‘ A man as a good friend .’
His words, which he put a period on at will, echo in my ears and shake my heart .
Maybe it has a different meaning .
Maybe it was because I was embarrassed that I turned away .
As if I was walking through a field of thorns, I pondered over his words over and over again, but the
scars only deepened .
It was all in vain .
“… … .”
I was not confident to face Jihwan’s face, so I lowered my head, and
at the same time my eyes became cloudy, black water started pouring out from the depths of my heart . No matter how
hard I tried to block it with overlapping hands, I tried to say
that there was still a chance, but I could
n’t stop it this time .
Dduk –
The wall that hid negative emotions is collapsing .
and… .
Soggy and dirty emotions ran up my legs and began to encroach on my body in an instant .
… Where did it go wrong ?
what did i do wrong… .
I wrapped my head around and hurriedly looked back to the past, but unfortunately
, the past didn’t tell me anything .
“… .”
As I sat down in the pitch black darkness, waiting to give up my life and be buried in death .
Like a rope coming down from the sky, the words I once heard passed through my mind one by one .
‘ You can’t achieve anything if you stand still !’
My friends said ,
‘ If you can, try it ?’
My mom said ,
‘ I don’t think I can do anything about it. Just draw a sword ?’
And the words left by the ‘message’… .
I struggled in the dark, reflecting on their words, and finally got my
head down and realized the true meaning just before I stopped breathing .
“… … .”
All the problems were me .
The indecisive myself who didn’t want to miss anything and tried to grab everything .
In the end, I only realized it after patheticly missing out on it .
What to hold on to and
how to act .
*
“… .”
It hurt my heart to see Soyeon shaking her head as if in shock, but there was nothing I could do for her who drew the line
.
Just waiting for her to make up her mind .
pop-! Puff -!
So, the last firecracker goes off .
When it was quiet outside the window .
Soyeon slowly raised her head .
And she wiped the tears from her eyes, and cautiously met her eyes .
“… .”
Red eyes shining like his wife .
In Soyeon’s eyes, an unknown sign is felt .
Like a sharp-edged sword, with a sharp look .
However… .
Her expression was calm .
Even though she was calm, she was so calm that she felt lonely and cold .
Gulp –
Involuntarily nervous, I swallowed my saliva and waited for Soyeon’s words, and after taking a short deep breath ,
she opened her mouth as if there was nothing she could do .
“… I know your heart .”
Then he glanced at his left hand, and then met his eyes again and spoke softly .
“… I will try .”
It meant positive .
… thank god… .
Breathing a sigh of relief inwardly, I felt a glimmer of hope and offered a brief thank-you note ,
“ Thank you .”
Soyeon didn’t answer, just quietly met her eyes .
After such a hazy meal .
“… .”
I was holding a taxi to drop off Soyeon .
then .
“… Jihwan-ah .”
Soyeon, who was standing next to her, spoke softly .
“ Huh ?”
I reflexively turned my head to look at her, and
Soyeon spoke calmly while looking at the people walking on the street .
“… Today, I want you to sleep at your house .”
… Am I wrong ?
The moment when I doubted my ears and looked at Soyeon’s side profile .
Whoop –
She suddenly turned her head and looked at me and spoke over and over again .
“… I want you to sleep at your house today .”
No, what ?
I was taken aback for a moment by the sudden request, and then I came to my senses, guessed Soyeon’s intentions, and answered cautiously .
“ Soyeon-ah… . Why are you sleeping in my house ?”
OK… .
“… .”
Soyeon kept her mouth shut, and looked at her as if to answer her quickly .
… driving me crazy… .
I looked at Soyeon who didn’t answer, took a short sigh, and said while trying to regain her composure .
“ I’m sorry. I don’t think that’s possible .”
I don’t know if you give up a hundred times and come to play during the day, but you shouldn’t go to sleep at my house .
If I look at it here, the effortless line drawing will be in vain .
“ Instead, it’s okay to come and play. Even tomorrow… .”
then .
“… Are you okay ?”
Soyeon interrupted me, turned around slowly
, and moved her hand slowly as she made my way into the street before I could catch her .
Sneak –
A sharp sword that twinkles in the street lights .
“… huh ?” In an instant, an uneasy life flowed from Soyeon’s back
,
who drew her sword, and I, startled, instinctively grabbed Soyeon and shouted .
“… Go, let’s go! to our house !”
OK… .
Soyeon slowly turned her body and made eye contact .
Then he satisfactorily raised the corners of his lips… .
“… so be it .”
With the same smile as my mother, she quietly pulled out her sword .
*
Shoot aaH _
_
“ Ha… .”
Obviously, Soyeon said she would try .
But why did he suddenly act like that? .
Even the life that flowed from Soyeon was not normal .
If you let it go… .
Gulp –
Feeling dizzy for a moment and swallowing saliva, I calmed my startled heart and began to calmly find countermeasures .
“… .”
Once upon a time, there was a time when my wife was very sensitive to the idea of living anywhere .
It was probably not long after giving birth to Soyeon… .
At that time, I thought it was postpartum depression, so I only took care of my wife with all my heart .
It took a while, but my wife’s condition improved a lot, and since then, her fiery personality has gradually changed to become the wife she is today .
However… .
This is for my wife .
The situation is different with Soyeon now .
I brought it with the idea of putting out the fire first, but I can’t keep looking at it in the future .
What I can do is limited, so I hope Soyeon will make up her mind… .
“ Ha… .”
I let out a heavy sigh, worrying about the future with Soyeon, finished taking a shower and left the bathroom .
“… I ‘m coming late .”
Then, after taking a shower, Soyeon, who changed into comfortable clothes, greeted me… .
“ … .”
Soyeon’s attire was strange .
It wasn’t the T-shirt and pants I brought out, but how I found it, she was wearing a white T-shirt that barely reached her thighs .
… driving me crazy… .
Surprised by the outfit as if I was not wearing bottoms, I quickly turned my gaze away and opened my mouth .
“ Soyeon-ah. Why are you wearing that… .”
Then, Soyeon turned around pretending not to hear , and
flapped –
her hem fluttered, revealing her chubby butt .
“ Shh !”
I felt a burning sensation at the fatal appearance and hurriedly covered my eyes, turning around and shouting at Soyeon resolutely .
“ Min So-yeon! Get dressed right now! Otherwise, I will really send you back !” As soon as I opened my mouth
,
Soyeon stood tall and stopped, and
then slowly turned her body towards me .
Palpitations – pounding –
heartbeats getting stronger .
I bit my teeth tightly, calmed my heart and waited for
Soyeon , and then I heard a sound as if
Soyeon was sitting on the sofa, and then
I heard the sound of something rubbing against my skin
.
And after a while… .
“… Are you all dressed ?”
“… yes .”
When I asked Soyeon sensibly, the answer came back saying she was all wearing it .
… ha… .
I sighed quietly and turned to nagging once more… ,
“… .”
Sue-euk – Seeing Soyeon
pulling up her underwear as if to purify it, it hardened .
“… Heh .”
“ You, you… !”
I, who was deceived by Soyeon, nagged to hide my blushing face, and said ,
“ Min Soyeon. Are you going to keep coming out like this? Put your pants on !”
So-yeon was listening and curling up, showing off her underwear and spreading her legs .
Boy, he… ?
I was very embarrassed by Soyeon’s uncontrollable sudden action, and in the
end, I lost my gaze to Soyeon’s naked thighs and my heart sank .
“ … !”
At that moment, unable to contain the excitement, I forced Soyeon to stand up and pushed her into the room ,
“… Go to sleep, we’ll talk tomorrow .”
Bang the door! After closing it, I turned off all the lights in the house and hurriedly lay down on the sofa .
“ Ha… .”
Thump – thump-thump-thump-thump-thump-thump-thump-thump-thump-thump-thump-thump-thump-thump-thump-thump-thump-thump-thump-thump
–
thump “… crazy kid… .”
I felt so disgusted with myself, excited by Soyeon’s defenseless appearance, which I had seen many times .
It certainly wasn’t like this… .
I don’t know why they do this after making up their minds .
“ Ha… .”
Desperately emptying my head, I calmed my excitement and closed my
eyes thinking that I should have a serious conversation with Soyeon again tomorrow .
*
That morning . I
heard the
sound of the main room door opening .
I couldn’t sleep, so I lay quietly, guessing that Soyeon had come to the living room for a while .
That moment… .
Instinctively feeling threatened, I caught something rushing in .
Dub- !
“!?”
Soft feel at your fingertips .
It was Soyeon’s hand .
“ So, Soyeon? what is this… .”
Embarrassed, I grabbed Soyeon’s hand and hurriedly spoke ,
“… Stay still .”
Soyeon, with her eyes twinkling in the dark, threw herself at me without even a single excuse .