57 – Haerin Kang (57)
Haerin Kang (57)
I couldn’t go far out of the hospital room.
Instead, Park Se-young decided to stop by her sister’s house.
I didn’t think that Park Se-young, who is honest with herself and others, would open her laptop in the middle of it insidiously.
Anyway, as I have already confirmed through Song Yeon-woo, it doesn’t work for people other than me.
Although recently it stopped working even in front of me.
‘It’s too late today, just give me the address and I’ll look for it right after class tomorrow.’
that was yesterday evening
However, the problem was different.
It was the comfort of my own body.
[I’m here, darling.]
Kang Hae-rin’s voice on the phone was very light, as if her absence for several days was a dream.
As she said, she was on her way to the hospital.
He drives his beloved red Mercedes.
Whether it was marriage or whatever, I decided to take responsibility for Kang Hae-rin, but now that my sister’s whereabouts are unknown, I couldn’t do such a good thing in my days.
‘My sister has become like this… she can’t have children and can’t get married.’
Besides, I’m suspicious of Haerin Kang.
I can’t live with her for 100 years with this kind of heart.
It’s not that he didn’t consider the possibility that someone other than Ban Yi-jae might hijack his sister.
But there was no sign of that.
Who the hell is that?
[I’m so excited, me.]
Haerin Kang said.
[Did you miss me too? Seeing that you texted and called so many times… It feels so good. It must feel like being loved, right?]
“……..”
At first, I was angry and fired at her several times, but she kindly explained everything as love for her.
‘I stayed at home. When I saw myself hurt, I felt pain for the first time in my life… I felt it, so I couldn’t come to my senses.’
Haerin Kang is insensitivity.
A character who communicates with the world by being with me, using me as a medium.
That’s why I say that.
When I heard that, I was also stunned.
And my heart ached.
Unlike me, who received hospital visits and was taken care of by my sister, Kang Hae-rin must have endured that time alone.
Of course, if she wanted to, she could have made as many friends as she wanted, but those were all acts made to win the favor of the other person.
The situation is different from me, who doesn’t even know how to act.
“……..”
Right after Ban Lee-jae was arrested, he remembered Kang Hae-rin, who cried out to him, and his trembling hands.
‘Are my senses synchronized with me?’
I have never written a novel with such a setting, but it is said that such things often happen if you are too immersed in the subject.
It’s as if the other person’s body soon becomes my body.
Rather, wouldn’t these symptoms be the basis for me to accept Kang Hae-rin as a real person?
‘I was alone.’
Haerin Kang has no alibi.
But his voice trembled when he said that, so I couldn’t believe it was acting.
I couldn’t believe it or not believe it.
Do you ask how you kidnapped your sister?
I quickly denied it.
First of all, because it was the best.
Now, according to her words, she shouldn’t even know that her sister is gone.
I will use this point to engage in psychological warfare.
If you find even the slightest gap-
‘…If you touch my sister, I won’t forgive you either.’
Kang Hae-rin originally wanted to come right away last night, but postponed the visit to today because the hospital visit time was over.
There is also a reason why I actively dried it.
I needed time to think and plan.
If Kang Hae-rin wanted it, it was time for a visit. Anyway, she would have come to this dark hospital room.
And, you will see her soon.
It would have been a good reunion if my sister was still alive, but now I was in a complicated mood.
‘Haerin Kang, are you my enemy? Are you allies?’
I repeated my advisory answer.
excitement and fear.
Hate and worry.
doubts and beliefs.
while it crosses over.
According to my older sister’s ‘interpretation’, Kang Hae-rin loves me, so he probably won’t harm me more than anyone else, but according to Park Se-young’s ‘interpretation’, she is a madman.
Of course, both of them failed to capture the essence of Kang Hae-rin in the details.
‘…but am I right?’
Suspicion followed by doubt.
Kang Hae-rin said over the phone.
[…then the kingdom of heaven is like a virgin… who lifted her lamp and went out to meet the bridegroom…]
Kang Hae-rin’s voice was as clear as a glass bead and did not contain the cares and dust of the world.
The intonation is alive, as if singing a song.
When you listen to that pleasant tone, it seems that all the worries of the world and the pain of the past disappear.
Like a lullaby –
It was something I knew very well.
Although the exact wording is wrong.
“… The original text was ‘ten virgins’, maybe?”
I helped.
[You know. also. our darling But… isn’t it unfortunate that ten virgins become one?]
“……”
[No answer?]
“Oh, no. No way. Monogamy is common sense. It’s natural. Wasn’t it in the Bible?”
I was given a bible study by my mother.
As I roughly recall, I copied the Old Testament and the New Testament 4 times and 3 times, respectively, before graduating from elementary school.
Fortunately, it is reduced by admission.
If it had been her mother’s insistence, she would have been homeschooled and only received religious education.
I don’t know anything else, but that was the thing I was grateful to my father for.
It must have been to let go of my troublesome son.
At that time, my father must have called other aunts and did lewd things.
I saw that a few times on the day I left school early.
‘Oh my gosh-‘
It reminded me of the stunned look on her face and the brown nipples of the woman who was still rolling around with her father.
Now that I think about it, what was good about an old man like my father? There was also a lady who looked quite young.
It was all a disgusting sight to me anyway.
Anyway, these days, when writing on paper has decreased a lot, it was thanks to my mother’s early education that my handwriting is rare.
I was beaten on the back of my hand for not having sincerity and trust if I used it sparingly to quickly spend the allotted amount.
When I think of those days, I still get a bitter taste in my mouth as if I swallowed ashes, but the remnants of it were still there.
For example, the habit of recognizing such phrases.
[To me, sleeping is like heaven.]
Kang Hae-rin’s sincerity is conveyed over the phone.
But I was not happy to receive it.
“… thank you…”
[i love you.]
The more the feelings of joy and pleasure that were transmitted touched my heart, the more I felt guilty.
‘Do you think Kang Hae-rin in 『Kang Hae-rin’s Murder Diary』 is the same as Kang Hae-rin in real life?’
My sister’s words came to mind again.
Am I making the same mistake again?
Don’t trust Harin?
No matter how you think about it, the only person who will kidnap your sister is Haerin.
Doubting that would mean violating my promise to protect her.
However, the older sister who said that would not have expected that she would be kidnapped by Kang Hae-rin.
What if it was Kang Hae-rin who imprisoned her in a secret place that even the public authorities couldn’t find?
If that happened to my sister, the person who told me to take care of Haerin would also withdraw his words.
‘… Watch out for Haerin Kang!’
He would have warned me so sincerely.
And what I said to her from now on, I didn’t know if it would hurt Kang Hae-rin’s planting.
Tung.
The door opens.
“I missed you-“
Kang Haerin, who comes into my arms.
He came all this way without hanging up the phone.
She whined in an indistinct voice as she rubbed her face against my chest in a hospital gown.
“This feeling is unfamiliar to me. My heart feels like it’s going to explode. But it’s like a treasure. If it wasn’t for you, you wouldn’t have felt it. I love you, darling. love you!”
Kang Hae-rin took off her shoes, climbed onto the bed on which I was stretching my legs, and sat down.
between the thigh and thigh.
Thoughts were blown away by the bold expression of affection.
It was an active action that had never been done before.
Of course, we kissed, but it hadn’t been like that for a while, and more than that, feeling her weight and hips with a hospital blanket between us was very irritating.
Even if it is not in a s*xual sense, the undeniable physical presence of Kang Hae-rin intensifies.
She is not a character in a novel.
She exists right in front of my eyes.
It is something I can touch with my hands.
“I will never miss you again.”
Haerin Kang said.
“A moment, a moment, your words, your eyes…!”
“……”
Haerin Kang said in a trembling voice.
“Thanks to you, I know the pain and pleasure.”
She spoke fervently, like an adolescent girl who had just fallen in love, then kissed me.
“Do you love me too?”
Eyes that glow reddishly.
But not with the intent to kill.
After the rain had stopped, the bright sunlight coming in through the long-awaited clear window was changing the color of her pupils.
“… Yes…”
Haerin Kang hugged me tightly.
“love you-!”
The feeling of her face being pressed against her chest, as her sister often did, was different, however.
But I can’t explain it well in words.
And Kang Hae-rin’s actions turned my mind back to my sister.
“… Haerin, wait a minute.”
“No, honey, listen to my decision first.”
Haerin Kang put his index finger to my lips.
She said with a smile.
“It was terrifying, but thanks to that, I realized. That he is a person who cannot be without me.”
“……..”
“Now that everything is over, have a baby.”
Kang Haerin said dreamily.
“And join us in our own kingdom. About five children…? I can give birth to fever, but I was considerate of my physical strength. No matter what, and you will become the king of this kingdom. how is it? No, he should rather be called God.”
“Haerin, I’m sorry…”
“I am your ideal type, right? From breast size to pelvis circumference, waist circumference that does not gain weight no matter how much you eat, and delicate features, it is handcrafted from start to finish, isn’t it? There’s no way you could reject me like this. Yes?”
“……”
I was a little impatient, not like Kang Hae-rin, but I could hardly intervene in the reproachful words.
I’m going to break my promise.
No, I have no choice but to break it.