121 – collapse
Waves brought about by the thought of being abandoned.
A bad hallucination, as if it were driven to show something that hadn’t come before.
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Nausea like a stomach upset and a headache that feels like it will break your head.
don’t believe in god Even so, I had no choice but to pray to the existence of God.
God please, do something about this f*cking psychosis.
why? Why? Why are you doing this? why isn’t it normal? Why is this only happening to me? Did I invite myself? why me? Didn’t I just do my best?
god. God. Oh God.
If you’re listening, if you’ve been watching everything I’ve been doing, please respond.
Don’t you think it’s too much to drive me into this way?
Is this the price I’ve been killing so many? If it’s real what do you want?
killed a person At that young age, when he was learning how to live in the world under his parents, he killed a person. But please listen. I was the only one who helped her first so that the hero you chose would not fall into the wrong path and the faith of the hero you chose would not be shaken.
Many lives have been damaged. I regretted it, cried, and prayed. I felt my evil deeds piling up. He repeated lies, deceived people, and decapitated those who stood in his way.
But if it hadn’t, some of us would have done it! did you want that Wasn’t the purpose to get rid of the demon lord? You didn’t say anything to Lane either! So we have no choice but to guess your intentions ourselves!
If this is the process of trying to judge me, if this situation is the process of sending me to hell, is it right for me to follow it?
There is still a lot left. There are too many left behind. What I left behind is too much. You didn’t put all the burden on me.
I don’t know if you exist, but if you do, you are definitely the worst. I followed your orders and cut off the demon king’s head. But why did you return these results? Why don’t you just let me shoulder all the burdens?
aftereffect. Everyone is soaked in the aftereffects. As if everyone is obsessed with peace, excessive suppression is carried out. He is trying to destroy his body in order to eradicate the evil in his own standards, and he does not hesitate to cut off his limbs with only a lifeline attached to him in order to obtain information.
If I had poisoned myself with everything, it wouldn’t have been so hard. If you commit suicide in the ongoing pain, everything will end and you will have a happy ending.
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Not happy. It feels like I am walking alone in the darkness, where I don’t know how far it has led. I can’t let go of the small light that doesn’t narrow, so I feel like I’m walking aimlessly.
Did you create this thing in front of me right now? Or did my head just make it up? Is that even real?
You can see everything even with your eyes closed. Strangely enough, the face is clearly visible.
High. Everyone seems to be looking down on me. Even though everyone is sitting, I think I have to look up. It seems that I am alone, locked in the basement where there is no light.
There is no expression on that face. Everyone is expressionless. Like I don’t appreciate all the things I’ve been doing.
I gave up my body for you, but why the hell are you doing this to me?
sorry. don’t throw it away don’t look at me with that expression I’d rather be angry. please tell me what i did wrong Rather, let me give up even a single word of hope. End this life with your own hands.
As the head gets messy, the aspect changes.
The lower part of the face was split horizontally to form a mouth shape. It also had the corners of its mouth down.
Despise me, start ignoring me.
Lane and Lian were ignoring me. The deep blue eyes like the lake and the silver eyes that I thought were sacred were no longer looking at me.
Sola and Odrox despised me. There was a feeling of disgust at my scars and torn mental state in the pupils of deep will and burning red like flames.
There was no room for me to sit where they were sitting. It was tight and sticky. The country is so small that there is no room for a small existence to intervene.
Where did I, what did I do? Traveling with Lane? did you really do it Could it be that I had a long dream? But then what about the pain I’ve been through? What memories still come to mind?
Is reality really real? Could it be that he fell into a fictional world created by delusions and turned his back on reality?
Solar. Sola woke up. Coming. with that expression. With an outstretched hand as if to push me away.
I looked back. Even though my eyes were covered, it seemed as if I could see an endless pit. If you push it, you will fall straight into the pit where everything seems to end.
It feels like my brain is being torn to pieces. I think my head will break. My body is heavy. I can’t seem to do anything.
Coming. The hand approaches to push me away.
Harm. cut it off get that hand off
If you cut it off, it won’t be thrown away. So… tell me don’t come, don’t come. hurry.
“Don’t come.. don’t come.. don’t come..!!”
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Solar stopped moving. I couldn’t help but stop at the words he spat out as if in a fit of fuss. It wasn’t just her. Rain, Lian, and Odrox all stopped what they were doing at his words.
Only the bonfire eating firewood and growing in size shows that time is passing.
This wasn’t what they wanted. The result they planned should have been the opposite of this. The end of this journey was the completion of a relationship of mutual trust in which he trusted them and they believed in him.
Are you dreaming?
The light that contained Izzy in Sola’s eyes disappeared.
There was no conflict at any moment in the past. There was not even a verbal fight during the journey to defeat the demon king. There were a few incidents, but I thought they all went well.
I didn’t know where he went wrong, where he was thinking or what he was putting up with. This man, as always, did not reveal the deep things about himself, and in the past, they were preoccupied with the immediate purpose and did not care so much about his condition.
Solar moved. After seeing her expression, Lane hurriedly approached to stop her.
“.. [Stop]”
Her body froze along with the chant of the great magic that had ended before she knew it. The bodies of Rian and Odrox also did not move. I could see and hear, but I couldn’t move. Even the end of the bonfire did not sway and remained as it was.
At this moment, it was only her and him between the flowing time.
Al Sola couldn’t understand. I couldn’t understand where it went wrong, and I couldn’t understand his behavior of suddenly bursting out without telling them that he had endured it. In that moment, the questions, dissatisfaction, and anxiety in her head grew in size. It grows to the same size as your feelings for him and starts to collide.
“Ron, you…”
cold voice. Al Sola, not even recognizing the pitch of his voice, approached the man who was trying to avoid him and grabbed his cheek with both hands.
forced gaze. Ron tried to turn his head away as if avoiding Solar’s gaze, which seemed to pierce his bandages. But I couldn’t turn it. Because the power of Sola’s grasp, which is surrounded by body-enhancing magic, surpassed him.
“What’s the problem? How much more do I need to adjust?”
The dissatisfaction in the corner of Sola’s heart continues to escape from her mouth, as if what had killed her personality so far comes back as it is.
“After the breakup, I lived for you. I developed magic to find you, and I polished myself to repay you. So why did you come back? Why do you always show this kind of reaction? Where did the old you go?”
old you What she said now was the worst choice of words given Ron’s spirit now.
Sola’s wet words ride through Ron’s eardrums. In the process, her voice turns into a rebuke containing condemnation. Already, he was honoring his old self. Confused about the difference between the old self and the present self, he kept putting himself down.
“Please.. why am I..”
He repeats incomprehensible words and backs away from her. At that action, Solar shuts her lips tightly and starts approaching him again.
And the time interference magic she cast was broken.
“Solar!”
“Don’t block it. Lane guard on. You have to be sure what to do.”
“Solar. More than this…”
“Lian Serwin. Nothing will be solved in this state.
“I agree with Solar’s opinion, but I think you’re overheating. Ron and you, you’d better cool off.”
Sola turned her head and tried to growl in response to Odrox. However, her gaze soon caught the figure of her shaking head and withdrawing, as if really driven to the edge.
“..yes. that would be better. I’m sorry. But please know I meant it.”
Solar, sympathetic to Odrox’s words, sat down, closed her eyes, and began meditating. Ron, who kept kicking back even with his back against a tree and muttering, was isolated by Lane and Lian and brought into the tent.
And there was one being who contemplated their crack from afar.
‘I didn’t expect it to break so easily…’
There was a demon with absolute beauty. Seeing their relationship cracked even though it was only a slight release of demonic energy in the air, he licked his lips with his tongue.
To be precise, the table had already been set, and Ereon had put a spoon on it.
Seeing Solar’s magic that even time stops, her chest and lower abdomen trembled. Overwhelming strength that will never be pushed back in magic. If you fully receive that magical storm with your own body…
“Ha.. ah.. ah..!”
Just thinking about it makes me shiver inside. If I could accept it all with this body and face the end…
A strange light rose in the devil’s eyes. In that portrait, Adrian Coulson, kneeling in front of him and bowing his head, is included in his pupil. The information this banpun brought was quite useful. Although the person himself did not understand the meaning contained in it and just brought it to the end.
Don’t you want to be abandoned? It was a ridiculous misunderstanding. Now he is already half-destroyed and in a precarious state. They do not fully believe in the eyes of others who are looking at them and push themselves.
Where did it get broken? Finding the answer was easy for the demon, who had glimpsed fragments of his past. From the moment he started his journey by holding the hand of the Rain Guard, his life was twisted.
If she had been human, would she have understood his situation? Because he was a demon, did he try to take advantage of a man’s destruction without understanding it? not. No one would ever be able to fully understand his feelings. Because many complex things were mixed.
It was good. After all, her purpose was to receive the great magic that Al Sola devoted herself to with her body.
At first, it didn’t matter anyway. After the death of the demon king and the destruction of the demon world, he was summoned here and was fascinated by the study of magic. However, combining his own magical power with the magical power of the idiots who followed him, he could not create something that would satisfy the devil’s taste. And at that moment, he received Al Sola in person.
human? demon? another race? Something beyond that seemed to be condensed in that small body. It was literally living magic and magic. But I didn’t intend to die here because of her blind magic. If anything, wouldn’t it be better to die with the most perfect and gigantic magic in her life?
Magic made with the largest sentences she could recite. If only you could use great magic for me…
Ahh! Just imagining it, it feels like a thrilling electric current is going up your spine! It is my pleasure and purpose in life to feel that enormous magical power with this body.
Rain Guard-on’s magic doesn’t fill the castle. Lian Serwin’s holy power was really to be avoided. He couldn’t be put to the end by a low-level attack like Odrox’s sword attack. All I want is Al Sola.
So, I had to separate them. Of course, it wasn’t easy. The camaraderie that was refined even more while wandering between life and death was so strong that it could not be broken with just one’s existence.
But, as with anything, there was no relationship without gaps. A person created by an inferiority complex. The human being full of scars and inferiority complex was the ‘gap’ in the relationship.
He had a quirk that was very suitable for creating a situation on a subject that suddenly appeared. It’s almost as if he’s a human being born for her.
“I don’t want to be abandoned.”
The devil slightly raised the corners of his mouth as he spat out the words he had spat out. The wriggling corpse’s eyeballs, which Odrox had dumped out, continued to observe their rifts. If they diverge a little more, they will fall apart. Then, approach Al Sola and tell him everything he finds out. Scrape the inside as gently as possible. You, who are not the devil, would never have known – while laughing.
In that moment when she was trembling at the thought of her body becoming assimilated with magic power, thinking about when her plan had succeeded, she caught something golden in her field of vision linked to her eyeballs.
“..not a very good hobby.”
As if talking to her who is watching, the connection is cut in an instant.
The last information the corpse’s eyeballs conveyed was the expression of Rain Guardon, who bit his lower lip and was looking for a place to relieve his emotions.