113 episodes
[Haewon hasn’t seen a lot of malicious comments lately? Am I the only one who thinks so?]
[↳ I think so… … .]
[↳ Reporting all and pressing and walking]
[But isn’t it worth the increase in malicious comments? I felt betrayed when I cursed at VMC together… … .]
[↳????]
[↳ What could increase?]
[↳ What is this?]
[Haewon signed a contract to maintain the team.
[↳ Just looking at my words, I got a one-year probation thanks to you]
[↳↳Honestly, those kids do that knowingly]
[↳↳↳ That’s right, deliberately scratching]
[It was really bad when Haewon turned on the X-app alone]
[↳I’ve been watching Jiho since I turned it on again, was it that bad?]
[↳ㅇㅇ It was so severe that I had no choice but to drag it, so I kept talking about his face]
[↳↳Face??? Who else says it’s tough?]
[↳↳↳No, it’s just not good… … .]
[↳↳↳↳ Hmm?]
[Haewon is cursing his face hahahaahaha? Even people who used to look like that when I was Guk Seon-ah recognized my face hahahaahaha
[↳ Haewon doesn’t seem to be hit. If you just open your eyes and look at your face, you’ll know it’s bullshit hahahaaha.]
[↳↳I don’t know… … . I think I was really shocked when I cursed my face… … .]
[↳↳↳ Aren’t you shocked because you’ve never heard it before?]
[↳↳↳↳ It wasn’t like this, but it was a shocked face from steaming]
* * *
After staying up all night in the studio, looking in the mirror, the word ‘Molgol’ was just right.
Her eyes are half-closed and she has never laid down, but her head is like a magpie.
“… … I don’t know what kind of confidence you have to become an idol.”
I don’t think idols have to be handsome. If we can float just by being handsome, our team has already conquered the world… … .
Even though they don’t have doll-like faces or sculptural faces, idols are popular for a reason. Their talents explode, they overflow with charm, or their abilities are so good that they become attractive as they are.
where am i
I slapped my cheeks with both hands to dispel negative thoughts and smiled deliberately.
It’s honestly a lie to say that you can’t spit on a smiling face. Even when I smiled, I kept spitting… … . Well, I spit less anyway.
After taking a shower to get out of Molgol, I heard the manager’s voice knocking on the door.
“Haewon, are you ready?”
“Yes, I will.”
As usual, I packed my bag with my MacBook and left the studio. the manager asked.
“Did you sleep?”
“I slept a lot.”
Talking like that, I stopped by the hospital to get counseling, got some medicine, and then headed to the gym I reserved for the fan meeting rehearsal.
We arrived earlier than the members to do the sound check, discussed with the fan meeting production team, and ate a packed lunch. It was nice and nice to see a face everyone knew because they had been with us since the concert, but the gym facilities team suddenly started to get a little nervous because they didn’t know each other.
I thought I was not a shy person, but today, my body is strangely stiff.
For the first time since Kook Seon-ah, I had a foreboding that the day might come when I would not be able to go on stage.
* * *
Shin Ji-woon, who arrived first among the members, asked.
“Where is Haewon hyung?”
Then Woo Jung-hoon, the new manager with the envelope, answered.
“I went to the bathroom saying it looked like something I ate, but he didn’t come. I still bought some medicine.”
With that said, Shin Ji-woon went straight to the bathroom without any hesitation. Jeong Hae-won found Shin Ji-woon and spit out the water.
“Uh, are you here?”
“He said he did. Did you vomit?”
“yes. I ate in a hurry.”
As Jeong Hae-won said and left the bathroom, Shin Ji-woon followed. Jung Hae-won was nervous.
“Why did you come all the way to the bathroom to check that?”
“The fan meeting is just around the corner and I don’t worry if I say I’m not feeling well. If you’re sick, you shouldn’t have to take measures.”
“It hurts, but what can I do? I have to go on stage.”
Shin Ji-woon wrinkled his expression when the words came from the person who would not be able to say those words the most in the world.
“Did you drink?”
“What did I say wrong?”
As if to prove that Jung Hae-won was not joking, he continued speaking with a firm expression and tone.
“It’s not in good condition, if you want to, you have to rest and perform the rest. whoever it is.”
“… … .”
“Isn’t it natural?”
It’s natural. But seven people unconditionally, who said that it was the first light, said that as long as they could go on stage, they could stay up all night, and they would be full if they didn’t eat, and when they looked at the lights and the fans’ light sticks, it felt like their bodies were floating as if they were in space. It was strange that Jung Hae-won, who said he didn’t know anything, came out of his mouth as if it were ground rice.
Shin Ji-woon, who watched Jung Hae-won go to talk with the director again, called Jeong Jeong-yeon, Jung Hae-won’s older sister, who is Jung Hae-won’s best friend and the person he fears the most.
“sister.”
– Yes, Jiwoon-ah. are you free? why are you on the phone
“I love that Noona always seems to treat me like a younger brother.”
– International calls are short, only the main point.
“Haewon hyung is seriously weird.”
– How strange?
“They told me to go up on stage except for the members who were not in good condition.”
-… … I’ll call Haewon now.
* * *
“Oh, my sister.”
As soon as I answered the phone, cursing poured out from my sister. Listening to the sudden swearing, I would like to know if there is a broadcast that connects my family on the phone… … Of course, I would call and let her know in advance, but I was convinced that I wouldn’t do it to my sister.
“Oh, why are you swearing?”
– Because Jiwoon said he had a taste for you.
“What did you say. And does your sister curse at someone who has gone bad? Are you listening to my nephew?”
-Hey, I don’t like being stressed out the most.
Then he got serious and asked.
-why? what’s going on tell me at once
“No, it’s not good to be stressed.”
– Then, tell your brother-in-law.
“… … Can’t you understand?”
– So it’s better.
My older sister said so, and handed over the phone to my brother-in-law.
– Brother-in-law! Why don’t you hold a fan meeting online? Are you ignoring overseas fans?
“I’ll suggest you next time. Oh, first of all… … It’s hard because there are so many malicious comments these days.”
– Oh, yes, keep going.
And I started talking about stress in Korean every week. My brother-in-law, Anthony McGinley, did not understand at all, but added Chuimsae in English in between.
“As an idol, should I say that it feels like something is missing? I wonder if this is right I’m still working, but what if a producer is a better job for me… … . Of course, composing isn’t fun, but it doesn’t make my heart beat as much as when I’m on stage. But the stage is still scary, and it’s pathetic that the fear that one day I’ll suddenly be unable to stand still remains… … .”
What’s really strange is that even though I can’t communicate in Korean and my brother-in-law in English at all, just talking makes me feel refreshed. It seems that a bamboo forest is not a bamboo forest for nothing.
“People say I’m ugly, but looking in the mirror this morning, I’m sure… … .”
-Ugly?
read at https://noblemtl.com
Oops, I thought I guess I understood the word ugly.
No, but why do you have to understand that… … ? Sister-in-law who did that… … . Maybe it’s my sister… … ?
My brother-in-law immediately told my sister about it, and then my sister answered the phone and said:
-Hey, I’ll do it in English, so listen carefully.
“uh? english?”
As I spoke, I reflexively pressed the record button, and my sister quickly said something. It was so fast I couldn’t understand a single word.
At that time, my brother-in-law also asked my sister to interpret something, and she said to me.
– Even if there are days when six people stand on stage, the first lights are seven, so don’t overdo it.
“It is undoubtedly sunshine.”
-Now, I even put up your posters in my studio.
“Is that okay?”
– No matter what, it’s already too late. I’ve already interviewed you there. Anyway, the phone bill is a big problem, so hang up.
“Oh, noona, I sent you pocket money.”
-uh? hey! I’m doing well too!
“Where do fine artists get their money? It’s my nephew’s pocket money, so use it sparingly.”
I spoke and hung up the phone quickly.
When my sister was studying abroad, she didn’t have enough money, so she could survive the day with just one ramen, but she always bought my presents for birthdays and Christmas. In the future, I will be making a lot of money, so my older sister has to get used to receiving allowances from my younger sister.
After that, in order to check how I feel, I went to Shin Ji-woon and listened to the English that my sister quickly poured out.
“Hey, what’s up with my sister?”
Then Shin Ji-woon bluntly translated.
“When hyung first said he wanted to become an idol, his parents were against it.”
read at https://noblemtl.com
Oh, it was.
My parents were convinced that money was the reason I quit the piano and wanted to become an idol. He thought that he had chosen a path that required less money to prepare and could earn quickly due to the difficult family circumstances. He said that even if I expressed my affection for the stage, it didn’t feel right.
Shin Ji-woon continued.
“At that time, my sister persuaded me.”
“… … sister? I didn’t say that.”
“I can’t do it.”
Then he stopped and listened to that part again. I know because I only cut part of it.
– 걘 My older sister is also handsome in my eyes, but if she isn’t an idol, who will do it?
“… … creepy Not my sister, this.”
“Brother, look at my arm. It was really creepy.”
“I think I’m feigning again.”
“me too.”
I pretended to be the second and transferred the symptoms to Shin Ji-woon, but the impact was clear. Because there is no one who has a lower evaluation of their looks than the brothers and sisters.
Confidence suddenly rises. I was very cute when I was young. to be honest.
* * *
It seems to me that today is a sister’s day.
Immediately after practice, I found out that Park Hee-young sang all the songs on the radio because he couldn’t spoil ‘Love of Distant Memory’.
It was Joo Won Ahn who told me that, but even after telling me that it was a spoiler, I couldn’t take my eyes off the phone screen and was muttering.
“Even if it’s a pre-release… … It was pre-released five months ago.”
“Five months later, it is five months at the earliest.”
“I really don’t know. Time flow in the trot world.”
“I know yeah. reaction? What do you think?”
Even though I worked as Park Hee-young’s manager, I realized for the first time now how different music is between idol music and trot.
When I searched for my name, Matthew’s face cam sung at the year-end awards ceremony appeared first. Seeing the number of views gives me more confidence in my appearance. Hi-Hi.
And Joo Won Ahn sent me a recent comment there.
[Thank you so much for the treasured song of our precious singer. Finally, we have a song to sing when Heeyoung goes to a national event.]
[Composer with a very pretty face, only walk on the flower path~^^]
[This is a poignant and mournful masterpiece. I am deeply moved. I support you.]
[The song is composed by Jeong Hae-won, just as the song is by Park Hee-young]
I still don’t know what it is, but it is strangely healing.
[There are no happy people in their lifetime, and no sad people in their lifetime. Everything will pass.]
Seeing a lot of comments like this, I remembered what Park Hee-young said to me at the end of last year after renewing my contract.
– I don’t understand. Your greatest weapon is pity. Why don’t you use it? If you use it, even a large corporation will win. That’s how Koreans feel.
It seems that Park Hee-young said something on the show. I asked Ahn Joo-won.
“Joo Won-ah, can you see what Hee-young noona said on the show?”
“Wait a minute. It may have been in your video world.”
Ahn Joo-won is subscribing to all of Sunyang’s video circles. I even watch all the vlogs. Ahn Joo-won said that if the sunbursts knew, they could collapse in shock or shut down the video system, so make sure to keep it a secret.
Anyway, when Ahn Joo-won clicked on my video system, there was a real clip.
[First Light/Haewon/Heeyoung Singer’s ‘Idol Jung Hae-won’]
No, this man… … .
14 minutes on the radio talking about a composer… … .