41 – Suhyeon Lee-6
I looked with my eyes focused. It’s clear that he has a worried expression.
“You’ve lost your memory. You don’t remember?”
“Uh, I don’t remember anything…”
Wolha let out a sigh of relief.
Are you so glad I’m gone?
sorry but not yet I can feel the memories of the past coming back step by step, so I didn’t think I could last that long, but I have enough time to educate you guys.
“You lost your memory, what the hell happened?”
I looked at Hayeon and asked. Wol-ha was said to be a person from a neighboring city. He probably wasn’t there when I lost my memory, but I acted imagining the situation before I lost my memory as much as possible.
“It must be a painful memory for my older brother… It was because he was beaten by a villain.”
Ha Yeon-i made a gloomy expression.
Younger… I can’t see it.
Shall we float?
“Didn’t I do something strange while I lost my memory?”
“No. It wasn’t strange.”
As soon as I finished my question, Wolha answered. It comes out like that, right?
I looked at the children. I couldn’t call her because I didn’t know her name, but I was able to convey what I wanted just by looking at her.
“I was going to commit suicide…”
“Sahyeon you!! What are you talking about?”
Ha-yeon hurriedly covered the boy’s mouth.
“You were going to commit suicide? Why?”
“You don’t have to know my brother!”
“What do you mean you don’t have to know that I tried to commit suicide?”
I looked at Sahyun.
“Can you tell me more?”
“Ugh!!!”
Ha-yeon kept Sa-hyeon’s mouth shut and didn’t let go.
In the end, nothing has changed
“Haa, assholes…”
She threw off the image she was playing as Lee Soo-hyun.
Both of the S-Class Awakeners seemed to have noticed and hesitated.
Well, it’s weird if you don’t notice that you spit out abusive language.
“Have you cheated on us?”
“Yes, I lied to you. I think it will disappear soon, but shouldn’t I check whether Lee Soo-hyun can live happily ever after?”
“Our driver’s happy life is our business, not your part-time job.”
oh i’m scared
“Yes, you said it well. I have to think about helping Lee Soo-hyun live happily. Why are you bothering me, a fictitious person? This is why I can’t let go of my mind either.”
“Eup!”
Please let him go. I will suffocate after that.
“I don’t think you’ll hear me say anything anymore, so I’ll ask you a few favors. When Lee Su-hyeon comes back, explain everything that happened so far. That’s right. It’s your job, so are you trying to fake it?”
Look at him gathering mana in his hands again.
“And the three of us take time to talk seriously. It’s not for nothing that I’m angry with you. It’s because Lee Su-hyun seems to be living a very pitiful life. The three of us talk openly. Well, it probably works better.”
Huge mana hit me in the head again.
‘Ah, I don’t think I can stand it this time.’
My eyesight went dark again.
***
It was a strange feeling.
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No weight weighed me down. There was no resistance whatsoever, as if it had become a ghost.
‘Are you here again?’
It was a place I had been to once, but it was vastly different from when I came before.
Everywhere was brightly lit, with no dim spots.
Perhaps the memory has fully returned.
When I widened my horizons and looked around, the things I experienced were also shining as a member of this space.
“You worked hard.”
It was exactly the same voice as mine, but it was a different voice from mine.
I want to know what bullshit this is, but there was no other way to explain it. Even the voices of the same person tend to have different voices for each emotion, so it’s not strange that we have slightly different voices with completely different memories.
“Did you see everything?”
“I just woke up. I didn’t watch it in real time, but I did take a quick look.”
Thank goodness, they never would have told me.
“There are many things I want to ask.”
“Speak slowly, because you have plenty of time.”
Talking to me, is it really strange? hahahaha, so much fun
“Are you an asshole?”
“… if you ask me like that, I have nothing to say.”
“There’s nothing, just say it’s right.”
If you can’t control the girls around you, even the girls you saved, what are you doing with your life?
“You knew it was a bad relationship, too? Why did you just put up with it?”
“Because they’re not opponents who can resist in the first place.”
“Then you just die. Why do you live?”
I didn’t mean it in a sarcastic way. Since he was soon born and I was soon him, he must have had the value that he could not live on his own and die only if he was caught and lived.
“There’s a reason why I shouldn’t die.”
“Is it something in my memory that I don’t know about?”
“right.”
Having said that, you have nothing to say?
“Still, isn’t it too scary that you haven’t even tried talking? If you set the atmosphere and have a really serious conversation, don’t you think things will get better if they get better?”
“I’ve been trying to change lately, but looking at you, I felt like you were too stuck in the past.”
“If so, it’s fortunate, and hyung was worried about you, so during his short life he did everything he could to edify the women around you?
“In the end, my problem is that I have to solve it.”
Yeah, now you’re putting on a nice face.
“But isn’t hyung me? You’re a personality born later than me.”
I wanted to put my fist on the face that gave me a smirk. Is that how you feel when I smile?
“So you call me brother?”
“It’s okay, I think I can’t stand it because it’s disgusting to hear such a thing with my face.”
Shall we call you one more time? I wanted to, but decided not to. It’s not just Lee Soo-hyun who can’t stand it.
“Can you do well?”
“Of course, if you don’t think you’ll do well, you should just die.”
“I have no intention of dying.”
“Really.”
He doesn’t change his complexion and lies.
Well, I can easily hide my expression when I lie.
“Then trust me and leave it to me?”
“Where are you going to disappear? I just stay there. Sometimes when I’m bored, I’ll be a companion and when I’m having a hard time, he’ll play as a pinch hitter.”
“It’s not some kind of dual personality…”
“I’m just asking you to stay in my consciousness.”
what is he talking about now? I’m just a personality born of amnesia,
Of course, it is the right personality to disappear.
“Don’t you want to live longer too? The Lee Soo-hyun I know will definitely hate disappearing like this.”
“What are you talking about, Lee Soo-hyun?”
“You are Lee Soo-hyun too, if you say you are not Lee Soo-hyun, what words can you use to describe you?”
“Lee Soo-hyun, who has no memory, can be perfectly explained by adding four letters in front of it. Why?”
“Then, if you have memories, can you become the perfect Lee Soo-hyun?”
“That’s not true, I only see your memories, not experience them myself.”
“Still, can’t I be at least as imperfect as Lee Soo-hyun?”
What you say only works for other people, but it doesn’t work for me.
“Anyway, don’t you want to disappear too? I’ll let you see the world from time to time, so just shut up and stay, you idiot.”
“Ji is more of an asshole, but what do you call an asshole?”
Since I am cursing myself, is this self-hatred or not?
“Even if you stay, I’m going to shut up and look at your memories.
“That’s enough.”
“Then why don’t we go back and do what we have to do?”
“Okay then, see you later.”
Lee Soo-hyun’s body turned blurry and slowly disappeared.
Seeing that I can’t feel anything from the outside, it seems that it won’t happen right away.
‘What memory should I visit first?’
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Now it’s not blurry, it’s bright, but I walked through the memories.