Episode 87
Ssuk-.
Luna wiped the sweat from my forehead with her sleeve.
I quietly accepted Luna’s touch and opened my eyes.
… … It’s too close.
It felt as if their faces would collide with each other if they moved their bodies just a little.
For some reason, my heart beat quickened.
“Did you have a nightmare?”
Luna asked in a low voice, afraid that it would disturb the sleep of the cadets.
I decided not to answer because I couldn’t fully tell you my concerns.
Luna smiles, perhaps accepting my silence as positive.
“Tell me if you’re having a hard time. Ooh, we’re friends… … .”
Suddenly, Luna stuttered.
I just watched Luna’s reaction.
immersed in deep thoughts.
“… … .”
It is not easy to affirm or deny the word friend.
friend… … .
If I really knew my true self, would I be able to call myself a friend?
I am the one who made this world
All the misfortunes and sorrows of Luna and everyone else were written by my own hand.
I wouldn’t believe it just because I said it.
‘It’s tiring, a little bit.’
A short time of less than a week.
In the meantime, too much work has happened, and too much thought.
In this process, I realized that this world is not a virtual world made of text, but another reality.
so that.
‘… … I can’t accept it.’
The emotions that Luna sends to me are very burdensome.
Ssuk-.
I lowered my gaze and stared at Luna, who was looking up at me from the side of her chest.
The soft orange light from the magic lamp set off her white and pale pink hair.
Then, involuntarily, a pure feeling came to my mind.
‘It’s pretty.’
It’s not empty words, it’s a look that doesn’t yield even if you compare Rene and Pron.
I didn’t seem to be aware of it because I didn’t have enough confidence.
Then, the moment I turned my gaze, wondering if our eyes would meet.
… … Luna moved slowly.
hook-.
Luna in my arms before I knew it.
soggy.
I blinked my eyes at the suddenness of her action.
I knew that Luna’s feelings for me were like hers, but I never thought she would like me this much… … .
While my ears were about to slowly heat up reddish.
“Adele.”
Luna raised her voice.
I opened my mouth to the echo of deep depression.
“Why are you calling?”
“Adele.”
closely-.
Luna, who called me again, grabbed my collar and tied it.
Before I could part my lips to answer, Luna’s voice mixed with crying was heard again.
“Adele.”
“… … .”
Luna’s hands were shaking.
I couldn’t do anything other than hold her hand.
Like when she helped Luna kill a prisoner in Orgon.
However, the trembling of her hands did not stop even when I gently touched her.
I opened my mouth to Luna.
“Are you afraid of humans?”
Shaking my head.
To my question, Luna expressed the negative.
It didn’t seem like a lie, so I asked the next question.
“Were you afraid of that human?”
If it wasn’t that he was afraid of the human cadets, he thought that Terrias might have been afraid of him.
Terrias showed the majesty of defeating Samuel and the cadets in an instant.
swish-.
However, Luna shook her head as if the answer was no this time.
So what were you afraid of?
‘no way… … .’
I raised my hand and wiped the dried blood scabs from my face.
He was wounded here and there and covered in the blood of human cadets.
My current impression, to put it mildly, was not a good one.
“Aren’t you afraid of me?”
“It can’t be… … !”
Luna loudly denied it.
In response, I immediately raised my index finger and placed it on Luna’s lips.
“Quiet, in case the other cadets wake up.”
“Yes… … .”
Is it because of the lighting?
Luna’s face turned red.
Only then did I remove my index finger from her lips.
And he asked the next question.
“If so, what were you afraid of?”
If it’s not the human cadets or Terias, what are you afraid of?
Besah, the instructor at the Imperial Academy, who should have been the next threat after Terias, I dealt with by myself.
Luna let out a gloomy voice outside.
“… … death.”
“You mean dying?”
“Yes, I am afraid of death.”
“Is there a demon in the world who isn’t afraid of that?”
How can we not be afraid of death just because we are cadets raised for war?
It is trying to turn away from fear in order to kill humans and achieve revenge, even in exchange for death.
Together.
Luna shook her head again.
“What I fear is not my death.”
“Aren’t you afraid of death?”
“Of course I am afraid of dying. I’m a demon no matter what. But what’s scarier is… … .”
Luna was speechless and began to sob.
As if I was filled with emotions, the sound of her crying makes my heart choke.
I gently stroked Luna’s light pink hair and waited for her to calm down.
Luna, who had been weeping, opened her mouth.
“The person I had a relationship with died… … i’m so scared of it I hope no one dies.”
“… … .”
“I tried. I didn’t want anyone to die, I wanted to save everyone, but it was impossible. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t stop it.”
“Lady Luna.”
I tried to stop Luna from spewing out stories with intensified emotions.
Luna didn’t stop talking.
“If you hold it in your hand like a grain of sand, it will crumble. How can I keep everyone from dying? Adele, you are smart.”
yet.
Luna, who held my hand tightly, opened her mouth as if to vomit.
“Adele, tell me. What should I do? Because please… … .”
“… … .”
I couldn’t answer or comfort Luna’s crying question.
just softly.
I just took my hand out of Luna’s.
It was because I thought that what she needed right now was not consolation or sympathy, but rice to adapt to this tragic reality.
after-.
I took a deep breath and continued the story.
“More colleagues will die in the future.”
I’m not trying to scare you, it’s the truth.
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No matter how much the saintess dwells in Luna’s body, Saitan’s students will die one by one.
no.
maybe everyone will die
According to the original story, it was like a fait accompli.
I was the only variable, but I couldn’t see the demons winning just because I was there.
The main character’s group continues to get stronger, and as the story progresses, it’s clear that settings I don’t know will pop up.
Before long, Luna will be at a crossroads of choice.
‘I guess Edea was wary of this.’
In Orgon, Edea tested me.
Will you have an iron heart that saves only the talented cadets, or will you choose the hard way to save everyone?
There I chose to have an iron heart.
But Luna is different from me.
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No matter how I said it, Luna would not be able to make a choice like abandoning her friends.
It may seem frustrating.
But to me, Luna seemed normal.
This world must be crazy to encourage a child who has not yet reached adulthood to take revenge and get used to the deaths around him.
but… … .
“Are you going to cry every time someone close to you dies? Sometimes you need to put your lingering feelings behind.”
“Leave your lingering behind… … ?”
“yes.”
What I meant was simple.
I didn’t mean to give up the mindset of trying to save everyone.
As long as it helps us to try to heal our allies, it won’t hurt us.
However, it was necessary to refrain from delaying the time by bursting into tears over the death of each cadet like this time.
And what I will say will be an important attitude for Luna in the future.
“If you want to save everyone, do your best. You have to somehow evolve your healing abilities and practice your magic.”
“… … What if someone dies anyway?”
“If you try your best and still can’t save it, that’s it. It’s not about feeling guilty. I’d rather have it.”
Frustration will serve as an opportunity to further evolve Luna.
whether mentally or physically.
However, if you fall down without being able to grow by taking that frustration as food, that’s the end.
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No matter how much I decide to help Luna, if her will isn’t supported, I can’t help it.
so.
“I hope you don’t forget what you felt today and how you feel. If you want to grow further, you need to be strong, not crumbling.”
crumbling and hardening.
There was a difference between the two.
Soil can be washed away by rain and shattered like a landslide, or it can turn into mud and become hard again.
I hope Luna gets stronger.
Otherwise, you won’t be able to survive in this twisted world.
At my words, Luna nodded.
“Yeah, I’ll try… … .”
With that, Luna burrowed into my arms.
Unlike the lukewarmness of the blood, a warm warmth was felt from her body.
I didn’t even have time to panic, Luna closed her eyes and fell asleep soundly.
Huh, really… … .
I can’t imagine falling asleep because I’m tired while others are talking hard.
I slowly drew a smile on my lips.
It would be okay if I accepted this much.
“… … It’s cute, so I’ll look at it.”
Ssuk-.
I muttered as I stroked Luna’s light pink hair.
I worried about whether such a fragile child would be able to get through this turbulent world, but I decided not to care.
I’ve already done everything I could.
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Not material help, psychological help ends here.
What’s left… … .
‘It belongs to Luna.’
Taking care of myself was psychologically difficult, but I had no time to take care of Luna.
… … Rather, it will be soon.
‘Is this possible with this body?’
As I was about to go to sleep, I was suddenly worried.
If there is no variable, we will encounter the main character’s group with a high probability.
However, my physical condition right now is not normal.
Excessive bleeding could have been avoided with Luna’s treatment, but what can one of the shattered arms do?
I lost the pain as a side effect of absolute hiding, but the pain came back and made me suffer even at this moment.
Please don’t let anything happen.
‘I don’t want to see you yet… … .’
My heart was not ready to meet the main character.
Because I, the creator, did not want to see the person I cherished to the point of favoritism becoming a hypocrite.
In that situation, can I kill Hamel, the main character, because he is different from what I knew?
mind is complicated
I hardly ever got to sleep.
That’s why I
I muttered apologetic and annoyed at the guy who had dragged me into this place.
‘… … Damn you.’
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