34 – Haerin Kang (34)
Haerin Kang (34)
‘Does I have no soul?’
Kang Hae-rin used to go to church with her parents before entering elementary school.
It was then that I first heard the word ‘soul’.
Her parents often fought and beat her, but every weekend she went to church and prayed.
‘E-soul is a heart that knows how to sympathize with others.’
During the sermon, the young pastor said so.
I thought there.
‘I might not have a soul.’
‘Even if there is, it will be very small. Like sand, like ants.’
And these days, Kang Hae-rin thought again.
‘So that’s why.’
In the web novel 『Kang Hae-rin’s Murder Diary』 written by Lee Dong-min, all of her actions were recorded.
Her own troubles, memories, memories, everything that makes her up is all in one word.
However, it is fiction, not reality.
And Haerin Kang was a character in it.
I still can’t believe it.
‘I’m fake?’
But I’ve come to accept it.
Then all the deficiencies were explained.
Her numbness stemmed from soullessness.
There is no way that a being made with ‘human hands’, not divine hands, has a soul.
Again, that wasn’t sad.
Because I never thought there was a soul.
But even the memory was a lie.
Even the pains of childhood that tore her heart apart, in the quiet and cool interior of the church where she first thought of the soul, were fake.
‘Then what would be left for me?’
‘I’m completely empty.’
From a little distance away, Kang Hae-rin saw ‘soulful’ Lee Dong-min block the ‘soulful’ Yeon-woo Song for the sake of ‘soulful’ Baek Yoo-ram.
Lee Dong-min grabbed Song Yeon-woo’s arm and told him not to hurt Baek Yu-ram, and Song Yeon-woo growled.
Baek Yu-ram seemed surprised, but he had a happy expression.
“…….”
Those people have souls.
Even to a lowly person like Song Yeon-woo.
A person with a soul desires, clings, rages, abhors, is just, and reconciles.
And I love you.
The play of all those souls is over.
“… Haerin.”
Lee Dong-min turned to her.
“… It’s common sense to save someone in crisis. yes? It’s definitely a pleasure, so it’s…”
he was making excuses
About your own ‘soulful action’.
As if Kang Haerin wouldn’t understand.
But she can understand.
Lee Dong-min saved Baek Yoo-ram.
Isn’t that a ‘worried mind’ for her?
Of course, it is an unfamiliar feeling to Kang Hae-rin.
When she sees a crying child, she knows that she needs to be worried, and she was able to act appropriately, but that was just ‘pretend’.
Thanks to Lee Dong-min’s impeccable acting skills and judgmental ability to read the context, she blended in well with those with souls.
But now Kang Hae-rin ‘felt’ it.
It’s not just knowing or acting.
‘Because I’m with you.’
Lee Dong-min ignited a spark in her soul.
Kang Hae-rin touched Lee Dong-min’s cheek.
The heat is transmitted from his body.
‘I can feel myself.’
It was literally.
Kang Hae-rin could feel everything about Lee Dong-min.
I can understand his heart that he values and worries about Park Se-young and Baek Yu-ram.
This ability suddenly came after meeting Lee Dong-min.
It was embarrassing at first.
There was a time when I couldn’t taste the taste even when I ate salad, spicy ramen, or steak, but when I was with him, even my senses came back to life.
The fresh and sour taste brought tears to my eyes, the savory taste made my nose tingle, and I felt a pleasant richness in the greasy gravy of the high-quality Korean beef steak.
It all reached the soul.
If you focus on Lee Dong-min’s emotions, you share his gaze, and the world begins to take on various colors.
Now he has become her seeing eye.
Lee Dong-min was the one who came to save her.
Kang Hae-rin chose him after much consideration.
No, hung up on him.
Even if all of this is just his ‘setup’, he is the only one who can give her a soul.
He gave her what she shouldn’t have, and then he must do her best.
‘Isn’t that a right I can ask for?’
In the first place, Lee Dong-min could not refuse.
Haerin Kang is pretty and smart.
I went to S University’s College of Arts, which is famous for producing a lot of outstanding celebrities, but the theater and film departments, the dance departments, the practical music departments, and some talented and charming people were not as outstanding as Kang Hae-rin.
She deliberately went where there were people.
It was because he wanted to confirm his existence.
Men who were walking with their pretty girlfriends were scolded as they turned their heads to Kang Hae-rin when she passed by.
Even the women who turned on the lights and kept her in check felt the difference in class when facing Kang Hae-rin and lowered their eyes.
She felt a sense of triumph.
Haerin Kang was always satisfied in front of the mirror.
She was a beauty out of this world.
Lee Dong-min imposed on her every kind of beauty and virtue he could think of.
There was no way he could reject her like this.
‘But why.’
Lee Dong-min kept looking at other things.
Leaving behind himself like a jewel, he looked at Kang Hae-rin because he was worried about a junior he had only met for about a month after coming to college, and risked it because of a female classmate he hadn’t known for a while.
upset and worried
Kang Hae-rin, who has excellent athleticism and has learned martial arts, is an easy opponent, but Lee Dong-min alone did not know what to do with the violent Song Yeon-woo.
After all, he actually killed innocent people while messing around with gangs.
‘Why won’t you look after me?’
Kang Hae-rin grew more and more angry.
‘Why are you taking the risk?’
To women who have no meaning.
‘Aren’t I responsible?’
Still, she didn’t let the tee go.
It was because of his pride and belief that he was the most precious person to Lee Dong-min.
In order to kill the two women in the novel, she was very merciful in her own way.
Park Se-young and Baek Yoo-ram also believed that if they knew Lee Dong-min’s intentions, they would of course not get involved.
However, they kept trying to get involved with Lee Dong-min.
‘Bad b*tches.’
‘It’s my bed.’
Kang Hae-rin gradually ran out of patience.
‘He’s a problem too.’
It was very obvious that he was trying to protect the two women from Kang Hae-rin, even taking risks.
Doesn’t she seem like a bad person?
Kang Hae-rin is asking for natural rights.
So I decided to be a little more daring.
Both women gain the upper hand by getting what they will never get.
It is to leave traces of oneself on the body of Lee Dong-min.
A trace that can only be left once.
I will give him what I can only give once.
“… Haerin, what are you saying now…?”
After returning to his room, Lee Dong-min, who had been nervous the whole time, hesitated at Kang Hae-rin’s words and stepped back.
“I heard you.”
Haerin Kang said calmly.
“Take my virgin.”
“Strong Haerin!”
“why?”
“That is not so easy to say!”
“I didn’t say it easily. Anyway, I was going to give it to him first. I thought about it while watching myself run away because of Mr. Yu-Ram earlier. this man is good You are so kind that you are willing to help others even when you are at risk.”
“That is an exaggeration.”
Dongmin Lee said.
“They say I took the risk, so the only thing I did was stop Song Yeon-woo from hitting Yu-ram. I’m not afraid of such a bully at all.”
be cute
Looking at Lee Dong-min’s face as he gasped for breath and shouted, Kang Hae-rin thought so.
Although it doesn’t fit the situation.
Lee Dong-min created Kang Hae-rin’s everything, but Kang Hae-rin also knew about Lee Dong-min’s past.
I know that he had a mental illness, and that he was bullied by bullies during his school days.
If they were in front of me now, Kang Hae-rin would have killed them even if Lee Dong-min stopped them.
because i love him
I laughed when Dongmin Lee bravely said that he wasn’t afraid of bullies at all.
But he said without laughing.
“I just don’t kill bullies.”
“… What are you talking about?”
“Song Yeon-woo, you murdered me.”
“……”
“A murder case that took place at a club in Gangnam. You must have seen it because it was posted in the school community.”
“……..”
I didn’t know either.
A bitter smile crept across Kang Hae-rin’s face.
I almost had to
I was annoyed that precious Lee Dong-min could be in danger because of one insignificant b*tch.
Also, this guy needs to tighten up a little more.
“It’s difficult once. Twice is easy. It’s not strange for a person like Song Yeon-woo who only lives for one day to become a murderer. You ran into that guy. Self. Because of a friend I barely met for a month.”
Lee Dong-min looked very confused.
“I want to leave my mark on you.”
Kang Hae-rin bit her lip and said.
“I want to dedicate my first… to you.”
“……..”
“Then you will be the only one for me. We are connected to each other.”
Lee Dong-min froze as if shocked.
However, Kang Hae-rin can’t understand this reaction either.
She knew very well how tempting she was to men.
Isn’t Lee Dong-min, who created this body, the most vulnerable to temptation?
She too had shame.
If it was related to Lee Dong-min, it was no different from an ordinary woman, and it was not easy to say such a thing.
First of all, he said he would dedicate his first time to a man, but Lee Dong-min had already made several excuses and refused.
I felt like my beauty was being denied.
“… That’s not allowed.”
“Isn’t it too irresponsible to keep saying no? Is it you who made me like this?”
A crooked smile crept across Kang Hae-rin’s lips.
Rebellion surged.
She clutched her chest over her clothes.
The shape of the huge breasts that seduced men, which could not come out of the slender body, was distorted.
Now she had no intention of leaving either.
Today, she becomes ‘only relationship’ with him.
“You are the one who made me desire you. Or, will I kill someone else? I think that will calm me down.”
Lee Dong-min steps back.
Anguish crept across his face.
Then, his phone vibrated.
“… Sorry, hold on.”
he got a call
“… uh, older sister?”
“……”
Kang Hae-rin stopped walking toward him.
“… What are you talking about. no, sister. I’m not a kid, so it’s not like I have to contact you every day…”
Even though he was embarrassed, a strange feeling arose when he saw a smile on Lee Dong-min’s lips.
I forgot.
between those connected by blood.
And an exceptionally close brother-sister relationship.
In order for Kang Hae-rin to monopolize Lee Dong-min, there was one more person he had to knock out.
Park Se-young and Baek Yu-ram seemed to have noticed a little bit, but that woman still-
“……”
After hanging up the phone, Lee Dong-min said awkwardly.
“I’m sorry we were talking. Haerin. come here Let’s hold each other tight and stay for a while.”
He sits on the bed and makes an innocent expression.
However, Kang Hae-rin saw through the ulterior motive of saying that what he said earlier was not natural.
She said.
“self. I will give you two options.”
“……..”
“Take my maiden from here, or… kill your own sister.”
Lee Dong-min made a shocked expression.
“Of course, I don’t mean to ask you to kill yourself. I am not that ruthless.”
“then?”
“Just… in a novel, that’s enough. Just like Park Se-young and Baek Yu-ram. Instead, let Kang Hae-rin kill him, not Kang Hae-rin, but Lee Dong-min, no, Lee Dong-hyun. Instead, be as cruel as possible.”
“… Are you even suspicious of your sister? It can’t be. My sister and I have mixed blood…”
“I think that is the problem.”
The smile disappeared from Kang Haerin’s face.
“It’s something I could never have.”
“……..”
“And I don’t like the fact that it’s only half blood. I’m sorry, in this country. But will you listen? Didn’t he make me like this?”
Lee Dong-min avoided her eyes and closed his mouth.
#
“Ha ha ha… that’s what I heard. No, it’s a little more surprising than I thought.”
“What?”
It was a reluctant blind date, but because of courtesy to the arranger, Lee Da-mi tried to be kind.
Originally, she had no intention of going on a blind date, but her friend prepared it for her, who was depressed all the time.
How many years has it been since I was a freshman?
I wasn’t particularly excited about it, and on the contrary, I just thought it was hard work to do something I wasn’t interested in.
‘Lying on the bed and looking at Dong-min’s pictures.’
The man on the blind date was a handsome man with a straight forehead and good manners.
They say he works for a large company, but I don’t know.
I wasn’t particularly drawn to it.
He said with a gentle smile.
“I heard that you and your brother are very friendly.”
It was right after Lee Dong-min said that he was falling in love with his girlfriend and neglecting to contact him.
“Aren’t younger brothers and older sisters usually on good terms? If someone you don’t know sees you, would you mistake it for your boyfriend?”
Idami said sullenly.
“Then what are you doing? I’m so into my girlfriend that I don’t even contact my sister. Shall I visit you later?”
She turned on her phone and looked at it while blurting out who she was talking to.
It was a platform for serialized novels by my younger brother.
It wasn’t something she would do in the middle of a blind date, but it meant she wasn’t paying attention.
“… What is he doing these days?”
Suddenly, he announced that he would publish 『Journal』 all year round, then posted a notice to resume serialization again, and in the latest episode, he posted an episode that was different from the previous ones.
Unbeknownst to other readers, Lee Da-mi recognized that her younger sister plotted an incident against the backdrop of her alma mater.
This wasn’t his behavior.
Readers’ reactions were also somewhat harsh.
[I liked the author’s novels so far because they were both realistic and fantasy-like, but this is a bit…]
B [Something is said]
ㄴ[Isn’t that too realistic?]
ㄴ [I felt it too, it’s realistic, but it’s so realistic that it makes me feel rather uncomfortable ;;]
[Yes, it feels like a real person. I think I know where S University is.]
The reading rate did not drop right away, but if this was the case, the younger brother would only get hurt.
Idami needed some advice.
Because the younger sister’s mentality is the older sister’s responsibility.
“I think my sister’s girlfriend is the problem.”
Lee Da-mi suddenly said to the blind date.