16 – Haerin Kang (16)
Haerin Kang (16)
“… huh? entrance?”
“Yes, mouth. why? What’s wrong?”
Kang Hae-rin spoke to me with an expressionless face that completely erased the lovely smile he had shown me.
Why don’t you suddenly smile at me?
Did you notice something?
While I was perplexed, she sat cross-legged in wide shorts with a belt fastened at the waist.
It was a noble posture like a queen.
♪♬♩~♩
Kang Hae-rin put the phone on the table and changed it to the speakerphone, and I heard a familiar coloring.
It was clear that it was Park Se-young.
[Oh, Mr. Harin, right?]
Haven’t the two of you spoken yet?
Well, unless Kang Hae-rin gave her ‘permission’, she wasn’t someone I could treat comfortably.
Even if it’s the lively Park Se-young.
“Hello, Seyoung.”
Kang Hae-rin maintained a cold expression, but surprisingly, her voice suddenly changed to a kind one.
She gave me a glance, leaning her chest lightly on her raised knees from crossing her legs.
Is it because of my mood that I wink?
Maybe it was just a coincidence that our eyes met.
… what does that mean?
[What are you doing? Maybe club-related?]
Park Se-young’s voice was excited as always.
“Yes, right…”
When Kang Haerin tries to speak.
“No eh-!”
I screamed and turned off my phone.
[senior? radish…]
I looked at her as I caught my breath.
Haerin Kang just looked at me as if she wasn’t surprised, as if asking me to tell her something.
Did you know I would act like this?
It can’t be.
If I knew I would interrupt the conversation between the two of them, it means she was suspicious of me.
Knowing that I am the author of 『Journal』, he tested me, so there was no way I could be alive.
would have died
“… I hate this.”
I said.
“Haerin, if you join the club, the time you spend with me will decrease. I hate that.”
“……”
“So don’t join. stay with me at that time I want to eat together, see each other’s faces, and spend time together like this. Wouldn’t that be okay? Do we need anything more?”
Without even realizing it, I said things that seemed to be suspicious, casually, without blushing.
Haerin Kang was looking at me.
It seems like you want to continue.
Is this not enough?
“Ah, I didn’t like it anyway. that you are with other people web novel? If you’re curious about that, you can do it with me. Do I really need to join a club? Me too, I can do well. Rather, the two of us should form a club. i like that better Or… do you need other friends besides me?”
It’s like he’s going crazy with jealousy.
I shouted passionately.
After saying that, it seemed that he was sincere, so he chatted for a while longer.
“……..”
Kang Hae-rin maintained the same lofty posture even after my words were over, then stood up slowly.
flinch.
I flinched that she would suddenly walk into the kitchen and fetch a knife.
‘I saw good acting. Did you really think that I would be fooled by that poor performance?’
‘Actually, you knew everything I had done, and you pretended to love me when you wrote a novel like that and made money.’
‘Then can I take your life now? I spread all the things I did to others, so I have to pay the price too, right?’
Her voice sounded like an illusion.
Every single word pierced my chest like a dagger.
… Am I dying?
Is the Suspiciousness operation not working?
yeah, it couldn’t work
Haerin Kang is not stupid.
Watching her walk away, I closed my eyes.
tight.
Kill me without pain, if you’re going to kill me…!
back.
At that time, unexpectedly, a warm touch came.
Haerin Kang hugged my face to his chest.
“… I didn’t know you would think that way. I made a mistake. I don’t have enough time to be with you…”
“……..”
“… I’m glad.”
Kang Haerin’s voice was heard.
When I looked up, she looked at me with a recalled expression.
“…every time I know he likes me too, I feel alive.”
“… really?”
“sure. The feeling that it doesn’t matter if I die as long as I can be with you. Would this be love? You think of me too, don’t you?”
“…everything, of course. Harin-ah…”
I came to my senses and answered.
It seems to have eaten.
Her eyes were very moved.
“… Really, I can’t stand it anymore…”
She hugged me by the scruff of my neck, and I sat on the couch as her weight lifted.
dump.
She clung close to me.
Her pink lips moved closer.
From nob le mt l. co m
Jjook.
side.
A few bud kisses, and a clean, slippery tongue slipped in her mouth.
“Haa… no more…”
When I opened my eyes, Kang Hae-rin was biting her lip and looking at me in agony.
“… I don’t think I can stand it. Now… when you say such lovely things, I can’t stand it…”
“Ha, Haerin-ah…”
Kang Hae-rin sat on my lap as if she had become a different person and hugged me even tighter.
Both her breasts were mashed against my face.
She buried her face in the nape of my neck, exhaling hotly, and the arms that were holding me grew stronger, like someone holding back something.
Painfully, as if I were about to escape.
It was a bit suffocating, but I was willing.
The faint high-end perfume and body odor from the nape of Kang Hae-rin’s neck mixed with each other, creating confusion in my head.
Humans are creatures without pheromones, but it seems to be the case with her.
From nob le mt l. co m
Jww-, jjwup.
Her lips rested on mine again.
“How can you be so lovable…?”
A little water filled her eyes.
Unknowingly, I put my hand on her waist.
The moment I felt the touch of the narrow waist following the pelvis, I felt an irresistible temptation.
… I can’t.
You must not cross the line here.
“hahahaha…”
Again she hugged me by the neck.
I also hugged her around the waist, but neither I nor she knew what else to do here, rubbing each other through their clothes, feeling only the contours of their bodies.
Like a young couple who don’t know what s*x is and can’t do anything about it.
But we all knew what it was.
It’s just delaying crossing that ‘line’.
In the meantime, my stuff, stimulated repeatedly by Kang Hae-rin’s wonderful body, began to swell little by little.
No matter how much the country was, there was no ability to hold out any longer.
“… Haerin!”
I laid her down on the sofa.
sh*t, side.
Trying to kiss again.
“… self.”
Kang Hae-rin said with a recalled expression.
“… It’s good.”
“……..”
“If you cross this line, I will throw myself at you for the rest of my life. Can you do that too?”
There was a certain ‘expectation’ in those words.
She beckons me from beyond the line.
‘Come here.’
It was tempting, but the moment I heard those words, my reason, which had blown the fuse, returned.
Kang Hae-rin’s beauty shone as she looked at me with moist eyes while lying down, and her lips were smooth, stimulating my desire.
But apart from that, I was reminded of what she said ‘zen’.
If I had a relationship with her here, I would not be able to part with Kang Hae-rin.
The moment she takes her first, Kang Hae-rin becomes ‘obsessed’ beyond the current level.
Then… my life would be completely different.
The moment you declare that you want to break up.
It must be the ‘nice boat’ line.
When I took a deep breath and stood up, Kang Hae-rin stood up with a confused but relieved expression.
“……..”
“……..”
After a while, Kang Hae-rin, who was tidying up her clothes, said.
“… I’ll go. Dongmin. I thought of something to do.”
“…you can go to sleep…”
“…I don’t think that will work…”
Feeling like a boyfriend who tried to attack his girlfriend and failed (that’s right), I awkwardly saw her off.
#
Strangely, there were no events while living together with Kang Hae-rin for a few weeks.
There was s*xual tension between her and me, but each time, either I or she came back to my senses and prevented the accident by reminding me of ‘Zen’.
As a writer, I know the consequences when an event occurs, so I am careful.
But I didn’t know that even Kang Hae-rin would be so cautious.
Well, given the setting of my original novel, she was almost obnoxious when it came to s*xual things.
No matter how much it is, I will be wary.
She’s worried about herself too.
What will happen when that last line collapses.
As she has strong self-control, the consequences of losing her ability to protect herself.
The sense of distance, which could be called cowardice, completely disappears, and she becomes obsessed and dependent on me.
As if I were my own alter ego.
It was hard for me to go back and forth with a woman like Kang Hae-rin until just before.
Of course, I was able to endure it thanks to her help, so I was happy about this situation.
Pain is pain, good luck is good luck.
Desire had to be dealt with alone.
Meanwhile, I was feeling a sense of incongruity.
After I made that ‘declaration’ to Kang Hae-rin that I didn’t want her to be friendly with people other than me, she came to visit me more often.
To that extent, her ‘private time’ was reduced.
Is that why?
Naturally, there was no trace of the actions she should have taken in my original novel, such as surveying game or actual hunting.
For example, news about the discovery of the body of a man who had been dismembered by an ‘unknown’ killer.
No matter where I searched online newspapers, news, or paper newspapers, I couldn’t find anything like that.
Looking at the laptop, it was clear.
‘Murder’ has disappeared from Kang Hae-rin’s life.
It didn’t seem like she was feeling frustrated.
When I was with her, she took a simple pleasure in things like cooking, and seemed genuinely happy.
We lived in gentle joy without having s*x or any kind of physical contact.
To be honest, I was also mentally stable.
As Kang Hae-rin stopped thinking about murder, I also gradually distanced myself from paranoia and personality disorder.
If it stays like this…
Our relationship has been very beneficial to both of us.
Can I live my whole life keeping the line like this?
However, it bothered me that Kang Hae-rin did not stop looking for the author of 『Journal』 after returning home.
She didn’t show off to me, but now her ‘private life’ was all about finding the artist ‘Kang Hae-rin’.
That’s why I’m anxious even though I think that my identity won’t be known because I’ve also shut down PD-nim Ban Yu-ri and my sister.
Meanwhile I was trying to do my job.
Because 『Journal』 had been discontinued serially, I had no choice but to write a new work to make money.
Since I had only written novels in the horror and thriller genres, it was difficult to come up with new works in other genres.
‘New Idea – School – Date.’
A daily routine where only this was repeated continued.
I didn’t want to attract attention wherever I went, and I didn’t want to take Kang Hae-rin, who was impure, outside.
Because of this, our dates were mostly indoors.
She may have felt upset, but luckily she didn’t show it on the outside.
Then one day, I accidentally searched for an article about Kang Hae-rin’s murder in the original story.
It was an episode where Kang Hae-rin brutally killed a man who caused a car accident and a hit-and-run.
I remembered that the hit-and-run criminal was the son of a famous politician, so the whole country was in an uproar.
If Kang Hae-rin had been realized, the events that make up her character would have been realized.
I was simply thinking this much, but I suddenly realized that if this hypothesis is correct, the world I live in will be ‘changed’ in far more directions than I thought.
Kang Hae-rin committed tens to hundreds of murders over 1,000 episodes.
Some of them were relatively obscure criminals, but others were famous, such as the son of a member of parliament.
In the first place, I could not use the names of ‘real’ members of the National Assembly, so I pseudonymized all of them.
Then there is a contradiction in time and space.
The corrupt powerful person who was her victim is a non-existent person, so how will that case be handled?
If he didn’t exist, Kang Hae-rin, who killed his son, who would of course not exist, would not be a murderer either.
“……..”
I’m in a dilemma.
Kang Hae-rin’s psychology depicted in the notebook was psychopathic, unlike her loveliness when she was alone with me.
On nights when she feels the intent to kill, she comes to me and holds me in my arms, but if I hadn’t been there, she would have gone hunting at night, just like the original story set.
She often hugged me saying that she was scared, but in fact, what she was afraid of must have been the murderous intent within herself.
Even if her past wasn’t true, the urge to kill within her was happening in real time.
“… Oh, it’s dizzy.”
There was no article related to the aforementioned member of the National Assembly.
The other episodes were the same.
“No… no…”
I’d be happy if Kang Hae-rin didn’t kill anyone, but somehow I got nervous.
After a while, I realized why.
… What would Haerin Kang think of this strange sensation?
What if, by any chance, she began to reflect on her ‘works’ while researching her 『Journal』?
What if everything you thought was a memory?
How to solve that gap?
If you think I’m strong.
You will probably panic and go crazy.
It was a problem from the beginning of our meeting.
The first time Kang Hae-rin appeared in front of me was right after I received that red wine-colored laptop.
That is, she was born that night.
Knowing her identity and story, I naturally accepted it, but thinking about it, it was strange.
In the study episode where she and ‘Lee Dong-min’ meet, the trigger was the murder of her father.
As far as I know, my father is alive and well.
Like the saying that the wicked live longer and healthier, he was living healthier than anyone else.
Then, too, a contradiction arises.
How did Haerin Kang and I meet?
If I had to pick the person I hate the most in the world, it would definitely be my father.
But I don’t want him to die.
More than anything else, this is something to be sure of.
I decided to call my older sister to check before going to my parents’ house.
She didn’t want me to meet my father.
My sister called after a while.
[… it’s crazy?]
After hearing that I was going to find my father, my older sister got angry and shouted at me.
[no way.]
“I’m only coming to see you from afar!”
[Don’t you know that old man’s personality? can you be a ninja? Secretly watching, you can’t even exercise. Are you going to get caught again and mess up your face? If you ask for money, he will give you everything he has like an idiot again.]
“……..”
[I’ll come see you.]
My older sister, who had been scolding me for a while, paused and said.
[So, Lee Dong-min, you are waiting for my call.]
Saying that, she smirked.