It felt like I had to go back.
It’s not that I want to settle down in that world again… but at least I want to tell you about the current situation for those who care about me… Should I make an excuse?
If the same time passes in another world, quite a bit of time will pass in that place…
In reality, as if I caused a lot of damage to the people around me during my empty time
Even in the other world, the longer I disappeared, the more worried I might be with the people I had built up there.
But… to be honest, I don’t know the exact reason either.
As my goal was to return to my original world, I too wanted to go back to another world! When I asked him to say that, he wanted to refuse.
But if you tell me to completely abandon my regrets, I can’t nod my head again…
It’s an ironic feeling that I can’t even express myself…
I wanted to both affirm and deny the feeling of wanting to return to the world set in the game.
As for the positive reason, of course, they were concerned… I could say firmly.
Arsia, Aris, Marika, Lusria, Erina, Miru, Morione, Abne
And… Eleanor…
Relationships that can’t be said to be many, but can never be said to be less…
There were certainly too many people to leave suddenly at any moment.
But on the other hand… if I asked myself the reason for the denial, it was an empty mind that came back.
To be honest, I have no reason to deny it, but I wanted to reject it for some reason.
If you look deep inside, trying to find the cause, some thoughts are revealed…
Maybe… Maybe I want the world where they are rather than the real world?
It was twisted to the point where I felt a little mad, but he really wanted me.
passing speculation
I miss them, but if I completely affirm them, I might feel uncomfortable because I fear that everything I have done for my identity and my only goal, the return to the original world, will be denied.
………
Probably not that?
Well… they want me, but until now I’ve been burdened with that feeling…
It’s probably not, not cancer or anything…
I guess I just want to tell them about my recent situation…
………
Anyway… back to the point…
First of all, I wanted to go back to this world.
However, there are many other problems that overlap.
Things that have happened once since I left reality
The fatality of my vacancy due to causality in the real world
To be honest, this time, thanks to my sister’s hard work, it wasn’t a big deal, but she was taking care of everything even though she needed to take care of herself to fill my vacancy.
Your next tuition, living expenses, and money to not worry your parents
I made excuses for being in frequent contact with me because I went on a business trip abroad, and in fact, it is said that he gave the pocket money that I should have given on behalf of the missing me.
Of course, Yura, who is not an office worker like me, told me that she worked part-time until she cut her sleep to raise the money.
How hard she must have suffered… I couldn’t even imagine how much effort she had to put in to not cause a big problem.
So… I said I wanted to go back, but even if I really did go back, I thought I would come back very quickly.
As I said before, the reason I wanted to go was to deliver my news, so I didn’t have to stay long.
Also, knowing that my younger brother would suffer if I left reality for too long, I had no intention of doing that.
But… even with this summary, there was the most fatal problem.
I didn’t know how to go back to this world.
To be precise, it was not that there was no way…
The person who allowed me to come to this world right now…
If she…
If she had even changed reality to lock me in here… maybe she would have known.
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“What….?”
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Now it’s me and her own space, on the roof of the building in an open space where the breeze blows“You want to go back?
In this place where I first met Mir in the real world, I convey my honest feelings to her.
“I don’t plan on staying long either, because I have a family… So it’s only a short time… So-“
“Do you think I’ll allow it?”
An ancient dragon that became a human, staring at me with a sharp voice, cutting it sharply before my words were cut off.
“What kind of jailer would free his prisoner? Did you think it would be a serious and polite thing to say?”
Again, it’s natural, but he rebels against me by accurately digging into the annoying part.
“……”
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Naturally, I am at a loss for words even with such a simple logic.“I’ll just say hello, it’s okay if we just meet face-to-face for a while.”
“Do you think they’ll miss that little moment?”
I try to squeeze the words out somehow and give them a reason to go back, but I am blocked by such a thing.
“Ha… Harold…”
He sighs as if he has lost his frustration with me, and stabs me in a row with a somewhat tired tone of voice.
“What kind of regrets do you have that you want to go back to?”
It was a natural question, but it was a statement that could not be refuted.
“You’ve always wanted to go back, so you haven’t lived through all that hardship until now? So, as you wish… I brought you here according to my wishes.
“……”
At those words, I become silent, because there was nothing wrong in Mir’s words…
“Are you living quite well in this world right now? Getting a job in a large company that anyone wants to join, and living a stable life taking responsibility for one’s family… Wasn’t it a better life for Harold?!”
There was no better life for me, who pursued living like a tiny cog in a gigantic machine.
“Just forget it… Am I the one who builds everything? Or is it too much of a hassle to work now? Then stop! If I have the capital I have enough money to support your family, including you!”
I try to find the reason why I am doing this in other things, and I try to cut off the buds of my desire to go.
“No… it’s not like that…”
I nod my head and try to convince her that she is getting more and more excited.
“Am I yours anyway? I can’t be there for long, so if you’re nervous, I don’t care if you’re by my side for the last goodbye. I’ll just say goodbye to those who really care about me… Can’t you just give me a moment?”
I ask her, solemnly and seriously, to be honest, just like you’ve threatened me until now, ‘Do you want to be cut off?’ I couldn’t say anything more with this one word… But for some reason, they promise to treat me better than that and try to catch me.
“Ugh…”
The situation has been reversed at some point… Now it seems that she is trying to convince me.
“ha…”
However, the atmosphere is like that for a while… She sighs and gets her head wet reluctantly.
“I can’t help it… If you say that…”
For some reason, I really succeeded in convincing Mir…! At first, I thought it was a no-brainer, reckless, but I didn’t know it would really happen…
“really?!”
Excited by her words, she suddenly raises her voice and asks…
“Instead! Do you really have to say hello? And when you come back, I’ll make you take me back on condition that you really have to settle in this reality without any resistance.”
This is a satisfactory result
“Sure, just let me say goodbye.”
I accept her offer and nod my head.
“…..”
But what else could be the problem…
My true feelings, which even I cannot understand, are uncomfortable with this reality.
As if this wasn’t the reason I wanted to go back…
A brief reunion with them… But after that, it’s an eternal farewell
Thinking about it that way, something felt empty in my mind.
Wasn’t the reason I wanted to go back to a short meeting for those who were worried…?
…….
However, as if answering my questions like that, the core of my heart is gradually piling up
Another thought flashes through me, which I have been naturally negating as this condition is unsatisfactory.
Maybe… I really like them-
“Ugh…”
I shake my head desperately and deny that much.
But somehow, inside, I feel at ease with that thought…
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No… Probably not…I made them…
Uh, no… it won’t be.
“Thank you, Mir… that’s enough.”
I nod to her with as much satisfaction as possible, and at the same time deny my true, confused, crazy intention.
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I used to go there for a while… but I guess I need to tell my family just in case you don’t know.
“Brother? What’s going on today?”
When I visit, they greet me with the unique bright atmosphere that I have always maintained, no different from usual.
“Come in at once!”
Yura guides inside and smiles
As usual, I know that we sit and talk relaxedly, but… Today was different.
“Yura… it’s only a short time, but I… might have to go back to the other world I mentioned before.”
“What…?”
At that moment, the atmosphere descended with Yura’s bewildered voice…
“Yura…?”
I had expected it to a certain extent, but because of the overreaction, I was so embarrassed that I brought up the story.
“Brother… what are you talking about?”
The atmosphere can’t sink and it’s getting dark… Immediately, a feeling of pressure as if you can feel the weight of the air comes through…
“Are you leaving again?”
He shows an unusual obsession with one sentence that says I’m leaving, leaving out the word “I’m going to go there soon.”
“Again… again… leaving…? You’re leaving me alone?”
The attitude of a younger sister that I see for the first time in my life…
She always had a bright smile… She had a good personality, showing only a positive attitude to any problem…
“Wait a minute, Yura… That’s right, but it’s only a short time-“
Get it!
Before the words could be finished, the shock felt from the body and the unbearable weight caused him to fall backwards and his vision suddenly changed.
“don’t go…”
When I woke up, all I could see was Yura’s tears that I had never seen before.
“Why… you’re leaving again… No matter how painful it is, I’ve forced myself to smile… but I can’t do it anymore…”
Her desperate tears flow endlessly with an unusual atmosphere… She hugs me with all her might as if she will never let it go.