96 – Side Story – The Girl I Met in the Rain
Shooaaa
“…”
The mud that sticks to my entire body is swept away like rags. Instead of dried tears, raindrops sweep across her face. Because the whole world was wet, the insects that were like companions did not stick to him, but the fact that one eye could not be opened was definitely a sign of tragedy.
Shooaaa
Once again, the sound of rain hits my ears. I throw away the blanket that barely covered me and look to the side. There is a dog lying there, I don’t know if it is dead or alive. I’m sure he’s dead, but I’m not sure. If I were alive, there would be eight tooth marks in a row on the back of my neck.
Maybe I should find a house that still has a mirror and check the back of my neck. That way, you can be sure that it is rain and not blood that flows throughout your body. But I guess that’s not necessary. Because, this is a dream.
There is quite a bit of evidence that this is a dream. First, even though it is raining like this, there is not a single dark cloud visible in the sky. Second, even though I pierced the exact center of my palm with my finger, I didn’t feel any pain. Third. There is no way such a colorless landscape exists in the world.
And above all, I know where this is, and he no longer lives in this land.
…
But even though I knew this was a dream, I couldn’t come back to reality.
“Ha…”
It looks like today’s dream will last a little longer. Is it because I slept too soundly? Whatever the cause, if you want to be in a dream for a while, you have to accept that reality.
That’s why I recall old memories and prepare to adapt to the past.
Where I am now is not Yoona’s house, but a muddy pool stained with blood.
What’s in the pocket is not candy, but a rifle bullet the size of a finger.
My name is Matryona Dragunov, not Ellen.
Only after accepting all of those facts did I fully open my eyes and make eye contact with the white-haired girl who was looking at me in the rain.
And the pitch black muzzle pointed towards us as well.
Shoo…
…
At that moment, like a miracle, the rain stopped and I raised both hands as soon as I saw the gun. The girl also stared at that figure with an indifferent expression. So, I prepared to close my eyes in front of the gun barrel that could fire at any moment.
“Hey.”
But before that, the girl’s lips opened. Then, as I was waiting for the death sentence, he said something unexpected.
“Take off your pants right now and take out the pepper.”
“Huh?”
I had a natural reaction to an untimely command. But the girl repeated again with an unwavering voice.
“Take off your pants and take out the pepper.”
“I’m not sure what you’re talking about.”
“Dick. Penis. Prick. I’m saying take out that thing that’s in your pants. Surely you’re not a eunuch?”
“It’s not like that.”
“Then take it out. I’ll take care of it from then on.”
It wasn’t a bad offer at first glance, but I don’t have the talent to get an erection at gunpoint. So instead of obediently taking off his pants, he asked another question.
“Why on earth do you want to do that?”
“What can I do? Of course it’s to f*ck. Is there only one more thing a woman can do with a man’s pepper?”
“So why on earth are you trying to do that in the current situation?”
“Because I will die soon. It would be unfair for me to die without even being able to get rid of the label of a virgin.”
Only then did I discover the bright red bandage wrapped around the girl’s abdomen. The amount of bleeding seemed extreme as blood continued to drip. If the injury is that severe, the internal organs may be spilling out.
But the venom in the corner of his eyes was as clear as ever. A clear obsession was visible in the eyes beyond the dark circles.
“I’ve never even had s*x, let alone a kiss, at this age. It’s unfair to die like a dog on the dirt, but at least I should die without a virgin.”
“But you know that s*xual torture of prisoners is a violation of international agreements, right? That’s it…”
“Seeing as you care about such things, it seems like you belong to the government military. I don’t care about such things. Since you were forcibly brought here, do you have any concerns about agreements?”
“Still, can’t we take care of the minimum human rights?”
“You’re so annoying. I just want to shoot you.”
The girl frowned. Luckily she didn’t pull the trigger though.
“Let me ask you your name. What is your name?”
“Matryona Dragunov.”
“Matryona? Aren’t you a man?”
“It was the name of my father’s favorite prostitute. He must have liked it so much that he gave it to his son as well.”
“Well, it suits her. She looks pretty like a girl.”
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“I heard a lot about it. Thanks to that, there were many times when I was in danger.”
“I understand roughly. If I were a man, I would have f*cked you like a dog.”
“After hearing that, I have no more desire to take off my pants.”
“Really annoying…”
She sighed at my words. Then she continued her words as if she were lamenting.
“If you keep doing that, I’ll just shoot you and force you to do it. Once there’s a hole in your stomach, you won’t be able to think about useless things anymore.”
“But then you won’t be able to get an erection. That’s only possible if blood flows there.”
“Then just tell me. It’s not a bad thing for you either. If you’re worried about getting sick, I’m a virgin.”
“It’s a coincidence. It’s my first time too. That’s why I want to do it with the person I love for the first time.”
“Ha. Even in this situation, I have to take care of my innocence, right?”
The girl said sarcastically and lowered her gun. As the strong smell of gunpowder dissipated, she felt as if she could breathe a little easier.
“I’m really annoyed. So what are you going to do?”
“You just have to stop doing this.”
“That’s not an option. Come up with another alternative.”
“Hmm…Why don’t you try flirting with me during the remaining time?”
“I’m sorry, but I don’t have time to do that. Or is it because I’m ugly?”
“That’s not true. When I first saw you, I thought you were an angel who came to get me.”
“…The horse is Cheongsanyusu. Like a gisaeng brother.”
Her expression was still frowning, but her muzzle was now completely pointed towards the floor. The girl sighed again and finally lowered her gun.
“f*ck. I talked too much. It’s all because of you.”
“I’m glad to hear that you became a companion. Would you like me to take care of your wounds instead?”
“I know the state of my body best. I’ll probably die in an hour or two at most.”
“If you do something rough like s*x, you’ll die sooner.”
“That’s why I want to do more. I’d rather die quickly.”
Her declaration that she would use her instinctive pleasure as a painkiller seemed to make quite a bit of sense. Of course, it makes sense, but it doesn’t seem convincing at all.
“You will survive. If we can talk like this, the condition may not be that serious.”
“I told you. I know my body best. The infection has probably already progressed, and best of all, it doesn’t hurt anymore. That’s never a good sign.”
“Still, I have to try.”
“If I survive like that, that’s even more of a problem. While I’m receiving treatment, I won’t be able to control my body properly, let alone fight. Then, the rebels will no longer consider me a comrade to fight with. It’s obvious even without looking at the treatment I’ll receive next.”
“Too much imagination…”
“f*ck. I have to say this several times. I’d rather date the handsome mercenary I met today than get ripped off by dirty old rebels. Is that so wrong?”
For a moment, there was anger in his voice. Perhaps because of the excitement, blood could be seen pouring out of the wound. I tried to put my hand towards it, but then spoke in a calm voice.
“Okay, calm down. Your pretty voice is cracking.”
“You’re flattering me when you won’t even give me a chance.”
“I’m doing this for a reason. So just lean in here. You’ll feel a little better.”
“…”
The girl glared at me for a moment. But soon he obediently came over and sat down next to me.
“It has to be a compelling reason. I still have the strength to pull the trigger.”
“Then save your strength. Stop talking.”
When she deliberately lowered her voice, the girl seemed to calm down a little and closed her mouth. Under the sky where a mixture of ash and gunpowder fell, the girl’s lips that were closed for the first time glowed red like a ripe apple.
Of course, I had already concluded that it was a fruit I could not covet. So, instead of making eye contact with the girl, I glanced over the horizon for no reason.
“The weather is so dirty. I don’t know why I’ve never seen a clear day since I came to this country.”
“Don’t talk back and tell me the reason. I’m literally running out of patience.”
“Actually, there is no particular reason. I should just say that I don’t want to have my first experience in a place like this. It’s not good for hygiene to mix bodies in a bomb zone.”
“If that’s all it takes, I’ll really shoot you.”
“If someone were to bleed out and die on top of my body, it would be a nightmare for the rest of my life. I don’t think you would want to end your life like that.”
“I never said I would do it from above. You seem like a perverted bastard.”
There was a bit of laughter in the blunt answer. I took that as a positive sign and continued talking.
“And they both said that if it’s your first time, you’ll be more lost than you think. If you do it wrong, you might die before you even start.”
“It’s not that serious, so it’s okay. It takes a long time to know how long it will take.”
“I heard it takes longer than expected. I heard it’s difficult to put it in if you don’t have lotion or something like that.”
“How do you know such things?”
“Well…I heard it from other guys. And this is the most important thing.”
Only then did I make direct eye contact with the girl. And then he spoke in a rather meaningful voice.
“I’m only thirteen years old.”
“So, how much is different from me… Wait. What?”
“I’m thirteen. Maybe I’m twelve. In our country, I haven’t even finished elementary school yet.”
“This guy…Really?”
“Yes. It’s true. If it’s hard to believe, can I at least show you my birth certificate?”
Of course, that doesn’t exist right now. Anyway, the girl was quite shocked and couldn’t speak for a while. I don’t know how old she is, but I think I was too young compared to her.
“What’s wrong? Are you surprised because it’s so spirit world?”
“…Shut up.”
“No matter how urgent it is, don’t you think this is a bit much?”
“If you keep doing that, I’ll just eat it up.”
The girl gave him a harsh look again. But it wasn’t as poisonous as before. Rather, it seemed as if she was mocking herself for her own misfortune.
“Damn. I have no luck either.”
“I guess you didn’t think I was that young.”
“Who would have thought that a thirteen-year-old would come to a place like this?”
“But you don’t look that old either.”
“That’s it… Everything in the world is like that.”
We stopped talking for a moment and stared into space. If you think about it, it’s not normal for a boy who hasn’t even hit puberty and a girl who just took off her virginity to meet on the battlefield. However, it has been a long time since I experienced such absurdity so much that I became indifferent to it.
Meanwhile, the clouds in the sky were flowing by and the color was gradually disappearing from the girl’s face. She eventually shook her head and let out a harsh curse.
“f*ck the dog.”
“If you’re so sad, should I give you a kiss?”
“It’s okay. I don’t feel like that.”
The girl looked at me and frowned. I felt sorry and pitiful for her in that way, so for no reason I got closer to her.
“Good idea. Making her have the last experience of her life with s*x. I don’t think that’s a good idea.”
“Shut up. I don’t want to hear that from a kid like you.”
“I know everything. Everyone said that their first experience was very painful rather than pleasant. Maybe they regretted it as soon as it started.”
“I guess so.”
“And they say that when a man experiences an orgasm, his facial expression becomes very bizarre. Wouldn’t it be a bit strange if this was the last sight he saw in his life?”
“Really? How much is it?”
“Well…Is this what it feels like?”
“Don’t do it. It’s really ugly.”
The girl threw away her hand in disgust, but somehow she didn’t seem to dislike it that much. When I saw that and deliberately distorted her expression even more, she couldn’t hold back and burst into laughter.
“I told you to stop. I’m hurt because of you…Ugh. Damn it.”
“I heard it doesn’t hurt anymore. I guess the condition isn’t as bad as I thought.”
“I see. But now my head hurts even more because of you. I’m also irritated.”
“Aren’t you planning on surrendering? There’s a good doctor in our camp.”
“No, that’s enough. Now…It’s all just annoying.”
Is it annoying? Or maybe I lost my strength. It was clearly felt that the voice had quieted down. After staring into space for a long time, as if lost in her thoughts, she let out one word as if she was complaining.
“I’m just going to sleep.”
“Good idea.”
“Instead, let me sleep with my knees on my back.”
“As much as you want.”
When I opened my arms wide, the girl burrowed into them without resistance. Her pure white hair that fell on her lap felt so light. It felt like a deflated basketball was placed in her lap.
Furthermore, my body temperature was clearly getting colder. It looks like the short girl’s spring is over and winter is already approaching. She felt sorry for the flower that was dying so quickly because it couldn’t withstand the harshness of the world, so without realizing it, she placed her hand on her head.
The girl gently closed her eyes as if savoring my touch. Just when she was afraid that her closed eyelids would never open, her delicate voice crawled through her fingertips.
“If I’m still alive after I open my eyes, I’ll surrender then.”
“Then should we call people in advance?”
“No. Just…”
“…”
“…Just hold my hand.”
The voice could not continue any longer. It will be a while before she opens her mouth again. Maybe we’ll have to wait a really, really long time. When I thought about it that way, I felt sorry for the time I had wasted fighting.
Besides, I haven’t even heard the girl’s name yet. I don’t know what it means to know the name of a soon-to-be-dead enemy, but I’m still a child. Hence the capriciousness and naivety. And with a shattered sense of innocence, he carefully asked a question.
“Over there…”
“…Hey Ellen. Are you sleeping right now?”
“…”
“Ellen.”
“…”
“Ellen?”
“…Huh?”
The boundaries of reality that I had forgotten swallowed my entire body without any warning. Without knowing why, I lifted her head and looked at Yuna’s face.
“Uh…Hello, Yoona. You look pretty today too.”
“Stop talking nonsense. You’re asleep now.”
“That’s…No. I just closed my eyes.”
“Then what did I just say? Tell me.”
“…Hmm.”
I looked around to find a hint, but unfortunately, there was no noticeable information. The symbols x and y are just messily scattered on the dotted line. Nevertheless, in a final struggle, I uttered the words I remembered.
“Equation?”
“Put your forehead here.”
“Ugh.”
Yoona, who stuck the chestnut without mercy, showed a stern expression. But she soon calmed down and poked my thigh.
“Ellen. Are you tired?”
“It’s just that the content is a bit difficult. I’ll try to concentrate.”
“It’s not unreasonable to be tired. It’s been a lot of hard work so far.”
“No, I’m really fine…”
“I can’t help it. Come here, I’ll give you a hug.”
I felt a personal desire in the strangely established conclusion. After she returned to this world, Yoona especially liked hugging me. I may have missed it, but I think it was especially because it was a nice size to hold.
Whatever the reason, it was a welcome suggestion. Whenever she dreams of her past, all strength drains from her body. Should I say it feels like falling into a lukewarm sea? No matter how much the content is forgotten, the fatigue remains.
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So I just hugged him. Then, even the little bits of her dream that remained in her mind melted away in Yuna’s body temperature.
“Whoa…”
“Look. You’re tired, right? Do you want to sleep like this?”
“I said it’s okay. But I want to stay a little longer.”
“I understand. It’s definitely… It’s so nice to be held in my arms. Should I say the size is just right… As expected…”
“…Are you telling me to listen, or are you talking to yourself again?”
“Huh? Oh…No. I just…It’s been harder than that, Ellen. You’ve been through a lot since coming to this world.”
“No. Not really.”
I responded almost instinctively to Yoona’s words. Even at the academy. Even after returning to this world. There was definitely a lot going on, but I never thought it was extremely difficult.
In the past, there were many things that were more difficult than this.
Even those thoughts soon disappeared like melting snow. But instead, a strange question began to arise. The woman she saw in her dreams and the women she met at her academy. And as Yoona’s face passed by one after another, the doubt grew more and more intense.
“Ellen. What are you thinking now?”
“Huh?”
Yoona seemed to have noticed such a sign and asked a question in a curious voice. I thought for a bit and then sighed.
“No, just something…”
“Strangely enough, I only seem to get involved with women who are bigger than me…”
What’s happening here? Can anyone care to explain?