Renee listened to Vera’s voice.
There was a longing that could not be hidden in the voice I could hear.
“It can be reached. As you walk, one day you will step on the tail of that light. That’s what I was thinking.”
There was a meeting.
“While chasing the light like that, I suddenly looked back and saw that I had not moved even a single step.”
In the end, there was hatred.
“I thought I was doing a great job. I thought that I was walking along an indescribable glory. However, it was only later that I realized that it was an illusion.”
… There was a hatred of self, which was rightly called self-hatred.
After Renee said those words, he heard the sound of his pressed breath falling into the air.
“… Did you?”
“Yes, in the end it was. I, this stupid bastard, still couldn’t walk.”
Renee nodded slightly at the words he heard, indicating that he had heard all Vera had to say.
Still, Renee didn’t know what Vera was talking about.
It was unknown to Renee what the light he was pursuing, or what it meant to Vera.
However, the emotions in it were things Renee knew.
The longing that burns inside, the skepticism that turns the world gray, the self-loathing that grows like a fruit in the end.
Everything Renee knew.
So, Renee asked.
“So, is that sad?”
Vera barely answered the question handed to him, in a lower voice.
“… Rather than sadness, it would be more accurate to call it fear. Will it be like this in the future? In the end, it may not be possible to reach the light. There seems to be such a fear inside.”
Vera’s head fell. It was done because of the brimming shame.
“I lived my whole life as evil, and only later realized that it was wrong. So we wanted to change.”
Again, a past life flashed through Vera’s mind. The evil bell that was indescribably ugly had passed.
“But, it may be that realization alone was not enough. This body still remembers those years, so no matter what I do, nothing will change. That kind of thinking sucks.”
Even though he knew that all of this was unfamiliar to Renee, Vera spit out his confession.
Hearing that, Renee nodded, feeling the emotions that were being conveyed.
Suddenly, Renee felt a small smile appearing on his lips as the thought passed through his head.
“The knight is an idiot.”
“Yes, I am the head of the world… .”
“Don’t say that. You don’t even remember what he said.”
Startle. Vera’s body trembled and rustled, and Renee’s smile grew stronger.
Renee clearly remembered what Vera had said to him, who had always said that.
“You never know.”
It could have been a clichéd word of consolation, but nonetheless, it was a word that penetrated deep into my heart.
“Even the gods in the sky don’t know if the knight will really change, or if he will get closer to that light than anyone else in the world.”
At the words, Vera’s eyes widened as if torn apart.
“The knight said to me, have you already forgotten?”
A smile that fills your eyes.
the words you hear.
They overlapped with her one day.
All the elements that make up her were different from back then, but nonetheless, they overlap.
The skin that had melted from burns on the flawless skin, the smile twisted over the lips that drew arcs, the hair covered in dirt on the hair shining in the bright sun.
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Overlaid on top of one another, Vera momentarily recalled the illusion that he might have returned to that time.
Accidents float away blankly My mouth was stuffy. His fingertips lost their way and held the air blankly.
“A knight?”
words that call themselves. Vera, who couldn’t even answer him, looked at Ren so blankly.
“A knight?”
It was only her second call, and she answered in a shriveled voice.
“Yes… .”
“Um, are you in a bad mood?”
Vera quickly responded with embarrassment as Renee spoke with a shy smile.
“no. You are right.”
“is that so?”
“Truly yes.”
Again, a smile appeared on Renee’s lips.
And while Vera felt his soul suffocating, Renee took a step closer to Vera.
Vera, who unknowingly took a step backwards.
chin-.
He was caught by the fence behind him, unable to go further, and had to stare blankly at her approaching.
distance is getting closer
Just right. Just right. Just right.
Then, Renee approaches the floor.
Rene’s staff reached Vera’s feet.
Rene stopped at that moment, leaving only a distance between the two of them enough to fit one person in, and headed in the direction of Vera.
“Would you mind giving me a hand?”
At what was said, Vera placed his hand on Renee’s, not even thinking of refusing.
Vera’s clunky, scarred hands overlapped over his tiny, white hands.
Vera felt his fingertips tremble at the warmth of his hands, a softness that was different from his own, and then he placed his other hand on top of Renee’s.
“… Is there something you haven’t told me yet?”
Words that flowed like mumbles. Then came the words that embarrassed Vera.
“The smell of blood. It’s very serious.”
Startle-.
Vera, startled by the words, tried to pull his hand away, but Renee stopped him by applying force to his clasped hands.
Awkward-.
Flesh is in close contact with flesh. The transmitted warmth began to turn into scorching heat.
“Tell me please. Again, I am blind, not stupid.”
The tone was more resolute than anything I had ever heard.
Vera felt a hesitation rise from the depths of his voice, on his hard face, and on the warmth he conveyed.
The words I didn’t dare say because I didn’t want to remind her of worries, because it seemed like I was putting another burden on her who was already grieving enough.
The words kept coming out of my mouth.
At the end of the day, it was the urge to open Vera’s mouth.
“Do you think there’s something to be done in this small town that smells of blood like this?”
His tone was resolute, as if he would not tolerate lies.
Vera couldn’t overcome that determination, and spoke in a stifled voice.
“Lady… .”
The tail of the horse was elongated. Vera, who was choked for some reason and unable to speak at once, bit his lip for a moment before continuing.
“… There are those who want it.”
Words spit out like vomit.
Renee added strength to his clasped hands.
He felt the heat in Vera’s hand. There was hesitation in the tone.
“… We are sorry to have caused you concern.”
It was then that René realized that this knowledgeable paladin had not said anything in consideration of his own selfishness.
“It’s really stupid.”
“Sorry… .”
“Do not do that.”
Considering his selfish feelings, he realized that he had been enduring alone.
For some reason, my stomach feels tight.
Renee felt him, and spoke in a slightly trembling voice.
“Don’t apologize. Don’t even be sorry. just… .”
I mean, I would rather have forced him to take me… I just couldn’t do it.
It was so obvious how Vera would have reacted had he done so, and Renee bit his lip, thinking that it would not be appropriate to say such a thing in a caring position.
It was a large hand touching it. Vera’s life was etched into his hand.
To borrow Vera’s words, the hand that struggled to follow the light.
Renee continued to speak, swiping the back of her hand on the slightly cold hand.
“… thanks.”
flinch.
Vera’s hand tried to slip away again.
Renee stopped the movement again by holding her hand tighter, and then continued.
“Go. Holy country.”
To be honest, René was displeased with the gods until this moment when he uttered these words.
No, Renee still hated the gods. The world was disappointing.
however.
“Because the driver is stupid, he doesn’t say things like this. It’s frustrating, so I have to go.”
You shouldn’t hurt others with it.
There are people here who give for me, and I shouldn’t make it difficult with my selfishness.
If there is someone who is silently protecting you, you must not abandon him.
At least Renee thought so.
Renee’s head turned to Vera again.
“I wonder if I will ever be able to become a saint… .”
Will the gods be forgiven, or will this power be accepted as grace?
“… Because I don’t know.”
It’s a moment that hasn’t come yet. Because the future is undetermined.
“I am still lacking, but the knight still believes in me like this. I’ll go. Holy country.”
Renee said so, using a power she hadn’t used since the day she received the stigma.
A pure white divinity blooms.
A rising divinity enveloped Vera.
Vera felt the divinity seeping over my skin, the fatigue of the night melted away like snow.
Vera’s gaze turned to Renee.
With a small smile, Rene’s appearance was that of a saint, as if painted in a painting.
strange feeling.
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Only her surroundings were separated from the rest of the world, creating an illusion of brilliance.
It was such a sight that took all eyes away and made something worthy to be called awe-inspiring.
Vera looked at him, then licked his lips and spoke.
“It is not unknown.”
“yes?”
“You will become a saint who can truly be called a saint.”
eating. A smirk escaped Renee’s lips.
“How do you guarantee that?”
“I’m going to do that, so there’s no if.”
The moment he spoke, Vera felt the oath engraved in his soul burning warmly.
Vera shivered at the warm sensation, and licked his lips again.
“I will protect you so that you can stand up again even if you fall and fall, so that Saint will become a greater saint than anyone else.”
Renee’s laughter continued. A smile he didn’t even recognize appeared on Vera’s lips.
“Can you guess?”
“I can swear.”
Saying so, Vera revealed the stigma.
An oath engraved in the soul. On top of that, once again, he pressed the vow.
“For the sake of the saint, so that the saint may be most glorified. That is how I will live.”
The oath burns The oath blazing dazzlingly over the dark soul gave Vera satisfaction.
There was no such thing as a stronger power.
No more divinity was given.
Just the two overlapping pacts were making Vera’s heart stronger.
Renee nodded her head at the words she heard and continued her thoughts.
He didn’t know why Vera was so hospitable to him.
I just vaguely remember that the power of this Lord is so important to Vera that he is a saint.
It wasn’t that I didn’t like it.
Whatever the reason, if you have a heart that has been passed on to you, shouldn’t it be appropriate to repay it?
Since you trust yourself, wouldn’t it be right to trust yourself and him as well?
Renee licked her lips slightly, feeling the rising smile and warmth from her fingertips.
“Yes, please.”
As soon as I said that, my stomach tickled for some reason.