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I got a call.
“yes.”
Then Lee Yong-min, TYT’s Music Contents Headquarters, said:
-You said you’re working on a Big Blue song these days?
“uh… … .”
-Ah, it looks like we can’t reveal it yet. Anyway, manager Park Joong-woon seems to have had some problems in the communication process with us.
… … Was it this bastard who made him leak?
– Leaks or whatever, I never said a word like that. Manager Park Joong-woon also admitted it. I was just scouting, and I think I misunderstood what I was supposed to do.
“… … .”
– Still, there seems to have been damage, and I will take responsibility for that part and apologize.
Even with that said, there must have been a good reason why Manager Park Joong-woon took the risk and stole my demo. It may not have been that they just grabbed it and told them to ‘leave a demo song’, but there must have been a corresponding argument.
It’s frustrating in many ways, but at the same time, I think Big Blue’s influence is great. Excuse me or whatever, at least I saw the phone call that wasn’t a threat.
– Well then, go ahead.
is not it? It’s a threat to cover it up now, but I didn’t notice… … .
Instead of answering it, I asked a question.
“Who’s Joongwoon hyung?”
– Oh, Mr. Jungwoon. You’re right about the job offer… … .
The answer is ambiguous. Leaking my demo songs to show off to the VMC is acceptable, but leaking songs for Big Blue to use was a different matter.
I asked.
“Were you scouting with VVV Entertainment?”
-Yes.
1st in the entertainment world. VVV Entertainment, the predecessor of VMC. As is the case in the US market as of now, VVV Entertainment is holding the top rank in popularity in Asia, both male and female.
Big Blue is the only team other than VVV Entertainment that can compete with Big Blue, but that Big Blue hasn’t released an album… … .
As manager Park Joong-woon, who wanted to open his own entertainment company someday, it must have been difficult to miss the opportunity to go to VVV.
I was speechless, so Lee Yong-min asked.
– Like Haewon, the Big Blue members are also a little bit like that, right?
For some reason, my answer seems to depend on whether manager Park Joong-woon moves up the ranks or becomes an unemployed person. Conversely, when I don’t give the job I agreed to, Lee Yong-min will use my answer as an excuse now.
Since things have already happened, I thought that if manager Park Joong-woon entered the company, I would ask him to take out some useful information. When he apologized to me, looking at his expression, I thought he would do enough.
For example, if we go into Japan, VVV has a very tight Japanese market, so there’s nothing wrong with knowing their schedule.
… … But do I think Park Joong-woon is a master of leaks? No, in the first place, how complicated my password is, but do I figure it out just by moving my hand?
Above all else, I don’t want to increase the number of enemies anymore. The feeling of betrayal pricks me like a thorn has been swallowed, but I still need an ally. Just like Big Blue, an ally that spreads across multiple genres.
Besides, I’m also annoyed that I have nothing else to gain here anyway.
“Just give me a seat at VVV.”
-… … Well?
“Even though I’m angry, it’s because I was an older brother who helped me a lot when I was having a hard time.”
-… … .
“Please make a decision before you change your mind. But what should I do, there must be a way for people to make a living… … .”
Well, when he said something that looked like an adult, surprisingly, Lee Yong-min seemed a little moved.
– I’ll see if I can find out, but I can’t give you a definitive answer.
“That’s it. Then I’ll do nothing and hang up the phone.”
– Yes, that’s right.
So I hung up the phone. But unexpectedly, manager Kang Young-ho, who was driving, said with a reddish-blue face.
“Whoever betrays you once will betray you again. If you move on like this, you will betray everyone around you and go to VVV, which pays you well!”
“No, what are you talking about? You betrayed everything.”
“How do you look at the person who leaked his demo song? Does that make sense?”
I usually didn’t say anything like that, but suddenly I got very angry.
After thinking for a moment, I said.
“Ah, did you get such an offer too?”
“… … .”
I’m a more sloppy person than I thought, so I can’t say anything right away. I laughed and said as I ate the sandwich that Manager Kang Young-ho had bought me.
“brother.”
“what.”
“Just, thank you.”
I just sigh at my words. I was talking.
“Brother, come with us. In the long run, it is unconditionally beneficial. really.”
At my words, Manager Kang Young-ho glanced at me and said,
“No, I stayed.”
“okay?”
“At first, our job is to work with artists, but if Jungwoon works like that, which artist would you trust?”
Manager Kang Young-ho must have stayed with us because he had that kind of belief. As Manager Young-ho Kang said, in the long run, I hope that belief is correct.
i will make it
* * *
As expected, a long text message from Manager Park Joong-woon arrived that evening. Well, roughly, I’m sorry, thank you, if there’s anything you want, please tell me everything.
So I immediately made an appointment and met manager Park Joong-woon. It’s because I learned from the movies I watched while taking a break that it’s best to meet and talk if there’s no evidence left behind.
And when I asked him to let me know about this year’s VVV Japan activity schedule and VMC’s preparations for survival, Park Joong-woon said he would let us know as soon as possible when he finds out.
I immediately informed Big Blue’s Lee Jun-hee that this was the case. Fortunately, Lee Jun-hee said that my demo had spread and my image was damaged, so I had to decide the manager Park Jung-woon.
The next day there was a consultation. The counseling center linked to the TRV was an affiliated center in the hospital, so there were separate specialists and counselors.
As usual, I avoided answering, and the counselor, who had never been angry enough to say that he was a gentleman, finally raised his voice.
“When anxiety appears as a physical symptom, it is not something you can just ignore.”
“Anxiety may not be a physical symptom.”
Gosh.
It is an answer that I want to give one hit.
“I’m sorry. It was an annoying answer, I think. The expert is the teacher, and the teacher is right, of course.”
“… … .”
“… … Are you mad?”
When I asked with a cute expression on my face and tone, the counselor sighed and said:
“A seizure can happen once and then it can happen without specific circumstances.”
“I just passed out because I was tired.”
“Then you don’t have to worry about seizures at all?”
Not that.
“When I’m worried, I sit quietly and rest. Then it will be fine.”
“If you keep answering that way, you’re just wasting money without making any progress.”
Last time, my counselor told me to record as much of a moment as possible when I felt anxious. But I also don’t know when I’m anxious. Now it may just be that the anxiety is gone.
But since they are members, they don’t believe what I say.
The counselor spoke.
“And eventually, if the treatment is delayed, the anxiety will only increase, and then you will end up going back to the room.”
“… … .”
I hear a lot of harsh words today.
Since I didn’t answer, the counselor continued to speak with a raised eyebrow.
“You don’t like that. How dare you say it like this?”
I don’t like to feel dazed when taking medicine. I don’t want to explain every single medication I’m carrying if I get caught while promoting abroad. No, I don’t know why I’m getting counseling when I’m doing this better now than anything else.
Compared to Guk Seon-ah, I am much better now in every way. I’m working with people I like, and when I’m on stage, the sun is starting to like me more and more, and there are people who often annoy me, but in the end, I think there’s still work left for us to do.
I will never go back, and I have no intention of stopping at any line. I want to go where I can go. Even if there is a time when you sink and drown because you run out of breath on the way.
So now I couldn’t rest for any reason.
“I am really getting better and better.”
“It’s okay, will you forgive the person who leaked your music?”
“… … Who is it?”
“I can’t say that.”
No, which member has such a light mouth?
“It’s because I need you.”
read at https://noblemtl.com
Oh, I can’t explain the whole situation. I really need it… … .
However, there was no explanation, so he did not believe his expression.
Anyway, I was wasting my time with various other noises, but the consultation time was almost over, so I got up quickly.
“I’m done, so I’ll go. Good-bye.”
I was about to leave because I had a few minutes left, so the counselor said.
“It’s never enough to drink.”
“yes?”
no… … .
I quit smoking, but now I drink… … .
Well, it’s the easiest thing the counselor told me to do.
If you fall down just one more time, you will not be able to avoid hospital treatment at that time, so you have to be careful.
* * *
After that, we decided to have a meeting with the members, so when we moved to Room 304, which the company gave us, Joo Won Ahn asked, who forced us to schedule a consultation.
“Did you have a good consultation?”
Ahn Joo-won asked, and I nodded and sat down on the chair.
“Yeah, it’s normal.”
“You sound normal.”
In Joo-won Ahn’s standard, double desire returned, but I pretended not to know.
Lately, everyone has had a lot of schedules, so we only talked in a group chat room, but it’s been a long time since we had a proper meeting time. We wanted to release an album as soon as possible, so we set a schedule and started preparing for the album.
The meeting was urgent because we couldn’t even decide on a name for the fan meeting to start right after the mini-promotions were over. Han Hyo-seok, who is the most organized among the members and has the best handwriting, decided to write down the members’ opinions. The staff who brought the whiteboard said that.
“The oldest members of First Light are 21 years old, so why do they like analog so much?”
I answered that.
“I’ve always wondered about that. Why are they like this?”
“Is that right?”
The staff laughed and left room 304. Park Seon-jae, born in 2007, said.
“I don’t really like machines.”
Hwang Sae-byeok also nodded. Seeing that everyone sympathizes with them, it seems like they are just old people.
Anyway, we started thinking about the name of the fan meeting first. First Light’s first official fan meeting. I raised my hand first, but Han Hyo-seok pretended not to know.
“Hyoshik, I.”
“Please give me your opinions.”
“hey.”
“Hyung, please don’t give me names.”
“I have good ideas sometimes too.”
“What is it?”
“The round sun has risen. Honestly, aren’t you okay?”
“Members, please give me your opinion.”
“It’s still an opinion, but could you write it down on the whiteboard?”
As I said, he still respects hyung very much, so he sighed and wrote it down on the blackboard. Shin Ji-woon said from the seat next to him.
“I will appreciate the courage of hyung who keeps trying.”
“No, I don’t want to hit you high.”
“I think I’m really lucky that I was born half a year earlier than I was.”
Hi-Hi. thank god.
After that, there were several opinions, but the difference of opinion did not narrow, so it moved on to the next item. Han Hyo-seok said after arranging the parts to be suggested in the mini-album composition draft delivered to him.
“And now, we have a schedule before the mini album.”
When I asked if it was a meeting now, Han Hyo-seok said.
“So, before filming, I think we need to plan a game strategy to play with Aino hyungs.”
The members were already moving on to talking about the baseball entertainment organized by KQS as a Lunar New Year special. It’s an opportunity to be exposed to the public during the Lunar New Year holiday, but I was somewhat overcome by the members’ comments about whether it was good or not.
But that’s not the first.
“Members. We have to start the meeting.”
Fortunately, the members came to their senses at my words. Ha, what is baseball?