3 – Haerin Kang (3)
Haerin Kang (3)
“… ha, was it a dream?”
When I opened my eyes, I was in bed.
Light was pouring in through the light curtains.
“It’s late.”
From nob le mt l. co m
Just looking at the angle of the light and the feeling of the light, I could tell that it was already close to noon.
Booth woke up touching his head.
Last night, I had a dream about Haerin Kang.
She burst into my house and kissed me and gave me hugs that melted me like sugar.
she was my girlfriend
It also seemed like a very old relationship.
It was exactly like the introduction to my study novel.
Because it was difficult to explain my existence to Kang Hae-rin, I briefly described the first meeting and so on.
“… then it is. thank god.”
Haerin Kang.
From the time I was writing about her, the character was clear.
Kang Hae-rin is a patient with acquired insensitivity.
What’s different from psychopaths is that because of the pain he suffered as a child, he developed a habit of distinguishing himself from stimuli, and as a result, he became insensitive.
They do not feel the pain of others, itching, pain, or even s*xual pleasure.
Based on such a basic setting, a ‘mate’ was needed to create an ending that suited her.
Having lived in loneliness and solitude all her life, the right partner would make her happy.
However, since she was a mysterious and charismatic character that I created from head to toe, I didn’t want her to do well with a man other than me.
If her happiness could be cured and restored with ‘love’, then that love had to be me.
I tried to connect with the other supporting characters, but it didn’t work out well, and I also felt rejected.
It’s childish, but it made me feel safe.
she was supposed to be my girl
“… I’m very much like a stalker. Well, it’s okay since he’s not a real person. What am I talking about?”
I banged my head and laughed.
When I recalled the entire content of the study that started with the introduction like now, I was relieved that it was not reality.
Well, I was crazy at the time too.
No matter how much I hated my parents, they put my father together as a development for Kang Hae-rin and I to meet.
‘Because he was the person I wanted to kill.’
But I don’t hate him enough to want to kill my father now.
no.
It’s not that I don’t hate him, but rather than having to kill him, I end up thinking that he’s someone I have nothing to do with.
The study novel had many problems.
‘First of all, since I die in the end…’
I was very thirsty and was about to get up to drink water when I saw a laptop lying on the table.
“…….”
Red wine color smooth body.
‘…Is the fact that I received the laptop is real?’
‘Then when?’
‘Should I take the medicine again?’
I had been fine for over three months, but it was bothering me that I suddenly saw a bizarre vision and fell asleep as if I was fainting.
Looking at that laptop, it’s not like fantasy.
It’s even more terrifying to see a fantasy quietly without anyone noticing that it causes mania openly.
Even in middle school, I had a seizure after seeing a vision of a sudden mass shooting accident during class.
I was bullied because of it.
Still, I know that a person who has been beaten knows how to be beaten well, and I know that an uneasy sense that I am going to taste it already rises before I see the fantasy.
Yesterday there was no hint of that.
“Let’s not lose heart. Dongminah.”
I took a cold shower.
#
‘I’m going to be an ordinary normal person. Like everyone else, I have a good social life, earn money, and have a girlfriend. Later, I will marry a pretty wife and have a child.’
This is a promise I made to myself when I left home.
I told my sister several times.
‘I’m going to become a normal person.’
My older sister smiled, but with a sad light behind her, lightly flicked my forehead.
‘Are you going to say something stupid? Who says you’re abnormal? huh? Lee Dong-min, you are not a strange person.’
That’s why I went back to college.
I had to learn how to get along with people.
Because of the memories of being bullied in middle school and being quietly bullied and ignored in high school, I still felt awkward and uncomfortable dealing with people.
His ugly appearance also played a part.
Cutting my hair and buying clothes with great care were also part of trying to fix my appearance complex.
My older sister assured me that as long as I had a neat hairstyle and dressed well, the girls would be attracted to me.
Of course, I’m not so naive as to believe my sister’s affectionate words about her brother.
I just wanted to do ‘one serving’.
Not as Lee Dong-min, who was bullied in middle and high school, but as an ordinary college student with a few close friends.
I wonder if my wish has reached the sky, I exchanged numbers with some classmates and seniors at the beginning of the semester.
Of course, I didn’t contact him after that, so I was sullen, but I wonder if my sister’s advice had an effect, people’s eyes were quite favorable to me.
In ‘Novel Reading I’, a freshman junior started talking to me.
Even though she is a senior, I only attended the first semester, so I was riding a sucker, but she talked to me first.
“Senior, would you like to take class with us?”
“… uh? I-it’s fine…”
Following her, I almost burst into bubbles.
Because more than five girls watched me go and burst into laughter among themselves.
The delusion of victimization was about to go away.
Are they gossiping about me?
If you ask me to take a class with you, you don’t even know what you’re talking about and you want to watch the way he hesitates?
I desperately tried to make up my mind.
If you continue to think these negative thoughts, your heart will beat faster and your eyes will darken, and you may foam and faint like you did before.
I took a deep breath.
“Senior, where are you uncomfortable?”
“Uh, no. Just because my heart raced a little.”
“why?”
“Ah, by any chance, are you with us?”
One of the children was knocked out.
I readily admitted
“Oh, I don’t have many friends. I’m not shy, so I’m a little excited to be with you guys.”
“Senior, you are so cute.”
Someone said something, and I burst out laughing so loud that my ears hurt again, and I was completely unconscious.
They were very bright children.
Still, I didn’t feel bad.
Being with friends like these makes my heart feel lighter.
So did my sister.
If I want to overcome my dark past, I prefer meeting many people rather than being alone.
I was told to try dating if possible.
I don’t even think of an unrealistic beauty like Kang Hae-rin, and I don’t want someone who’s as pretty and kind as my older sister, but somehow I’m a bit greedy.
I thought that if I dated, not s*xual desire, I would be able to enter a normal circle like them.
“Senior, Yu-Ram said he’s gathering some close friends and buying them drinks. Would you like to join us?”
one girl said.
“Can I go?”
“Okay, of course. Everyone will love you when you come. And you must be in the same class as Yu-Ram and Dong-Min? Haven’t you seen it?”
“I remember well…”
“Hmm, senpai, are you a bit mystical by any chance?”
“Mysticism?”
“Are you the lone artist type?”
“It’s not really like that…”
“Do you write poems, seniors?”
Our school is a literary department.
It’s strange to say it’s a major, but since it’s a department that aspires to fine arts, there are poetry and novels as its main subjects.
Of course I am a novelist.
To be precise, I didn’t come to the Liberal Arts Department to pursue pure literature, I just came because I thought it would be better than majoring in another subject.
I plan to live as a web novel writer for the rest of my life anyway.
However, if I said that I was writing a web novel here, I thought it would attract excessive attention, so I moderated it.
“… Ah, I write novels.”
I was nervous thinking about the name of an appropriate writer for fear of being asked what kind of writer I like, but one girl stabbed another in the side.
“Hey, give me the money.”
“Oh, why are you writing a novel? What do you mean a person with melancholy eyes like your senior is a novel!”
A girl who speaks loudly.
I hesitated, wondering if I should apologize.
“Oh, I’m sorry.”
At my words, they stared at me.
“Puhahahahaha.”
“Guys, stop teasing senior.”
The girl who brought me said.
“Senior, anyway, will you be sure to come next time?”
“Ah, uh, yes…”
“Ah, in case you don’t know, my name is Park Se-young. Please don’t ask.”
she said with a secret wink.
It was a cheerful impression, with no hint of shyness.
I have a crush on her.
Of course, it wasn’t that I fell in love, but the person my sister said was like her.
“I’ll contact you later!”
Park Se-young smiled as she waved her phone.
#
I came back to my room in the middle of the day.
I didn’t have any friends to eat lunch with, and I didn’t want to end up in a crowded student cafeteria.
Even the morning lecture was honestly overworked.
A classroom with over 30 students.
Even if it was a public lecture, I decided to write at least a few hours until the late afternoon lecture.
It is difficult to combine study and writing a novel.
At least it seems to work because it is a literary department, but the novels and web novels required by the literary world are completely different.
You have to be that diligent.
I sat down at my desk and turned on my laptop.
“huh? Didn’t you turn it off?”
The login screen immediately appeared.
I entered my password with a wry smile.
something was written
Did I sleep while playing?
“what?”
I leaned my upper body.
[…Last night was hellishly long for Kang Haerin.]
“… this?”
Suddenly, a chill went down my spine.
[… Lee Dong-min. Her lover was not as strong as she was. both body and mind. He protects Kang Hae-rin, who has a beast-like heart.]
[… It was a strange and strange irony. No one will understand that Kang Hae-rin is ‘restraining’. from what? what?]
[… Whatever it is, it is the weak Lee Dong-min who protects the dangerous killer Kang Hae-rin. Haerin Kang thought that this in itself is oxymoronic and therefore artistic. “Our relationship is art itself.”]
Hangeul file filled with ppaegok.
As I read the contents, I was stunned.
this is not what i hit
[… But since Lee Dong-min did not satisfy her, someone will have to pay for the sin. Haerin Kang is…]
AI cannot do this.
No matter how much I’ve written about Haerin Kang in over 1,000 episodes, I can’t create such a delicate description.
If there is an AI that writes novels like this, Skynet will rule the earth within 10 years.
What is even more surprising is the point of view of the novel.
As I read the text, my blood started to freeze.
From the time I received the laptop yesterday, which I thought was a fantasy, the novel was described, and Kang Hae-rin’s actions were also written almost completely.
Either one.
During a dream, I fell asleep while writing this novel, and had such a dream or vision.
Or, it’s ridiculous, but it really happened, and I’m writing it as if this laptop was relaying it.
“dog sound!”
I hit my head, took a deep breath, washed my face, and tried to calmly judge.
“I must have written it, hahahaha… yes, that’s it…”
Rather, that is a possibility.
This is possible because I have already lived with Kang Hae-rin in a delusion for several years.
Artificial intelligence AI was my unconscious.
“… it can’t be.”
No matter how you think about it, I didn’t write it.
It seems plausible to write a novel with the power of the unconscious, but it can’t be that easy as it sounds.
Even if you wrote it, it is normal if the development crows are in a frenzy.
“ha ha ha…”
I let out a devastated laugh.
‘Am I crazy again?’
Then I decided.
I held Proust’s 『In Search of Lost Time』, the heaviest book I have, over my head and prepared to hit the laptop.
This will do the job of a hammer properly.
“…get it off, haunted laptop.”
But just before that I came to my senses.
“…what have I done…?”
This was proof that I was not crazy.
It is absurd to immediately destroy a laptop purchased overseas, which cost more than 2 million won.
I have a sense of reality to that extent.
I came to my senses, and instead, I took care of the box and interior materials that arrived yesterday and packed them anew.
Then the laptop was no different from a new one.
[Selling a laptop. It’s not a famous brand, but it’s fast and arrived yesterday. Selling because I don’t like the color. I’ll give you a whopping 300,000 won.]
I put it on the cabbage market.
It’s a waste of money, but it’s better than what I’m crazy about.
Let’s do it quickly, even if it’s just a minute.
What if the brand doesn’t sell well because it’s not famous? After thinking about it for about an hour, I changed my mind.
[500,000 won off. It’s urgent, but the contents are…]
Then, a price inquiry came in.
I immediately decided on a meeting place.
#
“… are you kidding me?”
Now I’m in trouble.
We were blushing when we met in front of the station to make a face-to-face transaction at the Cabbage Market.
“… sorry, why is this… like this?”
“You know very well why he is doing this. What would have happened if I hadn’t checked? Mr. A.”
A young man wearing a hat, put his hands in the pockets of his jumper and exhaled white breath.
“Ah, it’s cold, I’m going to go after you.”
“… sorry. I will take care of the travel expenses.”
I took a few thousand won out of my wallet and gave it to the man.
“… Ehh, don’t you live like that? yes?”
The man seemed a little relieved by the unexpected money, snatched it and turned around.
He thought it was strange that I was selling a laptop at such a low price and wanted to turn it on right there.
I had nothing to bow down to, so I agreed.
However, strangely, the power light did not turn on even though it was clearly fully charged.
In the end, I only ate a lot of swearing.
“…is it broken?”
As soon as I got home, I turned on my laptop.
it worked fine
I felt really possessed by a ghost.
What’s even more painful is that the novel files I backed up to sell are still on my laptop.
“……”
I gently lifted Proust’s classic masterpiece back over my head and then put it back down.
“… no.”
Whatever it is, don’t break it.
Then, it wrote a novel again.
[… Kang Hae-rin decided to look at Lee Dong-min’s reaction first. The unbearable murderous intent boiled over, but her porcelain-like skin perfectly disguised her emotions.]
[… After a while, such anger was willing. She was the one who thought she had lost her feelings. But the anger she felt was raw. Her emotion now is anger for others. The most altruistic and human emotion. Lee Dong-min makes her normal!]
[… Whether or not to kill the man who arrogantly yelled at her lover depends on Lee Dong-min’s choice. If he was hurt, Kang Hae-rin was thinking of counting it as ‘two strikes’.]
[,.. Of course, I wouldn’t ask that directly. Because she will always remain a lovely and ‘normal’ girlfriend. She picks up the phone.]
Whoops.
when the sentence got there.
A message came from Haerin Kang.
[Is it your house?]
FUCK!
💀