The Goddess Is Obsessed With Me chapter 21

“My knight, isn’t it Harold? Why did you come to visit me when you should normally be in the royal capital?!”

It must have come at an unexpected time, so as soon as I came in, he ran to me with a smile that was happier than usual.

After meeting Abne and leaving the royal road, I came to her temple, wondering if I could get some advice from the goddess I serve.

“I’m sorry that I came for a snobbish purpose, but I came here because I wanted to ask you something.”

Come to think of it, I’ve only visited her for general profit, and after doing so, I’ve come to feel a new sense of shame.

“It’s okay, whatever the purpose, the fact that you shine your face on me is comforting to me, living in an infinite time, so I don’t have to make such a face.”

I try to keep a smile on my face to comfort me, but on the contrary, that attitude makes me look sadder.

“Originally, God is such a being, no matter how it is regarded, it is a relationship that can never be socialized…. Since ancient times, there has always been a sense of absolute distance between mortals and transcendent beings.”

At the same time, he raised his head vaguely as he recalled the bittersweet but reminiscent of old memories.

“The gods are generally friendly with humans, and sometimes have a good view of mortals, wanting more than a servant and master.”

He slowly closed his eyes and began to say the settings he had heard in the game one by one.

“Mortals also worship such gods and have maintained their symbiosis by offering their sublime beliefs and duties.”

“The gods who are loyal to them are beginning to appear who cares for mortals and sometimes even wants secret relationships with them, but never before successfully developed a relationship.”

Ask questions about the questions that flew into those words.

“After all, in the eyes of the gods, it must have been difficult to see mortals like us as such, right?”

In a way, compared to mortals, who were very limited in what they could do, the beings called gods were omnipotent, omnipotent, great and overwhelming beings that could never be surpassed.

Therefore, there was bound to be an absolute distance between the gods of mortals that could not be narrowed.

In comparison, the relationship between a dog and its owner, nothing more, nothing less.

Read at n̲o̲b̲l̲e̲m̲t̲l̲.̲c̲o̲m̲

No matter how affectionate the relationship between the owner and the dog may be, a normal-minded person will not develop beyond that of a friend or family member.

For humans who think that they are at the top of the world, animals are only considered lower creatures that exist below them. Humans who do not have special circumstances and have rational feelings for creatures that are far apart in appearance and intellect are not enough. It probably doesn’t exist.

In the same way, even if the gods are similar in appearance, mortals who are too insignificant compared to themselves and possess beast-like intellect are, at best, only a relationship between a master and a loyalist.

“No, that’s wrong…”

However, my thoughts were clearly denied, and Eleanor licked the corners of her mouth and kept an empty smile that did not contain any meaning.

“Rather the opposite.”

the opposite…?

“What do you mean…?”

“Gods lust for mortals were also not uncommon, and each offered courtship to the mortal he fell in love with…”

Suddenly, he leaned his body against me and muttered in a slightly lingering voice.

“Rather, the mortals were so undeserving that they bowed their heads and rejected the gods… No matter how much they shouted that they were okay, only sad words came back… There had never been any gods associated with mortals before.”

Then the power to embrace me grew stronger and stronger, and she hid her expression on my chest to cover her face.

“As if it were a promise, all mortals rejected the hearts of the gods they revered and worshiped, and many gods were wounded in their hearts.”

“Eleanor…?”

“That’s why it’s so thrilling…. It was established as a concept, and it was achieved through situations where there were no variables until now…. The hope of various gods that even if they are mortals, they will form a relationship with the person they truly want. It was the first time I had accomplished this will…”

Then, her chest started to get wet, and Eleanor’s voice became more and more hoarse and cold.

“Herald….you are my man…the man who remains by my side even though the moment we were formed was tainted with infidelity…”

Anyone could see that she was crying right now, and it was to be expected that she was desperately hiding her unsightly expression because she didn’t want to put up with her shameful face.

“So I’m happy and anxious… Unlike us who are immortal, my heart breaks when I think of you, who will disappear someday, and I can’t stand it. because though.”

Awkward….

He hugged me tighter as if he never wanted to let go, and he wouldn’t let me go no matter what.

“So, always stay by my side… Give me that smile every day… so that I don’t regret the pain that will come soon…”

How did this story even come to pass?… I had no choice but to keep my mouth shut in the very disastrous atmosphere that was different from the first time.

“Huh…”

However, even in such an atmosphere, when she put her face on my chest for a while, Eleanor whispered to me while regaining her usual smile as if nothing had happened.

“To be honest, I can’t sympathize with the hearts of the gods who would have just become the protagonists of the story… That’s because they’re too far-fetched for me, since I wasn’t a believer in the first place…”

What… Then what will the things I’ve said so far be-

“But I can understand it, the pain of parting… You can know the sadness of not being able to connect with the person you love even if you can’t feel it.”

“……”

As soon as I tried to argue with her inwardly, my doubts were blocked by the words that followed.

“Well, somehow, you said something heavy! But, don’t worry too much about it, you don’t have to make such a complicated expression, just treat me like you normally do!”

He forcibly lifted up the subdued atmosphere of pressure and returned to the figure of Eleanor, who seemed to be really active.

“You’re leaking the other way. Let’s get back to the point, okay… What do you want me to ask?”

Eleanor completely brushed off her emotions afterward, but this time rather, I kept getting annoyed by what I said earlier.

Until now, I have been ignoring the moral beliefs that are fundamental among the basics.

Because I want to return to the original world… It seems that I have been thinking and acting selfishly on the pretext that I have a place to be.

Complex thoughts running through my head even late as I listened to the story…

Maybe it’s the issues you’ve always been concerned about.

If I return to the original world, what will happen to the people related to me in the future?

If the time comes to return to the original world and return to the world I was in, I think of the people I will leave behind in this world.

If one day, it suddenly disappears without a trace and disappears as if there were no people in the world, what kind of expression would the people who have been friends with me make up to now?

Eleanor, Mir, Goddess Abne… And Erina… Will everyone be sad if I suddenly disappear and never be able to see them…?

These thoughts complicate my mind.

Will I really be able to leave this world even after I share my friendship with the relationships that have existed and will continue to exist…

If you look at the progress of the story, if you’re short with the people you’ve made so far, if you’re short and long, you’ll spend a long time together, and as the story progresses, you will inevitably form relationships with new people and build relationships.

If that happens, my human relationships will be complicated like a net, and in the future, I will have my own place in this world no different from the world I used to live in…

If that happens, if the moment comes when everything is over and the moment to return comes, will I be able to throw away everything in this world and go back without regrets?

…….

Read at n̲o̲b̲l̲e̲m̲t̲l̲.̲c̲o̲m̲

No matter how much I asked myself a question, I was just frustrated with myself in the blank output.

“Herald? Harold?! Can’t you hear me!”

“Ah yes?!”

Because of my personal thoughts, I didn’t have time to pay attention to what Eleanor had to say, and I felt a little nauseous as I kept ignoring her.

“Did you call?!”

He had a bad expression on his face as if he was offended, but he responded even if it was late, and when he apologized, he slowly released his strict face.

“Didn’t you say that you came at this hour because you had something to ask me? What the hell was that question?”

With those words, I quickly recalled her original purpose and asked her the question I wanted to know.

“Actually, I went to a dungeon with a female adventurer I recently worked with…”

When I told her about all the circumstances I knew, Eleanor, who heard my story, began to make an impression as soon as I finished speaking.

“Are you still talking about meeting that other bitch? Even though you’ve heard the story before, Harold is unexpectedly venomous when you look at him talking bluntly.”

Taking a deep sigh with a displeased expression, it was like a mother looking at her immature son.

“But I wanted to tell you about her situation, but I was too worried to just let her go… I’m sorry…”

When he politely bows his head, he tries to ease Eleanor’s heart, but he avoids looking at me and murmurs inaudible to me.

“How nice it is to be a human being to do that for someone who doesn’t care at all… well… I fell in love with that kind of personality in the first place…”

“What did you say?”

“It is nothing!”

Suddenly, he spit out in a harsh tone, as if angry, then put his hands on both sides and shook his head.

“Still, I’d like to ask you to go out with me!”

Once again, she bowed her head deeply and pleaded for mercy to Eleanor, but she sighed again as if she had no choice.

“You’re a really unstoppable knight…”

However, unlike that attitude, he quickly builds a firm look with a bit of determination.

“Okay, I’ll give you some help to overcome that unfavorable compatibility.”

“Really?!”

Eleanor gently nodded her head as she raised her voice with her eyes full of anticipation.

“Well… I’ve already engraved who your woman is on her body, so let me pass on my special knowledge.”

At the same time, he handed me an old book.

“It is a book with mysterious magic, and the content of this book is full of encouragement and words of various philosophies, and it is blessed with a blessing that promotes easier inner maturity for those who read it. .”

Perhaps it’s because it’s a world where magic exists, but there were things that were nonsensical and real, strange and necessary.

“Thank you, Goddess!!”

Eleanor accepts the book she is handed over and once again politely thanked her and nodded her head with satisfaction.

“Um… I’m glad if you’re satisfied. Seeing your smile makes me feel at ease without realizing it.”

With those words, the gap between their faces suddenly narrowed, and then she got closer enough to feel her breath on her skin.

“Harold? Before we leave, I also want to ask you one thing.”

“What?”

I felt a little uneasy, but I pretended to be as calm as possible and listened to her words.

“No matter how much you engraved on who your woman is, you’re still getting more and more time with other women.

As if that anxiety had hit a certain level, he demanded that I be flexible and respond appropriately.

“……”

The distance between the lips and the lips is really a little bit different and this composition…. Anyone can see this…

You can try leaking out what she wants to some extent, but when you try to do it yourself, it’s a bit devastating and at the same time, heat starts to rise on her cheeks.

“eww….”

side

I couldn’t help it, so I kissed her, but with the least amount of reason I put my lips to the cheek, not the lips…

“Hmm… It’s different from what I expected, and I’m a little disappointed… but I’ll pass on this.”

Although he said he was a little dissatisfied with the result, he seemed to be quite satisfied with the area of disappointment, so he widened the distance between his faces with a nice smile.

“While I’ve already done everything, it’s the cheeks, not the mouth… It’s something new.”

Those words reminded me of something from the past and made me smile unnaturally as if I wanted to make an excuse.