Another day passed.
Renee continued walking today, listening to the footsteps following her.
When there is a ‘click’ sound, a ‘tak’ sound is followed by footsteps. As much as you move, the feeling of popularity will follow.
If it sounds like you’ve already gotten used to this regular beat, would it be an exaggeration? Renee, who had a funny feeling at the thought that came to him, continued his thoughts with a small smirk.
The paladin who introduced himself as Vera was a very reticent person.
It could be said that it was a knightly figure or a priestly figure, but Renee came up with the idea that it was a little different from them.
Perhaps that person named Vera is just a person who is not good at expressing himself.
That thought came to mind.
Rene’s mind remembered the conversation they had the day before.
He was answering the question of why he became a paladin full of emotions.
It looked like he was conveying a feeling that could be called longing, somewhere hot.
What made him that way? The sword that the paladin Vera protects, what does that light mean? What does it mean to have such a hot heat?
The thought that came to mind, and the sound of footsteps that followed him again. Rene spit those words out without me knowing.
“What kind of place is Seongguk?”
It was a question that he didn’t even realize he was saying.
Renee, realizing that he had barely said such a thing after uttering it, recalled the thought of ‘Oops’ and then waited for Vera’s answer, thinking, ‘Is it okay if I listen to the steam that I spit out?’
The answer came back after Renee had walked about three more steps.
“… It is like any other place.”
low-pitched voice.
At that, Renee’s footsteps stopped. The head turned to the direction the voice was coming from.
Turning his head toward the direction the voice was coming from was a habit René would do when he wanted to express that he was paying attention to what the other person was saying.
“… is that so?”
“Yes, there are people, there are houses, and that’s where there are groups of people.”
“Um, isn’t there anything special about it? You can only see it there.”
Silence followed the question posed.
Did I ask the wrong question? Is this a difficult question for that person?
Vera’s answer followed, as Renee thought of trouble with the worry that came to mind.
“… People would rightly call them monsters.”
“Are you a monster?”
“Yes, there are some people who think outside the norm.”
At the next words, Renee tilted her head.
“What kind of people are they?”
“… They are not good to know in detail.”
At first glance, a word that seems to be firm.
It was a word that could be interpreted as having a bad feeling towards them, but Renee could realize that there was no negative emotion mixed in those words.
‘You don’t seem to hate it.’
Vera would have been horrified to hear, but Renee had no way of knowing him.
“Hmm… . That being said, I’m more curious.”
“… They are not evil-minded, but it would be correct to say that they do not need to be close to them.”
It was a pretty harsh word.
Aren’t they priests? Aren’t they the pilgrims who give their lives to God? Who the hell are they to say something like that?
For Vera, it was said that Renee didn’t want to get close to them, but everything in the world is like that. In reality, there is no such thing as just being able to do what you want.
In Renee, curiosity began to take hold of those who said Vera was a monster.
“Aha, something else?”
“… All buildings in the Holy Kingdom are white.”
the words you hear. At that, Renee struggled to swallow the laughter that was about to escape.
It was because Vera’s tone of speech was slightly irritated.
Do you not like white? Vera’s words continued as Renee pondered those thoughts.
“Perhaps the people who built the castle were sick… I think he must have had a different mindset than others.”
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Oh, I was pissed.
Renee felt a burst of laughter at the sight of Vera as he continued to speak, holding back the swear words, and then spoke.
It was a word that showed a little bit of playfulness at the words that showed emotions after much effort.
“You don’t like white?”
Renee said so and fiddled with her hair.
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OK.
“Never, never hate it.”
The answer followed quickly.
“I don’t hate white. It’s just that I don’t enjoy overdoing because I think there’s a middle ground in everything. White is… I never hate it.”
A deep embarrassment oozes out during the line-by-line conversation. Saying the same thing twice, even emphasizing it.
Meanwhile, another rustling sound continued, and Renero couldn’t help but think, ‘That man, Vera, is such a savvy person.’
“It’s a joke.”
After answering with a small smile, Renee remembered why Vera was treating him so kindly.
… Perhaps it was because of this stigma that fell on him.
Even if you are doing it without knowing it, isn’t it obvious?
The reason he came to him, who had no contact with Seongguk, was the reason he had a way to know that the stigmata had fallen on him.
So, since he is convinced that he has stigmata, he must be treating him with respect.
With the thought that came to mind, Renee suddenly felt a choking feeling in her stomach.
I didn’t want to think about it, but it’s because I’ve been thinking about the stigma again.
A stinky feeling that fills you up. Renee felt him and moved his wand again to shake off his thoughts.
Just right.
After that, another ‘tak’ sound of footsteps followed.
*
Being taken away was the kind of thing that couldn’t even be said as a joke.
Even more so, if what was stolen was to drop the whole of life into a pit.
Renee woke up feeling the warm heat sinking all over her body.
Renee didn’t know if the heat sinking down on his body was caused by the sun, or if he was really feeling it because there was a fire around him.
If you can’t see it, there’s no way to know.
I just guess through the calm atmosphere around me, saying, ‘It must be the sun because nothing is going on.’
… When she realized that she could perceive the world only through the sounds she heard or the sensations she felt, Renee felt so many emotions welling up within her.
The past will haunt you again.
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One day, the light was suddenly taken away. Because of that, he was unable to walk even a single step properly.
From that moment on, he recalls his past self, where he had to live a life of overcoming the long darkness.
The misery of having to live a life in which he could barely recognize the surroundings only by matching the landscape he remembered with where he is now, and the fear that it may continue to happen in the future engulfs Renée’s heart.
Renee was always afraid.
I was afraid of the invisible world, and I was afraid of the future I would have to live like this for the rest of my life.
So, Renee prayed.
There wasn’t a day when I didn’t pray.
There was never a single day I didn’t want.
Every moment of every day, I prayed that his light would return.
I hoped that you would save me from this poor man.
I thought they were able to do that.
… So, there was a moment when I thought that prayer had arrived.
Seven nights and white nights.
God’s power and divinity.
Renee could definitely feel him even though he couldn’t see.
It was something I had never felt before, but as soon as it started to flow through my body, I could clearly understand what it was. It would be right to express that I found out naturally.
There was hope inside. joy had risen.
Ah, finally my prayers have reached that sky.
Rene, on the day she first felt divine, cried and prayed for that emotion that spread throughout her body.
please return my light
I want you to bring back that splendid moment again.
It was a wish that was so clumsy, that he pulled out all of the divinity, which was not even good enough.
The divinity had been exhausted and my breath was suffocating.
I felt like my head was going to burn as I was expressing the power I didn’t know how to use properly.
However, I still couldn’t stop.
Thinking of the light that would come back, and who would be able to run again, he couldn’t stop thinking about it.
So, I squeezed out everything in me and made a wish… .
Nothing changed.
No matter how much divinity was drawn, no matter how much power was expressed, the light did not return.
The world was still dark, and Renee was blind, unable to walk a single step without a cane.
Hope changed its face in an instant and took the form of despair.
Renee felt the sadness that was ripped from her stomach by that despair.
It was then that René was able to realize for the first time how miserable a person’s hopes falling in front of him could be.
That was the first time I realized how deep resentment can be.
From that day on, Renee no longer believed in God. I didn’t even pray.
He was a god who made himself miserable, and since it was such a world, the only thing he could give back was resentment.
For Renee, God was a vicious servant who waved bread in front of a dying starving person. He was an evil servant in the world who mocked and giggled at himself who was so sad.
So he will no longer seek God, and whatever they desire, he will never follow them. Renee only remembered such a decision.
“ah… .”
Suddenly, a sigh escaped Renee’s mouth.
As soon as I opened my eyes, the thoughts that came to my mind flooded my mind.
Renee felt a tingling sensation all over her body, and closed her eyes tightly to shake him off.
I decided not to think about it and completely ignore it, so it was the reason that I couldn’t give up a single emotion.
stutter stutter. Renee’s hand found the staff.
I was feeling dizzy, so I thought I should get some wind.
So, find the staff, get up, put on the shawl, and open the door.
“… Did you cough?”
The last few days, I heard a familiar voice.
A paladin who came from the Holy Land. A servant of God whom he hates.
However, despite this, he is a strange man who cannot be hated.
Renee turned to the direction the voice came from and greeted him.
“Good morning.”
“Yeah, did you have a good night?”
“Yes, how about the knight?”
“It wasn’t bad.”
Renee smiled a little at the words she heard and then asked a question.
“Are you coming with me today?”
“… I’m sorry.”
What are you so sorry for? Renee laughed for a moment at Vera’s words and deeds, who said sorry like a parrot, and then reached for a cane.
The warm weather warms the body. It felt like the cool breeze washed away all the negative things in me.
Renee, who took a small breath at him, then felt a slight sense of guilt rising at the sound of footsteps following him.
Just following the past few days to take him to the Holy Land. A cunning paladin who never talks about him as soon as he finds out that he doesn’t like Seongguk.
It was a feeling of guilt that filled him with regret.
For a moment, as she chewed her lips again at the emotion that came to mind, Renee calmed her heart and straightened her expression.
‘… I’m sorry.’
No matter how much he thought about it, he did not want to become a servant of God.