The Regressor and the Blind Saint chapter 52

Renee knew.

Vera was not a talker. You must have considered a lot of things before coming to such a conclusion. Most likely, Vera is right.

At Vera’s words, Renee turned to Friede, who had been with him for the past few weeks.

A fairy that doesn’t look very pretty to me personally. Although it was a delusion, he thought that he might still be targeting Vera, so he was a fairy that could not be seen very well.

But apart from that, Friede was a pitiful fairy to Renee.

A life without emotions, a life that was so dry that humans could not even imagine, was a very sad life for Renee.

“… I have a duty to protect St. Please consider it.”

It was Vera’s words.

Renee energized the clasped hands and gripped Vera’s hand tighter.

“Frieden is… . Yes, it might win.”

If it is rational to withdraw as it is, it is the right way.

however.

“Vera.”

“… Yes.”

“Is that a reason to turn your back on the fairies who live here?”

Renee thought that there were things he had to protect, even if he took the risk, even if he came back from harm.

What Vera said to him three years ago.

Words that have now become a milestone in his life.

“… It’s something you don’t know.”

because I don’t know That being said, in the end, it’s just speculation.

Then, if you are not sure, shouldn’t you believe in the possibility that you may not know?

“If the guess is wrong, the fairies end up not stopping the Neuers.”

It was obviously what Vera had taught him.

Vera said to himself, who was in despair, that in the case of an undetermined future, one should not let the possibility go.

With those words, he was able to stand up.

So, Renee felt sad.

The fact that Vera, who had been his light, was trying to turn away from others, came to René with sorrow.

From Vera’s direction, a ‘popping’ and grinding of teeth was heard.

Renee spit those words out at a difference of opinion that was hardly narrowed down.

“Vera, remember?”

“… What are you talking about?”

“That’s what Vera told me. They are chasing the light.”

A startling tremor came through Vera’s hand.

Renee felt that trembling and continued speaking with a small smile.

He continued with words that were infinitely close to coercion, perhaps even putting everyone in danger.

“… Is turning your eyes away from the fairies because of the danger that may come your way will help you chase the light?”

Awkward-.

Power entered Vera’s hands. Renee recalled the idea that this was something Vera was not conscious of.

Sure enough, isn’t Vera’s hand tightening on Idaji? Vera was a man who would never do any harm to himself, so this tightening hand would not be Vera’s will.

“Vera.”

“… Yes.”

“Can’t we just watch for a little bit?”

Could it not be possible to trust those fairies, Friede, just as I believed in myself?

Just as he has already been his light, shouldn’t he be a light to those fairies?

Renee put his other hand on top of the hand that was slowly hurting, and added a word.

“… Because Vera is strong. So, can you watch over me a little longer?”

Renee did not speak of faith. He did not mention his duties as an apostle. He didn’t say anything he didn’t believe in.

However, Renee said the most natural thing he believed in.

“We are still fine.”

A more relaxed person should give to those in need. If you have the power, you should be able to protect the powerless.

That was the person Renee knew. It was a way Renee knew.

Vera, who once believed in nothing, was able to realize this principle again.

Because Vera found him, because Vera believes in himself that he can’t do anything.

Renee could believe in this obvious reason.

Because Vera is the strongest and most upright in Renee’s world. Because that Vera believes in him.

He was able to help others again in this way. He became a person who could think of chasing Dory in the face of danger.

So Renee wished.

“Can’t it?”

May this straight light of Vera shine upon the fairies.

May they stand up just like you, and make them live tomorrow.

silence that continued for a long time.

The answer is… there was no

*

The silence continued until she returned to where Adrin was.

Vera left Renee with Hela and went to a quiet place where there were no people, staring blankly at the fallen leaves.

-Is this an action that will help you chase that light?

Vera’s hand brushed his face. It was because Renee’s words were not forgotten.

It was because he was so pathetic that he didn’t say anything the moment he heard that, just felt the pounding of his heart, and bowed his head in embarrassment.

Vera felt ashamed to hear Renee at that moment. I felt like I was stripped naked and thrown into the middle of the boulevard.

Suddenly, a helpless laugh escaped Vera’s mouth.

‘Like a bastard… .’

Aren’t you a shameless and shy person?

All the while, he could see himself sarcastic, saying that he would live for Renee.

At one point, he was caught up in the oath, and he saw himself unable to see what he really needed to see.

Vera advised.

What was the oath for?

What was the promise he made at the end of his last life, the promise to live for her, for what?

‘… To chase the light.’

Could it be that he, who was so ugly, could approach the light? If I were by her side, I wouldn’t be able to become a human at all. Will I be able to live what I call life?

Isn’t that a promise made with that kind of wind?

Isn’t it a promise that we finally made to live a humane life?

But, what is this now? There’s something about that asshole who just bowed his head without saying anything in front of the question posed to him.

I thought I realized ignorance.

However, the ignorance did not understand.

He was still a modest and selfish Vera.

Vera, not even aware that he hadn’t changed at all, was busy whining about being in a position to protect René.

In order to truly change himself, he must be himself, but Vera did not even realize that, and was waiting for Renee to change. Rene was waiting for her to bloom as a saint.

Then I thought that everything would work out.

He only knew that his own changes would come true if Renee bloomed.

Vera recalled Renee’s question again.

-Is this an action that will help you chase that light?

Chasing after your own light, actions that help you reach that light.

The path he has to take for himself.

‘… Wrong.’

It wasn’t like this.

Even the most natural reason was not to be ignored.

He was drenched in inertia. He was satisfied with René’s side and was not thinking of going any further.

I had the illusion that that was enough.

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Own life… , This second life was a life that I decided to become a keeper.

It was a life I swore that I would not make excuses to myself and that I would never leave any regrets in the end.

Vera stood blankly, closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

image unfolded.

There was an image of ignorance covered over it, all covered in mud.

Vera stripped the plain and turned it over under the mud. It was turned upside down to raise true ignorance, not the humility of being ignorant.

Vera lifted a millet-sized plain from the mud. The ignorance that was finally discovered was indeed a petty and rude form.

Vera let out a small smirk, engraving the realization very carefully over that ignorance.

‘duty.’

He engraved on it the path he had to do, which would become the rock of the path he had to walk.

Vera was only able to engrave one, seven years after he signed the oath.

*

Vera searched for a garnet in front of Adrin’s roots.

Adrin’s thickest root, René, leaning under it, was visible.

Pausing and standing footsteps.

Vera remembered the shameful expression he had seen before, chewing on his teeth for a moment, then with a loud footstep approached Renee.

“… Vera?”

Renee jumped up and said.

“… Yes, Vera.”

“ah… , I’m sorry earlier! Vera must have been because he was worried about me, but because I said too much… .”

As Renee continued speaking, she suddenly closed her eyes tightly.

As Vera looked back at himself, Renee had a fever in his head, regretting what he had said to Vera.

It was only after he was left alone that he wondered if Vera had grown tired of him.

This is the result of being terrified with the mind that I have to apologize somehow.

Renee was unable to move with a mournful tone and was pulling out her words.

Vera saw it, and felt a small laugh escape.

The way she was worried that she might have hurt her heart even though she had said the right thing was really thought of as her.

Vera took one step closer to Renee, and gently grabbed Renee’s hand, which was still pulling out the horse.

Startle-. Renee’s body trembled, and her speech stopped.

Vera looked at Renee, restless, and put his other hand on top of it and spoke.

“sorry.”

Tickle! Renee’s body shook.

“What, what?”

Renee’s body was shaking.

Vera found it funny for some reason, so he smirked and continued.

“I wanted to apologize for not being able to live up to St. Sister’s expectations due to my selfish judgment.”

“ah… .”

“I also want to say thank you. The saint was truly right. This ignorant bastard was also blinded by what was right in front of him, not seeing what he ought to see.”

Vera felt Renee’s wriggle in his hand. For some reason, it seemed to have risen a little.

Then, belatedly realizing that he was holding Renee’s hand tightly with both hands, Vera tried to pull it out.

“sorry… .”

“no!”

chin-! Renee placed his other hand on top of it to prevent it from being pulled out.

“Sin, no sorry!”

Vera’s head tilted.

“Hmm… ! yes! I am not sorry.”

What followed, as always, was swearing words.

Vera nodded slightly and spat out an answer.

“… Yes.”

“Hehe… .”

Vera felt a warmer aura from Renee’s hand touching it, along with the sound of laughter.

It was a very thin, small hand.

A thought suddenly came to mind.

How could this be?

With such small and slender hands, she is a girl who is still immature, how can she give me enlightenment like this?

Vera looked at Renee’s face in thought.

The eyes, whose lights were turned off, were half-covered as Renee lowered his head.

The pure white hair that Hela had always combed was swaying little by little as the wind blew.

His face is red as always.

Vera trembled as he looked at it, thinking that for some reason the clumsy-looking girlishness was cute.

Rene asked, tilting her head at Vera’s reaction.

“… Uh, why?”

“no.”

The quick answer was as if he was making an excuse somewhere.

Vera bowed his head slightly, clearing the blasphemous thoughts that came to his mind.

Fortunately, Vera was capable of that.