After I Stopped Sponsoring, the Female Leads Began Obsessing Over Me chapter 46

46 – I was wrong… I’m sorry

– Wrong people must be punished.

Lina Roswell’s childhood.

Before he passed away, his strict father always said that to Lina.

Wrong people should be punished, good people should be rewarded.

It was such a natural story that even the mischievous little Lina understood it at once.

She sure she was then she hated it.

Because my father was strict, and he would punish even minor mistakes right away.

She was more lively than a young retriever, but she quickly forgot that she was scolded and had accidents here and there.

Did my father’s resolute discipline mean nothing? There were times when he thought

.

“……”

But.

Now I have committed a mistake that is hard to forgive.

It was only now that Lena Roswell realized.

That if she did something wrong, she must be punished.

She realized that she could move forward only when she was punished for the crime she committed, and only when her opponent accepted an apology.

So it was.

The day the disciplinary committee was held.

The thing about her behavior was a bit strange.

*

— … Taking these circumstances into consideration, Cadet Mercy, a direct victim of the incident, testified that ‘she herself was not a victim and that the moment was enjoyable, to the extent that she would rather go through it again if possible’. Bar.

— In addition, Sharon Pierce and Ian Blackangus, who were involved, also agreed not to be held guilty. Taking into account the pleas of the cadets for her usual good deeds, Lina Roswell’s punishment will be a one-week probation and one month of volunteer work.

Unprecedented leniency in the history of the Liechtenian Academy Disciplinary Committee.

Lina Roswell’s punishment was decided based on the petitions of numerous students.

Everyone cheered, but Lena Roswell’s face was complicated.

Sorry for the person who caused trouble, gratitude for the children who stood up for themselves.

And finally Ian. Just thinking about him made her heart break.

In the end, it was her father’s words that made Lina hesitate.

— If you commit a crime, you must be punished.

By the way.

She now has the sins she has committed, and the punishment she deserves, is this enough?

One week of probation and one month of volunteer work.

I should have been happy about getting the opportunity, but my heart was at a loss.

“Lina-san, do you have any questions left?”

The conference room where everyone left.

The professor who is the chairman of the disciplinary committee asked Lina who was standing there blankly.

Lina, who trembled her shoulders, managed to open her mouth.

“Hey, over there.”

An infinitely confident voice.

I am afraid of the act of speaking. She felt so worthless. It must be because the psychological mask she was wearing was broken.

But I had no choice but to hold back and ask.

Because I was that desperate.

“Is this the end of my punishment?”

“Of course. It’s already a final decision.”

“Hey, hey. Aren’t you lacking too much?”

“Isn’t your punishment too weak right now? Are you asking me like this?”

“…Yes.”

There was a moment of silence.

The chairperson, who had been choosing his words for a while, opened his mouth.

“Ms. Lina, do you know how many cadets and professors have worked hard to reduce your punishment?”

“Oh, I know. Thank you so much, but…!”

The chairperson asks with calm eyes.

“Cadet Lina.”

“…Yes.”

“If a cadet thinks his punishment is too weak, we are not the place to ask for it.”

“Yes?”

“Even the cadets should know very well. Who should apologize and ask for punishment?”

“That’s right.”

“If you don’t know. Think about it during your probation. That’s what probation means.”

It’s not like that.

It is so obvious who you should be sorry for and who you should apologize to. But…

“… He doesn’t look at me anymore.”

Lina’s muttering was scattered like that.

*

The work of the Disciplinary Committee suddenly came to mind.

Lina sat down in her seat as if she was collapsing.

Her temporary lodging where Lina is on her probation was great.

The size of her room, the bed, and all kinds of furniture are not lacking.

Compared to places like prisons, it was dozens and hundreds of times better.

But.

None of that mattered.

Whether this is a collapsing building, a nobleman’s mansion, a prison, or a royal palace.

“… Ian.”

The only thing that matters is that I can’t meet Ian.

That made Lina feel lonely and anxious.

Rina stumbled to her feet and leaned her body against the sofa.

“Haa…”

It’s hard.

She let out a sigh.

Where did it go wrong?

He used to take care of the ingredients to himself who was in trouble because he had no supplies.

After realizing that he only filled his stomach with water because he had nothing to eat, Ian gave him a lunch box.

Why are you doing this?

To the point where I became interested in him before I knew it. She

She is and she is good to others to the point of disappointing him.

“What have I done to you…”

Why couldn’t she honestly express her feelings?

Why did you pretend not to know what you were thinking?

Why couldn’t he reject it clearly saying he couldn’t accept his heart?

“Haaa…”

There were excuses.

It was difficult.

I was hungry.

I needed your support.

He used the kind and weak Ian as an outlet for his emotions.

Used and played with him.

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“Why am I…”

Lina bit her lips.

It tasted like bitter blood, but I didn’t mind.

She was as pathetic as she was herself.

Her pathetic feelings didn’t end there.

The mask of her kindness swallowed Lina even more.

Her climax is when her Ian returns, whom she thought was suicide.

It was when he completely changed.

“…Ah.”

I liked that calm gaze.

My heart was moved by the way he walked silently, not caring about himself.

Seeing him like that, Lina rather had a sinister mind.

I feel inferior to you who are popular.

I’m jealous of you for having another friend.

The jealousy grows and becomes possessive.

Attack you who can’t have it.

Unbeknownst to her, her heart was behaving like this.

The stupid self who spilled out to him the lumps in her heart that she had been holding down to keep her mask.

I wanted to grab Ian’s ankle and make him stay in the same place as himself.

“I’m so trash…”

I didn’t know at the time.

She didn’t know that she was looking forward to Ian like this.

— Rumbling

Tears poured down again from the eyes that I thought were dry.

I can only look back after all the accumulated ugly emotions have burst out.

I didn’t expect that the dark side of my heart would be this much.

That’s how I realized it.

You say, ‘I’m really mean.’

— Kwok Kwok

Lina grabbed her handkerchief around her neck.

The day Lina ran out of control and her Ian subdued her.

This is the handkerchief Ian gave me.

Her heart calmed down a little when she touched it.

That day.

— “Cover your throat. It left handprints.”

Ian gave me this black handkerchief as he said that.

And then he turned around.

That was the end.

Why did Ian attack you?

Are you willing to apologize?

Are you feeling grateful?

As if he had no interest in such things, Ian left.

It felt instinctive.

In Ian’s mind, Lina’s share of herself is infinitely small and insignificant.

But even at that moment.

“…You gave this to me.”

Yes. Ian gave her something to go on without thinking of her.

At least if she’s a person herself.

I should have been honest. She

Should have said thank you.

She shouldn’t have been ignored because she was nice and weak.

“And when you changed… Even then.”

I should have told you that I like the changed you.

I should have told you not to be jealous of the other kid next to you.

I shouldn’t have made you feel inferior to you, who is popular.

I was stupid. It was stupid. She was pathetic

It was bad.

“Why is this mean me…Why everyone?”

I’m such a mean, trashy woman.

I’m asking why everyone is coming.

“I’m so mean…”

So in the end.

Is he making sure that only Ian is the one who will punish him?

“Ah…”

Lina’s lips trembled. She

She felt very shameless and pitiful of herself.

That’s how she got something from Ian, medaled, jealous, and attacked.

She is also hoping she will punish him.

“Ian…”

But he was needed.

That was the only thing she looked down at herself coldly.

He was the first to strangle her.

“Ian, Ian…”

I wonder if Ian’s smell is still there.

Lina squeezed her handkerchief around her neck.

The more she gave her power, the more her breath became more and more blocked.

“Ha…Ah.”

Then she remembered.

The hand of Ian, who was begging himself who had been completely engulfed.

Her heart pounded.

She pulled her knot a little tighter.

I wished I had punished myself with the man’s fingers.

“Ugh…”

But I just can’t get that feeling.

That gaze is infinitely cold and indifferent.

Think of yourself as an insignificant human being. No, Ian needed the look in his eyes that he saw as a pollutant less than garbage. He needed his determined, thick-veined forearm.

This isn’t enough.

This much he cannot punish himself.

Suddenly, the power was released.

“Haagh!”

A breath of air pouring in and bursting out.

The lack of oxygen in my head was fuzzy, but only Ian was full.

I wanted him.

I longed for his hand to punish me for being so mean.

He can only punish himself for this.

“…….”

But at the same time it comes to mind.

Ian’s back as if he was not interested in Rina.

If he doesn’t allow it. He

He’s coming. He’s never allowed.

Even if he visits you as soon as he is out of probation, if he won’t meet you.

‘It’s like being trapped here, forever…….’

Suddenly, her mind went black.

All the despair of her world came upon her.

“Oh no…”

Lina’s fingers trembled.

She clenched her fists.

Blood trickled down her fine palms, but she couldn’t care.

Her lips trembled.

“I’m sorry for being so pathetic and incompetent. I’m sorry for leaning on you like this again. So please…”

Please.

Give me a chance to apologize.

I’ll do anything.

“Please punish me, Ian.”

I am so pathetic, stupid, and regret it too late.

Punish me with your own hands.

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry…”

— Hood Deuk

Tears spilled out of her, which she thought had dried up.