heroes who did not lose their minds inside the venue captured all of them.”
Indeed, it would have been dizzy if there were only succubus culprits, but it seemed to have ended neatly because there was a cooperative organization.
“…Who the hell are these idiots who collaborated with the succubus?”
This time, the answer came back from Hani.
“Don’t you know? What kind of zodiac are they saying they are executives?”
…Aha. The red-haired woman took the boss then, and I was the main force, but there must have been some leftovers.
I don’t know what they were trying to achieve by cooperating with the succubus, but now that those who would be called the remnants would have been wiped out, the organization of the zodiac was truly over.
Coming to think of it, I pretended to cooperate with the zodiac as well, but then stabbed her in the back and took away a lot of things. Aren’t you sorry?
I rummaged around in my memory for a moment, and the image of a cheap elf cub and a bitch screaming “do it!” came to a screeching halt.
Those bitches deserved a stab in the back of the head.
“So, are you wrapping up the case and ending the party?”
“Huh? No?”
“Hmm? Haven’t you finished yet?”
“No, not that…”
Hani pointed upward with her finger as if to look, and there was a beautiful Pegasus flying in the sky.
…Pegasus? Heavenly horse?
“…What is that man doing over there?”
“I heard you said entertainment before the party starts again?”
…What kind of crazy is that? No matter how little damage was actually done, this shit happened, but the party continues?
The Pegasus, which was flying around the building, changed into a man with wings when it found me standing up.
“Since the last guest has risen, the party can start again soon.”
I couldn’t help but talk to Chun Yu-hak, who was covering his face as if he was a little embarrassed by his natural words.
“… Hey, studying abroad. Is your father okay? Didn’t you get out of the nightmare?”
“Honestly, I am a bit ashamed, but I do it for a reason.”
Why?
“This time, the party hosted by our Cheonhwa Group got caught up in a conspiracy. I thought I was fully prepared, but it was not enough, and I am sorry for allowing the intrusion.”
All of the people at the venue were watching him holding a microphone and taking a serious attitude.
“My mistake. Even if the damage is minor, maybe we should stop the party and take responsibility.”
As he flapped his wings, a cool breeze blew through the venue.
“But I won’t do that. That’s why it’s like giving in. As if arguing that such terrorism was useless! So that today’s memory will remain as a wonderful festival for future generations, not a dirty terror! Because that is what I consider my role and what a hero is supposed to do!”
…Wow, your speech is amazing. Isn’t that what the head of a company does?
“I will take responsibility after the festival. However, not today! Everyone, please be at ease and continue to enjoy the festival!”
His speech seemed to have been transmitted outside as well, and as soon as he finished speaking, cheers erupted.
“…The timing of the shouts is a bit artificial?”
“They must have been set up by my father in advance. You may not have intended to use him in this role, but he is thorough.”
That’s great.
What you say is plausible.
I won’t forget the pain of the past, but I won’t give in either.
I will smile brighter for the future.
It was a perfect word for my current situation.
Music started playing and people started dancing with their partners one by one.
Hani was the first to reach out to me.
“Would you like to dance a song with me, gentleman?”
“Is that right? Can I dance with gentlemen?”
“What else can’t be done? If you look over there, there are people who are just dancing.”
That’s right. No, that’s Jaehee. That bastard must have found a partner earlier…? Have you been drinking?
Anyway, then there’s nothing to notice.
“Then I have to ask you a favor. Actually, I can’t dance.”
“Just follow the lead~”
“Is it possible?”
I like her light smile. She’s a far cry from the empty smile she used to make with her dead eyes, asking to be treated like an object.
It felt like my heart, which had cooled down for a while, was beating again.
After dancing for a while, after the first dance, Gae-gae interrupted.
“You said the second was me.”
I felt her warmth as she held her outstretched hand.
Alive. The first person I saved and changed my destiny.
“What, what. Why do you look like that?”
“Because it’s pretty.”
“…Huh!?”
It was cute and funny to see them running around with their faces red throughout the dance.
“Hey! Cheonyuhak! Did you sing a song with me too?”
“…Are you crazy?”
He got angry at how far he was going to embarrass himself, but it didn’t seem like he hated it.
Thank you for coming to catch me, who thought I had no regrets left.
Thank you for coming to stop me as she threw away all of herself.
“They say they don’t like studying abroad. What about your sister?”
“Uh…? Me?”
“Yes, my sister is also a partner with me. You have to dance.”
“Oh, well. Yes. But why is your first dance with a boy? My sister…”
“Because I knew it didn’t make any sense. What does order matter?”
“…Sohyeon-ah?”
“Yes?”
“…No, nothing.”
My sister’s dance was neat and had no superfluous parts, but whenever her body came into close contact with me, she was surprised and did it without removing her body.
I want to apologize to my sister, even though my heart hurts so much that we screamed and hurt each other.
I can’t go back to the past, but I hope we can laugh together while moving forward.
“Lilac.”
“Is it my chalian?”
“If you don’t want to get hit by Yuna, get out.”
‘I believe.’ I returned to you what you often said to me, with no memory of it.
I will answer your trust this time, so trust me one more time.
As she turned her head, she saw Professor Cathy waiting hesitantly.
Um, I don’t usually say things like this, but is it because I’m looking for memories?
“Would you like to dance a song with me? Lady.”
The buttery words came out of my mouth.
“Uh, yes. Of course.”
Because you were the teacher who tried to catch me, and you reached out to me until the very end.
I was able to come to my senses even belatedly.
The feelings you give me are too much for me, but that’s why I will think more seriously and come up with an answer.
As we were about to dance holding hands, Professor Cathy stepped on her dress and fell, probably because she was quite nervous.
She knew she would be able to balance herself on her own, but she naturally hugged her.
“…Huh? Uh?”
Although their faces were close, they were strangely not nervous.
Come to think of it, it might be a coincidence, but the location of the wound I made when I made donuts and the wound I stabbed with a sword are the same.
“So… Sohyeon?”
I got the professor up and danced.
Her dance felt more like a powerful choreography than a socialite dance, but whenever she applied strength to her hands, the unnecessary energy was lost and her body trembled shyly.
That figure is somehow cute and sad.
I can feel the warmth of those who hold my hand so much that I feel overflowing with emotions.
“… Huh?”
Everyone around me burst into questioning exclamations at the same time.
“Sohhyun-ah. Are you crying…?”
…Crying? I?
Ah, that’s right. I didn’t know it, but water streams were running down my cheeks from my eyes.
Ah, Mr. Embarrassingly
I wiped it, but soon the tears started flowing again.
I’m not crying because I’m sad.
Nevertheless, the tears did not stop flowing for a while, just as emotions that had been frozen for a long time melted and fell by the warmth.