51 – Episode 51 (Seo-ah)
From that day on, I was almost always in Jihoon’s hospital room.
“Jihoon, I brought you food.”
I didn’t know when Jihoon, who didn’t wake up, would wake up, so I always brought him rice to eat with me.
“..Jihoon, everything is okay.”
Jihoon’s father heard that Jihoon was hit by a gangster and although he didn’t show it to me, he was very angry and called somewhere.
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It seemed like something big was happening.
“Jihoon… I’m sorry. I’m only getting help again.”
When Jihoon, who had always been by my side supporting me, did not wake up, I gradually became devastated.
“I wish I hadn’t gone shopping that day… I wish I hadn’t gone to the market.”
I would have listened to Jihoon when he asked to go to the supermarket.
Why did I do that?
“Why.. That day when I went to the soup restaurant..”
If only I hadn’t gone to a soup restaurant…
If I hadn’t visited Jihoon that day when the storm was so strong,
“I wish you hadn’t met me in the first place.”
“…”
Let’s be happy together
What he said
I have to be happy to be happy, and I have to be happy to be happy too.
“..I’m sad because you’re not here, Jihoon.”
“…Wake up quickly.. Please”
I held his hand and kept shouting
I looked at the time past midnight after Jihoon’s parents passed away.
Jihoon still hasn’t woken up, and his parents are starting to worry.
They said that if I didn’t wake up by midnight tomorrow, I would be transferred to Seoul National University Hospital.
Please.. I hope that doesn’t happen.
I wake up early in the morning and check on Jihoon’s condition.
Check whether blood pressure and pulse are normal and check Jihoon’s condition.
My parents thought about hiring a caregiver, but since I had said I would take responsibility for all care, no one came to this single room.
I cleaned the hospital room as dust-free as possible and stayed in the hospital room except while going to the bathroom to prepare for any unexpected situation.
He wiped away my sweat and took care of other hygienic tasks.
Others would say that my girlfriend is extremely sincere, but that’s not true… It’s not his girlfriend, it’s his wife.
We were married, had a house, and were even planning children. We were in such a state.
But… There was an accident and I just returned to the past.
I met Jihoon again because I never regretted it.
We have to do better this time
The wait should be short and the meeting should be longer.
Where should I go to college?
Should I get a job at the same company?
And if I get married… When will I have children?
Jihoon and I both spent our school days thinking the same thing.
Because of a deeper and deeper relationship than others
But…
Beep..Beep..Beep
All I can hear now is the regular sound of the patient monitoring device.
“It’s all because of me, right Jihoon?”
“Because I..”
“Why on earth did that happen…?”
I blamed myself
Although it has already happened
It didn’t happen because of me, but
“I’m sorry…”
I thought it was my fault
“…”
Jihoon will be able to wake up
Even if it doesn’t happen today, it will definitely happen.
Because he has many people
“I am..”
I am the only person in this world who loves me, cares for me, understands me, and cares about me.
“I’m sorry, Jihoon..”
I got up from my seat
“…I’m sorry for everything, Jihoon.”
He let go of his hand.
“I… I was happy talking with you.”
Are his hands warm or are mine warm?
“Because I was with you, I went to places I never thought of in my life.”
I shed tears as I looked at his hands.
“I went to a high-end restaurant that I thought I would never go to again..”
Thinking about that time
“When I confessed.. I did both..”
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“I couldn’t bear it.. Because my happiness was right in front of me.”
Every one of his actions
“It was so good.. But.. But Jihoon”
I looked at Jihoon with tears in my eyes to the point of blurring my vision.
“I really love you… But I want to be by your side.”
My heart hurts. It’s so painful and painful.
“The thing I hate most is you being sick..”
It felt like someone was stabbing me with a knife.
“It’s better for me to be sick..”
Now.. No more because of me..
“I hope you don’t suffer… “I’m really sorry. I’ll live my life to atone.”
I realized this when I became a high school student.
I didn’t do anything for him.
We dated together, went out together, and gave gifts.
“You did it for me”
He remembered my birthday, celebrated anniversaries, and taught me new things.
The zoo, couple rings, birthday celebrations, Christmas, all the things you can do with other people in the world, it was only after he taught me that I did them for him.
When I received it for the first time, I was happy and amazed. There were things like this.
“I just received it..”
Now I’m about to fall for him
“I was really sorry…”
I turned around
I can’t even wipe away the flowing tears
Tub
“Why are you sorry?”
If he hadn’t suddenly grabbed my arm
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“I should say thank you”
“Ji..Jihoon!?”
“I always said, let’s be happy together.”
“Ha..But that..”
“Am I alone in all those moments when we laugh, cry, talk, sleep, eat, love, get married, dream of the future, happily or joyfully explore various emotions, fall in love more, and get closer to each other?”
“Tsk..”
Jihoon got up, wiped the tears in my eyes, and asked
“Are all those moments with you one-sided?”
I shook my head.
“Did you give me gifts on every anniversary, treat me on my birthday, and do it all unilaterally?”
I shook my head harder.
“Does Seo-ah love me?”
!!!
“Of course!!”
“I was happy to meet you. I can’t replace it with anything in my life.”
“I love you too”
Jihoon held my hand
“That..That”
“So we love each other, but is this one-sided?”
“…No”
“Seoya, I know you’ve been through a lot of painful times.”
“I know I didn’t receive as much love as others did.”
I quietly listened to Jihoon.
“But don’t think that you are the only one who received it.”
“Jihoon..”
“Do you know how joyful and happy I am to meet you?”
“The day I get to meet you, I’ll be happy and feel like I’m flying through the sky?”
“Even in that moment of waiting, the world was beautiful.”
“I don’t feel very happy even when I’m with my friends, but when I’m with you, I feel happier than anything else in the world.”
“…”
“Do you know why your parents allowed me to marry you?”
“…I don’t know”
On the day of Jihoon’s reunion, Jihoon’s parents welcomed me very much.
Not only that, but you also became my family.
Then and now
I hurt Jihoon… I couldn’t stop the gangsters from attacking Jihoon, but Jihoon’s parents were more considerate and worried about me.
So I don’t even know why he was so good to me when I had no one.
“He made his decision by looking at my face then and now.”
“Face..? “Your face?”
Not my face?
“Oh my face looks the happiest in the world”
“…”
“It’s true, you saw my old family photos.”
Although Jihoon smiled in his family photo, he did not smile brightly.
“But..”
“Oh no more bad thoughts”
I closed my mouth on those words.
“Do you understand that I will not listen to anything you say from now on?”
“Uh..Huh?”
“No matter how sorry you are, no matter how much you say you’re wrong or try to bring misfortune to me, I will never listen.”
Jihoon grabbed my face
“Do you understand? “I’m saying this because I keep feeling anxious. You are mine and I can’t exchange you for anything.”
“If you’re tired, take a break. Let me handle everything. I’ll solve it somehow. Instead, it’s your role to trust me and support me.”
Really… He hasn’t changed.
“What does it matter if you don’t have a house or money?”
“Seo, did you just receive it? “Did I celebrate the anniversary alone?”
After that, I took the 100th, 200th, 1000th, and 1500th days.
“No”
“Every morning when I wake up and tell you I love you, don’t you say anything?”
Rather, there were many times when I did it first.
“No”
“If I love you, have you given me love?”
I gave you all my love, I gave you all the love I had
“I gave it to you…”
“I don’t need all the material things, all I need is you. Why don’t I know how much you love me?”
“Whenever you have time at work, you brag about me, put your phone background on my picture, and every day when you wake up, you kiss me.”
“…”
“You always gave me a lot”
“That’s why I’m also giving to you.”
“Jihoon…”
“Don’t ever say that again, okay?”
I answered in tears, like a child being scolded.
“Yes..”
“Come here”
I was held in his arms
“I know you’ve been anxious all along. Did you think I wouldn’t notice that you sometimes wake up at night and look at me?”
“How do you do that?”
“Hey, it’s been 2 years since we got married. Have I woken up at least once?”
“…”
“Don’t be anxious alone. If you’re anxious, come to me.”
“And you are not alone. Your friends and our parents all like and care about you.”
“Yes…”
“Even though I look like an adult on the outside, I feel like a child at times like this.”
Jihoon smiled and handed me a tissue.
“…Keuung”
“Are you still anxious? “Are you afraid something bad will happen again?”
I turned my head
“Really?”
But Jihoon looked straight into my eyes.
“…”
“Ah..I’m still anxious”
“I..Sorry”
“That’s not it, I’m not sorry, I love you”
“…I love you”
“I love you too and I’m thankful too”
“The fact that you’re here means you’ve been taking care of me, right?”
“Yes”
“See, you didn’t just receive it?”
I laughed at his words
My anxiety, my worries, my shortcomings
He will solve everything.
I love him too
Because he loves me too
“I like you.. I like you a lot, Jihoon.”
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