25 – Haerin Kang (25)
Haerin Kang (25)
“What are you doing!”
I said as I walked away from Haerin Kang.
Her arms hugging my neck smelled good and it felt warm, but I had to shake it off.
“Did I push you away?”
Haerin Kang asked mockingly.
“Am I a little hurt?”
In her eyes, there was a mixture of staring at a pet and at the same time, the bruises I had for ‘daring’ to push her away.
“… I’m sorry about that. But don’t do this. Why are you calling Park Se-young? He and I have nothing to do with each other, so why pretend to be Baek Yoo-ram?”
Baek Yoo-ram and Park Se-young are close friends and they gather in their own room to chat and cook.
Kang Hae-rin just imitated someone else without considering the possibility of them being together.
If the two of them were together, it would be a creepier situation than any horror movie.
“It doesn’t matter.”
Haerin Kang said.
“I mean, it really doesn’t matter. babe. It shouldn’t matter if that person dies. is not it? Why would I react when that person doesn’t occupy my heart at all? There’s no reason for that. But how can I believe that he reacts so sensitively because he just made a prank call?”
Her hand rested on my thigh.
Her face, with her long eyelashes down, was certainly eye-catching, but not s*xual.
I knew I made a mistake
If you look at it, you’re right.
Even though I’ve been close with Park Se-young and Baek Yu-ram recently, I’ve only known them for about three weeks.
It’s suspicious that I’m being sensitive.
I made excuses.
“It’s not like that. You… You can’t do this. I’m doing this because I don’t want you to.”
“Doing this? Murder, you mean?”
“……..”
“Are you scared? It’s the ability he gave me.”
“Harryn.”
I said.
“I’m sorry I made you this way. But you can start anew. Of all the novels I have written, the only thing that has come true is you.”
It was true.
After Kang Hae-rin became a reality, I read my novels from beginning to end and compared them one by one.
There was no article presumed to be Kang Hae-rin.
In the first place, dozens to hundreds of human beings must be created again for the novel to be fully realized.
It doesn’t make sense to start with Kang Hae-rin’s creation, but no matter how much it is, you can’t suddenly create and kill someone who didn’t exist a few weeks ago, be it a god, a demon, or any other being.
Because they didn’t exist in the first place.
No rapists, no murderers, no corrupt politicians.
“Start from scratch?”
“okay. Haerin Kang. I’ll apologize again. So let’s not think about murder. I’ll be by your side, so live a normal life. Since you have a lot of money and are pretty, you can be loved as much as you like.”
I pleaded earnestly.
Surprisingly, Kang Hae-rin came to see me instead of behaving wildly after learning the shocking truth.
It was scary, but it was fortunate.
“Am I pretty?”
“then!”
“…Thank you for giving me a pretty look. Certainly, it is better to be pretty than ugly.”
Kang Hae-rin took out a hand mirror from her shoulder bag and looked at it.
“… You mean this is your ideal type?”
“……”
Kang Hae-rin’s words were eerie.
He is sneering at his own face, which must be more familiar than anyone else, with an inorganic expression.
Like looking at someone else’s face.
“…that’s your face. Haerin. not someone else’s. Of course, that’s what I like.”
“From the tip of my toes to the top of my head, everything was made just for me. So, if it’s not you, there’s no reason to exist. is not it?”
“… Haerin. no. Just because I made it doesn’t make it mine. You can live freely.”
“no. That is irresponsible.”
“……..”
“My face, my breasts, my pelvis…”
Haerin Kang touched her face, chest, and pelvis with her hands in turn with a blank expression.
Because Kang Hae-rin’s appearance was unrealistic, she was already drawing attention.
Even when they came as a couple, I knew that women were glancing at Hae-Rin Kang with eyes of restraint and men with eyes of subtle desire.
In such a situation, Kang Hae-rin did something he wouldn’t do in a public place, and some of them spewed water.
I covered her
“… Haerin. stop.”
But she continued dreamily.
“… My personality, my money, my memories… they were all made by me. So, you have to take responsibility.”
“… okay.”
In the end, I had to come to terms with it.
I wasn’t my own child, but by analogy, I was like her father.
Growing up with an alcoholic father who was a domestic abuser, I had enough reasons to take responsibility for her.
“…you are my daughter.”
“… dad.”
Haerin Kang smiled.
For a moment, I got goosebumps.
“… no, don’t call me real dad…”
“It’s fine though.”
Haerin Kang said.
“Before, I couldn’t figure out why I exist. Even when I ate, I didn’t like it, and even when I met people, the emotions and expressions I exchanged were all acting. My anesthesia… It’s a handicap she gave me, but when she’s present, it’s cured… I like it.”
I had nothing to say.
It’s a setting I made a few years ago, but I think it’s too sadistic to be a pretty girl character who ‘can’t feel anything’ to anyone other than Lee Dong-min.
As she said, it was a ‘disability’.
“… ok, sorry. I will take responsibility.”
“Shall we have s*x?”
Kang Hae-rin said in a clear and beautiful voice that there was silence in the stylish restaurant for a moment, as if she had decided not to pay much attention to the eyes of the people around her.
I pretended not to know, but as expected, some people frowned, and some looked at us with curious expressions.
I whispered.
“… That’s not allowed.”
Even now, it is this order, but the moment we have s*x, we will become closer and inseparable.
In fact, from the moment Kang Hae-rin knew the character in the novel, it was clear that the trajectory had already changed from the original study, but again, it was unknown.
Kang Hae-rin’s personality may become more radical because of the setting made by my otaku-like delusion.
In fact, Kang Hae-rin in the study evolves into a hardcore yandere with an exclusive desire for me starting from s*x.
It’s ridiculous now.
So never.
“I’m kidding too.”
Haerin Kang laughed.
“…until you’re ready…”
she muttered, turning her head.
“…I can hear everything…”
The waiter brought the next dish.
It was tenderloin Rossini topped with foie gras.
As I was casually eating expensive dishes that I would not normally be able to see, the sense of reality disappeared.
Kang Hae-rin’s ‘property’ was made by me, but the way it was realized was very strange.
In fact, I didn’t know anything about financial technology, so I roughly explained the background.
However, Kang Hae-rin appeared to be a real rich man who doesn’t mind paying close to 100,000 won for a meal.
In addition, Kang Hae-rin herself was well aware of dining etiquette and ordering manners at high-end restaurants.
These are all the more bizarre because they are things I did not detail in the novel.
That’s why I made her, and the things she has are also ‘given’ to me, but it feels strange to say that I really gave them to her.
Haerin Kang’s expression was unknown.
Even while eating the chocolate cake and strawberry ice cream that came out as dessert, he was calm the whole time and didn’t talk much.
“dad.”
“…Haerin, that title is a bit…”
Kang Haerin smiles mischievously.
“I have a favor.”
“… What?”
“Actually, it is not a request. It’s an order.”
“……..”
“I need to vent my anger.”
“Resentment?”
“You’ll never know what a terrible, lonely time I’m having when I’m not with you.”
“……”
I’m at a loss for words.
Even if it’s a character I made, just like she said, I can’t fully understand her inner feelings.
At best, all I know is the sentences she says are “lonely,” “insensitive,” and “feeling an urge.”
I can’t understand a person like that.
Kang Hae-rin is no longer a character, but a human being.
When I raised my head to apologize several times, I was startled by the ‘sadistic’ and ‘evil’ expression that came to Kang Hae-rin.
A reddish light was shining in her dark red eyes, just like when she decided to kill.
It disappeared quickly, but my heart raced.
“What are you so afraid of?”
she chuckled.
“Nothing. I just want you to keep writing novels for me. So, I want you to keep writing 『Kang Hae-rin’s Murder Diary』. Was it fun?”
“… Harin-ah…”
I hesitated.
“I don’t think that will work.”
It’s not a difficult request, but the setting that Kang Hae-rin suffers from murderous urges made me feel guilty.
There’s no way I could write a story about her killing people with a fully realized character in front of her.
I did it all year round to avoid such a thing.
But even if you ask me to write it again, I can’t.
However, Haerin Kang was calm.
“Even if I want to?”
She lightly wiped her mouth with a napkin and set everything she was holding on the table.
“What should I do?”
And he fixed his eyes on me.
“I told you. It’s an order.”
“……..”
“Because you made me as you please, and I made you do that, I have rights too. The reason I stopped writing novels was probably because I was afraid of being found out. And he just wanted to be comfortable.”
“……”
“So please post a notice from tonight. Writer Kang Hae-rin said she would resume writing a novel. Instead, I will decide the contents of the novel. I don’t mean to ghostwrite. You just have to use the ideas I gave you, as they develop.”
There was no more reason to refuse.
If you think about it, it was true that she was afraid that Kang Hae-rin would find out about 『Journal』 as she said, and it was also because of guilt.
“… how much? How much should I spend?”
“Until I calm down.”
“… okay.”
Eventually I surrendered.
“How do I use it?”
I asked as I was preparing to take notes on my phone.
“I will do this.”
Kang Hae-rin, who seemed to be happy with my acceptance, corrected her posture and ran her tongue over the corner of her mouth.
“The beginning of a new incident begins with Kang Hae-rin entering S University’s creative writing department.”
“……”
I looked at her in bewilderment.
She wasn’t joking.
“And Kang Hae-rin falls for one man and meets two women she doesn’t like… No, she meets several women. What will Haerin Kang do?”
“……”
realized too late
I didn’t know because the meal was held in a calm atmosphere, but Kang Hae-rin was obviously angry.
The problem was, if I accepted that offer, the novel would be known to its subjects.