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Promising to film a variety show, I returned to the dorm.
I can’t even remember how much time I really have. After taking a long bath in the dormitory without members, and after applying this and that on my skin, I ran to my bed and lay down.
I thought I liked to work, but when I lay down, I didn’t.
“Hey, this is healing.”
It was over 30 degrees outside, and when I turned on the air conditioner and lay down, it felt like my humanity was restored.
But since my body was less tired, I started to feel mischievous. I lay down for a while, then came out of the living room and went to the dressing room where I put the exercise equipment. Still, I had to pretend to make an Olympic-like song, so I thought of doing some exercise to find inspiration.
I wanted to exercise only at the level of light stretching, but there were only 8 kg dumbbells I could see. The members came into the dormitory one by one while I was playing around a bit and then moved to the iron bar and was trying to tighten my abs.
“Oh, bro. Do you exercise?”
Han Hyo-seok approached me with a shocked expression, so I hurriedly avoided it.
“No, I don’t. You got it wrong.”
“I do only one pull-up while holding an iron bar.”
“Hey, I can’t even do gara, but what… … .”
I tried to whine, but Han Hyo-seok was so moved by the fact that I was just trying to exercise, he couldn’t hear anything. He’s crazy about exercise. Even when doing ballet, the teacher pointed out that he overweights, but in fact, maybe this guy’s aptitude is not in ballet, but in weights.
“You can’t turn your shoulders.”
“Oh, I can’t go up!”
“If you can’t rise to your hyung’s weight, you have a real problem.”
no, bastard If you were to stand upright, the person with 0 pull-ups would be a jerk, but it seems unbelievable that he wasn’t around when he was exercising. Han Hyo-seok even lifted it up a bit, so I barely went up twice and then came down.
“Hyoshik, I think my back muscles were torn. Pick me up.”
“brother. I can walk even if my back muscles are torn.”
“Why are people so mean, you? Didn’t it happen because of your diet?”
However, after flirting for a while, I felt healthy enough, but Han Hyo-seok pushed my back as I was about to leave and took me to the push-up bar.
“A little more.”
“Hyoshik, think carefully. Are you here to exercise me? Then I can stay out of this room forever.”
“The older brother I know is a strong-willed person, so that’s impossible.”
“no? I am very weak-willed.”
“Then it was better. Exercise will build your willpower.”
hahahaaha, it doesn’t make sense That’s why I warned the members not to get caught only by Hyo-seok Han when they exercise… … .
I definitely found out why today.
* * *
“Why is there a body over there?”
I knew Shin Ji-woon was pointing at me, but I didn’t have the strength to answer, so I just lay there, Han Hyo-seok said.
“Exercise with me.”
“Why are you killing your brother?”
“I am a pro. I’m not going to die.”
Han Hyo-seok said in a satisfied voice.
“Haewon would have extended hyung’s lifespan.”
I heard him say, so I collapsed on the living room floor, and helplessly lifted my middle finger.
Each time the members came back one by one and entered the living room, that conversation was repeated.
“Who killed Haewon hyung!”
“Hyoshik!”
“Oh, did you exercise? Well done.”
“Why is he stretching over there?”
“He said he worked out with Hyo-seok.”
“okay? what’s up It’s special.”
I did not have the strength to listen to the same number of conversations as the number of members, so I was lying down, and Shin Ji-woon called.
“Brother, I know it’s hard, but get up and help me. I have to look cheap for tomorrow’s filming, but these days I’m so naive.”
Since I pretended not to hear, Shin Ji-woon continued.
“Even during the script reading, the director asked if we could make it a little more unlucky. Is it because I’m too cute? What do we do.”
… … It’s so annoying to hear that I can’t ignore it.
I muttered a curse in a tired state, got up and sat down on the sofa.
Shin Ji-woon felt sorry for only handing over the script, so he gave me a can of non-alcoholic beer. It was definitely a non-alcoholic beer with 0.00 written on it.
“Hey, it doesn’t have to be completely non-alcoholic like this.”
“What will happen?”
Well, I have to protect my precious frontal lobe… … .
I drank a non-alcoholic beer and looked at the script with regret.
Shin Ji-woon’s name is Lee Seon-gyeom.
She is four years younger than the female lead, Kang Yu-an, and has lived next door since she was very young.
The female protagonist just loved the kid next door, but the situation started when Lee Seon-gyeom went through puberty and fell in love with the female protagonist, and the situation was devastating.
In the first scene of Lee Seon-gyeom, there were no lines at all. So Shin Ji-Woon seemed to be more picky.
Kang Yu-an, who was concentrating on the script to prepare for the audition, gets off the elevator and runs into Lee Seon-gyeom, who was waiting for the elevator. Ignoring Kang Yu-an’s apology, Lee Seon-gyeom gets into the elevator and presses the close button. In the middle of closing, Kang Yuan calls her, and she puts her earphones in her ears.
It looks easy, but since it is the first scene in the drama Finding a Male Actor, the character had to be revealed.
I was thinking about a topic that I didn’t even know about the ‘ㅇ’ of acting, and I said jokingly to relieve tension.
“Hey, just imagine that.”
“What.”
“You became one of the most popular idols one day. About Clarus hyungs?”
“How does that help you immerse yourself in this character?”
“But, your parents.”
“… … .”
“You published a book called ‘Successful Idols Raised This Way’.”
“… … Ha, X feet.”
“Oh, that look. I’m really unlucky right now.”
Shin Ji-woon seemed really annoyed, but the effect was clear. It was the expression of that character trash in the early days of Kuk Seon-ah.
Then, he smiles at the ridiculousness of it. I laughed a bit too.
‘I think my parents would be angry if I became an idol.’
Shin Jee-woon said so when she was Guk Seon-ah, and I wondered why I wanted to upset my parents when the absurdity disappeared.
When I was young, my parents worked so hard that I didn’t get to know each other. No matter how you look at it, there was more to it.
No matter how close you are, there are stories you can’t tell. I was just estimating those stories and comforting them.
But today, Shin Ji-woon confirmed that he was willing to talk more and that the members were not in the living room, and told me.
“It’s usually the case, that parents can’t divorce because of their children.”
“yes.”
“My parents said they couldn’t get a divorce because of the opposite case.”
“the opposite?”
“Take me to each other.”
“… … .”
“They are both very ambitious. I shouldn’t have had a baby. Or give birth to two and take on one equally. Anyway, I fought over it all the time throughout elementary school, and in the end, we couldn’t pass it on to each other, so the division of property and pension was complicated, so we just lived, just like everyone else.”
“… … .”
“I thought that if I became an idol, took drugs, and made all sorts of accidents, my parents would be like X. then.”
“… … yes.”
I don’t know what to say. I’m sorry that we couldn’t have a drink together just talking like this.
After a while, I opened my mouth heavily.
“Jiwoon.”
“uh.”
“Even so, if you take medicine, you have to cut off your finger.”
When I pointed to the paper on the wall, Shin Ji-woon laughed and said,
“If I had done rapping, it would have been a disaster.”
“If you did, you would have already cut off your finger.”
“The problem must have been that there was no one to tell me to cut it.”
“Ah, indeed.”
I giggled together, and the members came out to the living room to see if there was anything interesting in our laughter.
* * *
[Shin Ji-woon: The hyung effect is crazy]
[Shin Ji-woon: ‘Successful idol, raised like this’]
[Shin Ji-woon: When I think of this sentence, the expression the director wants comes out like a vending machine]
Looking at the message Shin Ji-woon sent, it looks like the filming went well.
And on Monday, the members gathered at the dormitory again for the meeting requested by Min Ji-ho. Shin Ji-woon, who came to filming for the first time, brought food with both hands.
Hwang Sae-byeok and Min Ji-ho, who like to eat, were excited and ran to the living room to spread the table and arrange food.
Min Ji-ho asked.
“Jiwoon hyung, is this what it is? When you watch a drama together, do you keep your mouth shut for fear of making fun of you?”
“uh. Please play with me.”
“All right.”
It’s been a long time since everyone has been so busy these days, eating gimbap or sandwiches to get their meals together.
After taking out all the food, Hwang Sae-byeok said.
“Let’s have a meeting while eating.”
And Min Ji-ho, who asked for a meeting, emptied a bowl of makguksu and put it away and said to me.
“Haewon hyung, why are you so delicious these days? Do you still have aftereffects from malicious comments? So is it?”
With a straight-forward question, the twelve eyes of the members focused on me. I said while accepting the makguksu that Ahn Joo-won had divided in half.
“No, not at all.”
Park Seon-jae said in response to my answer.
“But hyung hasn’t turned on the X app since then.”
“It’s because I’m busy.”
“Isn’t it been a while since I didn’t post on the X Bus?”
“I was really busy.”
I replied that way, but inside I was figuring out when I last turned on this app.
It was just as Park Seon-jae said. When Choi Ki-moon started posting malicious comments through a viral company, as soon as he turned on e-app, he was speechless due to criticism of his appearance. No, I didn’t even think of turning it on.
Ahn Joo-won nodded and said.
“Yeah, before that, even when you didn’t want to eat alone, you turned on the X app.”
And there was a moment of silence. Then Min Ji-ho applauded as if he knew and said to me.
“Hyung, it’s been so long since I’ve seen Sunshine.”
“… … yes?”
“So that’s why it’s so sloppy! You have to meet the sunshine!”
It’s really the idol’s own solution. Min Ji-ho urged me.
“Hyung, can you turn on this app X?”
“Of course you can.”
“Then turn it on. I’m worried about whether the sunbursts are eating well, so I show them that I’m eating delicious food.”
“It will take less than a minute.”
“How are you? I absolutely love sunshine!”
Well, the sunshine wouldn’t hate it. One minute X this app. Rather, fans have their daily lives, so it might be better to turn on frequently for short periods of time than to turn on for too long.
I picked up my cell phone.
[＜＜＜Haewon Haewon>>>]
I wrote the title like that and tried to turn on the X-app, but my hand didn’t move.
I glanced at my phone, realized later, and told the members.
“… … I can’t turn it on.”
I thought it was not affected by malicious comments. Because it was fake. I thought that all the reason I was depressed these days was because the members created a group chat room without me, but it wasn’t.
I was being eroded by the insults that filled my view every time I turned on the internet. Cut it all over the place until it’s flat.
Fans are what I love as much as my family and members.
Even though I thought that I shouldn’t do that and that I had to trust and rely on my fans, the thought remained in my mind that I might change and curse at me again. After forgetting that for a while, it seems that Choi Ki-moon’s malicious comments have brought it up again. There were still times when I was still a little scared of the fans.
I looked at the quiet members and said it again.
“I really can’t turn it on. Can someone turn it on?”