“… Soyeon-ah… .”
Yoo Ji-hwan with a bewildered look .
It was as if I didn’t know how to say no .
“… .”
In fact, I had no intention of rejecting it either .
I didn’t like being bothered by people around me, and I didn’t like being ridiculed around me .
That is why Yoo Ji-hwan actually saved me .
However… .
If I took his hand and stood up, my heart could not bear it and it felt like it was going to collapse .
Even the slightest hope that I might have misunderstood was shattered, and it felt like I was going to crash into the bottom full of sharp thorns .
As I know better than anyone how painful and painful it is, I couldn’t hold Yoo Ji-hwan’s hand .
It is better to turn away from the truth and live in endless doubts than to wallow in thorns .
“… I can’t .”
But Yoo Ji-hwan doesn’t seem to want to leave me alone .
Jihwan forcibly grabbed my wrist and pulled me out of the smoking room, forcing me to get up .
… Oh, no… .
The moment I gave strength to my arm, thinking about throwing away his hand, he was terrified, and he grabbed my arm and made eye contact .
His eyes that looked like he was angry or sad on the other hand .
… ah… .
His vague gaze slowly penetrated into his throbbing chest, and
his heart that was hardened by forcibly recalling the pain was colorless, and like a cat caught on the back of his head, he unknowingly let go of his strength .
Yoo Ji-hwan, as if relieved at that time, gently relaxed his hand and said ,
“… Let’s go .”
With the words to go, they dragged me outside .
… forgive me… .
Yoo Ji-hwan, who usually acts as if he will accept anything I do, but sometimes comes out like this forcibly, felt so disrespectful .
*
I managed to get out with Soyeon, and I thought about where I should take her .
… uh… , It’s a bit difficult to go home right now, but I wish there was a place where we could have a conversation… .
First of all, since the location is on the downtown side, I thought that there might be at least one of them wherever I go .
Once I made up my mind to walk around, I glanced at Soyeon, who was quietly giving her arms .
“… “
Min So-yeon staring blankly at the floor with the grass dead .
I wanted to ask why and what happened, but I don’t think it’s something we’re going to talk about right now .
First of all, you need to relax your mood .
… I can’t help it… .
I gently released her arm, then moved it to her and grabbed Soyeon and her hand tightly .
“… 👌👌👌👌 .”
Then she flinched widely, raised her head slowly, and cautiously made eye contact .
Moist eyes and slightly tangled hair .
It was like a kitten abandoned by the roadside .
… Soyeon-ah… .
I sighed quietly at Soyeon’s pitiful sight, and I approached her and shuffled her hair .
Swee-chuck –
The glint of hair you can feel between your fingers .
Min So-yeon, who had refused my invitation with a single knife, went somewhere, and suddenly she was holding my hand tightly and quietly feeling it .
… driving me crazy… .
I know I shouldn’t be doing this .
I know better than anyone that I shouldn’t be in constant contact, and the more I show generosity, the more I feel that it’s not good for Soyeon .
However… .
How can you pretend that you didn’t see a young child like this when she was sad ?
I’d rather have dug out both eyes, but I don’t want to watch Soyeon mourning . After
arranging
Soyeon’s hair by rationalizing her complicated feelings, she …
Carefully guiding the hand that hangs affectionately, I slowly headed towards the street .
The voices of people walking happily and the latest music resounding in the streets .
The delicious smells emanating from the restaurant and all kinds of eye-catching objects .
But the only thing I could feel was Soyeon’s hand holding tight as if somehow anxious .
“… .”
We didn’t go around with a specific destination .
All I had to do was ask Soyeon when I saw a good place while walking .
“ Soyeon-ah. Shall we go over there ?”
I pointed to the sign in front of me .
[ Cat Cafe -CatPia-]
Already the 3rd attempt .
However, Soyeon slowly shook her head as if she was not very happy .
… It’s not here either… .
So far, restaurants, cafes, and cat cafes have all failed . Are
n’t you in the mood to sit somewhere ? As
I was walking down the street, stabbing every place I saw like that ,
ah… .
At some point I realized that I had taken the wrong path .
From the beginning to the end of the alley, there were only buildings with tents in the parking lot .
It seems that he has entered a motel village .
“… Shall we go somewhere else ?”
I naturally led her and tried to go back the way I came .
However ,
Kuk-Ku-Uk- So –
Yeon gently gave me strength and began to hold on .
“… let’s go… .”
I resolutely strengthened and dragged her back, slowly back on the road .
How long has it been since you wandered aimlessly like that ?
… Is it slowly difficult ?
Noticing that Soyeon’s steps slowed down a bit, I thought I should have her sit somewhere .
After walking for a little while, I found a moderately small cafe and suggested Soyeon to sit down and go… .
“… Shall we rest there for a bit and then go ?”
She shook her head like a fool and showed her dislike .
uh… , what if… .
Feeling a little troubled by Soyeon’s stubborn reaction, I slowly slowed down, contemplating whether it would be better to just go home and comfort me .
And when the sun goes down .
On the way home slowly, unable to find a place to rest .
… There… .
I could find an empty playground .
“… So Yeon-ah .”
I gently waved Soyeon’s hand, which was still hanging tightly, and called her .
Then, while walking quietly looking at the ground, she gently raised her head and said ,
“ Shall we go play over there ?”
I pointed to an empty playground .
And after a while .
“… Then .”
Soyeon finally showed her reaction .
huh ?
I wasn’t expecting much because it was the way home, so I came to my senses at Soyeon’s words and led her to the playground .
“… .”
I had the thought that it would be better to sit on a bench in moderation and go .
However, Soyeon led me to an unexpected place and spoke in a nostalgic tone .
“… Me, push me .”
It was a swing that stood where she led me .
ah… .
Whenever I went to the playground with Soyeon when I was young, it was the device I used to ride . I paused
for
a moment because of the memories I had forgotten for
a moment .
I meant to push it .
“… .”
I buried the memories of my childhood with Soyeon in my heart and quietly approached her behind .
Then he gently placed his hand on her back and gently pushed her away .
Kick –
Kick – As always
, Soyeon was very light .
How many times did I push like that ?
Soyeon started swinging by herself, waving her legs .
A swing that swings back and forth coolly .
… Isn’t that too high ? Even
though I knew it was unbelievably big ,
I was worried that I might fall for nothing .
Suddenly, the swing reached a higher and higher place, and I was about to say how about coming down slowly .
swish- !
she jumped off the swing
“… uh uh huh ?”
blame !
Naturally, she landed safely, and I approached her with my shocked chest still .
“ Dangerously… . Are you okay ?”
As I spoke with concern, she looked at me softly and uttered a small spit .
“… Dad… .”
… … huh ?
I froze for a moment at the word ‘Dad’ that came out of her mouth, and
… uh, uh… ?
My heart sank, and as soon as it was broken, it thumped and started running fast .
that moment .
She frowned slightly involuntarily and continued speaking slowly .
“… My dad always said that too… .”
… Oh, isn’t it… ?
I swallowed my saliva in a tense state, trying to calm my pounding heart, and answered casually .
“… that, yes… ?”
Then she looked at me sternly and continued talking about ‘Dad’ .
“… My mom and dad loved me so much .”
I had nothing to say . even
now
so “… After my father passed away, it was very difficult… .”
… Ugh… .
I, who was stabbed by Soyeon’s words, quietly received Soyeon’s gaze with some resentment while lowering my gaze .
“… Dad… , if you were alive… , black… . Joe, that would have been nice… .”
She cries bitterly as if she is overwhelmed with longing for her father .
Feeling very guilty for her words as if to listen to me, I hugged her and gently stroked her back .
“… whoops… , Dad… . If only I had a father… , black, mom… . Whoa… .”
… I’m sorry, I’m sorry, Soyeon-ah… .
It was only then that I understood everything about why Soyeon was not feeling well today, and why the ‘Message’ led me to Soyeon .
… Sorry… . I desperately suppressed the words of the apple protruding from my throat
,
hugging Soyeon tightly and comforting her .
I looked into Soyeon’s eyes and spoke carefully .
“… So Yeon-ah .”
Without a word, she gives strength to her arms and hugs her tightly .
Understanding that that was Soyeon’s affirmation, I stroked my hair and continued speaking slowly .
“… Where are we going to get some air ?”
“… huh ?”
As if surprised by my suggestion, she suddenly turned her head .
The red around the eyes made me feel very sad . After I
wiped the tears from her eyes, I talked about the ‘dream’ that I had forgotten
.
“ I told you before, let’s go play in the sea or in the mountains .”
A trip with Soyeon .
Anyway, ‘I’ came back alive .
Since I deeply felt that my life is only once, wouldn’t it be okay to indulge in a little greed ?
“… W, let’s go on a trip… ?”
As if in disbelief, Soyeon got out of her arms, wiped her eyes and looked at me .
“ Yeah, would you like to go this weekend ?”
When I spoke out with the thought that I would like to go as soon as possible, Soyeon quickly nodded with a bewildered expression on her face .
that
‘s good While asking about the trip like that, the sunset had completely set and it was evening .
“… It’s late. Shall we talk as we go ?”
I naturally brought up the story of the trip and led Soyeon home ,
“… good .”
Looking at the ‘message’ that appeared in my vision, I slowly headed home .
[ Success ! ]