85 – Dongmin Lee (20)
Dongmin Lee (20)
Eight o’clock in the morning.
It was Bach’s concerto that woke me up.
I am new to music, but there is an app that tells me the name of a song just by typing in the melody.
[Bach – Brandenburg Concerto No. 3]
When I stopped recording and searched, the app displayed the song I was listening to like that.
When you listen to the lively major tone created by the string instruments, you will be amazed that it is indeed a classic, but it is a little burdensome to listen to in the morning.
It seems like I had a dream last night, but the overwhelming melody coming out of the high-quality speakers pulled my mind and body into reality at once.
I am at Haerin’s house.
Yesterday, until I went to bed, Haerin, who was hugged next to me, was already cooking in the living room.
I set the alarm for 6 o’clock to have breakfast as a surprise, and I even searched for recipes I could make on YouTube in my spare time, but to no avail.
There is no such thing as a good night’s sleep.
I blankly came out of the blanket and looked back.
A huge red headboard that could be called modern art was connected to the ceiling like a whale or the heart of an ancient giant beast.
Red means danger.
Of course, it’s not a comfortable color for the eyes, but if you lie down there, you’ll fall asleep right away, as if you fainted.
Of course, when the mood lights are turned off and the blackout curtains are drawn, even that red light becomes a meaningless color.
I went out into the living room.
Haerin smiles as you go down the stairs.
I stayed out a while ago, but then and now, I’m still there at the appointed time.
“Do you want to eat right away?”
I went to the table.
Today’s main menu was beef porridge and nubani.
About to finish her meal, she said.
“I think I will go out again today.”
Haerin’s purpose for going out is one thing.
To find traces of my sister.
She is doing this because I want to hear from her ‘in person’.
I was a little sorry.
If it wasn’t for my words, we wouldn’t have cared about what my sister did, and we could have lived by ourselves.
“Do you have any schedule changes?”
Haerin’s gaze turned back.
I also turned my head and saw a board on the wide wall behind my studio on the first floor, where a wine-red laptop was placed on a side table in the doorway.
About half the size of a blackboard in an average middle school or high school.
The schedule of Haerin and I was written there.
Haerin ‘blindly believes’ in that.
At the foundation of that blind faith, there is a ‘belief’ that she and I do not cheat on each other’s schedule at all.
Harin is definitely like that.
I’m checking her actual whereabouts through the function of the mysterious wine-red laptop.
You can tell if she’s lying just by comparing the contents with that schedule.
On the other hand, I cheated on her.
I’m really sorry for Haerin, but I went to meet her demon from the past, unlike everyday life.
Hyeeun Kim.
One of the ringleaders who bullied me in high school, tried to cause trouble by approaching Haerin by citing photos and videos of me in the past.
That in itself anyway, I had to stop Haerin from killing her for me.
The goal was achieved, but a new fact was learned.
Kim Hye-eun and her boyfriend are none other than Park Sang-woo.
He was one of the villains in 『Journal』.
Haerin and I promised not to do anything that could endanger my life.
In other words, it was not to encounter those villains.
Even if we didn’t meet ‘directly’, nothing good would happen if Haerin found out.
I cheated on her
Because of her.
Even though I went out from 1:00 pm to past 7:00 pm, I pretended to be at home on my schedule.
I felt guilty, but this is the end.
From now on, even if Kim Hye-eun threatens me, there is no material evidence so that I can remain ignorant.
In the first place, she doesn’t even know where my house is.
I definitely said that day, but Kim Hye-eun didn’t seem to approach Haerin too much.
Now, everything is fine.
“Ah, yes… It’s going to be the same.”
I replied.
Because it actually will.
After finishing work in the morning, Haerin eats her meals with the lunch she made because she is going out, does a simple exercise, and does afternoon work.
Writing novels occupied most of my schedule.
Haerin will be back in the evening.
We’ll take a walk nearby or watch a movie.
I could talk about what happened.
Anyway, Harin seemed to have a greater importance than I expected for the shared schedule.
As much as I trust the contents of the notebook, she doesn’t doubt the unspoken rule.
To the point of being almost obsessive.
Of course, thanks to her thinking, I was able to double-check, review and double-check the contents of the notebook and shared schedule.
Reliability naturally increases.
When Haerin returns in the evening, she erases it with an eraser and writes new information on the board, as if confessing about her changed plans.
Thanks to that, I can predict her behavior patterns.
Although it is difficult to immediately reflect the shared schedule, of course, it is possible to compensate for the problems caused by the change of the laptop system.
To be updated only after midnight.
The magic of notebooks was still there.
The day Haerin stayed out all night, a little after midnight, I checked that it was written.
I asked Harin, who was getting ready to go out.
“Haerin, if you find your sister…”
“Don’t worry. I will bring you safely.”
Haerin gave a short answer.
“………”
I think that’s an unreasonable request.
My sister, for some reason, is disguising her existence as disappearance and putting on a funny play.
This was also a deception to me.
Shortly after she went missing, she texted me, even acting like she was in danger.
To deduce, my intention was to make her harryn scared and keep her away from her.
I don’t know how far my sister is thinking, but she is quite serious about her plan.
Even if it’s Harin, will she be able to safely bring her true partner to me?
She was afraid that something could happen that she couldn’t imagine but that she would get hurt or be in danger.
But in the end I couldn’t open my mouth.
A word to think of you before your sister.
Until then, my mouth hadn’t left.
Because I still couldn’t doubt my sister.
“What does Mr. Lee Da-mi mean to you?”
“……”
That was a difficult question to answer.
Even if you ask me what I think of my half-sister, who has a love affair that should never come true.
It’s not that I hate her.
Of course, it was true that she instinctively felt disgust for her, but I couldn’t hate her for that.
For me, who lived in solitude and avoidance of people, my sister was almost a part of me.
“Isn’t that the same for me?”
I was speechless at Haerin’s words.
Of course it is true.
Even though my sister and I share her blood and shared experiences to a large extent, it can be said that Hae-rin is an existence that was separated from me in the first place.
My alter ego.
My other half.
Of course, her qualities were close to the embodiment of ideal qualities that I didn’t have.
Haerin asked as she left the front door.
“Babe, what do you want?”
It was a calm tone that didn’t feel high or low, but it caused a calm ripple.
What do I want?
I’ve never thought about it.
In middle and high school, it was about getting away from bullying, and before, it was about getting out of the house.
Can you really say ‘want’ that?
Isn’t that close to ‘escape’?
I always wanted to avoid reality.
That was also the reason I wrote the novel.
“……”
“I think it’s good to think about it seriously. I feel agitation in myself.”
I was stingy.
Although I never directly mentioned it in the novel, there is some kind of synchronization between Haerin and I.
To be precise, I don’t feel Haerin’s, but Haerin reads my inner thoughts very well.
Perhaps the trigger was the Ban Lee Jae Incident.
Seeing that I was mortally wounded, she was shocked and panicked.
Did you feel the penetrating wound together?
Or were you surprised that I was hurt?
Anyway, she seemed to pierce my soul with her serene gaze ever since.
“If you want something, you run towards it, and then you know it. No matter how ugly reality, no painful reality, no contradictory reality.”
She was at her word.
“Being able to endure it.”
“……”
“Even if that’s an ideal that won’t come true forever. Even if it is a reality that will never end.”
Haerin came up to me with a bewildered smile and put his head on Pook’s chest.
And after kissing him, he disappeared.
I was confused for a while.
What Haerin wants is to live with me.
But I still do that.
To be more specific, it would be to become an official couple with me, have children, and live a normal life.
The obstacles are, of course, the older sister and the detectives.
And the villains in 『Journal』.
Did Harin think that was impossible?
For me who knows her abilities, my sister and the detectives think that Haerin will solve it somehow.
The problem is the latter, which is what I want.
I clean up the poop I pack.
Even if it’s not such a simple thought, the “Journal” That originally didn’t exist disturbs reality.
I wanted to block that much.
Then, my goal is not different from Haerin’s.
Two-person tripod.
At one point, I thought it was a ‘same-same dream’, but wouldn’t the relationship between Haerin and I be more like a ‘two-person triangle’?
Because she and I wish each other happiness.
I went to the studio.
Before writing, I checked my phone.
There were several messages to Kim Hye-jung.
[Senior, I heard you were classmates with my older sister?]
[I can’t believe it, I didn’t go to that high school on purpose because I didn’t want to go to the same school as my sister ㅜㅜ]
[Isn’t your sister rude?]
[As an apology, can I buy you a coffee? I don’t mean anything else, I’m so worried. Sister, if it’s what I’m doing, I’ll get in the way of everything…]
On the other hand, there was no contact from Kim Hye-eun.
At least, I think it’s fortunate.
Among her misfortunes, her luck was that she found out that her drug dealer was dating her boyfriend, and even partnered with her, which was her trick to stop her.
Because this time I got hold of her weakness.
There will be no meeting with Hyejeong.
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The issue of materializing 『Journal』 Was still far away.
Illegal sharing sites and the sharing of texts among people, of course, have not been completely eliminated.
Unfortunately, that rather confused me.
If the people without the concept of copyright doing evil things are related to the materialization of the novel, then of course it must be happening even now.
However, there was no sign that Jeong Seong-min and Jang Hye-ok would stride around the world like the previous villains.
For some reason, materialization was blocked.
Even though the situation is being published on the platform, the files are also working illegally, and even the laptops are working normally, but the novel does not progress.
Even though everything I thought was the cause of materialization openly exists in reality.
I fell into a new dilemma.
All I could do was watch while controlling all possible factors.
As in scientific experiments, when all variables are constant, if the result changes due to a minor change, it can be estimated as the root cause.