201 – Duty-4
It’s not something that can be solved with words.
If I try to push my infantile determination, it will only collapse. just get crushed To Eleanor’s huge remorse.
If so, I had no choice but to fight. I had no choice but to gather all my strength and endure it.
“Was this enough? Was it so much pain and guilt that bound you?”
“Listen to what people say! There’s no way I’m in debt to the likes of you guys!”
It’s instinct.
The existence of me, created by the times I lived as an earthling.
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Joy, sadness, anger, despair, disgust.
All of those things made me who I am today.
“I haven’t changed!”
The time of half a year or so spent in the imperial palace handing over the power of a hero, and the half a year or so of being guarded by the military and only showing their faces when necessary.
And two years of living as a porter. It was a lot of time, and a lot of things happened.
But that didn’t fundamentally change me.
The countless deaths and countless corpses I had seen did not dull me.
I hate to die A permanent and irreparable breakup was painful enough to honestly understand Farseer’s feelings.
taking away my options No anger, no hatred, no revenge, no forgiveness, no acquiescence.
Nothing can be done to the dead. It’s taking away my options.
With difficulty, she cut off her sword.
There were dangerous situations several times, but I clenched my teeth and endured.
The wound opens. The body, which had already been hit by an arrow once and was bleeding a little, was pierced and cut by Eleanor’s sword, and it was tattered.
“It was futile. It was wrong. I put the burden on you, but I didn’t think how you would feel about it.”
She must have been tired too, but she didn’t waver.
Not in the usual way. Write everything you can write.
“That’s none of my business, go back to the empire and do some politics!”
But my power was limited. As a porter, he couldn’t even begin to use the level of swordsmanship he had practiced with Eleanor for several years.
In the end, you have to get your emotions out.
“I will protect you!”
A blue aura flickers at the tip of the sword.
“It’s mine… it’s mine.”
A huge possessive desire and a desire to protect it. Greed fills the holy sword.
Even though it was a sword drawn like this, it was infinitely smaller and weaker than the sword drawn when Eleanor was a hero.
Still, this was my sincerity.
“You still… did you have that?”
“Ever since I first received the power of the hero, when I handed over the power of the hero to you, endured all kinds of pain… even when I couldn’t overcome it, even when I endured it.”
It firmly grasps the swirling desires and emotions, and blows them into the two hands holding the sword.
“This, I didn’t throw it away.”
Although it staggered and faded, it did not disappear.
“I will protect everyone I see. Whoever it is.”
“I, Celia, neglected you! No, worse! Made me hate you, made you angry!”
“I can’t make an exception.”
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Just like how he protected Nerwen in the elven forest.
“How come you couldn’t get out of that time?”
Again, her sword fell.
The sword spirit on my sword deflected Eleanor’s sword.
Much better than before. The number of wounds on the arm due to not being able to block the sword decreased.
Eleanor’s sword was not easily broken even with the power of a hero, perhaps because it was a fairly well-known sword.
But it was still not enough. The gap between her and me was huge. As a swordsman, she was far away from me.
“Are you still obsessed with that meaningless sense of mission? Why?”
Her words got on my nerves.
“It’s been bothering me since before… Who’s going to say that it’s meaningless?”
“Isn’t that true? Asking you to become a knight, leaving all the burden on you, a civilian, was an obvious sin.”
“Think what you do. Whether you regret it or cherish it is your freedom.”
bite it tight
A solution seemed to be in sight. With the power of a hero, the power to protect something was not enough.
She had a lot accumulated.
“But, my sacrifice! Don’t dismiss my dedication as pointless!”
Tenacity wrapped around the holy sword.
“Maybe it didn’t end well. Like you said, you who don’t know anything may have been fooled by the words of you and the emperor and fooled around!”
Even while talking, her sword did not stop. However, I was cutting Eleanor’s sword like a lie.
“But then I… I was worth it then! Much more than now!”
incoherent words. It’s even selfish.
The me who told Celia that I would deny my past, who hated and denied them and cursed my choices.
Now that I’m angry, I feel that I’ve been insulted even more than that.
“As you said, I might not have known anything. I didn’t realize how painful and dangerous this world was, so I might have easily promised something I couldn’t do.”
However, I couldn’t deny that.
“But I tried to keep it, I was proud of it!
I was chosen, prepared to fight and fell.
And I, who believed that there was someone more suitable than me, and laid down that power.
In the end, I realized that I was needed, and I tried to do even small things for those who were suffering.
I accepted Eleanor’s training in order to lessen the burden on the hero’s party.
I tried to understand and embrace the contempt and criticism of Nerwen and Farseer.
Even if the end wasn’t good, even if I couldn’t hold on.
I, who tried it, did not pass on any embarrassing memories to me.
“I’m proud! The me who tried that, the me who didn’t run away from the first battle, the me who was able to be with great people like you…”
If I had lived the life of an ordinary earthling, would I have been able to get involved in this battle?
It’s a life I never imagined before, and I’ve endured far longer than my conservative expectations.
“Who are you, you’re blaming it!”
“It was a burden you didn’t have to bear!”
“That’s why I’m proud of it! I chose to do what I didn’t have to do!”
It is felt. Also, she was still alive.
As long as I have the right feelings, the right intentions, and a clear goal, I can count on her help.
“Yeah, come to think of it, you’ve always been that way.”
There cannot be a reason for all anger. I, at random, burned my hatred for Eleanor.
“Because he took care of what others valued, and put his duty first.”
“Then, kill this body and go. Just a minute, just a moment more.”
Eleanor looked at me with sad eyes.
“If the demon dragon has finished its final preparations and is about to begin the ceremony, I will give you my body as much as I want.
“under?”
“You’re not wrong. I was a human who tried to take my greed and my glory by crushing you without realizing what was important.”
I had to force myself to stop the strong words welling up in my throat.
Is this really something you can do? No matter how I think about it, it feels so inconsistent.
However, the trouble did not last long. In the first place, it was not a position to fight while covering this and that.
“Don’t try to cut down the you at that time, on your own terms!”
After hearing my words, Eleanor looked at me with round eyes.
“what are you saying…”
She lowered her sword, but I had no intention of stopping the fight. Taking a step forward, I swung the holy sword with all my might.
“At that time, I was disgusted and hated for similar reasons, but at least you… Back then, you weren’t a human being driven by greed!”
“that…”
“I longed for it. It was like seeing a huge mountain or a waterfall, not the same person. How could there be such a person…”
Emotions began to enter her eyes as she approached the end of the finale.
Even in a place far away from the demon castle, the fight wasn’t easy. It was a daunting task to restore the strength of the hero and fight the commander of the Demon King’s army.
However, she did it. It wasn’t just because he was strong. It was because I had a strong will and conviction to endure it.
As if she was now swinging her sword at me with that will.
That was something that could never be demeaned. I couldn’t blame it, even from Eleanor’s mouth.
Even though I hated it to death, I wasn’t a human being who could explain it with something like ‘greed’.
“So, shut up!”
“Which rhythm should I match… It’s pointless to pour out my anger aimlessly like this.”
A little tired, Eleanor’s breathing became a little rough. It seemed that he was looking at me with pity, so his anger surged up again.
“Do you really think it’s pointless to pour out your anger aimlessly?”
“Because I don’t know what you want. I didn’t promise you. I’ll give you my body any time after the job is done.”
“I told you from the beginning. My goal is to save everyone.”
That’s enough. I muttered to myself.
to call it
“that is…”
However, Eleanor was speechless when she saw my sword. It was because fragments of power that were huge and powerful beyond that of the hero had turned into red fragments and stuck to the sword.
“For that, I just needed strength.”
I ran towards her once again.