Roughly three days or so, that would have been the case.
What can’t be said is… This is because of the characteristics of the place called the gutter.
At the time when the sun should be up, it is covered by the shadow of the tower, so it does not receive sunlight, and at night, it is a space where the light is blurred due to the scavengers carrying lanterns.
The gutter was always an empty space with no distinction between day and night.
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Of course, there was also a reason why his physical condition was the worst.
Pain all over the body all the time. Accident where the pick-pick blinks and cuts off.
Vera was lying in a state no matter what time he died, not knowing the time.
“Cool… !”
As he coughed, Vera felt his chest tighten and his breathing suffocate.
“Huh… !”
Taking another breath and examining the state of the body, the state of the body was grasped to some extent.
‘… A week at most.’
He will die in it.
He cursed him, but apart from that, his injuries were very serious. He needed medical treatment right away, but it was not even possible.
It should be something worth walking.
“Are you okay?”
The blind saint who lost that power, Renee, was the end.
In other words, there was no hole to live.
“… It might be okay.”
“for awhile.”
“Big… !”
A moan erupted from Vera’s mouth as Renee’s hand touched his chest.
Vera suppressed the groaning that erupted, and looked at Renee, who lit up a divinity that was about to collapse.
“Stop doing useless things. Doesn’t even the saint know that there is no hope?”
“You never know.”
It was a firm tone.
Vera looked at Renee again, struggling to catch the blinking spirit.
‘… Strange woman.’
What Vera felt during his brief time with her was that she was of a race so unique that the nickname of a monster was well deserved.
She wears burn marks so distorted that the original is unknown, and goes out hunting with invisible eyes.
So the only thing she got was a bowl of porridge that was inferior to livestock feed, and she ate it while savoring it as if it were some kind of seafood.
It was something Vera could not comprehend.
why not When he lived as a hunter in this gutter, Vera ate more than anything else, that honey honey killed him, so he cannot know the taste.
What’s even funnier is that he doesn’t eat all of him, even though it tastes so good.
After she ate about a couple of spoonfuls of porridge, she poured all the porridge into Vera’s mouth, wasting it to appease Vera’s immobile hunger.
Yes, it was a waste.
There was no waste, Vera thought.
He is about to die soon. The injury is so serious that it can’t get worse, and you don’t know when you’ll run out of breath.
So, several times Vera told her to let him die.
“You never know.”
She had only one answer.
Vera saw René holding a spoon at me, moving his gaze into the air and muttering.
“I didn’t know that the saint was an idiot.”
“What do you mean?”
“If you’ve lived your whole life as a saint, wouldn’t you know what this body is like better than me? But… Since the person who should be doing it so ignorantly, is it not natural for me to think of the saint as an idiot?”
I wish I could just throw myself away, but I was annoyed because I was holding onto it so foolishly.
However, René did not care about Vera’s attitude, and once again thrust the spoon at Vera.
“I don’t know. Isn’t it possible to get up after eating this porridge and get stronger?”
“So… !”
“Eat once.”
Vera glared at Renee, feeling his stomach twisting.
Renee stared into the air with her defocused eyes, and was waving her spoon to and fro where her mouth was supposed to be.
“… You are a foolish person.”
“In Seongguk, such foolishness is called love.”
“Are you excited to see someone dying soon?”
“I know that love doesn’t necessarily mean s*xual desire.”
The burn marks are pushed up into the wrinkles. At Vera’s gaze, Renee was smiling.
“If the Lord has told you to love your neighbor, how can you turn away from him as a body that was once His most favored servant?”
“Well, if the Lord was a person who loved her so much, she wouldn’t have felt pity for the saint and left her in a place like this.”
Vera smirked as hard as he could. Of course, she wouldn’t be able to see this expression on her face, but I did it just because I wanted to laugh at her.
“It was my choice.”
“In the city hall, such people are called assholes.”
“It’s a pleasure. And it’s not a saint, it’s Renee.”
What came back was, after all, a smile.
*
Maybe two days or more.
Renee once again held the spoon to Vera’s lips.
“It’s jingle jingle.”
“It’s about being patient.”
“Foolish… .”
“love.”
Vera’s mouth shut.
“Come on.”
Vera looked at the spoon waving to and fro over my face, took a short breath, lifted his head and bit him.
“Well done.”
words of praise. Vera’s gaze turned to Renee.
It was a smiling face. Now Vera could tell him apart.
Vera looked at the smile and thought.
‘She’s a really weird woman,’ he said.
There is no obligation or responsibility to be like this, but seeing that he takes care of himself like this, it seemed appropriate to express it that way.
Renee was a scoundrel who could not even be considered a saint who was praised by everyone.
An ugly, melted face that looks like it would scream and run away if someone you didn’t know saw it. Blue eyes that can be seen through the barely pierced eye sockets. White hair that had lost its shine, covered in dirt.
If she had gone out to Dongnyang like that, she would have suffered all kinds of persecution, but there was no sign of darkness in her.
Just smile.
It was the only thing hanging over her face.
Vera didn’t quite understand it, so he got madly curious and asked Renee a question.
“… Don’t you regret it?”
“What do you mean?”
“The renunciation of power.”
If I hadn’t given up on my powers, I wouldn’t have been able to live like that. No matter how much war broke out on the continent, I would have been as safe as myself.
As she looked at Renee with such a thought, she smirked and spat out an answer.
“I have no regrets.”
“Why?”
“Why do you think you will regret it?”
At the returned question, Vera was speechless.
It wasn’t because I didn’t have anything to say. On the contrary, there was so much to say that he was speechless.
Life in the gutter is so miserable and ugly that it cannot even be called life.
They starve every day, are despised for just the filth of the city gate, and in winter there is no wall to stop the cold wind, so it is easy to freeze to death.
But, why aren’t you afraid of it?
Why don’t you miss the splendid moments?
Why do you accept it with a smile?
Vera was in the midst of silence as he thought about it.
“… You know, there was a time when I could actually see.”
Such a word was heard.
tiring fish. Rene, who raised a soft smile, continued with that.
“Very young. So, I was five or six years old who didn’t even fall out of breasts. Until then, like everyone else, I could follow the light of the world with my own eyes.”
What came out of his mouth was a story about Renee’s past.
“I was a farmer’s daughter. The village I lived in was a small rural village in the corner of the Eastern Kingdom of Horden.”
It was a story that Vera did not know. It was because she didn’t have enough interest in her personal history.
“I still vaguely remember something. Flowers blooming in all colors on a warm spring day, the sun shining dazzlingly in summer, wheat fields dyed golden in harvest season, and a world dyed pure white when winter is in full swing.”
Rene closed her eyes and continued with a faint smile, as if trying to capture the moment that was floating in her mind.
“Everything was amazing. I was also happy. After becoming a saint, I was happy to live for others, but… Selfishly, if someone were to pick the happiest moment for me, I would pick that moment.”
Words spoken with a smirk. As Vera continued to remain silent, Renee continued to speak.
“So, when I suddenly went blind one day, I felt like the world was falling apart. It felt as if my shining world had fallen into the depths of the abyss.”
“I guess a saint is also a human being.”
“Of course, I am a human being, not to mention.”
It was a sarcastic remark, but she let him go as softly as ever.
“Anyway, it seems like I spent so many years crying. I guess I thought that the most unfortunate person in the world would be me, that the world was so cruel only to me.”
Vera could relate deeply to those words.
It’s because he’s been thinking about it in the past.
It wasn’t just that he was the only one. All those who are at the bottom of this gutter and misery will live with such thoughts.
Even while thinking of him, Renee’s words continued.
“While I was there, the stigma of the Lord came upon me.”
It was a story Vera knew all too well.
why not The continent has been turned upside down when the stigma of the Goddess, which has not appeared for nearly 400 years, appeared on the body of a young girl who had just entered puberty.
It was a well-known fact as Vera was in the midst of consolidating the cartels of the gutter and opening deals with the imperial nobles.
“At first, I dared to put resentment on the inside. Although I have a blasphemous heart, I remembered that the Lord took away my light and threw me this stigma as if it was a red flag, so I stopped complaining.”
“If the priests of the Holy Kingdom heard it, they would be shocked.”
“It’s a secret deep inside me.”
“Can I tell you this easily? Oh, he’s going to die soon, so it doesn’t matter.”
When Vera, who had been listening in the middle of the conversation, made such a sarcastic remark, Renee fumbled to stop Vera’s mouth by pressing against Vera’s chest.
“Big… !”
“That is not good. You have to think better.”
Vera stared at Renee, but it was also pointless to stare at the blind man.
Renee chuckled for a moment, then continued.
“So, while I was living a life of resentment for a long time, I stopped by this palace.”
“That’s the first I’ve ever heard of it.”
“It was a secret, of course. At that time, there was a time when I was trying to spread my powers all over the continent.”
Renee spoke like that, licked her lips for a moment, and then spoke out.
“It was a place where there was so much despair that even the eyes could not see. The sound of dying breath, the screams of pain, the smell of blood or filth, the damp air on the skin. All of that was a shock to me.”
A newly opened eye socket, a blue pupil that had lost its light could be seen.
“At that time, I felt ashamed for the first time when I came to this gutter. Even though I knew it was not right to dare to speak of such sympathy, seeing the people living here made me look so ugly that I was being foolish, so I felt ashamed.”
Again, a smile crept across Renee’s lips.
“It was then that for the first time, I thought of an emotion, not resentment. Plus, I thought of that. The reason that the Lord took the light from me may be that he wanted to share that light with them.”
“… It’s a short cut.”
“It may not be. However, would it matter to nothing? Isn’t it important that I remembered such a promise? So, I have no regrets about living here and now. I have become a very feeble existence, but I am reminded of how grateful I am to be able to help someone with such a body.”
Vera’s gaze turned to Renee.
A smiling face. It was a face that had no wrinkles, even a little, really.
Suddenly, Vera, who was looking at Renee, realized why his stomach was twisted when he looked at her.
‘… Saint.’
I realized why she was called that.
Because that saint was a human with such nobility, it made her stomach twist.
Fearing that he would return to the palace and die of starvation, he was twisted here by the nobility that was different from his own, who had trampled on everything he saw at every moment to somehow shake him off.
Vera struggled to look away from Renee and closed his eyes.
Suddenly, misery ran through his body.
Even once in my life, I never thought I would regret my life. At this moment, because of that ugly woman, regret rises in her heart.
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Obviously, this situation must be so difficult that it makes me vomit, but since I’ve lived a brighter life than this, I must be even more desperate.
“… Psychopath.”
“I am willing to say it.”
A clear laughter was heard, and a stone was placed in Vera’s heart.