A week later, an outdoor garden in the flower bed.
Renee sat across from Bargo and spent tea time thinking about it.
‘It’s awkward… !’
An appointment with a cycle of about 10 days. It was a place to share stories about work in the Holy Kingdom and one’s own life.
Although this was their second meeting, René still had the thought that it would be difficult to deal with Bargo.
It was the status quo, and so was the quarrel with Vera. The elements that make up Bargo are all approaching René with difficulty.
Because of that, I didn’t know what to say, so while I was fiddling with the teacup for a while, I saw Renee like that, and then I spit it out first.
“Is Seongguk worth it?”
“Oh, yes! Thanks to you, I am having a good time!”
sparkly. Renee, who shook her body, replied that way. Bargo continued with a laugh at Renee’s loud reply.
“It is very fortunate. It must be difficult because it is an unfamiliar environment, but I am sorry for not being able to take a better look at it because I have work to do.”
“no! enough! very! Take good care of them!”
Likewise, a snarky answer. After Renee had finished speaking, she thought that if she kept her mouth shut like this, an awkward atmosphere would come up again, so she rolled her head and thought of what to say.
“uh… The knights help out a lot, Hela also helps, and oh, Trevo-nim is also good at teaching sacred arts, so I’m doing really well!”
“Oh, you mean the Trevor gnome?”
“yes! He is a very kind person!”
Renee answered with a smile on her lips.
From Rene’s point of view… It wasn’t wrong. Trevor was very kind and kind to Renee. As a matter of fact, Vera’s winking was a big reason for Trevor’s wink whenever Trevor showed a strange look, but it was something Renée, blind, didn’t know.
Vera felt a sigh of relief as he watched René tell the story of Trevor with a bright face. It was because Trevor remembered the actions he had shown in front of René.
How heartbroken I was because I had done such monstrous things as seeing Renee’s white deity and reminding me of her cheek, or suddenly throwing her eyes at the spot where there was a stigma on Renee’s forearm and savoring her taste buds.
Sooner or later, it was necessary to have another training session.
As Vera took a deep breath with the thought of that thought, Bargo saw that expression and asked Renee a question, with a smile on his face that deepened.
“Fortunately, the. Do you have any questions or anything about me?”
“Well… .”
Renee drooled at Bargo’s question and remembered her worries.
However, there was one thing I was curious about while living in Seongguk.
“I felt that while I was there, Seongguk does not have a separate worship time. Why?”
“Ah, were you curious about that?”
“Yes, I remember that the village priest held a service every Sunday.”
I didn’t know how much I was surprised the day I suddenly realized it. It’s a holy nation, but isn’t it strange that there is no time for worship?
Even if I ask Hela, wondering if it was because she was considerate of herself, she said, ‘There was no worship service originally.’ When the same words came back, I wondered why.
After sipping tea, Bargo nodded to Renee’s question as he answered.
“Because faith does not come by force, we do not make a separate place for worship. Prayer is something you can do if you want to in your life.”
“uh… Is that okay?”
“Hmm, how can I explain it… .”
Gently brushing her chin after applying it, she continued to ponder, then raised her eyebrows and continued.
“… Yes, I can say this. Saint has a grateful heart for Hela. right?”
“Yes, yes… Joe?”
“Is that heart still in your heart?”
nod. Renee’s head nodded. Bargo nodded in response to the answer and continued.
“However, that doesn’t mean you live with that gratitude in mind in every moment and every situation of your life. The moment you think of meeting Hela, or her help, that gratitude must be in your mind.”
“Yes.”
How could it be natural to say? How can a person keep the same thoughts in the midst of various activities to keep them awake?
“Faith is like that. It is said that they are grateful for God’s grace, but there is no need to praise him. It is enough to say a short prayer with sincerity at the moment that comes to mind in your life. It can be seen as the same as not holding a banquet in order to express her gratitude to Greece.”
“Um, it’s more simple than I thought.”
“Faith is not a grand thing. It shouldn’t be too grandiose.”
“Why not? It’s praising God.”
“It’s because the moment you become grandiose, faults are covered over your faith.”
It was a continuation of an incomprehensible story. It could be said that it was a story that was quite far from the common sense he knew.
At that, Renee’s head tilted slightly to the side, and Bargo answered Renee in a shaky tone.
“Who do you think needs the most faith in the world?”
“uh… .”
It was a difficult question. Also, it was a question that could not be easily answered.
“I do not know… .”
“They have nothing. They are the ones who have no ties to grab hold of and are in dire need of immediate survival. To become a ray of hope so that they can live tomorrow and rest in anticipation. That is the role of faith.”
Bargo said that and looked at Renee’s expression. He opened his mouth and said, ‘Ah.’ and seemed to realize something.
“So it shouldn’t be too big. Hard people can’t afford to give a grand example.”
“Great.”
A smile grew on the corner of Bargo’s lips. It was because Renee’s expression was bright as he answered.
‘You are a good man.’
The girl Ju-Jin chose was a girl with a warm heart. How difficult it must be to show a wrinkle-free appearance and make a bright face, and to be considerate of others even in such a situation.
If you put that girl on the scale of good and evil, the scale will most likely lean toward her.
Bargo, who had been distinguishing the good and evil of others all his life, continued his speech with the same judgment of her this time as well.
“So, as much as I think it is a faith for such people, Sungkuk does not have a formal worship service.”
“Aha… .”
Renee nodded slightly in response to the reply, and sent a message of understanding.
however.
“Well… I don’t know either.”
It wasn’t just complete understanding.
For Renee, the gods and faith were the worst evils in the world that ridiculed him, and even hearing this, he cannot be deeply engraved on his heart.
Even though he desperately wished for salvation, he was still blind.
Renee was skeptical of the prayer that could not be answered because he knew the miserable moment of the moment when the earnestness of his life was betrayed.
After seeing Ren’s expression getting darker and darker, he continued to guess what Renee was thinking.
“Of course, my words are not the right answer, so don’t get too caught up in it. Faith is a question for individuals who believe in him to answer.”
nod. Renee’s head nodded. Renee nodded her head and fiddled with her fingertips for a moment, then there was a word that came up to the end of her throat, and she spit out such a question.
“that… You said that faith is what exists for the most difficult people.”
“Yes, I said so.”
“Then, if we cannot be saved by faith, wouldn’t those who believed us be too miserable?”
“What do you think?”
“You believe in God to be saved. But if you don’t even get that salvation… .”
No further words were spoken. However, Bargo clearly knew what René was trying to say.
Maybe it’s a story about yourself.
“… I think I can say this for sure.”
“What do you mean?”
“Faith is not salvation. Faith is the role of a cheerleader who empowers those who believe in him to reach salvation on his own. Salvation is something you have to do for yourself.”
Rene turned her head in the direction where Bargo was at hearing the words.
“Is there anyone who cannot save himself?”
“It is faith that holds them from falling apart.”
“Even if you can’t get better? Even though there is a cliff in front of you, to support and drive me like that… That is wrong.”
Rene’s voice, as she spoke like that, had a hint of suppression.
Vera glared at Bargo hard at Renee’s emotional voice. Bargo snorted ‘Heng!’ at the sight, then spit it out again towards Renee.
“Then we have to go the other way. Instead of going over the cliff, we have to head to the broad boulevard.”
Stop. Renee’s body stopped.
The expression on his face seemed to be absurd, and he recalled a blank look.
Bargo looked at her face, and spoke in a timid tone as she had always done.
“Sometimes I did something to that sullen bastard. Well, that’s exactly what he said when he was your age.”
Bargo’s remarks referring to Vera. Rene closed her lips and listened to Bargo.
“God does not show the way. They just watch. The way must be found by the saint.”
“However… !”
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Objection to come out. However, there was no continuation of the words.
Renee knew. Even if he poured out his words to Bargo like this, the truth would not change.
Even if he pours out his words now, all that comes out must be his resentment against the gods.
Kook-.
Rene, with her lips closed, bowed her head slightly toward Bargo and expressed her apology.
“… I’m sorry. I said it too emotionally.”
“You don’t have to worry about it. After all, isn’t worry the way to grow a human being? All you have to do is think hard and come to the answer. You are doing very well.”
There was an awkward silence in the space. Renee bowed his head, blaming himself for not being able to control the emotions that were filling up in the moment, and Bargo smiled broadly at René’s appearance and apologized.
“I am sorry that this old man has troubled Saint.”
“no! Not at all!”
sparkly. Renee was surprised and answered so.
Bargo smiled softly at Renee’s restless appearance and spat out words.
“Today, let’s stop and get up. The wind is slowly getting colder.”
“ah… , yes.”
Vera reached out to Renee at Bargo’s words and held his hand.
Bargo looked at him with a smile on his face.
*
the way home. Renee thought about whether he had been rude to Bargo, and walked with an anxious look.
I looked like a fool to myself. you have to work hard I should have done well, but I couldn’t control it, so I gave up my temper.
At the thought that comes to mind, a sigh comes out.
Vera opened his mouth, feeling his anger at Vargo welling up at the sight of Renee sighing.
“You don’t have to worry too much. It is because the Holy Father has slowly developed dementia.”
flinch. Renee’s fingertips trembled.
“Hey, you can’t say that… .”
“Isn’t it a person who curses even Nara-sama in the absence of it? I am a human too, so this part seems unavoidable.”
A word that follows in a hard tone. Renee felt a laugh bursting out of laughter at the sight of Vera, who was so hard to even jokingly say to comfort her.
“… thanks.”
“There is nothing to be thankful for. I was just telling the truth.”
“Nevertheless.”
As soon as she spoke, Renee felt a surprise rising in her comfort with those words.
It’s not a big word, but Renee licked his lips as he felt an unfamiliar feeling, and for some reason, he asked such a question to Vera.
“What do you think, knight? that… The words of the Holy Spirit.”
“I think it’s the bullshit of an old man with a mouthful of mouth. As I said before, I do not believe in the glory of God.”
“Is that the answer you found?”
handed question. Vera hesitated for a moment, then uttered the answer.
“The answer is no. I can say that we are still in the process of getting to the answer.”
“Is that the light you spoke of?”
“Yes, I believe my answer is there. I believe in the light, not in God.”
Renee nodded slightly in response to the words, and continued the conversation again.
“IM jealous. I don’t even know where my answer lies yet.”
Why did you have to be blind? What caused the stigma to come on you? It was a thought that came to mind while watching Vera, who was already looking for his own answer, unlike himself, who did not know anything.
Vera licked his lips, feeling a little nauseous as he looked up at René who lowered his head as he spoke.
“… You can find it in St. I will help him, so there is no need to rush.”
clichéd words of consolation. Plus, it was the only word Vera knew how to say.
There was no follow-up answer. It was because Renee ended his speech with a nod at Vera’s words.
Rene felt that the question that had arisen when they were having such a conversation from a certain moment entered her mind again.
What is that light, and what does it have to do with the stigma that has been given to him, so that he treats me so well?
It was a question of unknown reason, and it was also a question that made me feel cramped.
Feelings begin to boil over again.
Renee felt him and touched the floor, saying, ‘Just!’.