129 – The person who was a mother
People around the world are talking about it. The word success
In our time, such words as success were not necessary.
Success was simply asking people to live each day.
So my life ended like that.
“The matchmaker found your husband.”
In our time, it was mostly like that. It was a waste of time to meet someone, date someone, and get to know each other, and I didn’t have the money to do so.
It was a life where we just had to give birth to children and have them feed us.
It was that kind of life.
“Uh!! “I have to earn money to do anything!!!”
I, a person in my 20s who is said to be young, heard these stories from my husband.
“aaahhh”
“Hey! I’m going!”
That bastard… Even if that bastard wasn’t around… Would life have been okay or… Is the problem that I was born there?
“Mites, mites!”
“It’s noisy!!”
The child does not know anything. She just cries
Even if she wanted to breastfeed her child, she could not, so she had to beg for milk.
I woke up before the sun rose every morning.
Go to someone else’s house, wash dishes, and get scolded
In the afternoon, I went to a bar and served as a server.
If you wash the dishes, peel the onions, and do all the hard work,
I was paid 10,000 won, which was barely enough to eat once a day.
I didn’t learn because I was a woman.
What is that?
When I return home, my husband, who is worse than a dog, is drinking alcohol and then sleeping at home.
The reason I married this bastard is because my family was poor and that bastard’s family was a little better off than us.
But that’s not the case anymore
The store went bankrupt and that guy is a drunkard with no job, so he drinks every day.
When the 2000s came, I thought about living a little better again, but
“What!!”
My husband suddenly left the house and
“Pack your bags!! Hurry!!”
I took my money every day and started a business, and I made hundreds of millions of dollars in return.
“Why is this happening!!!”
“My money!!! “Give me my money back!!!”
“I-C!! That’s my money!!! “Why is it your money!!”
We fell to the bottom once again.
“Uh… Where are we?”
A child following me
Anyone who sees him would think he is a child raised by a rich family, but that is not the case at all.
I didn’t understand if this was between me and that baby.
“Uh..Mom”
They say I’m a mother and I… I’m like this.
“Follow me!!”
I held my arm tightly.
Because all I have left is this little child
“I..I do experiential learning at school..”
“Where is the money!!!”
“Ha..But”
“Go in!!!”
I have already changed my house for the fourth time.
I’m so anxious every night that I can’t sleep.
The bastard called my husband doesn’t even come here for gambling anymore.
“I’m hungry…I’m hungry”
But the only thing left for me is two years of eating.
I have never slept comfortably. If there’s a knock on the door at any time, I have to run away.
My luggage gradually disappeared.
Forgotten, broken, broken and taken away
“aaah!!!!”
I’m going crazy. No, I’m already crazy.
Water and electricity at home were cut off almost every time.
You might not have known it when you were young, but now there is no place that will write a year without even knowing where you came from.
They say the world is getting better, but I am becoming unhappy.
“… “
From one day, I don’t even know when, the child who called me mom disappeared.
No, I made it that way.
It was just another person living in the same house.
Fortunately, I no longer had to run away.
I still don’t know where my husband has gone.
Since he was just a burden anyway, I thought it would be better if he disappeared from my eyes for the rest of his life.
Perhaps that was why at least it no longer had to be noisy every time.
And I also avoided the child.
Anyway, I came in and left while he was sleeping, so there wasn’t much to see.
Still, I couldn’t see the body in my house, so I put up food money every time, but I barely spent it.
It just happened once or twice
I don’t know where to eat or if I’m starving. Or maybe it was like I had forgotten about it.
Regarding the existence of Ai, I want to think that she is not old yet.
I heard that a child grows bigger when he blinks, and she seemed to think that was true.
Before I knew it, she was so pretty, like a b*tch living far away in a better place than me. More than when I was young
But I was scared. I had no strength when I was young, but now I have a body that could be half that of an adult.
I was afraid that one day I might pick up a knife.
I’m afraid that what I hit and what I shouted will come back to me.
So I rarely went home.
He was able to sleep well at the factory anyway, and he didn’t rely on me in the first place.
Then one day, when I came home, I saw clothes I had never seen before and free sample cosmetics.
It seemed like he was pretending to be a woman. As for myself… Have I ever… Tried putting on makeup?
One day, while returning home, I saw my daughter and an unknown man next to her.
To meet someone with a face like that… I thought they were meeting for money, but I forgot that thought after seeing their faces.
The child’s face smiling for the first time was the first time I had ever seen it, even as a mother.
After that, I rarely went home.
Now that I think about it, I wondered why I said I was being noticed, but… I guess she wanted to be a mother too, even if I was dirty and ugly.
I had no desire to apologize or receive forgiveness. I just wondered what it would have been like if someone other than me had taken that child.
Then one day, those cubs finally found this place.
The reason I found it was ordinary. I was caught because of my daughter, who had been special since she was young and had an appearance that was not seen anywhere else.
Probably I got caught following a guy around once in a while.
Those bastards had already come to the office and I quickly ran home to pack my bags and quickly get the money. And now I was about to leave…
When I saw the house after a long time, it was really small and shabby.
It was a sick life. My daughter and I were abandoned because we couldn’t give birth to a boy due to the wrong husband.
I will have to continue to live like this in the future.
I swear that there is nothing wrong with it and that it is a sh*tty life, but… The daughter… No, the child
“More than me..”
I ran quickly.
“What should I buy today?”
No matter how much I flew or crawled, my daughter was always in the same place.
“Let’s go quickly!”
I held her child’s arm like I did when I was little.
But
“What are you doing!!”
He firmly shook off my arm.
“What are you doing!! I’m asking because I don’t know!! “We have to run away quickly!!”
“…I don’t like it!!”
“What..?”
“I don’t like it!!”
“What are you saying!! “If you don’t run away quickly…”
The child was no longer a child. She is a grown adult, maybe she has become a more adult person than me.
“No matter what you say, I won’t follow you anymore.”
“…”
“You live your life. “I’m going to live my life”
“…”
When she was young, the voice she heard from her child’s mother made her feel like she had become something, even though she was nothing and worthless.
Because she was the child’s mother.
“Turn it off!!”
But.. Now.. Am I now this child’s mother?
“f*ck you, I don’t know, just take care of it, b*tch.”
That’s how I ran away.
How did I survive after that? No, she lived because she could not die.
As I got older, people called me grandma, and I no longer had to live the life of a fugitive because I was protected by the country eaters who mumbled things in the country.
It was still shabby.
But now that I have more time than before, I finally start thinking about old times.
My family, her husband, and the child I can no longer call my daughter.
The name Seo-ah was roughly made up.
Since I can’t even feed him properly, he always looks like a withered tree branch.
Shabby clothes and shabby face
I left without even saying hello until the end.
Sometimes I wanted to see it, sometimes I didn’t, sometimes I wanted to say thank you and sometimes I wanted to say I was sorry.
Even so, I can’t find that child in my old body anymore.
It should have been so.
It was a sunny day. This kind of weather meant that waste paper became lighter so you could pick up a lot, and it also meant that you had to walk for a long time.
There are people like me who live in a big city called Seoul, but most of them are bright and young.
It felt like I was this shadow.
“Oh! “Grandma, get out of the way!!”
In the past and now, there were a lot of guys yelling at me.
“Grandma! “How many times do I tell you that you shouldn’t look through the trash here!!”
I walked and walked down the street while listening to those words.
While boxes are visible in the distance
I saw a face I shouldn’t see… A face I thought I’d never see again.
To-duk-duk
All the waste paper I was picking up was thrown out.
“Okay, go first”
“Yes, sir~”
Sir, then, that guy.. Will get married.
“Grandma, I will help you.”
The person who appeared to be Seo-ah’s husband approached me, a humble person.
“…Oh no, bachelor, go in first. “Looking at it, it looks like he has a wife too.”
But something was… Pitiful. She said she was the child’s mother, but no… She was the mother.
But her husband helped me until the end.
I didn’t know why he was helping me or if he actually knew my identity. What I could tell was that he was a very kind young man.
“..Do you like getting married as a bachelor?”
I don’t know why those words came out.
But it had already popped out.
“Yes, I am so happy that I cannot be happier than this.”
I heard an answer I had never heard before in my life.
The young man left and I quietly sat down on a nearby chair.
Seo-ah looked happy and her husband looked even happier.
Now that she has come to terms with her regrets, she apologizes to the child…
“Ugh.. I guess I should pick up some waste paper.”
Because I was not the person to appear now
Since I knew that well, I was just satisfied and left.
hmmm so she was the old woman a few chapters ago. Ngl I thought at first she was the one that sent the two back in time then. ohh well.