118 – Squeeze through the gap_2
“I think we need to move a little faster from today.”
At Lane’s words, Odrox and Solar nodded. Maybe it’s because of what happened yesterday. I had never seen a human-shaped monster with demonic energy before. That must be the work of the devil.
Lane’s opinion was accepted without disagreement, as if all the other colleagues had the same thought.
“Ron. I’m really sorry, but I think I need your help. Now let’s go back to the old formation. It’s the most efficient.”
“great.”
Do you want to borrow even a small amount of power? I nodded hastily, as I was able to join the party as I wanted, even if I put aside the words of the feeling that it was inevitable.
I’m at the forefront After that, Lane and Odrox. Next is Solar, and last is Lian. Moved to the most used formation. If I sensed something suspicious, I was on my nerves to inform them right away.
Even if Rian had the power to protect himself, he would be able to get out of danger quickly even if he was attacked.
But there were no visible threats. Occasionally, the monsters glared at us and salivated, but I didn’t feel any of the foreign magic that I felt yesterday.
It was not that there was no threat. Its primary purpose was to destroy the portal that summoned the demon.
Enter the labyrinth that Mirsen told you about and start subjugation. There was nothing to do inside the labyrinth. I did a wide range of searches from the outside, but I was able to do a lot of searching from the inside as well. I just watched them go through the labyrinth at high speed, like a cadet watching a teacher practicing.
Still, I had no idea. It felt like my heart, which had been square and pointed, kept getting scratched and eventually became round.
It was a labyrinth full of insect-type monsters. The bodily fluid was so acidic that it melted the ground, and the size was so huge that it made my body flinch involuntarily.
But without hesitation, they made their way through the terribly huge bugs with three pairs of legs. Even if there is bodily fluid on his body, Lian’s healing magic heals him completely without leaving even a trace. That’s how they broke through the dimensional gate. It was less than 20 minutes.
“next.”
We headed to the next labyrinth along with Lane’s insipid words.
It was a labyrinth made of sand that was so precarious that it would collapse at the slightest movement. This labyrinth also remained in my memory. It was similar to the labyrinth that was completed on the third day of the labyrinth exploration week.
..it must have been a coincidence.
This time, too, they smashed the deepest dimension gate at a speed that was incomparably faster than when I did the dapper. Not even a single powder fell from the precarious walls and ceiling, probably because even the huge Odrox was accustomed to walking without the sound of footsteps.
“next?”
This time, we headed to the next labyrinth with Solar’s words.
It was a short labyrinth divided into three paths. Without showing any sign of worry, he went to the place where the strongest enemy was and smashed the master’s monster and the dimension gate at the same time.
Everything I’ve been doing seemed to be being denied in real time. It seemed like someone was saying, ‘You can easily complete the labyrinth that you have gone through so much hard work like this’.
As if I were a bystander, I just watched them move behind them. Even so, I couldn’t say anything about joining the battle. Because I couldn’t think that I could do something by being mixed in with such a fast flow.
The feeling itself was different from the past days when I was unconditionally determined to ‘do it’.
levels were different.
The dimension was different.
It was overwhelming enough just to keep pace so as not to fall behind. All the corpses driven to the wall had been confirmed and killed, so even the consideration for the rear row was perfect.
It seemed that if I mixed in and sprained my foot even once, they would leave me behind.
“next!”
Ryan shouted.
moved to the labyrinth As if being chased by something, I hurriedly found the entrance to the labyrinth.
“next.”
Odrox said. Clearly I was being chased by something. I moved my feet as if I were running away from the virtual image I had created.
As if salty, labyrinths with a similar structure to the labyrinths that have been around since the dissolution appear. The enemies within were the same as they were back then, but of a much higher level, and my allies now annihilate them without breaking a sweat.
pass through and tear
everything i did
But there was no time to be frustrated by it. Because it was too hard to follow.
“It’s fine?”
“It’s fine.”
Occasionally, I came back to ask about my physical condition. honestly it wasn’t okay. All of their behavior patterns that I had worked hard to write down and etched into my head had been erased.
what was my purpose? Why did you ask to be together again? Why did you take the hard road?
Along with my fast-moving feet, my head is white.
When I was given time to catch my breath a little, I forgot to catch my breath and questioned myself.
Did you want to become a warrior? Did you want to be a hero? Did you want to be a reliable companion of the warrior? Did you want to save the world? Then why did you overwork and roll your body back then?
Before I could even answer the question, I went into action. No one showed any signs of hardship. No, I wasn’t too tired. It’s just that I have a lot of thoughts.
“..Good work. Was it a little early?”
“It was suitable.”
“It wasn’t bad.”
“Do you think this will be all right tomorrow? What about Ron?”
“Me too…”
“Originally, I was going to slow it down, but it seems that demons have been summoned from some dimensional gates.”
“I heard. After this, I have other things to do, so I think we’d better get it done quickly.”
“So, has there been any contact from the mercenaries or adventurers?”
“I don’t know yet. But if I keep going like this, I think I’ll be able to finish it soon.”
They set up camp and pitched tents. As if I had gone back, the things I had done came back to me. Still, there was nothing to be happy about. I was just doing my duty as if something was missing.
“As expected, it’s delicious. I can breathe now.”
Solar, who tasted the meal made by moving mechanically without any emotion, said so. I don’t know if I’m laughing or not.
I took a bite too, but well. I didn’t think it was that tasty. Again, no taste whatsoever. I should have added a bit more seasoning.
I put my body on the flow while answering what they said. But the content of the conversation did not enter my head.
Oh, I remember this one. I have to go through a really intense schedule, so I have to include myself in the night watch to manage my physical condition.
Seeing them hesitantly talking about what they should have done earlier made me feel as if they were really out of power. It’s like teaching an aspiring adventurer about fighting, reconnaissance, and everyday life one by one…
Anyway, I nodded and went inside the tent and closed my eyes. I just wanted to sleep soon. I felt like I could forget everything when I woke up.
“Ron. Wake up. It’s shift time.”
Odrox called my name and at the same time raised his upper body.
time frame I requested. With a hazy mind, I came out of the tent after packing my few weapons.
“Is there any takeover?”
“..nothing. You don’t have to worry about it.”
Oddly ambiguous words.
The tip of Odrox’s chin moved slightly. It seems that he was trying to hide it from himself, but he was able to figure out where the suspicious thing was with the slightest movement.
“Good work.”
“yes.”
As soon as Odrox entered the tent, he looked in the direction the tip of his chin had moved slightly. But I didn’t stand up right away and move towards it like before.
If I just go out and make things, it will really be over. So don’t mess around and if they show signs of trying to approach this way, let’s wake the kids…”, he wrapped it up like that, saying he didn’t want to move his limp body.
what the hell am i doing I proposed to them to face and overcome, but instead of overcoming it, it seemed that the value of my existence was being denied in real time.
It was clear that I was overreacting on my own. If it wasn’t for that, they wouldn’t have accepted my offer in the first place, and even if they did, it would have been discarded as useless after a while.
But even though I was sure, I couldn’t stop the feeling of helplessness. The situation of staying vigil over the sound of burning firewood makes me look back on the past.
The day I held Lane’s hand and became a colleague, what did I want to do? I wanted to become a warrior, a hero, and be praised by people.
What did I want to do on the day I fully realized my own limitations and Lane’s growth? He wanted to be the best helper to help the warrior right next to him.
On the day I recruited all my colleagues and confirmed their abilities with my own two eyes, what did I want to do? I wanted to help everyone, including Lane, and stand in the same position as them.
What did you want to do after disbanding? I wanted to distance myself from everyone because I didn’t want to show my broken image.
Then why did I return to the academy where Rain would be? I wanted to make sure they still considered me a colleague, even though I selfishly kept my distance.
I don’t like to be abandoned. I was afraid of being kicked out with an argument that I was not helpful. What would be left for me if the relationship with my colleagues was cut off? The most valuable thing I have is my relationship with them.
i want to be a hero i want to be a warrior I want to be the person they hang out with. The real reason was the childish reason that they expelled me from the group, that they were afraid of forgetting who I was, that they were afraid of forgetting who I was.
I wanted to have the power to stand on an equal footing with them and have a justification so that they wouldn’t abandon me.
I feared that they would become disillusioned with me and leave when I showed them unsightly ways of being jealous and self-harming.
It was childish and petty. Even though I was aware of it, it was more ridiculous not to even think about fixing it.
Maybe it’s because I saw a bonfire flickering in the middle of the night. I became sentimental without even realizing it, and my self-talk leaked out without my knowledge.
“I don’t want to be abandoned…”
The ridiculously ungainly self-talk was scattered in the air. In case someone heard it, I hurriedly checked the person who was awake.
Fortunately, no one seemed to hear.
I couldn’t even help, but if I spit out the sound of pain, it would really be the end.