1 – Suic*de
Every human being is obsessed with the past.
The thought of wanting to go back to those days when I lived well and didn’t.
There is no one who has not tried it at least once.
But when I die, I go back in time.
His first life ended in a truck accident on the way to play.
And.
Even this second life, he fell in love with a woman unrequitedly and was rejected and failed.
In a nutshell, you can say that I have lived the life of a dog stew with mouthfuls of sweet potatoes.
No answer.
I have to go back.
If you are still young, you are young, but it is too late to start something.
Especially, it is the life that she longed for so much.
Now I have to choose.
That choice was Suic*de.
If I could go back to being young again in this life, I would have everything in my hands.
I will not fail anymore, and I will enjoy and win all the things I want to enjoy.
I don’t want to die again after going through hardships like I did in my previous life.
With so many experiences, I head to the Han River to commit Suic*de.
I know this is a gamble with my life.
If anyone sees it, they’ll click their tongues saying they’re crazy dogs and psychos.
My resolution has already been finalized.
Now, dreaming of a new third life, I stretch out my front legs in front of the Han River.
……………………
………………… ….
***
When I came to my senses, a familiar sight came into my eyes.
Siwoon looked around and raised his upper body.
‘Is it a success?’
As expected.
I woke up in his room.
Clearly, this is not heaven and neither is hell.
I carefully put my feet on the floor.
A clear sensation transmitted through the heel!
‘Success. No, it must have been the right expression after returning.’
I trudged to the full-length mirror.
‘Really. This green face of a 23-year-old…. Good.’
The face coming through the mirror is amazing.
Elastic skin without a single fine wrinkle. Eyes that shine like a young age.
Rough, short hair that represents the recent military service.
He is full of energy because he is young.
Twenty-three years old, just discharged from the military.
Before I threw myself down the railing of the bridge over the Han River, I was honestly nervous.
If it ends like this, I wonder if everything will really end.
Successfully completed gambling brought a sense of ecstasy called pleasure.
By the way.
I had a strange pain in my head.
A moan was spat out.
It feels like tightening your temples.
“Aagh!”
My eyes suddenly felt so cold.
I have experienced headaches in my life.
But it was the first time I had this kind of pain from crushing my skull.
‘f*ck.. Why are you like this? It feels like something went wrong right from the start, doesn’t it?’
Along with a headache, dull memories from my previous life flash through my mind.
Previous life.
The days when I was hurt and drowned in alcohol and sobbed-
The days of disappointing the person you love and surviving while barely breathing-
After living without a job, at the age of 34,
Even the memories of having to commit Suic*de overlapped and unfolded in my mind. Could it be that the stress from my previous life is still lingering in my mind?
‘This kind of pain will subside soon.’
I am not thirty-four now, but twenty-three.
The age at which a stone can be chewed and swallowed to be excreted.
This life never fails.
Isn’t it easy to commit Suic*de? f*ck.
I can’t die anymore.
However, even after several hours, the pain did not seem to go away.
Jurruk.
Cold sweat dripped down my eyebrows.
I couldn’t even focus well.
I went straight to the living room.
An empty house.
It was time for her parents to work together as they were both working, and Siyeon, the older sister, left for Australia after meeting a wealthy man.
Shiwoon suddenly felt scared.
‘What decision did I die with? As soon as I wake up, why am I saying this sh*t…’
What happened to my body as a side effect of regression?
I remember the moment I threw myself into the bridge in my previous life.
The pain when the jet-black water of the Han River hits your body with tremendous pressure….
When I recalled that memory, my eyes widened even more! It hurts
“Ouch.”
Acupressure on the eyes.
Approaching the table, he reached out and fumbled for his wallet.
‘I can’t do this.’
I have to go to the hospital.
I hurriedly changed into street clothes.
Then I stopped for a moment.
It has been such a long time since I took a close look at the unfamiliar family environment even in the midst of this pain.
On his desk are books about hunters and game packs made with the motif of hunters.
‘It was really just a vague dream at the time. Hunter…….’
It was a dream that could not be achieved, and the object of longing was a job called a hunter.
I really wanted to become a Hunter.
But it was just a vague dream.
As I looked around the room, I suddenly remembered the day when my first life came to an end.
A day I will never forget.
‘Was that day around mid-August?’
***
A summer vacation with friends to cool off from the scorching heat.
Siwoon was excited at the thought that Haeundae, which would be filled with the fresh sea and bikini women, was waiting for him.
“Ah…. The car is clogged up a lot today.”
“Are you impatient to go quickly? Shiwoon?”
Siwoon’s friend Seunghoon asked with a smirk.
“Of course not. Ugh. I expected it, but it’s too much….”
“Wait patiently, son of a b*tch. Are you complaining that we are going to pay the bill today and there is a traffic jam?”
“It sucks.”
“Anyway, Shiwoon, we only believe in you. You’re the only one among us who can seduce bikini girls. Come and look at these bastards… Will you?”
Seunghoon scanned the faces of his friends and said with a frown.
Before I knew it, the stagnant highway began to open up.
“It’s finally unlocked. Let’s step on it.”
Siwoon stepped on her accelerator with a smile.
Bread! Baaang-!
Sudden cracking sound.
A truck suddenly deviated from its lane and rushed toward Si-woon’s vehicle.
At the flash of headlights, she involuntarily closed her eyes!
She didn’t even have time to scream.
Quaang!
And then the large-scale crash that followed.
Her vision was distorted and her eyes closed with pain radiating down her spine.
This is the last moment of her first life.
“Ah!”
Another moan broke out.
When I remembered the moment when my duodenum was twisted, I got a headache.
Unbearable pain.
I just lay down.
The pain fades as I rest for a moment, evening my breath.
“Whew….”
With that accident, I thought my young life would end in vain.
But when I came back to my senses, I came back to this place.
That’s right at the point of being discharged from the army!
However, he graduated from high school.
Siwoon, who was from a dirt spoon, wanted to earn money.
A hunter who treats the world better than lawyers, judges, and doctors.
He wanted to be a Hunter.
Insanely.
Sadly.
‘I’ve admired Hunter since long ago. Can do. I will definitely become a Hunter.’
The Hunter Qualification Test is fiercer than law and medical schools.
I put in all my strength for several years to pass the exam.
I really tried.
Because it took her a dignified job to get her.
But the result…
Failed in the first written test.
I kept trying without giving up, but the same result.
‘I tried hard… ….’
She didn’t like her normal job.
She thought that such a wage earner’s pennies could not take care of our debt-ridden family.
I wanted to become a hunter and rebuild my ruined family.
Too much.
However.
Siwoon was frustrated by the disastrous result of failure and lived on alcohol for two years.
Before I knew it, I was twenty-eight.
“Siun-ah. Mom is so hard on you. Please live like a human being.”
“… ….”
Siwoon was brought to her senses by her sobbing mother’s earnest request.
‘I can’t even finish my second life like this.’
Hunter, a job everyone in the world longs for.
The dream of being a hunter was not a dream for him, but an unattainable delusion.
‘Let’s give up and challenge what I can, even if it means seeing my family.’
What made you take on such a challenge?
Level 7 administrative civil servant.
The civil service exam is a test that can be taken without restrictions on academic background.
‘Now I have only this way.’
Once again, she held her will and studied.
However, after three or four years, I passed the written test and passed the written test, but always failed at the interview.
I worked hard…….
f*ck. The one who can’t be born again can’t be.
So thirty-four years old.
Date of last rejection notice received.
A desperate thought passing by.
That extreme idea soon became a decision.
That decision was Suic*de.
Heading towards Banpo Bridge with anxiety.
‘Can I really go back? Please!’
With a tearful heart, Siwoon threw herself into the strong river under the bridge.
Risking your life for a new life!
What are the results?
It was successful.
This is how the third life came.
This is the golden third life that started.
These eyes are strangely hurting.
“I’m going crazy….”
The headache has stopped, but my eyes hurt like crazy.
I immediately jumped out of the house and took a taxi to the hospital.
A waiting room inside a hospital.
“Lee Si-woon. Come on in.”
Siwoon entered the treatment room guided by the nurse.
“Mr. Lee Si-woon? How did you come?”
Asked the doctor, wiggling his glasses.
“I came because my eyes were sore and painful… ….”
Good!
The doctor shone lights here and there in Siwoon’s eyes and inspected them.
“Let’s take a few tests for now.”
***
“Um…. Let’s see.”
The doctor was reading her test results chart, squinting her eyes.
She asked anxiously.
“Teacher. It’s nothing serious, right?”
“Wait a minute. Look at the chart.”
Siwoon waited impatiently for the doctor who calmed down.
The doctor looked over the test results chart and tilted his head.
“What? I can’t do this….”
His heart sank at the doctor’s words.
‘It can’t be like this?’
The doctor kept fiddling with the chart containing Siwoon’s test results.
“I… Siwoon Lee.”
The doctor’s voice trembled.
“… It can’t be like this. The results were unbelievable. I will have to take a re-examination.”
“Yes?”
I couldn’t understand what the doctor was talking about.
A doctor who asks you to take a test again for a definitive test.
I took the test again.
And.
I came back into the treatment room.
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He is a doctor who doesn’t care even though he came in and only looks at the chart with a serious face.
‘Is it really that serious?’
I want to urge the doctor to tell me the results quickly, but I can’t get my mouth shut easily.
This is my third life.
I don’t have the courage to throw myself under the bridge again.
I’m screwed when words like blindness and all come out of a doctor’s mouth.
Please.
I eagerly waited for his mouth to drop.
Breaking the silence, the doctor spoke.
“I… Would you like to see this?”
Worse.
The doctor held out two charts close enough for Siwoon to see.
“The chart on the right is a normal person’s optic nerve, and the chart on the left is Siwoon Lee’s optic nerve.”
Siwoon looked at the two charts alternately.
‘How can the two be so different? The left side is my optic nerve?’
The optic nerve in the right chart was symmetrical and of an appropriate size.
But… The optic nerve in the chart on the left was very strange.
‘My optic nerve is very asymmetrical compared to the right side. Plus, it’s swollen like a pumped up muscle…….’
It was too strange to see Siwoon, who had no medical knowledge at all.
I could understand why the doctor was so puzzled.
I wondered what the reason was, so I hurriedly asked.
“Why is this? It’s not like my eyes are blind or something like that, right?”
“Ah, that…… “
The doctor’s voice was very trembling.
Like a person who saw a ghost.
The doctor’s closed lips opened with difficulty.
“…In my decades of practice as a doctor, this is the first time I have ever seen such a case. No, this type of optic nerve has not been reported in any foreign paper.”
f*ck. What do you mean by that? Doctor man.