27 – Haerin Kang (27)
Haerin Kang (27)
‘Do you like Lee Dong-min?’
Baek Yoo-ram had asked such a question when the web novel club-related meeting in Baek Yu-ram’s room was over, and only the two of them were left.
‘Me? My sister likes it.’
It was an unexpected question, but Park Se-young skillfully tossed it without a change in expression.
‘My sister said she likes Dong-min oppa, so I’m trying to connect her. lol.’
‘no.’
But Baek Yoo-ram did not laugh.
‘I told you right after I found out that Lee Dong-min had a girlfriend. It’s okay. But why are you ignoring my will and continuing to care about Lee Dong-min?’
‘……..’
Instead of playfully moving on as usual, Park Se-young tried to read Baek Yoo-ram’s expression as she crossed her arms.
Did I cross the line a bit?
He didn’t seem angry.
I answered with a little reassurance.
‘Are you going to give up like this? Anyone can see that he is a cooler person than Song Yeonwoo sunbaenim? He has a handsome face and good memories.’
‘so?’
‘For me, I don’t think the feeling of liking someone doesn’t disappear that easily. You’re still lying. Actually, I didn’t give up.’
Baek Yoo-ram looked at Park Se-young, who answered lightly, for a long time, then sighed.
‘… Whoa, I don’t know. Are you really doing this for me? Then why?’
The meeting ended like that, but Park Se-young, who returned home, pondered over her personality.
Oggy.
A child who has nowhere to go.
A high-tension kid.
A kid who doesn’t know.
After graduating from a girls’ middle school and high school, she always took on the role of mood maker and center of gatherings among her friends.
I was class president for 4 out of 6 years.
2 years was vice president.
After entering the university, he is in charge of the department again.
Why?
As someone said, are you interested in others?
… But she wasn’t like that from the beginning.
In fact, she was answering in her heart.
On the outside, she grew up as the eldest daughter of a harmonious middle-class family, but in fact, she was a jealous and thoughtful child when she was young.
He was not very interested in others.
Thinking people usually think about themselves, and they don’t care about other people.
It was because of her cousin that she changed.
‘How old are you…’
I think I was 5 or 6 years old.
Although they are relatives, they live close by, so they are almost like neighbors.
‘Park Hyeon-seong.’
Maybe that was the name.
She recalled a name she had forgotten.
Yes, he was an older brother who had the same atmosphere as Lee Dong-min.
Somehow lonely eyes and soft voice.
Of course, he didn’t look like a sleazy handsome man like Lee Dong-min, but he was tall and handsome in his own way.
When Park Se-young was in elementary school and Park Hyeon-seong was in middle school, or even before that, he took good care of her.
When Park Se-young’s parents, who work double-income, weren’t there, they took care of meals and played with them.
My brother smelled good.
Now that I think about it, it seems like it smelled like soap, but I never got angry, and I watched pictures and cartoons at the level of an elementary school student.
My parents sometimes bought me with their own pocket money delicious junk food that I wouldn’t let them eat.
I had so many memories with him.
He dreamed of becoming a poet.
Sometimes, I used to read a poetry book next to Park Se-young watching a magical girl animation.
At the time, Park Se-young was a child who was thirsty for attention, so she hated her brother immersing herself in the world of books and literature in front of her.
So I had a lot of memories of being grumpy.
I even remember trying to forcefully snatch a book of poetry in front of him once and tore it up.
Of course he wasn’t angry.
I just repaired it with tape while feeling bitter.
Now that I think about it, it was a strange silence.
At least it wasn’t the eyes of a middle school student.
Yes, just like the eye of a hurricane.
In a different sense, Hyeonseong oppa was someone who didn’t look like a drop of blood would come out even if stabbed with a knife.
A spongy person who doesn’t even scream.
A person who keeps everything inside himself.
All of these impressions came after Hyun-seong’s older brother failed in his luck, came down to his hometown to live a three-year life, and hanged himself in his room where no one else was.
Park Se-young was the first witness to Park Hyun-sung’s body.
I will probably never forget that sight.
I haven’t seen him for a while since he entered the academy for luck, but at that time, Park Se-young was just beginning puberty, so he couldn’t play as well as he used to.
After returning, he sometimes went for a walk and swept the yard, greeting Park Se-young as he went to and from school.
Park Se-young used to shyly say hello.
It was because my cousin, whom I hadn’t seen in a long time, had his hair cut short like a soldier, so it was very unfamiliar to me.
At the time, I never imagined that he would be thinking about his own death as he was sweeping leaves.
No, I didn’t even bother to tell.
Several times, when he pretended to be close to Park Se-young and started talking to him, he did not know that it was a desperate hand that came from the end of loneliness and solitude.
He was falling on the wings of a broken dream.
“……”
What angered Park Se-young the most was that even after several years, she still did not know his true intentions.
He was always a man of few words, and occasionally anxious, a man of notice.
He didn’t even write a will.
His heart was blown away by the wind.
Park Se-young felt guilty.
If she had paid attention to him, or at least greeted him warmly, would he have gained the strength to live again?
After that, when she saw someone with that kind of look, she couldn’t easily get over it.
And surprisingly, there were many such people around.
A person who holds words that cannot be said to anyone.
A person who sinks into himself alone.
When I was in high school, when I was a class president, I found out that a particularly quiet child was being abused in the home, so I contacted the support center for her.
There was trial and error, but in the end, Park Se-young persuaded her friend’s mother to sue her father, get a divorce, and even help her get support.
I received a commendation later for that, but of course I didn’t do it for that.
Park Se-young decided to be more different.
Every time I go through such a person, when I see someone who has darkness inside, it becomes even more impossible to pass by.
Then I met Lee Dong-min at university.
Lee Dong-min also had ‘darkness’.
At first, it was a purely external crush.
Of course, he didn’t mean to do anything to him because he knew that Baek Yoo-ram liked him.
In the first place, Park Se-young had never dated a man and had no thoughts of wanting to date.
However, while she was busy running around with her arms rolled up to play the role of Ojakgyo between Baek Yoo-ram and him, she was drawn to him before she knew it.
It was more than an interest.
I don’t know why.
Because you look like your cousin brother?
It may be because he has a good-looking appearance like an idol, but he has a strange charm like a chintta.
Still, I hadn’t thought about dating him.
Park Se-young liked Baek Yu-ram, who was confident and always confident, but strangely, she had trouble with men.
So he hoped that she would date Lee Dong-min, whom he likes.
I wanted both of them to be happy.
Because both of them are good people.
Of course it wasn’t easy.
Baek Yoo-ram had already sorted out her boyfriend and seemed to have a clear mind, but Lee Dong-min was the problem.
that you have a girlfriend?
Under normal circumstances, Park Se-young would have abandoned his attachment to a man who had a girlfriend.
But it was strangely reluctant.
Lee Dong-min was somehow a dangerous person.
Even though he looked fine at times, his face was shaded, he didn’t look happy even though he had a beautiful girlfriend, and he looked like a cow being led to the slaughterhouse.
Baek Yoo-ram said that he was originally a ‘chint-up of jin-ta’ who couldn’t even make eye contact with other people.
So, the situation has actually improved.
But that’s not comforting.
He still had problems.
Maybe that’s not your problem.
He thought that perhaps Kang Hae-rin, who was closest to him, might be the cause of his unhappiness.
I couldn’t get out of the thought once I got stuck in it.
The interest that started with Lee Dong-min is now directed to an unidentified woman who makes him shrink.
Haerin Kang.
Her black hair was lush, bluish as if it were wet, and her skin was as white as snow.
At first, I thought she was of mixed race, so her features didn’t look like Koreans.
If she is in front of her, the same woman will feel inferior, and the man will lose confidence.
Arrogant and beautiful face.
Park Se-young, who is involved in various club activities in the university, knew that Kang Hae-rin was already a celebrity.
She didn’t seem to be particularly involved in class activities, but there were people she didn’t know about.
A male senior I met in another club was already whining to introduce myself.
Park Se-young also liked her at first.
At some point, she almost stopped feeling jealous, and she liked Kang Hae-rin’s beauty.
Even though she’s not a lesbian, it’s like seeing people of the same s*x who are pretty and handsome makes me feel better.
When I see Haerin Kang, it feels like my eyes are being opened.
But, what can I say-
A different kind of darkness lurked around her.
The darkness felt from Lee Dong-min, a friend who had been subjected to domestic abuse in the past, or a cousin older brother-
It was a different darkness.
In other words, it’s darkness in another direction.
she was mysterious
It seemed meaningful that meticulous Park Se-young could not find Kang Hae-rin’s name in the list of enrolled students.
Because she was like an angel who came down from heaven.
no, it’s the devil
When he is with Lee Dong-min, Kang Hae-rin is smiling a little in the back seat.
Park Se-young has also heard that since she started laughing, but Kang Hae-rin feels on another level.
What kind of world does he really live in?
When he was with Kang Hae-rin, Lee Dong-min was somehow frozen and seemed to care more about the eyes of others.
It didn’t sound like a tantrum.
Rather, it was closer to the lack of affection.
It’s a bit awkward to call them lovers.
Around that time, what I learned was 『Kang Hae-rin’s murder diary』.
She was not interested in web novels, but when her friends, including Lee Dong-min, said they were forming a web novel club, she skimmed through the novel herself.
Coincidentally, the artist’s name was Haerin Kang.
At that level, it would be a delusion at the level of an elementary school student who enjoys having the same name as a celebrity.
I was concerned that the appearance of Kang Hae-rin in the novel was surprisingly similar to Kang Hae-rin in real life.
Bluish black hair and slightly red eyes.
In particular, the expressionless atmosphere of his face when he is alone is distinctly different from his face when he is with others.
It made me feel uncomfortable.
Doesn’t it look like you’re wearing a mask?
From then on, Park Se-young couldn’t have a crush on her.
They were like the parents of a cousin who pretended to take good care of them on the outside, but nagged and abused them on the inside.
Lee Dong-min’s anxiety may have something to do with her.
Though thinking that it shouldn’t be, Park Se-young secretly investigated Kang Hae-rin’s background.
Of course, not much could be done.
Since she didn’t even do social media, it was all about going to the house registered on the list.
… It was a very rich house.
A beautiful and rich girlfriend.
There are also big breasts.
But what if you’re unhappy?
Park Se-young became even more confused.
She knew long ago that Lee Dong-min’s expression hardened rapidly when he talked about 『Journal』.
Reading facial expressions is what I have always done.
What does the novel have to do with her?
Then she became convinced.
Re-serial news of the recently uploaded 『Journal』.
After reading the latest version, I came to a conclusion.
“Kang Hae-rin…was a writer.”
After scrolling down, she leaned back.
great suction power.
But what it contained was clear.
There was no intention of hiding it.
In the work, S University’s Moon Chang Department.
It was none other than Park Se-young’s alma mater, and the characters also meant herself and Baek Yu-ram.
Lee Dong-hyeon in the novel is Lee Dong-min.
and strong.
“… This is a complete sniping post.”
Although he skillfully changed the name one letter at a time, Park Se-young felt bad.
do you do this?
Lee Dong-min was not suspicious.
Kang Hae-rin is suspicious.
That’s why Lee Dong-min was anxious.
Isn’t it normal to get permission from your girlfriend even in a simple relationship?
Haerin Kang is a master of gaslighting.
Park Se-young knew that since Kang Hae-rin disappeared and returned, Lee Dong-min had become so disappointing.
It was because he was strong.
This is not a normal relationship.
Park Se-young, who felt sorry for Lee Dong-min and felt sorry for him, fell asleep early.
I intended to tell him everything in the lecture the next day and give him advice on this kind of relationship.
However, he did not attend the lecture.
After the lecture, she contacted him.
“Senior, Kang Hae-rin is a writer. “journal”.”
Park Se-young gave the advice he could give to a weak person, just like he had always done.
She said she would do her best to help.
However, the answer returned was unexpected.
[… I’m sorry, Seyeong-ah, stop paying attention to our work. Harin is not the author of the novel. So don’t do anything suspicious, please… pretend you don’t know.]
The phone is disconnected.