107 – Episode 107 Seo-ah
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“Uhm..”
I woke up in the morning sunlight and immediately prepared breakfast.
“Jihoon, food…”
“Ah..”
I stared at the bed endlessly.
It was a quiet bedroom with no answer, no, my house was so quiet that it was lonely and desolate.
“..Jihoon”
It had been a day since he left me.
“Seoya..Uh..What’s going on?”
When I entered second grade, my friends looked at my face and asked me questions.
“Hey.. What are you worried about?”
Even my seniors were worried about me.
“Oh..No, it’s just..hehehe.”
“Uh huh..?!”
That’s what I told my friends and seniors.
“Ah.. I see you went to the military, boyfriend..”
“My husband”
“Yeah..Yeah husband”
“Well..But wouldn’t we be able to contact you sometimes?”
“Every day..”
“Huh?”
“I think it would be good to do it every day…”
“I see..”
Anyway, I spent time without Jihoon.
It had already been two days since he disappeared.
“Seo, I received a letter from Jihoon.”
“Yes yes!!! “Where are you, mother!?”
When I saw the letter he sent with the luggage, I hurriedly ran.
“hahahaha.. It hasn’t even been a week since Jihoon left.”
“But.. I already miss Jihoon.”
“So..So?”
My mother was also embarrassed, but she quickly adapted. I think it was because she saw me with Jihoon next to me.
“They sent us 2 copies, but there are quite a few Seo-ahs.”
Jihoon wrote and sent one page each to his mother and father, but he sent three pages to me.
“What are you doing?”
“Yes?”
“No, hurry up and see”
“Yes”
To Seo-ah
Seo Aya, this is my first letter since I left for the military. It wasn’t that long since I wrote it right when I left, but it wasn’t that long ago.
Seo, it must be quite difficult for you, right?
But I’m not dead, so don’t cry like that, okay?
Whenever I have time, I will call you and send you a letter. Please answer the phone because it could be a strange number.
Oh, and instead of feeling depressed every day because I’m not here, try doing what you want to do when I’m not around.
It’s good to be with me all the time, but sometimes it’s important to find something you can enjoy alone.
Try joining a club or going on a trip. It will definitely be a good experience. Oh, and…
Jihoon summarized my well-being and future events.
In a way, it seemed like these words were prepared to keep me from feeling anxious when I was not confident.
“Huh.. Jihoon, I.. How can I live without you…”
“Seoya..”
Jihoon received comfort from his parents and I decided to live as Jihoon told me.
“Are you joining the club?”
“Yes”
“Huh..Really?! In our club!?”
“Yes, we dance and sing here, right?”
“Yes yes!! “Of course, our club is an entertainment club where we dance, bend, and sing!”
I did what Jihoon said and did what I wanted, of course.
“I’ll show you when Jihoon comes hehehehe, you’ll like it, right?”
“Seoya.. Your expression looked so perverted.”
“Yeah.. Right?”
So while Jihoon was away, I prepared for when Jihoon came.
My morning always started with making breakfast.
My original life was to skip breakfast and go to work.
The reason is because I could save money by not eating breakfast.
That way, I can eat lunch and dinner at work and then come home and sleep.
In fact, the house was mostly used for sleeping and was not used for any other purpose.
On the weekends, I slept as long as possible and then ate.
Sometimes it’s just rice and kimchi, other times it’s just bean sprouts and bean sprouts.
To me, such a life was routine and natural.
I was always short of money, and even when I had some spare money, I didn’t know how to spend it.
Travel, hobbies, luxury goods, anything else was out of my interest.
No, maybe there was no such thing as interest.
When I first met my husband, I had a new experience.
Buy things, go to good restaurants, go on trips
You spend money like this, you make memories like this, I never knew until now.
I learned many more things after that.
My life was insensitive, but emotions, precious things, memories, and daily life emerged.
“Hmm.. I have to eat breakfast.”
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One of them was eating breakfast.
Jihoon ate breakfast from his mother every day, and even now Jihoon still has to eat breakfast.
One time, my manager asked me if it was difficult to prepare breakfast every day, but I thought differently.
The house where people wake up lonely, wash up and leave immediately has become a warm house where people eat while looking at each other.
Did you sleep well while facing each other? What are you going to do today? I was so happy to hear such good words like “This is right” And I thought that I could have a warm morning like this.
Even today, I
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“The liver is fine…”
It was lonely, but it was one of my daily routines that he left behind.
After making rice for one person, I sat down at the table and ate.
“…It’s delicious, right?”
I smiled slightly as I looked at the empty seat.
After cleaning up, I went outside and went to school.
“Hello, Seo-ya~”
“Yes”
“Are you okay?”
“…No”
“Ah.. I.. And my husband will be fine too.”
“Yeah, right?”
My friends sympathized with my feelings and comforted me.
After taking the class, I went to eat the food.
Normally, I would have ate together while waiting for Jihoon, but since I couldn’t do that anymore, I went to eat with my friends.
“It’s been a while since we ate something together?”
“Yes”
“hahahaha.. I’m sorry. I thought it would be awkward for you to eat together with Jihoon.”
Actually, Jihoon is dating another woman other than me… It was a feeling that came from a bit of my greed.
“hahahaha, but next time, please introduce us. We’re not the kind of bad people who steal husbands.”
“hahahaha.. Sorry”
“It’s okay, I already know how much you like your husband.”
“That’s right, there was never a time when we didn’t mention your husband.”
“That’s right, that’s right”
My cheeks turned a little red when I heard what my friends said.
After eating, we went to a cafe and continued talking.
“So you joined the club?”
“Yes”
“Wow.. It’s really hard to get in there.”
“Look at Seo-ah, who wouldn’t let her in?”
“I admit it too.”
“Well.. That’s a bit much, but how pretty am I?”
“…”
“…”
It gets a little quiet
“Seo, we are saying this because we know you well, but you should never say that to a woman you are not close to.”
“Yeah.. Right?”
“Yeah, when I first saw you, I thought you were a celebrity.”
“I am a doll”
“I thought I was an idol”
“Is..That much?”
“Don’t your boyfriend… or husband, think you’re pretty?”
“Ah..No, it’s amazing?”
“So..But you say that?”
I thought the beauty that Jihoon told me about was a personal feeling…
Actually, from my standards, it didn’t matter who was prettier or not. I wasn’t jealous anyway, and after falling in love, Jihoon was the only one there.
“I’m really jealous.”
“So”
“hahahaha…”
“Anyway, what are you planning to do now that you’ve joined the club?”
“Everything”
“I.. Everything?”
“Yes”
“Is it time? “Why don’t you just do one?”
“I asked the members and they said it was possible.”
“What is the task?”
“That’s right, our test is difficult.”
“Don’t you always go early and study?”
“Well, actually, I went early to hang out with Jihoon, so I probably study for about 2 hours a day.”
“…”
“Are you really an all-rounder?”
“So that’s acceptable.”
“But you always go out drinking and you’re at the top.”
“That’s right”
Perhaps because it is the best university in Korea, everyone seems confident in their studies.
“I’m looking forward to Seo-ah dancing and singing”
“I know you’re good at singing because we sang together last time, but have you ever tried dancing?”
“No, this is my first time”
“So..? Do you think you can do well?”
“Yes, I will try my best”
“Ah, Seo-ah would be good at this too.”
“That’s right”
“You have to work hard because we see it too”
“That’s right, I’m looking forward to it!”
I worked hard in the club while receiving support from my friends.
As time passed, I began to live the same life as before, repeating the same things.
It’s okay at first
Because Jihoon said it was okay
I told you not to cry and that you should be happy even without me.
“Jihoon..”
A long time after Jihoon left, Jihoon appeared in my dream.
I always tried to cheer up, but I couldn’t help but miss Jihoon.
Memories of me being in his arms, him talking and me laughing
He always spoke kindly to me..
“I.. What should I do now, Jihoon?”
I lay in bed again today, thinking of him.
Even though the bed was empty, it felt like Jihoon was next to me.
Could it be that Jihoon, who appeared in my dream, was actually next to me?
“..It’s hard because you’re not here.”
What should I do without Jihoon?
No matter where I went, Jihoon wasn’t by my side, so I didn’t want to do anything.
But I had to live, for he gave me many things for me.
“Hello.. Kids”
“Seoya.. Doesn’t look very good.”
“That’s why”
I met my high school friends after a long time.
“Yes, I’m sorry.. I miss Jihoon so much.. But I can’t even meet him.. hehehehe.”
“That’s right…”
“Okay, okay”
My friends comforted me and I received comfort from them.
“But.. I’m really sorry, but when did Jihoon go to the military?”
“Ah.. Now.. It’s been a month”
“…”
“… ?”
“Wow”
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