105 – Decision to Leave #2
The night after the Imperial Palace Ball.
Elisabeth went straight back to her dormitory.
She originally planned to come back tomorrow because of some remaining work and late hours, but she headed straight to the dormitory using the aftermath of the flight crash as an excuse.
However, Instructor Ion was nowhere to be seen.
She couldn’t even remember how she got into her room. When she came to her senses, she was sitting on the bed with Elizabeth curled up.
“… ….”
I spent the whole night in trouble.
Where did she go wrong?
Her brain was still blank, but her brain analyzed the cause of the problem as if it were a habit. Looking back on her own short life.
Elizabeth’s life began as she was born into the imperial family of the most powerful and greatest empire on the continent.
The powerful power that everyone bowed her head to, the noble bloodline of the dragon, and the dazzling beauty.
Everything she had was not the result of great effort. She had it all from the moment she was given her life, for only one reason: that she was born the daughter of an emperor.
But she never for a moment considered this a stroke of luck.
From the moment she was born, her duty as a member of the royal family was demanded. Her personal happiness or desires were completely ignored, and instead, only thorough education was given to survive on the chessboard of power.
Learning court etiquette, political knowledge, foreign languages for diplomacy, and learning basic common sense and culture of various countries were just some of the many subjects required by Royal Studies. At the same time, every detail of her, from her voice to her way of speaking and her gait, had to be corrected for the sake of her demeanor as a princess.
Much of Elizabeth’s life was public, and her private life was always exposed to numerous courtiers and the public. All of her actions and words were subject to judgment and criticism in the social world, and even who she hung out with and what her hobbies did not meet the criteria for judging whether they matched the image of the imperial family and the interests of the empire. Otherwise, I had to give up.
Of course, all of this was just a basic level.
The most important lesson she learned in her childhood was never to trust anyone with all her heart.
On behalf of her grim emperor and her mother who had already passed away, the day her most trusted maidservant delivered her poisoned tea to her.
That day was the day Elizabeth awakened the dragon’s blood with her dragon words for the first time.
Elizabeth’s heart froze coldly as she watched her handmaid cry and beg for her life to be spared while shivering in fear of her near-death and feeling betrayed by her betrayal.
It was a moment when she came to a deep realization that even the person she loved most could betray her and try to kill her depending on her circumstances.
The harsh environment of the imperial family made Elizabeth’s thoughts and actions calculated.
At some point, she came to see all her human relationships only from the perspective of her own interests and utilization possibilities. She kept thinking about how she could take advantage of other people and at the same time earn their trust and loyalty.
Above all, she always hides her true feelings, always being aware of her outside eyes and choosing the right look to show them.
There is no such thing as sublime love between parents and children.
There is no such thing as unchanging loyalty between rulers and gods.
So Elizabeth was determined that she would not be swayed by fickle emotions or lies.
She trusted things that could be calculated and managed practically, rather than love or loyalty that could be lost at any moment.
She gave what she wanted to whoever she wanted, and in return she got what benefited her.
Acting according to careful planning and thorough strategy, and considering all the values that humanity holds high as insignificant… The character of Elisabeth von Galatea was completed in that way.
But….
That way of life is twisted. Not normal.
Of course, it gets cut off.
The mind as a human being.
It’s not the solitude she got because she wanted it. Because she didn’t want to go through the same wound twice, she didn’t want to die, so it was just a way of life she had no choice but to choose.
As a result, contradictory feelings settled in Elisabeth’s heart before she knew it.
In spite of the fact that she decided not to trust anything, she longed for the existence of someone she could completely trust without any cost.
Just then, a man named Ion Graham appeared in front of me.
One of the 7 heroes of the continent and a soldier with outstanding skills. At first, he only calculated how he could benefit him and how he could be used.
But the moment her airship crashed, Ion jumped into her flames and rescued her, not expecting anything in return, only because her student was in danger.
Going through that, Elizabeth thought.
Maybe Instructor Ion could be the person she could truly trust that she was looking for?
However, it is not easy to break old habits. Naturally, I had one more doubt. She did not genuinely accept the favor he bestowed on her, and she thought that the relationship between instructor and student was not enough.
So I thought about what I could give Instructor Ion.
As a result, I had nothing to give.
Money, power, honor, status-all of those things Instructor Ion had already rejected once. After thinking over and over again, it came to my mind. The emperor and the first prince were impossible, but there was only one thing that only she could give.
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It was the satisfaction of revenge.
According to intelligence from the Ministry of Information, there was a deep bad relationship between Instructor Ion and the first prince. If she satisfies him by stimulating his grudge and vengeance, perhaps Instructor Ion will feel more favors for her than her student?
… That must have been the plan.
‘It was a miscalculation.’
I didn’t expect Instructor Ion to be so angry. What was the problem? Wasn’t just insulting enough? The grudge he harbored was so deep, did he want to kill Wilhelm himself with his own hands?
No, that’s not it.
Never.
Why didn’t I think of Instructor Ion’s not someone who would be happy with something like that? Was it rather me who was swayed by emotions? He thinks that what he longed for is right in front of him, so he made a mistake by acting hastily.
As I thought about it, it had been a long time since the day was bright. It was only then that I realized that I was hungry and thirsty. No wonder he went through the day without eating anything.
The moment I opened the door to get something, I saw Instructor Ion’s back as he climbed the stairs.
“… !!”
Elizabeth shut the door in surprise.
Eating right now was not important. I had to apologize to Instructor Ion as soon as possible. Bad relationships tend to get deeper as time goes by.
But then, Elizabeth found her own reflection in her mirror. Her hair is disheveled, her complexion pale, and slightly dark circles under her eyes.
With this look, she can’t meet Instructor Ion!
She immediately washed, put on makeup, changed her clothes and groomed herself.
She then went to Instructor Ion.
Smart-
I am nervous.
I thought about how to alleviate Instructor Ion’s anger, but in the end, she couldn’t come up with a clear solution. So Elisabeth chose the way she was accustomed to.
Let’s do our best to accommodate whatever Instructor Ion asks for. If that’s not enough, let’s bring in everything she has and give him something to satisfy.
However, the moment I saw the empty room and the organized luggage ready to leave at any moment.
Elizabeth’s head was dyed pure white.
***
Something.
It seems like he talked about something frantically.
For a very long time.
The moment she decided she had lost her composure, she had to leave the room, but she couldn’t.
The time to control emotions, hide facial expressions, and lie was gone in an instant.
Elizabeth was swayed by her mixed feelings and told her everything.
She initially tells her that she was trying to take advantage of him, her intentions in inviting him to the prom, and even that she made the wrong decision.
She made an earnest appeal for the first time in her life to admit her mistakes and to right them.
However, Instructor Ion’s reaction was consistent. He just stayed silent with a troubled expression.
Ion, who had listened to Elisabeth for a while, said that she seemed to have misunderstood something, and explained that the reason he was leaving the academy was not because of her.
It’s just that she can’t do her job as an instructor anymore because something important happened. There is no other reason other than that.
However, it was not difficult to see that those words were just a lie that was pleasant to hear.
Elizabeth left his room in a sense of total despair. Because she realized that there was no way she could change his mind anymore.
She made a big mistake, but there was no way to get it back.
I needed a means to change Instructor Ion’s mind. But she had no cards in her hands.
Without knowing how she got back to her room.
Elisabeth collapsed on the floor, her whole body losing strength.
That’s how it ended.
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